You've been asking me why I mention Xinjie every time I call you. Now I'm telling you, Xinjie is a girl who can hold hands with you for the rest of her life. She is my sustenance and the continuation of my life. I know that I will not be able to fulfill my promise to accompany you through this life, so I try to dilute your feelings for me in this way and transfer your feelings for me to Xinjie. She is beautiful, kind, and adores and appreciates you. The reason why I entrusted her to you is to let you be together, forget me, forget everything about me. Xinjie is more beautiful than me, more educated than me, and more sensible than me. I thought you would have some feelings for her as you dating, and then forget about me. When I leave this world, you still have a clean heart to accompany me, so I am relieved and at ease. I know that you are a good man who regards feelings as life, and you can see it from your love for Zhao Jie. So I don't want my departure to cause you to be too sad, too sad. The purity of heart is the person I have chosen for you to replace me. If you believe me, if you still care about me, then help me take care of Xinjie and give her a lifetime of happiness. In this way, I am under the Nine Springs, and I can be regarded as blind.

I hope you can honor this request for me. This is my request for you, and it is the only thing I can do for you. I know Xinjie, Xinjie also understands me, she knows my mind, and she is also willing to help me take care of you for a lifetime.

Also, let me explain to you the person of Manbenrui. I know that you have always doubted and even misunderstood him, and I have never dared to tell you the truth. Actually, my dad invited me from the United States to be a specialist, and he was with me to keep an eye on my condition. It was because of him that I was able to save my life several times when my illness was sudden. I am grateful to this American friend, I used to be prejudiced against Americans, and just like you, against Americans and Japanese. But meeting Manbenrui was like the Communist Party meeting Bethune during the War of Resistance Against Japan. He didn't care about personal gains and losses, and he didn't even ask for a penny to stay by my side and help me fight off the disease. I was very touched and admired him. It's just that you've been misunderstanding him, and even hit him, and you misunderstood him. Of course, I can't blame you, I know that you care about me and I'm afraid that I will be snatched away by others, although I look anxious, but I am very happy in my heart. Because I can see that you love me very much and care about me very much.

It's just that I don't have that life because of my dreams, and I don't have time to repay your love for me. I was very remorseful, and I secretly complained about the injustice of the heavens. What a painful thing it is to not be with my beloved! But I can't help it, I can't control my own fate, I can't. Do you remember when I went to Wangjing, I wanted to give my body to you, not because I was frivolous, but because I was afraid that I would not have a chance in my life. I love you, I love you and I'm willing to give everything for you. Although the idea didn't work out, I felt your love for me...... Dear Zhao Long, I really, really don't want to lose you.

Dear Zhao Long, I have a few worries when I leave. The biggest concern is you and Xinjie, you are still young, there is still a long way to go, you are now becoming impulsive, remember to change your temper, don't get angry easily. Then smoking and drinking should be minimized, and if you can, quit if you can, because smoking and drinking are harmful. I give you my heart, you have to take good care of her, she is a simple and kind girl, you have to love her as much as you love me, don't bully her. I believe that you will be very happy and happy together. My other concerns, of course, are my parents. They are just my child, and they will definitely be very sad after losing me, if you and Xinjie have time, go to see them more, and it can be regarded as helping me do my filial piety, okay?

Anyway, I've been in tears as I write this. I know that my time is short, and I can't leave you anything, so I can only write this pale text and let my heart be handed over to you when I close my eyes. Please forgive me for keeping it a secret from you, I'm really afraid you won't be able to think about it.

Dear Zhao Long, I hope that in the future, you will take every step well. I will always pray for you and bless you.

My biggest regret in this life is that I couldn't be your bride. If there is an afterlife, I will be your bride, okay?

Love your dreams.

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Tears soaked the letterhead, and my hands trembled and trembled.

How so? How so?

This thunderbolt on a sunny day came too suddenly, too suddenly. I seemed to be able to see that Yumeng was facing me head-on, confessing bitterly.

I'm almost crazy, I don't think it's true, it must not be true. Holding this letterhead, it weighs a thousand pounds. My heart boiled, and the knife cut.

Cheng Xinjie came over at some point, she gently grabbed my hand, and said in a low voice: "Brother-in-law, are you crying?Brother-in-law, I knew you would cry, and I don't want you to be sad." But, but I don't want to deceive you, I've always felt guilty, you and my sister Mengmeng have endured too much suffering......"

I forcibly controlled my emotions, reached out and patted Cheng Xinjie's hand, pretending to be calm: "When did You Meng give you this letter?"

