Chapter 238: The dilemma

Emperor Kangxi's concubine Guo Luo Luo is Yinyu's biological mother, who was originally very favored during the reign of Emperor Kangxi and had a deep relationship with Emperor Kangxi. When Emperor Kangxi passed away, Guo Luo Luo was also sick, and after learning the bad news of Kangxi, she insisted on taking the soft couch to help the sick and go straight to Kangxi's mourning hall. Probably because she was too sad, or Guo Luoluo has always been favored, she ran to the front of Yinzhen's biological mother Wu Yashi without knowing the times, which made Yinzhen hold back the fire in her heart. Later, when dealing with Kangxi's funeral, Guo Luoluo was suspicious and resentful of Yinzhen, and naturally put on a mother's concubine for Yinzhen, and his attitude was very unkind, so that Yinzhen's mustard to the Eight Masters and Yinzhen was counted together with her previous transgressions, not only did she not give her the title of a concubine until now, but even on the third day of the lunar month, Zhang Qi, the personal eunuch she had used for decades, was sent to Tuerlu to farm on the charge of renting a forbidden business, so that she was alone in her bedroom for the New Year, and there was no one to talk to in her bedroom。

I am grateful to Guo Luoluo. First, I thought of Yinyu's friendship and help to him over the years, but most of them were also out of a good impression of the deep-rooted image of Concubine Yi in the previous life "Kangxi Weifu Private Interview", so I had a natural closeness to this concubine. Second, it is also because when I first entered the palace, under the instruction of Yinyu, although Guo Luoluo's own situation was extremely difficult, he still managed to take care of me and give me some advice. Based on this alone, you can know that she is actually an open-minded and gentle person, and it is no wonder that Kangxi loved her in every way for decades when she was alive.

However, today's hairpin didn't choose this one on purpose, but he has never been very concerned about clothing and makeup, so he was watched by Dongmei, who served closely.

"Why did Dongmei choose this hairpin, is it intentional or unintentional......" I unconsciously slandered in my heart, and glanced sideways at Dongmei who was waiting beside her. Dongmei stood behind her in silence at this time, her hands clutching the corners of her clothes tightly in fear, her knuckles slightly white, and her little face turned pale with fear.

As expected, Yin Zhen, who had always disliked Guo Luo Luo's family, heard this, his face suddenly turned cold, and the original lively banquet seemed to have dropped to freezing point in an instant, and the atmosphere was suddenly embarrassing.

I lowered my eyes and was silent, this is not the time to open my mouth and ridicule each other, sometimes the explanation is to cover up, to cover up, the more I describe, the darker it becomes. Because I know that the person in the hall is actually observing my reaction, and he is a suspicious person, and he must also want to see the clue in my reaction. It is wise to remain silent at such times, only then will he have his own judgment and consideration, and will be able to minimize his anger towards me, or perhaps he will give me a chance to explain in private.

What I care about at this time is not how Yinzhen would openly criticize me on such an occasion. With Yinzhen's personality and the love of these years, no matter how happy he should be in his heart at this time, he will not attack me at such an auspicious and festive time, which embarrass me.

I know this, and Lee knows it. It is precisely because of this that she dares to act so presumptuously. It's just that having said that, Yinzhen is inconvenient to have a seizure at the moment, and he will inevitably be angry and blamed afterwards, maybe doing so will make Yinzhen even more disgusted with me because he minds Guo Luoluo's overtures to me, and even begins to dislike and snub me because of the deepening of suspicion about my relationship with Yinzhen. However, with Yinzhen's character, how could the Li family, who was not in a happy mood during the New Year and was obviously deliberately making things bad, not be punished.

Li has long passed the age of ignorance of the world, even if her brain is not good, she will not fail to understand this truth, is she ready to burn my jade and die together? But such a shallow trick to completely bring me down without losing power is too child's play. Why is she so confident, what is her reliance, what is her real purpose?

Thinking of this, the instinctive uneasiness began to fill my heart again, and it seemed that the web of conspiracy that could not be seen and touched became tighter and tighter.

