That night, Yinzhen went to Zhang's house and didn't know what Zhang said to him. The next day, she also came to the front yard and said that she was waiting for Yinzhen with me.

I didn't expect Yinzhen to let Zhang's come to the front yard to serve, although I was puzzled and a little uncomfortable with Yinzhen's actions, but I still chose to respect his decision. simply ignored Zhang's existence and did his own thing step by step according to his usual practice, but after the next day, no matter what I did, Zhang would take the lead and then push me aside.

Take breakfast as an example, in the past, Yinzhen got up from the backyard to cook porridge, and it was almost time for Yinzhen to return to the house, I brought it over, and the cold and heat of the porridge were just right, so he could eat it directly, and then work. But at this time, when I entered the house with porridge, Zhang's was already serving Yinzhen for dinner, and when he saw me coming in, he said with a smile: "Geng Gege came late, the master is already eating, this porridge is ......."

I glanced at Yinzhen and saw that he just looked up at me, and then continued to eat what Zhang had prepared, without saying anything, only feeling a grievance in my heart, but I stubbornly didn't want Zhang to see it, so I smiled and said: "Since the master can eat the meals made by Zhang Gege, the relationship is good, from now on, there will be Lao Zhang Gege." ”

After speaking, Fu Shen retreated, handed the porridge to Su Peisheng and said: "This porridge is just hot and cold, Father-in-law Su is hard, eat it while it's hot, if you can't finish it, just throw it away." ”

Su Peisheng took the porridge in embarrassment, looked at the room, and said in a deep voice: "Don't be hasty and be patient in case of trouble, didn't Gege also persuade the master like this before?"

I nodded and said, "Don't worry, I understand." ”

From that day on, I didn't fight anything, everything that Zhang rushed to do, I simply handed it over to her, and in the end she almost took over all the things in my hands, and I was happy to nest on the couch in Yinzhen's study all day long to read books, embroider and embroider, coldly watched Zhang's dedication to Yinzhen, and also watched Yinzhen respond without refusal.

A month has passed, and the news found by Xiao Shunzi shows that Zhang's birth is innocent, clean as a blank piece of paper, there is everything that should be, and there is not a word that should be there. But Xiao Shunzi still felt that there was something wrong with Zhang, and he still didn't give up and continued to inquire about the news.

And I, in the study, slowly began to look like a transparent person, whether I was there or not, it didn't matter to the two of them. I'm getting tired of it, too. simply took a leave of absence by feeling unwell, returned to his small courtyard to laugh with Qian, or was alone in a daze.

After I left the front yard, Yinzhen didn't come to me, so the originally good relationship between the two people was cold, as if all the warmth before seemed to be a dream with no end or end. Now that I wake up, I'm still me, and he's still him.

I touched the white jade pendant on my waist, the warm touch, but it made people feel that it was not real, and the emotions that I had endured for a long time in my heart suddenly came up.

It turns out that this relationship really can't stand scrutiny. There is no room for simple feelings between men and women, I can still be replaced after all, as long as that woman looks like me and has a more docile and considerate temperament than me, I will become a dispensable existence. Maybe I still need to be grateful to Dade to think, at least he still has me in his heart, so that woman can be spoiled by him with a face similar to mine.

Thinking of this, in addition to heartache, I am still disappointed in Yinzhen. It turns out that he is just such a superficial person.

Stretched out his hand to take off the jade pendant given by Yinzhen and handed it to Aster, let her put it away, and seal it at the bottom of the box with Yinzhen's. It's like sealing my two relationships in this era together.

After another half a month, Su Peisheng sent someone from the front yard and said, "The master asked if Gege was in better health, and when he would go to the front yard to serve." ”

I'm playing backgammon with Qian. Hearing the waiter's question, he said without raising his head: "The location of the study in the front yard is not big, the master is quiet, and it is not good to be noisy with many people." Zhang Gege is sensible and well-behaved, she will do what I will, and I can rest assured that she will stay by her side to serve her master. You just go back to Father-in-law Su and say, I won't go. ”

The man took my words and returned to the front yard, and came back after a while, saying, "Grandpa Su said that Gege should go to the front yard to serve, which is also what the master meant." ”

I didn't speak, and Qian answered: "That Zhang Gege is still waiting together?"

