The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, but he hasn't reached the sad place.

When I got back to my room, I locked the door and lay on the bed alone, covering my head with a pillow and crying, I was a face-saving person, even if I cried, I wouldn't let anyone hear me.

I don't know how long I cried, until finally, the sheets were wet with tears, and the negative emotions I had been suffering all this time were finally vented.

Ever since I was a child, I was laughed at as a wild child without a parent, and my neighbors bullied me, and my elementary school classmates kicked my cotton hat as a ball, asked me to tie their shoes, and threw snot into my water glass......

Later, when I went to middle school, when I was in a new school, not only did I not get warmth, but in the middle school student era where the wind of comparison prevailed, I gradually became inferior, I forgot when it began, I gradually began to yearn for the life of those off-campus gangsters, because everyone knew that what they did was wrong, and they would be scolded as scum behind their backs, but in front of them, no one dared to say that, and years of depression and inferiority have made me almost pathological in wanting to grasp the dignity of this matter.

Finally, I escaped from the school full of colored glasses with Xiao Yu, met Lei Lei who would not laugh at my background, and mixed with Hu Wei, there was a moment, I felt that life was perfect, there was a group of brothers who were like each other, and there was a big brother Hu Wei who could make people who could make wild wolves afraid.

But from the moment Hu Wei threw the money on the bed, my dream was shattered, it turned out that I was in their hearts, not so important, Hu Wei didn't treat me as a younger brother, when I was at school, I was a student who was looked down upon, and when I left school, I became a bastard who was looked down upon.

I stood up and stared out the window at the street for hours.

'Knock knock!'

There was a knock on the door.

"Who?" I turned, wiping tears from the corners of my eyes.

"Xiao Yu!"

I walked over and opened the door, Xiao Yu smiled at me reluctantly, entered the door and sat on a chair, and put a stack of money on the bedside table: "Lei Lei, Leng Xin, the three of us, one of us is five hundred, you take this money!"

"What do you mean?" I grinned, looking at the stack of money.

After Xiao Yu pondered for a long time, he said: "Today's matter, what Hu Wei did is indeed a bit excessive, Lei Lei asked me to tell you, don't take it too seriously, slowly, he may change his opinion of you!"

"I have received your wishes, you can take this money back!" I glanced at Xiao Yu gratefully, and then said with relief: "Hu Wei is right, with me such a burden, maybe it's a bit of a drag, hehe, five hundred yuan, a lot!"

Xiao Yu listened to my words, and his expression was a little lonely: "Don't say that, I understand what kind of character you are, you can do so much, you have worked very hard, the road is taken step by step, no one is born, and he comes out of his mother's womb with a knife, Leng Lei's kind of little tiger, after all, is a minority, and it is precisely because of this that Hu Wei values him!"

I smiled self-deprecatingly and shook my head slightly: "What kind of character I am, I know very well, I am timid, I have neither the strength to challenge others, nor the courage to bear the consequences, this bowl of rice in the mixed society is not something I can serve, I think about it, I plan to quit the circle of Hu Wei!"

"What?" After Xiao Yu heard what I said, he looked at me in surprise, and was silent for a long time before speaking again: "Xiao Fei, although Hu Wei has a prejudice against you, but let me say something fair, I have seen a lot of bastards, and it is really rare for someone to be able to divide the money fairly like Hu Wei, or do you think about it again?"

"Forget it, I've already decided!" I shook my head firmly and continued: "Hu Wei may indeed give a lot of money, but we follow him, and we also take a bigger risk, not to mention that he gave me an extra point, we both feel that it is charity, this kind of money, he gives it uncomfortable, I will hold it and prick my hands! The most important thing is that!" I raised my head and looked into Xiao Yu's eyes: "You know, I came out to mix, not for money!"

“……”

Xiao Yu stopped talking, sat on the side and started smoking, I still turned around and looked at the traffic on the road outside the window, until Xiao Yu's feet, when it was already full of cigarette butts, he stood up and walked to me, and accompanied me to look at the traffic outside: "Really think about it?"

I nodded: "For so many years, I have been comforting myself with one sentence, the Tao is different, do not conspire with each other! Now that I think about it, I think it makes sense! I and Hu Wei are not the same people." ”

"Hehe!" Xiao Yu stretched out his hand and slapped my shoulder: "Actually, you are really sensitive sometimes!"

"Maybe!" I smiled and nodded, since I decided to leave Hu Wei, my heart felt extremely relaxed, I thought about it, and asked Xiao Yu again: "You said, I quit, will Lei Lei follow me?"

"No!" Xiao Yu didn't think about it, so he gave the answer firmly: "Lei Lei has known Hu Wei for longer than he has known you, and he has always regarded Hu Wei as a role model...... Didn't you notice that Lei Lei actually has a lot of times when his style is deliberately imitating Hu Wei!"

"Also, how can I compare with Hu Wei!hehe!" I laughed at myself again when I remembered my ignorant question.

"Lei Lei won't, but I will!" Xiao Yu sighed: "After all, I took you out of school and let you go to Beijing by yourself, I have already cheated you once, so I don't want to pit you a second time, if you want to go, then let's go together!"

