I didn't want to cry, but when I said this, for some reason, tears slipped down my eyes. He continued in his silent gaze: "I know how good you are to me, but every time I see those women around you, Chang Fujin, Song Gege, and even Fang Fujin, their present seems to let me see my future. That's why I can't give my heart and soul. I know it's disrespectful, you're going to be angry, you're going to blame me for not knowing what to do, and you're not even going to set foot here again, but I'm not the only one, and you'll have a better choice. If that's the case, I don't care. Even if you keep me in detention for a year, two, ten years...... Even for a lifetime, or death, for me, the result is actually the same. I'd rather die when you still have feelings for me, and let you remember me for the rest of your life, rather than wait until the time when the red face is not old and the grace is broken, and go to the end miserably. ”

Yinzhen's eyes became strangely deep in the night, and I faintly felt the unwillingness and anger in his heart. This isn't the first time I've challenged his emotional boundaries.

"Why do we have to get along this way every time! Is it harder for you to be with me than to die?"

At this point, I don't want to argue with him anymore about what he means to misinterpret it. From the day of incense, the emotions accumulated to the present are almost all used in my heart. The kind of emotional entanglement that contains grievances, unwillingness, frustration and complex emotional entanglements between him and Yinyu makes my brain completely unable to think, I only feel that my heart is stuffy, I want to vomit but can't vomit, I want to cry but can't cry.

Suddenly, Yinzhen clamped my jaw, forcibly grabbed my waist, and bowed his head to kiss domineeringly, unlike the first kiss, the strong plunder seemed to be deliberately declaring his rights. His sudden but uncharacteristic kiss, at this time it seems to have found an outlet for the depression in my heart, at this moment I almost forgot to breathe, only to feel a burst of hypoxia in the brain, consciousness away, the numbness from the lips, so that the body trembled slightly, the whole person was paralyzed in his arms, from his hand to the back and down his hands but unable to resist, did not want to resist, and even instinctively excited and responded to him.

Originally, he was only wearing a middle coat when he left the house, and although he was unconscious, he could still clearly feel some reactions in his body at this time. His body temperature began to rise, and his breathing became heavy. The domineering plunder began to turn gentle, and my hands slowly slid down and squeezed, as if trying to rub me into my body.

Yinzhen's lips slowly moved down, and in his teasing, I seemed to hear my own shy gasp. At this point, both of them seemed to have forgotten that they were still outside the house, until the whole person was picked up by him, and then the sound of the cup slamming to the ground, pulled my sanity back violently.

I lay on my back on the stone table, staring at him in an ambiguous and shy posture. The coolness from the stone table on his back drove away the flame that was stirred up in his heart, and the whole person instantly sobered up.

Looking at the desire in his eyes, he suddenly didn't know how to refuse. I didn't look at it, avoiding his eyes, I just saw the direction where Xiao Shunzi and Su Peisheng were, and the two of them had turned their backs at some point, which calmed down the last trace of restlessness in the body, and put both hands against him, and whispered: "No...... ...... here"

Yinzhen didn't say anything, and suddenly picked me up and strode back to the house.

Yun Hui had already woken up at this time, and when she saw me carrying me in in disheveled, she wanted to ask out loud, but she heard Yinzhen coldly say "go out", so she had to look at me worriedly and hurriedly closed the door and left the house.

Yinzhen put me on the bed, stripped off my clothes, and regained the unfinished warmth just now. In the face of his enthusiasm, I know that it is difficult for a normal man to use reason to convince anything at this time, not to mention that he can't be blamed for being out of control, I can only blame myself for giving him the same response just now. But at this point, I couldn't respond to him again, so I could only close my eyes and passively wait for what was about to happen.

"Still don't you want to?" he asked in a hoarse voice when he suddenly stopped.

"It doesn't really matter if I want it or not......" I opened my eyes to look at him, and I couldn't hear any warmth in my tone.

"I don't want to force you to ......" my answer made Yinzhen silent, looking at me quietly, the burning in his eyes gradually receding. He said this, did not continue, left me and lay back on the bed, stared at the top of the bed, and muttered, "I don't want you to be a woman like them, I don't know why, I just think you are different from them." Three years? Just three years. ”

"Why are you ......" I wanted to ask him why he suddenly changed his mind. But I couldn't ask. Because I didn't even think about leaving him, I just wasn't ready to accept him.

"The twisted melon is not sweet, I don't want you to hate me, and I don't want to lose my trust in you. Actually, your body is more honest than your heart, but I have enough patience to wait. Yinzhen took me into his arms and whispered in a low voice, with an inexplicable smile on his lips.

"You...... Do you want to go to the newcomer......" His last ambiguous words made me feel embarrassed, and I felt that his business was not over, so I asked awkwardly.

"No, I don't force you, it doesn't mean you don't have to do anything......" Yin Zhen had a deep evil smile on his lips, and then his actions made me suddenly understand what he meant.

I was speechless for a while, and said in my heart that the historian said that Yinzhen was unkind, and if he had the opportunity to find out, he would promise not to be killed. This time I didn't refuse, as he said, in fact, from the moment I responded to him, I realized that I didn't have feelings for him at all, although my feelings for Yinyu were still in my heart and I couldn't let go. But I'm not hard-hearted, these days Yinzhen has done nothing to me without Yinzhen paying less, I already have his place in my heart, and unlike Yinzhen, I am destined to stay with him for a lifetime, this feeling has no pressure from the world, but I am afraid of facing the known future and hesitate.

This night, everyone in the small courtyard had unspeakable thoughts in their hearts. Outside the small courtyard, the candles in the courtyard of the newcomer and the Li family were not extinguished all night. It is difficult to have any secrets in the huge mansion, and the news that Yinzhen stayed in my hospital on the night of Xin Gege's entry into the mansion was also spread throughout the mansion early the next morning.

In April of the forty-third year of Kangxi, although Yinzhen and I still kept the three-year covenant, the relationship between the two people also had a new change. This change also indicates that my life is moving in the opposite direction of "living alone and living in peace". The history of the future is known to me, but my future is full of unknowns and uncertainties. (To be continued.) )