The waiter responded: "Zhang Gege is naturally here." ”

I signaled to Qian, who still wanted to speak, that there was no need to say much, so I dropped the sunspot in my hand and said to the waiter: "Please wait outside the public house for a while, and let me change my clothes." ”

The waiter exited the house, and Qian threw the white child in her hand onto the chessboard with a "snap", and said angrily: "Is the fourth master blinded this time? How can you treat my sister like this, I'm really angry!"

I didn't laugh angrily, and said lightly: "It's okay, I'm idle anyway, since the Zhang family likes to be a girl so much, why don't I be happy and relaxed." Anyway, the fourth master didn't think I was too idle, did he?"

Qian didn't seem to care about me, and he didn't want to say anything, so he just muttered "Sister has a good temper", and stopped talking, just angrily biting a big mouthful of crystal cake, as if the crystal cake was Zhang's, she chewed and swallowed it.

I changed my clothes and followed the chamberlain to the front yard. As soon as he entered the house, he saw Zhang standing beside Yinzhen, helping him study the ink, and he was extremely well-behaved with low eyebrows.

I looked away, walked to the bookcase, bowed my head and saluted, and asked, "The master called the servants to come and serve, but what do you command?"

Yin Zhen put down the pen, excused himself, looked at me from head to toe, and said, "It's nothing, but I didn't come here suddenly, and I heard that my body was not very good, so I let you rest for a few more days." I've heard that you're getting better these days, so I'm asking when you'll be able to come over. ”

I responded: "Thank you for your master's concern, my body is fine, but I am worried that there will be many people in the house who will disturb the master's tranquility, thinking that Zhang Gege is thoughtful, since there is no shortage of people serving the master, the slave is naturally resting at ease, and has no intention of coming." ”

When I said this, I did not look up, as if an ordinary servant was answering a question from my master, with a humble and distant attitude, and my tone was as flat as if I were talking about the weather.

I couldn't see Yin Zhen's expression, but judging from the momentary silence after my words fell and the appearance of Zhang Shi stopping the grinding in his hand and not daring to come out, his face must be unkind.

But I still didn't pay attention to his happiness or displeasure, but I bowed again, and said, "Since the master has nothing to do, the servant will go outside and wait, and be at his disposal at any time." ”

After speaking, he bent over and slowly retreated according to the rules. As soon as I walked to the door, I heard him suddenly ask, "Where is the jade pendant?"

I stopped, my heart felt as if I had been pinched hard, and the tip of my nose was a little pantothenic. Is he still wearing the jade pendant he gave me? But he has ever thought that what I have been wearing is not the jade pendant, but his heart, but now his heart is no longer on him, so what is the use of wearing that jade pendant?

"If you go back to the master, the master will reward something, and the slave is afraid of losing it, so he has carefully put it away, please rest assured. "I endured the emotions in my heart, and I still responded formulaically.

"I gave it to you to let you wear it, who told you to put it away......" Yin Zhen's tone was obviously displeased, and he shouted in a deep voice.

I fell silent, and the atmosphere in the room became tense and awkward. At this moment, the Zhang family on the side suddenly chuckled coquettishly, and said: "The master is really good to Geng Gege, how can Geng Gege be so ignorant and let the master be angry about these little things." If the master also rewards the slave with something, the slave must be worn by his side every day to let the master know that he likes and cherishes it extraordinarily, that is worthy of the master's grace. ”

Listening to Zhang's fanning the flames on the side, I had been suppressing my temper and was about to burst out. I slowly raised my head and looked at Yinzhen, seeing that he was indifferent in the face of Zhang's mockery and flattery tone, just looking at me with a cold face, I suddenly laughed, lowered my head again and said: "The master's etiquette is too heavy, the slave can't afford it, since Zhang Gege is so in line with the master's wishes, and he has served wholeheartedly these days, he should also have some rewards." The slave dared to help Zhang Gege ask for a favor, so he rewarded Zhang Gege with the jade pendant that the master gave to the slave, presumably Zhang Gege will definitely cherish it and wear it by his side every day so that the master can see it. ”

After saying this, I smiled at Zhang's Wan'er and said, "I'll have someone send the jade pendant over later." ”

Zhang didn't expect me to say this, and I didn't know if I was telling the truth or being angry, so he didn't know how to answer for a while, but he glanced at Yinzhen's expression in embarrassment, as if he was waiting for his instructions.

Just when the two sides were at a stalemate, Yin Zhen, who had been staring at me angrily, suddenly softened, and he didn't know who he said: "Get out."

