Chapter 63, Yamaguchi Gin's Diary
July 7th. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info Qing.
It was the first time I felt that life was so magical.
I didn't expect that after so many years, I would meet that person again at the same time and in the same place.
The one person it took me ten years to love, another ten years to hate, and finally another ten years to forgive.
The only difference is that she still holds a small figure in her hand.
She looked so much like her, and she was exactly the same as when I saw her, wearing her favorite white dress and a pure ponytail, and she was as beautiful as an angel, and it stung my eyes.
At that moment, I suddenly wanted to laugh.
Yes, isn't it ridiculous?
My life is like a ridiculous circle, I have taken so many detours, but in the end I have come back to the starting point.
What's even more ridiculous is that I can't help but hide from them to see me.
Why? Even though I have forgiven her, it is clear that the woman deceived me! Hurt me! Why did I dare not go to see her because I still loved her? Is it because I still love her, so I don't want to destroy her happy family? However, such a happy family, such a beautiful and well-behaved daughter, should have belonged to me! But...... But why!
I didn't get there, even though I should have asked her why she was lying to me and why she was doing it!
I watched silently as they walked away, laughing and talking, unaware that my palms had been pierced by my fingernails.
That's it...... That's it...... After all, they are in love...... Today's events are regarded as a dream...... Forget it......
Forget it......
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July 14th. Cloudy.
It's been a week, and I still haven't been able to forget it all as I hoped.
Every day after work, I walked unconsciously to the road like a demon, quietly waiting for them to pass by.
Sometimes they pass by, and they silently follow them all the way home.
Sometimes they didn't pass by, they just stood there stupidly and waited until it got dark.
I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel like I'm going crazy, it took ten years to calm down my heart, but it was so easy to be broken by her, is she really my fate?
No, no! I can't think about it anymore! If I continue like this, I'm going to really break down!
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July 16th. Rain.
I can't help it! I want to go to her! I want to see her!
However, she has long since changed, and she is no longer the little girl in a white dress and a ponytail in my memory.
When I thought of her deception and betrayal of me, her ugly face surged into my heart not only anger and hatred, but also a deep fear. Yes, I didn't dare, I was scared, I didn't want to destroy that perfect image in my heart, I found that I still loved her, and even though she had ceased to be someone I knew a long time ago, I still didn't want to ruin her good life now......
So, I could only secretly hand an umbrella to her daughter who was sheltering from the rain under the eaves.
I just want to...... Talk to the girl in the white dress again......
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July 20th. Clear.
These four days passed as if I was living in a dream, a dream from a long time ago.
In the dream, she was only thirteen years old, and she was still standing at the intersection of the park in a white dress and a smile as always.
It was only when I waved at her that I suddenly realized that my voice was no longer young. And that little girl will no longer affectionately call me "Yinjun" as she did then, but "uncle".
It turns out that the dream has already woken up, but I have been ridiculously deceiving myself.
But so what? "Yinjun" or "uncle", I just want to hear her voice again.
I just thought, look at it again, the smile that is as bright as the color of the dress......
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July 25th. Rain.
She finally saw me.
When Megumi let go of my hand and trotted all the way to her, I could see the shock, the contradictions, and the fear in her eyes......
Even from such a distance, even if it was raining heavily, I could see clearly, from her big eyes.
Is she scared of me? Ah, yes, she's scared of me. Yes, she should be afraid of me.
She once promised me a wonderful future, a paradise of great beauty.
However, when I stepped up the stairs, I realized that it was just a mirage built with lies.
There is no paradise, only an abyss......
At the time, I think I hated her. But now, I don't hate her anymore. As long as she can say sorry to me, no, as long as there is a trace of apology in her eyes, I think I can also let go of this past and move forward without a knot.
But why, I see shock, contradiction, fear, and even disgust, but I just don't see guilt?
What am I to her? Isn't my life worth even a hint of guilt?
The rain seemed to be falling heavier, gradually blurring my eyes, and I could no longer see her eyes, her face, everything about her.
The umbrella was blown by the cold wind, and the steel wire cut a bloody streak on my face, drip down the rain on my heart.
It's cold. It hurts.
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August 1st. Rainstorm.
It's been seven days, and I haven't been out for seven whole days.
A man locks himself in his home, does nothing, thinks about nothing.
However, those nasty memories always occupy my mind without authorization, constantly replaying, and driving me crazy.
Every time I recall the sweetness of the past, the pain that follows becomes more and more straightforward and unavoidable.
When I was twenty-three, we had known each other for ten years, and I finally mustered up the courage to propose to her.
I've been saving for a long time, and I've finally saved enough money to buy a new house to use as a love nest between us.
At that time, I was still so happy, with such beautiful expectations, to plan our future.
But what happened after that shattered it all.
She didn't want to get married yet, she said she wanted to study in the United States, and I know that it was her dream for many years.
So in order to respond to her expectations and fulfill her dream, I took out all my savings in the first half of my life, and I want to accompany her to study in the United States, which should have been used to buy a house and build our future.