Cheng Xinjie said with a little hesitation: "A few days ago, just a few days ago. She was crying so much that we all cried. I tried to convince her to tell you the truth, but she wouldn't. She said it would hurt you more. So she gave me this letter and asked me to give it to you after she had something to do with her, and when you were emotionally stable. Brother-in-law, no matter what Sister Mengmeng does, she is thinking about you, she is thinking about you!"

I cried word by word: "But if she hides it from me like this, it is the greatest harm to me and to me! Why is this so, Xinjie, you tell me, why is it like this?"

Cheng Xinjie shook her head: "Brother-in-law, it's God who is unfair, God is so unfair!"

I carefully rolled up the letterhead, put it in my hand, and asked Cheng Xinjie: "Xinjie, tell me, your sister her, where is she now?"

Cheng Xinjie tried again and again before saying: "She's here, she's here, she should be in Chunhua Hospital." She's always been there, actually. As a specially invited expert of the hospital, Manbenrui also stayed by Sister Mengmeng's side, watching her condition at any time to prevent emergencies. ”

I felt dizzy and couldn't accept the fact that this was coming. I bit my lip almost numbly until the blood came out, and I didn't even notice it.

Cheng Xinjie looked at me in shock and shouted, "Brother-in-law, your mouth, why is your mouth bleeding? What's the matter?" she took out a handkerchief in a panic and raised her hand to wipe the corner of my mouth.

But she could wipe the blood from the corners of my mouth, but she couldn't wipe away the pain in my heart.

I even secretly complained about Yumeng, that she had been hiding from me and keeping me in the dark. If I had known this, where would I care about his organization, what special tasks he had, I only need to be by the dream, I will accompany the dream to the end of her life.

Or, there are miracles in life! There are miracles everywhere in the world, and I don't believe that the kind and beautiful angels in the world will be taken away by terminal diseases!

Impossible, absolutely impossible!

It was also at this time that I learned a lot of truths. In particular, I blame myself deeply for being a man Benrui.

It's me who is still suspicious that Meng Hongxing is out of the wall!

I was wrong! My mistake was too deep! Just today, just yesterday, at Jin Ling's house, I even wanted to use that obscene way to take revenge on Youmeng!

I am not human, I am a beast, I have defiled the beauty of love, I have defiled the holiness of dreams. I'm a villain, I'm a bastard! I cursed myself over and over again in my mind, and I couldn't help but raise my hand and slap myself in the face a few times!

A crisp slap in the face, the face does not hurt, the heart hurts.

I punished myself in this way, Cheng Xinjie was shocked when she saw this, and stopped me, and shouted repeatedly: "Brother-in-law, what are you doing, what are you doing? If I knew you would be like this, I would, I wouldn't tell you this if I beat me to death! Brother-in-law, can you calm down, okay? If Sister Mengmeng knows, she will be very sad, she will"

My tears are always surging. I looked at Cheng Xinjie and asked again, "You tell me, Xinjie, your sister her, how many days can your sister live?"

Cheng Xinjie was stunned for a moment and said, "My sister Mengmeng's doctor said that the doctor said a few days ago, at most, at most a month!"

I instantly collapsed: "What, a month, a month?"

I suddenly felt like there were thousands of worms gnawing in my head.

Cheng Xinjie took my hand and begged: "Brother-in-law, don't get excited, don't get excited, okay?"

I smiled sadly and smiled like a fool.

Cheng Xinjie shook my arm: "Brother-in-law, don't scare me, don't scare me, okay?"

I said almost calmly, "It's okay with you. It has nothing to do with you. Thank you for telling me this!"

Cheng Xinjie sighed lightly and said, "Brother-in-law, you have to calm down, I know you can't bear this fact all of a sudden." Long pain is better than short pain, I will tell you this, I hope you don't misunderstand Sister Mengmeng again. She has always loved you very much! I don't want to see Sister Mengmeng suffer the torture of love again, it will be cruel. ”

I smiled wryly, "But, but I haven't fulfilled my responsibilities as a lover." I'm not a human, I'm not a human!" Thinking of the ambiguity with Jin Ling, I felt very shameless and angry, I don't know how I should vent the pain in my heart at this moment and punish myself for a big mistake.

I hovered in place a few times, clenched my fists, and roared with my head up to the sky.

At this point, I was even more impulsive than I was drunk.

Cheng Xinjie constantly comforts me, but how can my heart be calm?

After calming down a little, I said to Cheng Xinjie: "Let's go, get in the car." Go back to find your sister Mengmeng!"

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