Zhang Shi saw him staring at me and said "go out", a smug look appeared on his face, and he stood beside Yinzhen and did not move. I saw that Zhang's didn't move, and Yinzhen kept staring at me, thinking that maybe he wanted me to go out, so he moved his steps and planned to leave, but as soon as his body moved, I heard Yinzhen look at Zhang's and say: "I'm asking you to go out, she stays, I have something to say to her." ”

This is a bit like the bloody scene in the reversal drama, which made me and Zhang slightly stunned. Zhang was extremely embarrassed and cramped for his intention to make a mistake Yinzhen, and wanted to say something, but seeing Yinzhen's cold eyes, he didn't dare to say more for a while, so he could only move in a hurry. As he walked to my side, Zhang deliberately slowed his steps, and the corners of his lips hooked up with a clear taunt.

In the face of Zhang's ridicule, I lowered my eyes and pretended not to see it, secretly wondering what Yinzhen wanted to leave me to say.

When Zhang left, Yinzhen got up and walked in front of me with a blanket of letters, looked at me and said, "Are you angry with me because Zhang?"

I took a step back, lowered my head and said, "The slave doesn't dare." ”

Yin Zhen frowned slightly, and reprimanded: "Speak well." You have never understood etiquette in terms of titles, and if you suddenly become so formal, it must be annoying to me. ”

It has been nearly three years since Kangxi entered the government in the forty-third year. Three years of spending time together is enough for one person to fully understand the character and habits of another. He has always been very attentive to me, and naturally knows my speech habits and emotions. But what he didn't know was that the relationship between me and him was extremely fragile. In particular, my emotional distrust of him and my long-standing defensiveness were the biggest obstacle between me and him, and the biggest reason why I could not give myself to him wholeheartedly.

Originally, without Zhang's family, maybe I could slowly start to learn to trust, but now his attitude has personally killed the idea that has just sprouted in my heart. And he simply thought that I was angry with him because I was jealous of the Zhang family.

"The minions used to be young and didn't know the rules. Now that he is at the age of the governor, even if the master is indulgent, he should not be pampered and arrogant. These days, the minion has thought about it carefully, and it was the slave who was wrong before, and he shouldn't have figured out his identity and status, so he ......"

I closed my heart and found it easy to be an unintentional person who didn't want to do anything like this. Even if it may be just a pretend, I want to pretend forever, not hearing and not seeing.

"Are you going to start awkward with me again?" Yin Zhen was also angry when he saw me like this.

I still answered with "minions don't dare" without raising my head.

Yin Zhen suddenly pulled me into his arms and began to ask for my kiss unscrupulously, his hands reaching into the thin summer dress.

At first I stiffened and tried to resist, but the next moment I stopped struggling, and just followed his actions as if obediently, and he untied my shirt with his hands up and down, and pressed me to the couch, but I just closed my eyes tightly and did nothing.

At this moment, what I repeatedly thought in my mind was, since he wanted it, then give it to him, maybe he is asking for it now just because he is unwilling to get it, maybe he wants to have a comparison between me and Zhang, maybe when he really gets the comparison, he will find that Zhang's is better than me, so he can let me go completely. At that time, it will be irrelevant to me who he wants to spoil, and I will no longer have to be so forbearing, depressed, sad and uncomfortable.

Sad and uncomfortable - these two words flashed through my mind, and my deliberately numb heart instantly woke up, only to feel so painful, so painful that I couldn't help but shed a tear. I didn't expect that I would have such pain in this life.

Yinzhen's somewhat rough actions softened when my tears fell, but there was no intention of stopping. He reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes, leaned down and whispered in my ear, "Don't be afraid, leave it to me......"

As his words fell, I was swept through my body by the pain that followed that was torn. This is the necessary moment to rise from a girl to a woman, but there is no pleasure, only shame, especially when he thinks that he also lived with Zhang on this couch that night, there are bursts of burning pain in his stomach, and an irrepressible feeling of nausea wells up in his heart. His current behavior is undoubtedly a real cheapness and humiliation for me, it turns out that in his eyes, I am no different from the Zhang family, they are just women who can be used so casually.

I opened my eyes and endured the pain and discomfort in my body, biting my lip to prevent myself from having any pumps to meet and moan.

At the moment when he was about to reach his peak, I tried my best to say "I hate you......" to him in a cold tone. He looked at me in amazement, and at that moment he released himself. (To be continued.) )