Yes, I'm going to accompany her through school, and then in the center of the world, ring the bell for our wedding!
Originally, it was supposed to be like this......
And yet, she was gone, gone, with all my savings from the first half of my life, gone!
At first, I thought that something had happened to her, that she had been kidnapped, and that I had gone to the police station to report the crime, and that I was looking for her all over the world. Until the moment the police finally told me that she had gone to the United States, I couldn't believe it was all true.
I'm so stupid...... It's true......
When I think about it, I can't help but bang my head against the wall.
It hurts. But not only did it hurt when I hit it, but it hurt so much in my chest, and it was about to twist.
No, I can't go on like this, I'm going to find her! I'm going to make it all clear!
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"I'm going to make it all clear......"
This was the last sentence in Yamaguchi's silver diary, and Sato couldn't help but close the diary, his feelings indescribably complicated.
Everything that happened next was recorded in Yamaguchi Gin's confession.
Yamaguchi Gin, who couldn't find her, took Megumi Kiryu at the gate of Teidan Elementary School, trying to force her to meet him.
So he took Megumi Kiryu's phone note, dialed their number, and signaled that he would be waiting for her at home.
And she went out as soon as she received the call, no matter what kind of woman she is in life, whether she is sorry for Yamaguchi Gin, but no matter what, she is a good mother, and she cares about her daughter very much.
Unfortunately, perhaps because of her anxiety, the mother was in a car accident while crossing the road and has not been able to recover from her illness in the hospital. To add insult to injury, Yamaguchi Silver only found out about it the next day.
At that time, he had been able to calm down and wait quietly for her arrival, maybe as long as he had a conversation with a calm heart, all the next tragedies would not happen again. Unfortunately, this possibility will never be seen.
The long and anxious wait finally exhausted Yamaguchi Gin's patience and reason, and he was already on the verge of collapse, and his spirit finally began to abnormal, and the emotions that could not be vented were involuntarily pinned on the body of Kiriyu Megumi, who was also wearing a white dress.
However, just as Yamaguchi Silver reached out and wanted to grab the hand of the girl in the white dress again, all he got was defiance, fear, and screams of "Uncle, you are a bad person......
It was this scream that became the straw that broke the camel's back.
Bad guys? Why am I still bad guys? Aren't you bad guys?
Took away my possessions, deceived my feelings, destroyed my life!
The culprit of all this is clearly you! It's you!
This is the words of Yamaguchi Gin's own confession, he said that he couldn't remember everything that followed, but when he came back to his senses, Megumi Kiryu had fallen in a pool of blood. And he, holding a blood-stained knife, stood to the side in a daze.
Bright red blood was dripping down the tip of the bright knife, dripping to the ground with a crisp sound.
The sound of blood made him finally react, and in a panic, he immediately cleaned up all traces in the house, and found a large plastic bag for the experiment, put Megumi Kiryu's body in it, pulled her to the garage, put it in the trunk of the car, and refrigerated the entire plastic bag with liquid nitrogen used for the experiment, trying to confuse the presumption of the death of the corpse and create alibi evidence for himself.
Sadly, all of this was witnessed by Nishitani Oka, who happened to be passing by, and as a result, she was also wiped out by Yamaguchi Gin.
The two bodies were buried in two places at night, and Yamaguchi Gin, who fled home, couldn't help but suffer from insomnia in fear.
He didn't know why she hadn't come to him, but she knew that Megumi Kiryu was in her hands, so the police would come looking for her sooner or later. With this thought, he tossed and turned and couldn't sleep until the next day, when he saw the news, he learned that she had been in a car accident......
At that moment, while inexplicably breathing a sigh of relief, the seeds of revenge that had sprouted began to twist his heart more and more.
He wants to take back everything he once had, and he wants to get back the money he had back then!
So this time, he dialed Megumi Kiryu from a public phone and signed her father's number.
The man who was not at home last time didn't know his true identity, so when his wife was unconscious and his daughter disappeared again, when he received a call from the "kidnapper" again, he was instantly confused, and almost without hesitation, he took out a large sum of money according to Yamaguchi Gin's instructions, and then threw it in the trash can and was taken away by Yamaguchi Gin, who had been waiting for a long time.
Of course, even if he was given money, he was not able to see his daughter again as promised. Because, she has been laid to rest in the ground.
The successive successes made the demon in Yamaguchi Gin's heart more and more hideous, and the perverted pleasure and hatred intertwined in his mind, which eventually led to the appearance of the third victim, Haruka Nagasawa, and of course, the fourth victim, Hashiba Natsuho.
If there was no Eagle Arrow at that time, she should have died at this moment, just like the previous victims.
Although there must be something hateful about poor people, and Yamaguchi Gin's criminal behavior is not worthy of sympathy, Sato still feels a stuffy breath in his chest for no reason, and it cannot be relieved......
Her ears kept echoing the words that Yamaguchi Silver had been muttering to herself.
