Chapter 146: Emotional Frustration
I pinched the square and heavy sign in my hand, and after realizing it, I realized that I was placed by Gongsun Di again.
Not for the first time, it's again.
Every time I refresh my good opinion of him, it used to be close to zero, now it tends to be negative, and there is a danger of negative infinity.
He could have come up and give me the waist card, so that it would not go around three or four, and my heart would be pounding, as if I had fallen in love with him at first sight, and then I lost my body (?). The same, of course, it won't be really tempting, but I haven't learned well since I was a child, I was busy climbing trees when I was embroidering, or I was secretly flipping through the little girl to buy it back, and I had some fantasies about the love between men and women and those handsome little students, but the fantasy was broken by the ruthless reality the next day, because there was really nothing to imagine about my father's big face of five big and three thick, and the iceberg face that Deng Fuzi couldn't smash a pit with a hammer.
It's out of habit that I've always liked to look at beautiful people, especially beautiful men.
So now that I think about it, I liked Fu Ji so much at the beginning, and there was a small part of it, maybe it was also because I saw him as good-looking.
Beautiful men are scarce.
For women, it's enough for me to look in the mirror more.
Gongsun is not very good, but he is indeed good, and the weak and pale Fu Ji is not the same style at all, although he always likes to wear purple and ochre clothes, which makes him a little coquettish.
It's so dangerous, and I was almost fascinated by his beauty again.
I know that Gongsun Di is still worried about me entering the Hou Mansion, he is not picky about women, but there are very few people who really want to enter the Hou Mansion, perhaps because they know that women can't manage too much, and it is easy to burn themselves, so they keep improving, for example, those who take care of the housework can let Shu Yao come, and I am like this, about to play a role in collecting and eye-catching, just because of the glimpse of the glass hall at the beginning, plus the special identity, it can surprise a group of people when it is said, so it is particularly meaningful to collect.
I don't mind this very much, I'm different from Chang Yun, she has too many things in her heart, and she has been cut off from King Yu, it seems that Yasukuni has recovered, and it is very promising for the two to continue their relationship, but I know that the blood that should be shed behind this will definitely not be less, they are all stepping on the corpses of others step by step, and no one is sorry for anyone. Like I said, who called me Ah Ji is just bad luck, Yasukuni is in his hands, and it can be maintained until the next generation at the latest, the Gongsun clan in the north has always been very powerful, they joined forces with Chengguo Gong, but they let everything go ahead, even if Fu Ji jumped the glass hall for this, even if I hated and resented at the beginning, and I lost more than ten pounds of resentment, but I still have to admit that I have no interest in the so-called restoration plan at all.
Counting my father and Chang Yun, as well as Master Deng, my wish is just a little bit of my fingernails, as long as we all live well, it is best to live more noble and rich, and it is best to restore the glory of the past, then what is left, don't force it..
I don't like Gongsun Di, but in all fairness, except that I don't want to enter the Hou Mansion, I have done almost everything he should do, and it seems that there is no difference whether I can enter or not.
It's hard to say, it's likely to become a stain on me in the future, and I will follow me for the rest of my life, and if I die, I will have to be pulled out and scolded anytime and anywhere.
But it doesn't matter, I've been mentally prepared for this.
After all, it's good to steal - love steals, that's called wind and snow;
If you don't steal well, you are adulterous-husband-adulteress.
According to Yasukuni's national law, you have to be dragged out and lit a sky lantern a hundred times, a hundred times!!
I was worried in Guanghan Palace about whether such a tragic punishment as lighting a sky lantern would really be tested on me in the future, and I was scared into a cold sweat when I thought about it, until Lu Yu came to call me to eat, I couldn't stop my thoughts, hid my waist card close to my body, and followed her to Changyun's place.
Some people are really troublesome, when they have a good life, they are greedy and insufficient, and when they don't have a good life, they start to shout about how they were at the beginning, yesterday they lived in the past, and today they began to dislike the pastries he made are not delicious, Qi Kaiji has been familiar with the road, and he has figured out a set of processes, anyway, he always has time to go to Guanghan Palace for a walk around the day, and by the way, add a little food to the people there, which is something he is used to; , otherwise they will not succeed in squeezing the original palm print eunuch down;
On the whole he is mixing well now, at least at night it is not he who washes the feet of others, but others who wash him;
This gave him an extremely short-lived feeling of being able to turn over and be the master.
Even after washing his feet, there is no one to warm the quilt, and he can't look down on other little palace maids to warm the quilt for himself, so the days are short, he always feels that his status is a little higher, but the loneliness in his heart is still unrelenting, especially the person he likes is in front of him every day, but he can only secretly take a look, and rub the little hand of the crush crush for a short time when he stuffs the pastry, which is really depressing.