The embarrassing atmosphere in the hall continued to ferment in Yinzhen's silence, I didn't answer, Li squinted at me with a triumphant smile, as if waiting to see how I made a fuss, the queen Wulanala clan who should have made a round out of the game probably knew that Yinzhen had a deep grudge against Guo Luoluo, and she didn't want to come forward to ask for trouble at such a time. Qian was a little anxious when she saw this, and wanted to speak for me, but after so many years of tacit understanding, she realized that acting rashly at this time was very abrupt, and I was afraid that it might not be beneficial to me, so she had to worry about me on the side, but there was nothing to be done.

It seems that Yinzhen is forcing me to say something in this way, does he want to listen to me defend myself? Or does he want to force me to draw a line with Guo Luoluo in public, as long as I open my mouth, it means that I have drawn a line with Yinzhen in public at the same time, which is his purpose.

I suddenly realized how Guo Luo Luo treated me, Yinzhen was afraid that he didn't care, after all, these can be explained by the intention of the first emperor and concubine to buy people's hearts. Only those who know my private relationship with Yinyu know what Guo Luoluo's overtures to me are. And what Yinzhen cares about is actually the Yinzhen represented by Guo Luoluo.

Yinyu's relationship with me has always been a thorn in his heart for him. Whether it is a commoner or an emperor, as long as it is a man, he will not tolerate his woman having an ambiguous relationship with another man, not to mention that person is still an undying enemy.

It just so happens that Li is also one of the insiders in this matter. Is this her real purpose? She is not a traverser, she doesn't know what will happen to Yinyu who is on the border at this time, in her opinion, Yinyu, who is the Nine Emperor Princes, is now my only power guarantee outside the palace, once I am separated from him, I am afraid that I will no longer have any ability to protect myself. As for Yinzhen's protection, what is it in this deep palace where flowers are not red.

But if I don't choose to break with Yinzhen, then it means that I choose Yinzhen and choose to stand on the opposite side of Yinzhen. A person who stands on the opposite side of the emperor can have a good end, let alone an insignificant woman.

Is this the real purpose of the Li family? It turned out that it was not a shallow trick, but really a killing move that put him to death and survive. With Li's IQ, if it weren't for the guidance of a master, how could he come up with such a good move, I was really more and more curious about who the person behind Li's advice was.

I figured out the key to it, and I was in a dilemma for a while. It's not that I'm embarrassed about how to choose, even though I've been in this era for a long time, I still feel like I'm just a ghost who has strayed into time and space, and I can't do it for anyone.

In my opinion, the only way to save others is to save ourselves first. What's more, he didn't have any interests with Yinyu originally, and he has always tried to keep his distance from him, and even in the battle for succession, he has never been soft on the secret stakes he buried in the hidden mansion, but he never seems to be resentful and angry because of this, and he is still silently arranging everything for me.

I know that I am selfish and heartless, forever passively enjoying everything he has arranged. But I'm not a person who brazenly accepts things that I don't know how to reciprocate, and in fact I've already made the best arrangements to repay him. And these are things that Li and the person behind her don't know, so even if I choose to break with him at the moment, it won't have much impact on me, I'm different from them after all, I've never been a dodder who needs to cling to anyone to survive.

What really stumbles me is what the statement means at this time. If it is just in exchange for the comfort in Yinzhen's heart, this kind of statement is really too humble, it is to swallow the silence of the people, and in the eyes of the opponent, it is also a kind of admitting defeat and surrendering, which is not in line with my character. And Yinzhen also understands my heart, even if my statement can resolve the current crisis for a while, but in Yinzhen and others interpret it is also forced by the situation to have no choice, I am afraid that it will make Yinzhen have other suspicions, but it will be endless troubles.

No, there must be no statement now, so I can only find a way to temporarily resolve the deadlock, and then find an opportunity to explain this matter to Yinzhen alone.

These are all later words, and what to do now is a big headache. If I talk about him left and right, I am afraid that he will be interpreted as a vacillating attitude, which is really a big problem for me.