"Why? Don't you also admire Hu Wei?" I frowned and looked at Xiao Yu: "You don't have to choose to leave for me, I want to go, it's not all because Hu Wei treats me badly, but I want to open, I'm really not suitable for this path, you have always wanted to be a real bastard, with Hu Wei, it won't take a year, you can get mixed up!"

"I left because of you, but it's not all because of you!" Xiao Yu tapped his fingers lightly on the windowsill and slowly spoke: " Hu Wei is a person, too impulsive, do things without considering the consequences, and do things with him, I always feel that I can't touch the end, and in his eyes, we brothers, in the first place, will always be Lei Lei, no matter how hard I work, he can't see me, chasing this industry, and belongs to the fishing, once or twice can be, but Hu Wei's profession is to make money, is to make money by playing with his life, than who is more like a hob meat, I always feel that if it goes on like this, there will be no big development prospects!"

"Hmm!" I nodded approvingly: "Hu Wei, this person, gives me a very evil feeling, and he is also very out of line, to be honest, with him, I am a little afraid, I am afraid of his fierceness, and I am also afraid of what he does!"

Xiao Yu smiled, didn't talk to me about Hu Wei, and said directly: "Now Li Baoshan's account is coming back, and it can be regarded as repaying his love for saving us in Ziliang's hands, in the evening, I will go talk to Brother Wei and talk about the two of us leaving!"

"Don't talk about it yet!" I shook my head slightly.

“……”

Xiao Yu just wanted to speak, but I interrupted him again: "In Hu Wei's eyes, I am a coward who doesn't even dare to take a knife, but even if I leave, I can't let him think that I was humiliated by him!"

"What do you mean?" Xiao Yu looked at me suspiciously, and I could tell from his eyes that he thought I was going to turn my face with Hu Wei.

I was amused by Xiao Yu's eyes: "Didn't Hu Wei say that he couldn't find Jiao Zhi, okay! He couldn't find it, I'll go find it, Jiao Zhi's money, I must get it back!"

"Looking for Jiao Zhi, isn't this like your style?" Xiao Yu looked like he couldn't see through me.

I nodded and said openly: "I have been looked down upon for too long, and even myself is slowly numb, I once thought that I should be looked down upon for this kind of condition!"

"You are my brother, I will never look down on you!" Xiao Yu said seriously.

"Actually, I'm very grateful to you for being able to get me out of school, because I know that in that kind of constant comparison, In the life of being constantly treated as a joke, I will be depressed sooner or later, a character like me, even if I am admitted to university, it will not be too promising, but after entering the society, I understand a truth, no one is born to be looked down upon, Hu Wei does not understand me, there will always be people who understand me, there will always be people who see my value, from the moment you Zhang Xiaoyu can say it, accompany me to leave Hu Wei, I am already very satisfied!"

"Don't say it, I'll accompany you to find Jiao Zhi! I don't believe it, it's the same head on the shoulder, why are we worse than Hu Wei!" Xiao Yu took a deep breath: "Han Fei, remember, let's look for Jiao Zhi, not to prove to Hu Wei whether you have this ability, but to tell Hu Wei, what you want, I can do it, but I just don't serve you!"

"Yes! Don't steam steamed buns to fight for breath!" I glanced at Xiao Yu gratefully, picked up the money on the bedside table and handed it to him: "You can return this money to Lei Lei and Leng Xin, I have received your wishes!"

Xiao Yu was not reluctant, and put away the money: "The two of us met in Shuiquan, there is only one Wan Peng, I will call him later, let's meet......!"

"Okay!" I didn't refuse, because I also wanted to see how Wang Xinrui was doing.

……

An hour later, Xiao Yu and I came to the front of a large bathing center according to the address given by Wan Peng, and as soon as the two of us got out of the car, we saw Wan Peng waiting at the door wearing a name tag from a distance, a gold chain around his neck was shining, and he was holding a new mobile phone and a pack of China.

'Bang!'

Xiao Yu pushed the car door and punched Wan Peng in the chest: "You kid, you have a good life!"

"Make do! Make do!" Wan Peng smiled and said to us, "How are you two doing?"

"It's definitely not comparable to you!" I stepped forward and gave Wan Peng a hug in a mock way: "Brother Peng, you want to kill me!"

", miss me, why don't you come and see me!" Wan Peng complained to me, and then hugged me and Xiaoyu: "Let's go, take a bath inside, and then do a massage, all the consumption is mine!"

"That's what you say, even if you ask me to pay for it, then I don't have it!" Xiao Yu and we joked as we walked into the bath, he and Wan Peng chose to ignore the original quarrel, and the two of them never mentioned it.

On the second floor of the bathing center, the three of us sat in the hot spring pool in a single room, with fruit bowls and drinks beside us.

"Brother Peng is really mixed up now, and he has a single room in the shower!" Xiao Yu glanced at Wan Peng enviously, and then said, "Are you still with Wang Xinrui now?"

Hearing Wang Xinrui's three words, my attention suddenly focused on Wan Peng.