Chapter 877: The deepest heartache
"More?" Quan Baolan looked at Li Juli in a daze, and suddenly felt that this good sister had become a little unrecognizable.
Li Juli nodded, her face overflowing with a strange light, "He is very handsome, very talented, and has a great background, but he lacks one thing, one thing that I care about very much." ”
"What is it?" Quan Baolan didn't think Lin Anran lacked anything, young, golden, talented, handsome and extraordinary, such an almost perfect man, in a sentence she heard before, that is, she already had everything, if she had to pick a thorn, it would only be ......
"Ambition!" Li Juli said loudly, "too casual, too content with the status quo, there are advantages that ordinary people can't match, but they don't know how to use them." Maybe in his opinion, everything in the entertainment industry is just entertainment, but no matter what mentality he uses to make such an opinion, and no matter his background that is enough to support him to maintain this mentality, he still doesn't have enough sincerity. ”
"You don't need to do a line of love, but at least you need to pay a minimum of sincerity. ”
"After I realized that he was just treating his career in the entertainment industry as child's play and entertainment, it was impossible for me to get together with him again. No matter how much I liked him, no matter how much he attracted me, I was already destined not to approach him after his attitude trampled on my dreams. ”
Li Juli's face changed, and finally her face became full of piety, "Being an artist is my profession, but it is also my dream, and I have never given up." I don't care that Lin Anran has other women around me, but I can't care if he has a completely opposite concept to me. He can write songs, "10minute", "My.Prayer", "GEE", "Danger", these songs are all classics, but they are all tools for him to pursue girls, "My Princess", "Five Centimeters per Second" are also his compensation for his women. I can't imagine that my dreams and my career will become a game because of this man, a game of impure feelings. ”
"You...... Are you scared?" Quan Baolan raised his hand and touched the corner of Li Juli's eye, but was shocked by the wetness on his hand.
Li Juli glanced at the wet marks on the tips of Quan Baolan's fingers, and laughed self-deprecatingly: "Yes, I'm scared." Because of him, I dreamed of becoming an idol who could shine as brightly as he did and stand by his side. But my dream didn't even reach the first stage, but I found that my dream was actually just a dream, impossible to achieve, and not even a little expectation. ”
"He gave me a dream, but he shattered it with his own hands, and without realizing it, he seldom even looked at me, and my so-called affection was nothing more than a joke in comparison. ”
"Baolan, actually, I envy you. At least he becomes a mask oppa for you alone. ”
"Actually, I'm also jealous of Ji-yeon, jealous that she can stand by his side without pressure and enjoy his tenderness. ”
"Actually, I regret it, I regret it...... I saw him at the airport that day. ”
"I hate it, I hate myself for not even having the courage to face him, I only dare to ...... Bury everything in your heart and only dare to ...... In the dead of night, I carefully turned this point out of the deepest part of my heart, and did not dare to see a trace of sunshine. Hate your own ...... Cowardly. ”
The night light is like water, and Li Juli has fallen asleep. The tear stains on his face even soaked the entire placket of Quanbaolan, but Quanbaolan couldn't sleep in a daze.
There are some contradictions in Li Juli's words, but it is undeniable that her feelings for Lin Anran are so deep, maybe this should be the level of love?
Quan Baolan always thought that Li Juli was the one who fell into the shallowest between the three of them. But now it is found that Li Juli is the one who has fallen the deepest and is also the one who has been hurt the most, even if Lin Anran doesn't know anything at all, but it is just like the one Li Juli hates. Quan Baolan also began to regret dragging his good sister Li Zhixian to see off Lin Anran, but Li Zhixian changed his name to Li Juli, and became the poor girl full of scars now.
"Mask oppa......" Quan Baolan muttered, she had never thought that there was anything good about this self-deceptive agreement between her and Lin Anran, until tonight she found that she was at least not the most bitter one, no rejoicing, no schadenfreude, and only deep resentment towards Lin Anran.
"I'm really not fit to be a captain anymore, Jihyun. Quan Baolan whispered, gently holding Li Juli into the dream.
In the early morning of the second day, Quan Baolan and Li Juli, who woke up at the same time, looked at each other and smiled tacitly, and no one mentioned the conversation last night, as if they woke up from a dream and forgot it, and even Park Ji-yeon, Hyun Eun-jeong, Park So-yeon, Park Hyo-min and Yoo Hwa-young, the girls, did not notice the difference between the two.
There is no itinerary for t-ara today, and this is also the time that CCM specially freed up for them to celebrate Park Ji-yeon's birthday, and Jeon Baolan wholeheartedly directed her teammates to decorate the dormitory, which was the last time she exercised the duties of captain, so she also had extra care.
Park Ji-yeon, the little birthday star, also arranged her birthday venue, and she was not a little unhappy, after all, this is a birthday with her best sisters, so what is there to mind too much, of course, this is in the case of Lin Anran's absence.
Noon belongs to T-ara, after making a good wish, cutting the cake and slapping the face, receiving gifts and blessings, Park Ji-yeon has been staying on the balcony of the dormitory, staring straight in the direction of the gate of the community like a lookout, waiting for Lin Anran's arrival.
If it was in the past, Quan Baolan would definitely be full of heart on Park Ji-yeon's body, but at this moment, she cared more about Li Juli's mood, after all, everything last night was not really forgotten, but was tacitly avoided by them, it does not mean that they are not sad people, but the original three sad people have become one and a half, at least it seems like this in front of them.
Li Juli was suddenly held by Quan Baolan's hand, and couldn't help but show a standard smile, but this smile made Quan Baolan wake up even more.
"Ahh
Fortunately, the layout is relatively simple, and it is very convenient to clean up, and when it is finished, Quan Baolan suddenly clapped her hands and gathered everyone together, and said her decision: "I don't think I am suitable to be the captain anymore, I recommend Xiaomin to be the new captain, everyone vote!" (To be continued.) )