After that day, I never went out of the house again, and everything in the house was copied, and perhaps for fear that I would be afraid of sin, I even took away the strips of cloth and sharp objects, leaving only clothes, bedding, and some basic household items. Faced with the empty room, I felt funny. I said that day that if suicide would affect my family, I would naturally not do anything stupid. What's more, if you really want to die, even if you only have one wall, you can be a hundred. Besides, since I have achieved such a point, then for many people, I am already a dead person, so why should I be afraid that I am looking for death and life and taking such strict precautions, do you want me to climb out of something else.

There is a guard outside the house, and the two meals a day are sent in after repeated inspections by people outside, and the meals are not sumptuous, but they are still fresh. Anyway, I don't have much appetite, and I don't care, I just eat a few bites a day to continue my life.

Mama Pang, Xiaoshunzi, Wanqing and Yunhui were all taken away that day. Thinking about it, Mama Pang, Xiao Shunzi and Yun Hui were all unaware, although they were worried about their safety, they were not afraid of what they said. It's just that for Wanqing, after all, she is a little uneasy, I just hope that she can keep her mouth and never say anything that can't be said.

The days passed, and in the blink of an eye, a month passed. Such idle and lonely days are extremely difficult, except for leaning in front of the couch by the window all day long, looking out of the window and the occasional stop jackdaw in a daze, there is nothing to pass the time.

The snow outside the house has fallen one after another, and it is still a landscape like ink and blue, but it is no longer in the mood when I first came. So much has happened in this year, so much so that I have begun to forget everything about my time and forget what I was supposed to be.

The years have been quiet, and now it is indeed quiet, but it is not good. I played with the iris purple jade pendant in my hand, this is a close thing, because there is no big problem, Su Peisheng did not let people take it. I still remember that day when he sent me back and asked people to start raiding the house, he led me aside and said: "The master has a heart for Gege, but Gege's temperament is too stubborn, and this matter can only be blamed for Gege's carelessness, and the master can't protect it even if he wants to." ”

Some people can understand what you are thinking without saying a word, and some people can not understand your mind even after saying 10,000 words. If Yinzhen is the former, then Yinzhen is the latter. I don't know when I'll compare the two.

In the past year, although Yinyu has never said anything, I have seen everything he has done to me in my eyes and in my heart, and I know in my heart what the unspoken feelings between me and him represent. We all know that there are things that we don't say at first, and we can't say more once something is a foregone conclusion. I was tempted for him, but it couldn't be after all.

As for Yinzhen, it was a dream in the past, and the feeling for him was admiration, admiration, and admiration. I don't deny that I have always had different feelings for him in my heart, this feeling is not love, but it is a feeling that still lingers after two eras. So I've always treated him specially, I feel sorry for him, I pity him, and I hope that I can be a special existence for him.

However, none of this is realistic. Maybe I didn't work hard enough, or maybe I didn't understand how women and men get along in this era. Maybe only the hypocritical generosity of the Wulanala clan, the low-key and weak nature of the Song clan, and the thoughtfulness, gentleness and obedience of the Li clan in front of Yinzhen are what he wants. He needed a woman who could please him, not a woman who understood him. It was because I was wrong, completely wrong from the beginning, that I lost completely.

The door creaked open, and I put away my jade pendant and looked at the visitor, surprised but calm.

"Why are you?" Although his heart was mixed, his mind was strangely clear, and he raised his eyes and smiled at the visitor.

The person who came was Yin Chen, and the day of the Chinese New Year's Eve should be the busiest time inside and outside the mansion, and I didn't expect him to come in person. This makes me wonder if the final time is coming, isn't it all at the last time in dog blood dramas, the male protagonist appears to ask the female supporting actress who is about to finish some words, and then let people kill each other? I suddenly feel glad that I can still be in the mood to laugh at myself, at least at this time, I am still me, and I have not become a pitiful worm who can only wag his tail and beg for mercy.

Yin Zhen still had that cold and solemn expression, with exhaustion on his face, he looked at me who was haggard but still smiling, frowned, and said, "Do you have to make yourself so embarrassed?"

I still leaned back on the couch and didn't get up, but just changed my comfortable position to look at him and said, "I never wanted to embarrass myself, but many people think this is the best fate for me, don't they?"

"Don't you want to defend yourself?" Yin Zhen walked up to me and stared at me with his deep eyes.

"Don't you believe what they say? What else do you need me to argue? Do you want to hear me say that I was wrong, and please spare me?" I asked with a smile as I pulled the broken hair from my forehead behind my ear.

"What did you send to the old fourteen?" Yin Zhen suddenly reached out and pinched my chin, and the coldness in his tone made my back cold.

I was pinched by him, and tears almost fell, but I still managed to keep smiling, sat up straight, looked at him and asked, "I also want to know this question, if you find out, you must remember to tell me." ”

Yinzhen stared at my eyes, and I also looked directly at him, looking at each other, so deadlocked, anxious, for a long time, no one spoke.

He let go of his hand and stood up straight, and I followed suit, bowing my head and bowing in front of him. He stared at me and pursed his lips in silence.

"Since entering the mansion, I know that there are many rudenesses, and I also know that you are conniving and protecting everywhere. This is my thank you for taking care of you all these days. If you want me to beg you, then I beg you now, please spare my family, they are not at fault. I also want to beg you to spare Mama Pang, Xiao Shunzi, Yun Hui and Wan Qing, especially Yun Hui, she is still young, I don't want to involve them. If you have a dislike for them because of me, I beg you to spare their lives and send them away. As for me, it's not a pity to die, whatever you want. ”

I'm not a virgin, and I can't be a white lotus. I just can't watch innocent people get involved with me. He came today, maybe just to see me bow. But I don't want to be accused of a trumped-up crime in order to make a living. But I don't want to kill innocent people for my persistence, so I beg him, for those who have been involved by me.

Yin Zhen's lips pursed tighter, and his eyes became deeper and deeper. Even with my head down, I could still feel his pent-up anger.

Until he turned to leave, and the door closed again. I got up and walked back to the couch, still looking out the window, letting the tears slip from my eyes, but I didn't want to cry.

The night after Yinzhen came, I fell ill and somehow developed a high fever. It happened to be the thirtieth year of the Chinese New Year's Eve, and the mansion was lively, no one cared about my life or death, and no one would tell them about my situation at this time.

I lay on the couch with a thick futon on my body, but I still felt unusually cold. The high fever blurred my consciousness.

In a daze, I felt like I had returned to that era and saw my parents who had been absent for a long time. At that time, I was still by their side, and the family was happily celebrating the New Year. But I know it's not me. The "me" seemed to be able to see my presence, and she smiled and said to me, "Don't worry, I'm fine now, and I'll take care of your parents, and you should also take care of my family." ”

At this moment, I seemed to understand who she was, shook my head and said to her helplessly: "I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of you and your family." “

She didn't speak, just smiled and walked away, rejoining the joyful atmosphere. I saw him standing beside her, the man who had once made my heart flutter but couldn't get close, he was very kind to her, and the love in his eyes made me sad. But I was relieved, she was doing better than me, she got the love I expected, at least compared to me, she was happy, and it was a kind of fulfillment for me.

I breathed a sigh of relief, let go of the last of my insistence, and let the darkness sweep in, losing consciousness.