The depressed Qi Kaiji had no choice, he was really hoping that Concubine Rui would be good in the Guanghan Palace, if she followed the Marquis, with her means, she could make waves in the huge harem for so many years, and it must be the same as entering the Hou Mansion, but now he can't think like this, he just blindly wants to climb up, at least climb high enough in the minion pile, so that when she turns back, she can cast a glance at him with her mind.
People like Rui Guifei had been living smoothly before the death of the first emperor, but they were suddenly hit, and there was a gap in their hearts for a while;
Maybe she will put down her body again and say a few more words to him, seeing that he is still useful?
Qi Kaiji thought, no matter what, he is no longer the hard-working and complaining person in the past, and ran to the dining room to steal ginger slices after hearing someone's cough.
The power of love is great, although Qi Kaiji is only a secret love at best, he really wants to rub the oil and touch his little hands, he doesn't have the guts, he is a subordinate, and he is not a complete man, even if he looks good, there are already many little palace maids who explicitly hint that they want to eat with him, but Qi Kaiji still has a vague and inferiority complex emotion, which causes him to silently pay attention to the movements of Yude Palace, and as soon as he finds that something is wrong, he goes to ventilate in advance, and does good things but does not leave his name, and the losses are all lost to himself, and no one who should know knows it。
For example, Rui Guifei once drew a black eyebrow and went out, and was in a good mood with the palace man in yellow clothes next to her, who seemed to be talking and laughing with Qingyun, and almost bumped into Concubine Cheng who partnered with Jin Guifei to enjoy the flowers, or he had an idea, deliberately knocked over the wooden dew in his hand, and just splashed it on Jin Guifei, although he was beaten hard after the incident, but he felt that it was worth it, otherwise they would really bump into it, Rui Guifei was afraid that she couldn't wait for Concubine Jing to come to the rescue, and she would have to play it completely.
Qi Kaiji felt that he had done a lot of good deeds, and one day he would be able to reach the ears of Rui Guifei, he didn't ask for much, and he didn't press forward step by step like Chehou, under the guise of asking her to be a side concubine, he just wanted to become a useful person, who could be needed at a critical time, it was as simple as that.
Nan Xi's father-in-law's errand in front of the palace seems to be very ordinary, but it is the most dangerous, as Nan Xi's newly accepted apprentice, Qi Kaiji now no longer has to look at Che Hou's face, help people open the back door from the cold palace, since he promised Rui Guifei to follow Nan Yi to learn skills, he consciously put himself in her camp, plus he has recently got a new task, and now the twelve divisions of the Provincial Bureau are changing people every day, as well as Cypriots, like most of the old people in the former Jing Palace died out of the palace, and now the newcomers have their own collusion, he must find out the relationship between these people as soon as possible, so as to facilitate Nan Xi's start。
But it's not very easy, Qi Kaiji took a lot of effort to kick the original palm print of the dining room, and he couldn't kick other people's butts without being hot.
I don't have time to take care of the affairs of the other twelve divisions, but he has time to stare at the daily meals of Guanghan Palace, Qi Kaiji is now acting in strict accordance with the rules, and no one can find the slightest mistake, otherwise he will rush the quality of the food in the Cold Palace, I don't know how many Niangniang have sharpened their heads and want to take advantage of loopholes.
It can be seen that Gongsun Jiaao really likes Lu Changyun, he thinks that after such a stirring by Empress Dowager Wu, he has lost his original feelings for women, and he can't love someone, and it is delusional to say that he likes it. Before that, Wan Songxuede's highest evaluation was that he was pleasing to the eye and obedient, so he had feelings for her, and he liked her.
As for the other women, they were purely balancing the six palaces and extending the heirs by the way, but such a woman who was not a few years older than his son actually made him feel similar to 'frustration' for the first time.
Considering that Lu Changyun is still pregnant, he just asked her to think about it in a different place, and the actual treatment has not changed, I have never seen three meals a day delivered on time when she enters the cold palace, and it is not any leftovers, and the delicacies are not counted, but one meat, one vegetable and one soup can be guaranteed, it is obvious that the two of them are angry, but whenever Lu Changyun lowers her head, or wants to understand the joints inside, she can walk sideways in the palace with her stomach upright, but she has never been, so that the women outside look at each other, and none of them dare to blatantly go to the Guanghan Palace to sabotage。
Nan Xi looked at it coldly in front of the emperor, but felt that Xing Xing could start from this point, and use Lu Changyun to distract his mind, maybe King Yu had a better chance of winning.