"I just wanted to talk to the girl in the white dress again...... That's all......"
Yamaguchi Silver was supposed to be a kind person, a good person, or even an excellent teacher, an excellent guide. But such a person has fallen into the abyss of sin and can no longer climb up.
This is not a thing to be happy about in any way.
"So, that's what we police do. ”
At this time, Officer Twilight behind her suddenly patted her on the shoulder and said earnestly.
"The police are not only there to fight crime, but also to protect good people from being corrupted by the darkness. ”
"I understand, police department. Sato couldn't help but sigh, "That's why I became a policeman!"
"Well, I understand it's not easy, but don't put too much pressure on yourself, it's not too early, go back and rest. ”
Officer Twilight nodded, then turned and walked out.
"Fight against evil...... Protect people of good will...... ......"
Sato couldn't help but raise his head, looked at the moon outside the window, and suddenly remembered the black figure inexplicably.
"That's why you're watching over the city in the dark, too?"
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When Takaya opened his eyes again, it was already dawn.
The familiar ceiling, the familiar paralysis, the familiar smell of disinfectant water, this familiar everything made Eagle Arrow can't help but smile bitterly.
Have you been getting a little injured lately?
Thinking so, Takaya couldn't help but sit up from the bed with force.
"Hmm!"
The moment he sat up, there was a sudden sharp pain in his left arm, as if it was about to be broken.
However, it is a good thing that it will hurt, at least it means that the nerve sensation is normal, and if it doesn't hurt, then it is over.
Looking at his tightly bandaged left shoulder, Eagle Arrow couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief and wiped the cold sweat from his forehead.
"Ah, are you awake, Master Takaya?"
At this time, Uncle De walked in with a dining cart, and he couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief when he saw the awakened eagle.
"How long have I been unconscious?"
Eagle Ya rolled over from the bed, but suddenly felt a little sore all over his body, and couldn't help but ask suspiciously.
"Soon, it's just a day......"
Uncle De said casually while preparing breakfast in the dining car.
"One day?" Taka couldn't help frowning, "It's just a small injury, isn't it?"
"Little injury?" Hearing Eagle Ya's words, Uncle De couldn't help but laugh angrily, "Young Master, should you say that you underestimated the gunshot wound too much, or were you too confident in your body?" If it weren't for the resilience of your body, plus that bullet hit your bone, the old man should have been preparing for your funeral at this time!"
"Really?" Hawkya couldn't help but touch his left shoulder and smiled helplessly. In fact, he himself knew that the previous shot should have broken his shoulder blade and the second and third ribs of his left chest, which was only one step away from his heart.
"Young master, old decay still hopes to ......"
"I know what you want to say Uncle De, but I will definitely save anyone who can be saved, no matter who he is, no matter what I will do. ”
Just when Uncle De wanted to say something, Eagle Ya had already interrupted him first.
It may sound like a noble, very virgin idea, but in fact, it is only a simple thought.
That very night, at that moment, the moment his parents died, the idea was born.
If something like this happens again, he must save the other party! Even if he himself will die, anyway, I already think that I have lived enough.
Whoever it was, he really, just didn't want to see anyone die before his eyes anymore......
[This is also where the old man is worried, it is good to save people, but young master, the people you want to save should also include yourself!]
Looking at Yingya's silent appearance, Uncle De couldn't help but sigh helplessly.
"By the way, Uncle De, if you have time now, help me go to the Chinese medicine store, I want to grab some Chinese medicine." ”
"Chinese medicine?" Uncle De couldn't help but say suspiciously, "Young master, have you also studied Chinese medicine?"
"Sort of, in China, martial arts are inseparable from medicinal materials, and people who practice martial arts, no matter how much kung fu they have, can be more or less half a doctor. ”
Eagle Arrow's traditional Chinese medicine is also learned in the alliance, I have to say that it is worthy of a long-standing alliance, covering countless Chinese medicine prescriptions from ancient times to the present, only you can't think of it, there is nothing you can't find, from tonic to poison.
Back then, the eagle was abused with all kinds of wrong muscles and broken bones, as long as they were thrown into the medicine pool and soaked for two or three days, they could get up and be able to live and live. Although the effect of the medicine pool has decreased a lot for him since he got TSC, it is better than nothing......
"The old man knows. Uncle De couldn't help but nodded, and then said as if he suddenly remembered something, "Oh, by the way, young master, during the day you were unconscious, that child named Conan came to look for you. ”
"Conan, is this guy starting to doubt me?" Hawkya chuckled, "And how did you answer?"
"The young master went to Kyushu Island yesterday to play, and it was still a plane ticket booked by the old man. Uncle De said.
"Gu De. Eagle couldn't help grinning, "Rich is chic......"
"But young master, you are always such a loser, and the old man really doubts that the descendants of the Yuchai family can live as chic as you!"
"Children and grandchildren have their own children and grandchildren, and future generations let them work their own!"
"That's quite irresponsible!"
"Well, don't care about this kind of detail......"