Only Yinzhen and I were left in the room, and the atmosphere was no longer as formal. He looked at me and said angrily, "What are you doing on your knees?" The knees are just a little better, so take care of yourself. ”

Listening to Yinzhen's awkward and intimate concern, I stood up with a smile and sat down on the other side, but unexpectedly I heard him muttering in a shallow voice: "Why are you sitting so far away, are you still afraid that I won't be able to eat you?"

What Yin Zhen said made people sound extremely aggrieved, not like he was indifferent and unsmiling in the past, but like a child who couldn't get candy to eat, with a little grievance and awkwardness.

I was speechless and asked, "Then where do you let me sit?"

Yin Zhen moved to the side, pointed to the vacant position beside him, lowered his eyes and straightened the folds of his clothes, hiding the shyness and discomfort in his expression. It was with this somewhat childish gesture that I really realized that he was actually only twenty-six years old, and that there would be another side to his heart at this age.

I sat down next to him as he wished, and asked, "Why did you come here so early today, and all the business was taken care of?"

Yin Zhen wrapped his hand around my waist, hugged me affectionately, put his chin against my shoulder, put his thin lips on my ear, and said lightly: "The first few **** went out for a whole day, I thought that I would come back and come over at night, but I only waited until Xiao Shunzi came over and said that you were tired and had fallen asleep." I haven't seen you send food over again in the past few days, and suddenly I really want to eat what you cooked, so I came to accompany you to dinner, and then I went to deal with official business later. ”

I was a little tickled by the touch of his lips, intentionally or unintentionally, and instinctively dodged, but it made him hug him tighter and tighter. had no choice but to divert his attention by talking, and deliberately quipped: "I have always heard that the fourth master is self-denying. When did you start putting your business down for food?"

Yinzhen's hand loosened. I moved it, but I took it back again, sniffed my hair that was still fragrant after I had just bathed, and said in a strange gentle tone: "Actually, I have been thinking about you for some reason in the past few days, and I am afraid that you will be sick again and deliberately hide it, so I came to take a look." ”

His words reminded me of Yinyu that day. In the past few days, I have been in a bad mood because of Yinyu, and the whole person is in a trance, so I am not in the mood to send food to the front yard. I didn't expect Yinzhen to keep thinking about it. They are really half-brothers, and they both have an amorous factor in their bones. But sometimes amorous is often a kind of ruthlessness. Just as he used to love the Li family in every way, now it has become a gentle care for me, but one day such love and tenderness will be given to another woman.

Thinking of this, the throbbing stirred up by his gentleness instantly cooled down again. Reason has been reminding me not to fall into it, otherwise it will one day be doomed.

"I was really tired from going out that day, and the weather was bad these days, and my knees hurt, so I was lazy. Since you're here today, I'll go and make you something to eat. A few more drinks with you. As I spoke, I gently took his hand, got up, and walked out of the house under his disappointed gaze.

Yin Zhen was aware of my alienation and rejection of his intimacy, and this meal was not pleasant. The two men were silent. I filled my glass with his favorite dish, and he buried his head in eating my dish. I poured the wine, but there was no more communication.

Faced with such a him. It makes me feel distressed and guilty. But I can't do anything, I can't say anything. I am alienated and rejected, not because I can't let go of Yinyu in my heart, but because I know that there will be someone who will take my place in the future, and he will cherish and value me more, and he will never stay for me. I can't get over that hurdle in my heart, and I can't put my future in his hands wholeheartedly. After all, he is not a lover who can accompany me for a lifetime, and such feelings in this life are destined to be unrelated to me.

Yinzhen finished his meal and left. Wanqing sighed and said, "The master finally came once, how could Gege be awkward again." ”

Seeing that I didn't answer, Xiao Shunzi took over the conversation in a low voice and said: "Gege has his own plans, we are slaves and keep our duties, don't talk more and ask more." ”

Xiao Junzi's tone was a little cold, but what he said was not wrong. Wanqing looked at my face, and saw that I really didn't seem to want to say more, and didn't say more, waiting for me to rest early.

Since that day, Yinzhen has not been here again. However, the food that should be sent to eat every day is a lot of new meals. Within a few days, the treasury sent the months and months that had not been issued before, along with the arrears, and the attitude was much better than before. It's just that Yinzhen didn't make the slightest move on the Li family's side, which made Wanqing sigh again, "Fang Fujin is a good life, even if the master is really angry, he is still reluctant to move her for half a point." ”

I didn't think so, I thought it should be what I said that day, Yin Zhen was afraid that he didn't want to implicate me, so he didn't stand still for the time being, waiting for an excuse to completely liquidate it.

As I expected, on the first day of April, Xiao Shunzi, who went to the treasury to collect the degree, came back and said: "This Fujin sent someone to take away all the account books in the treasury in the past few years in the name of clearing the accounts at the end of the month and the beginning of the year, saying that they would be sent back after checking." The slave estimated that the master was afraid that he was going to check the treasury side of the Fu Jin private deduction and move the deficit. ”

I was embroidering something, and when I heard him say this, I didn't raise my head and said, "This is the best, or your master thinks about it thoroughly." If he came forward directly, Fang Fujin would inevitably guess what I said behind my back. But now it's Fujin to check the accounts, although we know that this must have been instructed by the master. But Fang Fujin may not be able to think of it, but he will only feel that it was our Fujin who wanted to use her prestige to deliberately stumble her in the name of auditing. Now, what Fujin wants me to do, I have done. For the rest, let them bite the dog's own hair, so why should I mix it up again. From now on, the people in our courtyard can't say more than half a word about this matter, and they don't need to do anything, just wait to watch the show. ”

What the Ulanala clan wanted me to do was not just compete with the Lee family, she was not happy to see me become the second Li clan. But you have to borrow my hand to distract Yinzhen. It just so happens that I don't want to have something happen to Yinzhen in order to compete for favor, so I have to start from Yinzhen's bottom line of principles, and use a discord to make Yinzhen, who was originally dissatisfied with the Li family, dislike her even more. In this way, I not only achieved my goal, but also cleared myself, and the Li clan and the Ulanala clan fought fiercely, and neither of them had time to deal with me anymore, so I was happy to be idle.

In fact, this was originally the principle of survival in the cracks that I once despised and disdained the most, but now it really has to be used to survive in the cracks.

I put down the embroidery frame and asked Xiao Shunzi, "Have I changed?"

Xiao Shunzi lowered her head and smiled lightly in response: "It's changed, but it's not a bad thing." ”

I said "um", looked down at the unembroidered iris in my hand, and said, "I don't like this kind of change, I'm afraid that one day I will forget my original intention, and I will only wake up from a nightmare every day, afraid of being framed, and then calculating to harm others." ”

"If Gege is afraid, don't change, some slaves will do it for Gege. Gege just needs to keep his original intention and live the life he wants to live in peace. Xiao Shunzi replied.

"No, I want the people around me to be clean. If you really have to do something, you have to do it as a last resort to protect yourself. Don't take the initiative to harm others, because you don't need to. I'm not going to fight for things that don't belong to me and what I can't get. I shook my head, and there was unmistakable persistence in my tone.

"If you don't fight, how do you know if you can't get it?" asked Xiao Shunzi rhetorically.

"What is there to fight for, I don't want a position, a name, or a ...... I can never grasp the feelings. More than that, I want peace of mind and steadfastness. Even if you live alone and desolately, you must live with a clear conscience and be real. Do you understand?" I looked out the window at the water lilies blooming, weak but lonely and stubborn floating alone on the water, swaying in the wind, showing a quiet beauty that transcended the mundane. (To be continued.) )