The place where Yinyu brought me was the ruined temple where I first met him, and where he later renovated it and turned it into a shelter for the homeless. We didn't get out of the carriage, we just watched from afar. It is like the past that cannot be returned, and it is also like the hearts of two people, who can only look far away, but cannot step into it again.

"Do you remember this place?" asked me.

I smiled lightly and didn't answer. The last time I came here was when I met Yunhui a year ago, and there have been many changes this time. From the two soup kitchens at the door and the hungry people lining up in an orderly manner to receive the porridge, I knew that Yinyu really cared about it.

"No one here knows who's helping them, and I don't want it. Actually, there's only one reason I'm doing this, you know what?" A wry smile appeared on his face as he looked at the crowd of people.

Hearing the silence, I lowered my eyes and said, "Ninth Master is merciful......"

"You're wrong, it's not that I'm merciful, it's just for one person. Although that person seems to care about nothing, always wants to separate herself from everything, and wants to be alone, but she is always soft-hearted, because she has a plan, because of many reasons that only she knows, she can't let herself stand by and watch, and she can't make herself really care......" Yinyu retracted his gaze and looked at me, his gaze made me feel hot but couldn't dodge.

"Yes, it seems that he is a very troublesome person, the ninth master has worked hard, why bother with such a troublesome person so much......" I knew who he was talking about, but he deliberately pretended not to know and smiled in response.

"Why can't you be honest with yourself!" Yin Yu shouted through gritted teeth.

"I don't know what the Ninth Master wants to say, wasn't he talking about you just now?Why did you suddenly say that I was honest?" I felt a little sour in my heart for no reason, avoided his gaze, raised my hand to bypass a strand of broken hair hanging down from my ear, adjusted my sitting posture, and said: "Where the Ninth Master is coming, we are also here, and now it has been a long time since I came out, let's go back......"

"I like you," Yinyu said suddenly.

These words were straightforward and abrupt, my heart sank, silent, Yun Hui, who was sitting on the side, covered his mouth in shock, and looked outside the car curtain, Xiao Shunzi was sitting there, Yinyu's words must have been heard by him, but he didn't break in, it seemed that he was just waiting for my reaction.

"Ninth Master, please respect yourself, these words are only because I have never heard them. I forcibly suppressed the waves in my heart, and responded with a calm face.

"If you want, I can take you away now, and your mother can leave with me now, and as for your father, I will find a way to save it, and then I only need to make it a rebellion of the homeless, and all of you will die at the hands of the rebels." When everything is calm, I will take you into the house......" Yinyu didn't seem to care about the existence of Xiaoshunzi, and said such a thing as if talking about the weather.

His words didn't make me feel much moved, I just felt my heart tightened, suddenly got up and walked to the door, lifted the curtain and saw that Xiao Shunzi had been held hostage by the personal guard that Yinyu often brought at this time, he looked at me with many complex emotions in his eyes, and I saw shock and disappointment in it.

"What are you trying to do!" I didn't expect that Yinyu, who had been quiet, would suddenly come to this trick, and his actions were completely unexpected by me.

"You're not happy right now, you're not happy, they say you're not having a good day at all. But you didn't say anything, you who never bowed your head, but for him, you knelt in the snow and bowed to your fourth sister-in-law regardless of your body. I regret not insisting before, I know you are also affectionate to me, don't you?"

"Are you crazy? I'm your fourth brother's woman, even if you don't care, but have you thought about whether I'm willing or not?

"You...... Do you really like the fourth brother, and are willing to bow down for him, even at the cost of giving up everything you have?"

I looked at Yinyu, thinking about his question, suddenly smiled, regained my composure, and said softly: "Because he has never forced me to do something I don't want to do, but has always chosen to believe in me and support me, and stand by my side when I need it." ”

"I'm doing that too......" Yinyu was slightly stunned by the change in my attitude, and said.

"Yes, you have given me a lot, and you have been paying attention to it in every detail, but have you thought about it? You didn't insist at first, and you didn't start to regret it until you missed it, didn't you realize that it was too late? Even now, you are willing to take me away, if I agree, then what kind of identity can you let me use to enter the mansion in the future, can you steal the beam and change the pillar Li Dai Taostiff again? But what you can give me is still only the position of a concubine and a slave. So what's the difference with now?" I sneered.

Yinzhen was silent, his silence was more sure that his feelings for me were as I guessed, just a momentary heartbeat, and then he paid more attention because he couldn't get the start, and then slowly compared from a lot of information, and then began to become unwilling, feeling that he was more suitable for me than Yinzhen, and then he regarded such feelings as love. But does he really love me? I don't think so. "From beginning to end, you are indeed better than him, maybe he likes me more than him, and understands me better, but it is only because you care about me that you will have such a move, but once one day, red face and white hair, love is not there, where will you put me, and what kind of identity and position should I be by your side. At that time, my current good will become wrong, and my past will be a reason for you to hurt me and dislike me. In this case, I already have an uncertain future, so why choose a more adventurous future? You know me, you should know that from the beginning to the end, I was calculating how to make my life better and more comfortable. Although, as you said, it has always backfired so far, but at least that's what I can grasp. "I didn't expect to be able to dissect my thoughts so thoroughly in front of him in such a situation, but this is the only way to let him go and let him know what I really want.

I took his hand and felt his figure tremble, looking at me with a hint of anticipation.

"Let it go, from now on, there will be no more entanglements. I owe you, and I'll find a way to pay it back. ”

I shook my head, pulled my hand back from his hand with a slight force, and slowly let go of his hand, with an uncontrollable sadness in my tone.

A lot of things are either not said, and once they are said, they must be made clear. Many things are either not done, and once they are done, they must be closed. After all, some people are just passers-by who are destined to miss it, and once they miss it, they will miss it forever.

Yinyu's hand hung down, and the familiar gentle smile appeared on his face again, but there was a heart-wrenching bitterness in the smile.

"Since you've thought about it, I'm not going to force you. You just need to know that no matter when, I will let you rely on it, and if you need me to do anything in the Fourth Brother's Mansion, you can have someone bring me a message. As he spoke, he took me into his arms and hugged me hard, then got up and got out of the car, asked the guards to let go of Xiao Shunzi, and left on foot without looking back.

I looked at the back of him leaving, and the tears that I had been holding back finally couldn't help but slide down, and I silently said in my heart: "There are some things I can't say, do you know that the warmth you have given is still in my heart, and in the most difficult days, I often unconsciously remember those past fragments, but I know that there is no way to go back." What I choose is not to let go, but to slowly spend the reluctant time in a willing way, greedily wanting to make the beauty in my memory never fade. ”