In the days when Xiao Shunzi was recuperating from his injuries, I closed my door and concentrated on taking care of him. Yin Zhen came, he must have heard about it, but Wanqing refused according to my instructions on the grounds of physical discomfort.

When Yinzhen came for the last time, he said to Wanqing: "I know she is annoyed with me, you advise, don't let her twist her temperament too seriously." ”

When Wanqing relayed this to me, she asked: "Gege is really angry with his master this time? ”

I smiled with my eyes, shook my head and said to Wanqing: "You are wrong, I was not angry with him this time, but now I can't see him." ”

Wanqing was puzzled, and I explained: "I have refused to avoid it before, because I really don't want to be involved in the rights and wrongs of these inner courts. But now that there is no way to avoid it, why should I avoid it against my will? There are two in everything, this time I put up with it, he knows in his heart that I am wronged, and he must feel guilty and pity for me, but if I turn the page as if it is nothing, he will feel that I can bear it, then there is a next time, next time...... Eventually, it will become a habit, and he will no longer feel guilty and pity me. So I didn't get angry with him this time, I knew his helplessness, just like my helplessness when I faced Xiao Shunzi's punishment. But because of this, I can let him know that this time I don't want him to be embarrassed, and I need to let him accept my affection. If this kind of thing happens again in the future, when it is not necessary, he will stop it for me, and if it is necessary, he will still owe me a debt, and he will naturally be better for me. ”

This is clear, Wanqing is also a little clear, she sighed, and said: "Gege obviously has a heart for the master, but he always has to be so awkward, those of us who are slaves really feel sorry for Gege and the master." Gege is still softer in the future, the master is the master after all, and it is always right to be more obedient. ”

Wanqing is a person of this era, she has been instilled with the idea of rebelliousness since she was born, and then she began to do the work of a servant when she was young, so her thinking gradually became enslaved. Even though he has been with me for almost two years, this master-servant mentality is still deep-rooted.

"Let me tell you a story. There used to be two sleepy hedgehogs, hugging each other due to the cold. But because they all had thorns on their bodies, they left a distance, but they couldn't stand the cold, so they got together. After several tosses, the two hedgehogs finally found a suitable distance, which could not only get each other's warmth without being pricked. I smiled disappreciatively and said, "Actually, the fourth master and I are like these two hedgehogs, and we can only get along well by maintaining such a suitable distance." Too close to each other and torture, too far away but cold. In fact, we often have to find such a distance in the world. You look at Fujin and Side Fujin, the two of them are too far away and the other is too close, and they are both unhappy in the end. I'm greedy, I just want to get what I want and don't want to lose too much. ”

I'm talking about the well-known "hedgehog rule" for modern people. In fact, from the beginning of accepting this identity and Yinzhen's feelings, he was looking for the most suitable distance with him, but it always seemed that it was either too far or too close, hurting others and hurting himself. I have to sigh that human emotions can never be simply applied by laws.

Since that day, Yinzhen has not been in the yard. Because Xiao Shunzi was injured, the news channel connecting to the outside of the small courtyard was also cut off. There was no repetition of the Ulanala clan's troubles. The small courtyard seems to have become a pure land isolated from the world.

However, the small courtyard did not stop because of this isolation. In the blink of an eye, I entered the winter moon, and it was almost my birthday when I officially turned fifteen and entered the sixteenth year, I was just a character, and my status was low, and it was not my turn to worry about my birthday in the house, but these people in the courtyard felt that they had to make a lively splash and rush to the near bad luck.

In less than half a year, Wanqing also had to prepare for going out of the house to get married, so the preparation of this birthday banquet Wanqing was directly handed over to Aster to handle it, and the requirements and discipline became more stringent.

In the past, Yun Hui was holding hands, and Xiao Shunzi was running errands, and the people around me didn't feel nervous. But now that Yunhui is gone, Xiaoshunzi is injured again, only Wanqing and Aster are busy going in and out, and the manpower suddenly feels insufficient.

Wanqing originally wanted to go to Yinzhen to report the matter and add a servant to replace Yunhui's vacant position. But I refused, for the simple reason that I could. People's hearts are unpredictable, and the newcomers in the internal affairs office can only be sent in the spring, with the experience of Degege's past, I can't believe these people in the house now, and I don't have the leisure to suspect and train.

Although the incident in Degege has passed, the psychological shadow left behind is long-lasting. So listening to me say this, Wanqing didn't dare to use the existing people in the house anymore. Fortunately, Qian is not too good at calling people, and the servants and maids around her are also idle, so the two of them share the servants and maids together, let them do some chores, and they are also deployed.

In my spare days, in addition to taking care of Xiao Shunzi's injuries, I also taught the illiterate servants and maids in the yard to read and write. At first, Qian didn't understand why I was doing this. I smiled and said, "These minions around us have all followed us through the wind and waves, and they can be regarded as reliable people. In the future, no one can tell what they will encounter, they can recognize a few words, and they may be able to use some of them at critical times. Otherwise, if someone wants to harm us in the future, just stuff a note with a written note and ask them to bring it back, and then bring someone to search for it, saying that we have a private relationship with the men in the outer courtyard or something, do you think we can still live?"

When Qian heard me say this, he said with a smile: "Sister, I was bitten by a snake and was afraid of the well rope for ten years." But it's good to get them to read Braille. ”

I glanced at a few servants and maids in the room, and said without shying away: "Let's not say that it is more convenient for the servants to be able to walk around outside after they are literate, it is these girls, when they reach the age in the future, I still hope that they can arrange a good home like Wanqing, after all, everyone is like that for a lifetime, although they are slave embryos in the eyes of others, but I don't think so, but I think that it is also a kind of sisterhood to get along with each other every day and night." Just like me and you, it is also fate in the dark, so no matter what happens in the future, I hope you will be as good as them. ”

But at the age of fifteen or sixteen, these words are full of exhaustion and old age. Originally, the mental age was much older than the actual age, and the things experienced in the past two years have added a sense of vicissitudes to the mentality that has never been experienced in the previous life.

After I finished speaking, several girls in the room blushed, and Qian also smiled and said that I think too much, and I always bother to plan for everyone, but I have been indebting myself.

I said, "It's not that I want to owe myself, it's just that I know more than you do." Sometimes people live too clearly, and they will live very tired. So sometimes it's not necessarily a bad thing to live a confused life, it's rare to be confused. ”

Qian was still young and couldn't understand what I said, but Wanqing understood, and answered: "Gege's mind is too heavy, so it's easy to hurt your body." ”

I smiled and said: "The focus of the mind is not necessarily bad, people must have near-term worries without long-term concerns, and it is better to take precautions than to panic." ”

In this way, Qian also joined the ranks of teaching the servants and maids to read. (To be continued.) )