Chapter 208: Palace Wall Willow
As the Wulanala clan arranged the affairs of the Hidden Mansion, the families of the Hidden Mansion entered the Forbidden City surrounded by the high walls of Zhu Qiang's yellow tiles surrounded by the mighty guard of honor, where countless legendary historical stories have been written, but more often than not, they are the blood and tears left by the unknown nameless people. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info
The wheels creaked across the long palace road, flanked by kneeling eunuchs and palace maids. Most of the palace maids here look very young, fourteen or fifteen years old walking among the palace walls day after day, fantasizing about flying up the branches or just hoping to meet a favored master to raise their status, and maybe in the future they can please the master to be pointed out as a good person.
During the Kangxi period, the palace maids in the palace could leave the palace when they were thirty years old, but no one thought about leaving the palace at the age of thirty, they would rather stay in the palace all the time. It's not that the palace is good, it's not that they don't want to go out, but in this era when they are already half-old at the age of thirty, where is their way out.
Most ordinary people are reluctant to marry a woman from the palace, and even widowers are mostly reluctant to find a woman from such a background to continue the string. It's not that they dislike their age, firstly, some palace maids have high vision, are accustomed to the brocade clothes and food in the palace, and are categorically not accustomed to the vulgar life of poor families and small households, and secondly, even if they want to find a man to marry casually, most of the ordinary people feel that the women who come out of the palace have too many rules and are difficult to serve, and these women who have seen too many things in the palace must be difficult to handle, even if they look good, they are not a good life. So they can only bloom alone in the deep high walls like flowers swaying in the wind, and silently wither until they die after the flowering period.
I secretly laughed at myself for my sudden feelings, but in fact, I was not in a position to look at and pity them with the eyes of modern people. Because at this time I am actually a part of this high wall, although I seem to be more noble and glorious than them, but there is not the slightest pleasure to enjoy, on the contrary, I envy them more, at least they can still have the expectation and fantasy of being able to get out of here, and from this moment on, I can only silently accept every lonely and lonely day that I have to face in the future.
The old people in the palace will begin to be dismissed and resettled after the year, Yinzhen is the son of heaven, and it is impossible to have only these old and decrepit female dependents who come in the palace. Speaking of which, there are indeed not many female dependents who have entered the palace from the hidden mansion, and after the disposal of the disposal, there are now only the Wulanala clan, the Nian clan, the Qian clan, me, the Li clan and the Song clan. When the spring flowers bloom after the Spring Festival, the show girls prepared for the new emperor will enter the palace one after another to wait for the selection, and the palace ladies will also have more young and beautiful faces, and everything will have a new beginning in the new era.
I stared at the thick curtain of the soft sedan chair, as if I saw the more gorgeous soft sedan chair in front of me, and the old people who sat in the same dive as me. Thinking about their past and gains and losses, it suddenly seems so childish and ridiculous to suddenly feel that those life-and-death fights are just for a man who has never really put his mind on himself. I may be lucky, at least Yinzhen is a little bit true to me, and what they are fighting for.
Although Yinzhen and Wulanala are married couples who have been together since they were teenagers, their feelings are not warm, and after getting along over the years, I can feel Wulanala's sincerity to Yinzhen, but this dedication is not that Yinzhen wants feelings, and even a little cold and repulsive.
If Yinzhen really likes anyone, maybe that person should be Li, but it's a pity that ten years of grace can't be defeated by the years, and how high it will hurt to fall, so I actually understand Li's deep resentment towards me, and know that her tragedy is caused by my appearance at the root, in her opinion, I took away Yinzhen's last remaining affection for her, in other words, I will have such a deep resentment, but even if there is no me, there will actually be others.
Yinzhen was not a dedicated person in the first place, women were the need for him to reproduce children and adjust his life, and his whole body and mind were placed in the vast world outside of the love between men and women. Because of this awareness and the lessons of the Li family, I can always maintain a sense of sanity in the face of his affection and connivance, which makes me never really fall in love with such a man.
Li is hateful, but hateful people must have pathetic things, because I have such a recognition of Li that even though her existence has always been a threat to me, I have never moved the idea of putting her to death, and still leave her a chance to recover. As long as she exists, I am afraid that I can always remind myself that I can't relax in the slightest, and I can't get lost in the appearance of being as illusory and beautiful as a bubble, but in fact there are murderous intentions everywhere.
Yinzhen has never loved Qian, and the intersection between Qian and him comes more from my instructions. In Yinzhen's eyes, the Qian family is like my shadow, or a puppet I want to support, since the birth of Hongli, there has been no intersection, even the importance of Hongli comes from the expectations in my plan and Hongli's own intelligence. Fortunately, there is Hongli, fortunately, I have no intention of fighting, and fortunately, Qian himself is also a good one.
The women in this mansion who have not been able to enter this palace for various reasons, they may have been erased from Yinzhen's memory, and even if they mention it, it is difficult for him to be touched.
I once thought that Nian's would become Yinzhen's real favorite woman as rumored, but the truth is still cruel, Nian's is just a prop used to show off his political interests, which made me see Yinzhen's ambition and his ruthlessness.
I sympathize with Nian, but I can only watch from the sidelines, and even add fuel to the fire. Because for her, this is the innate responsibility and obligation to the family, her fate has been determined since birth, she exists for politics, and this is the shackle that cannot be removed from her until she dies. For Yinzhen and me, she is like a stepping stone, an indispensable roadbed for us to fulfill our respective wishes and goals.
There is only one woman in the mansion who is innocent, and that is the Song family, although she has also targeted and framed me, but I have never resented her, but I feel sorry and sad for her in my heart. She is Yinzhen's first woman, but she has never received Yinzhen's love. Every child she gave birth to for Yinzhen only lived for a short time before dying, she has always existed as dispensable as air in that huge mansion, humble and insignificant, even the most trusted and close people betrayed her, and even strangled her children with their own hands. She's crazy, maybe that's the real relief for her, and she can finally live in her own world without worry.
Song is a poor woman, and I thought about letting her move in with Jingren Palace to take care of her, but this proposal was rejected by Yinzhen for a simple reason - her identity is not worthy. In Yinzhen's view, Li is a sinner, Song is a madwoman, and the most important thing is that both of them are unclean women in Yinzhen's eyes. Yinzhen has never eliminated the doubts about Hongshi's birth, and she also knows the relationship between the Song family and her servant, in Yinzhen's opinion, these two people can have a place is already to take care of the old relationship and be extraordinarily gracious, how can they have a better place to go. As a result, the huge Chengqian Palace was destined to have another name from the time it was assigned to these two people - Cold Palace.