Chapter 061: A Soul Distorted by Loneliness and Emptiness

The courtyard of the Ulanara clan is adjacent to the garden of the prefecture. The place where the body of Xiaoliuzi was buried outside the courtyard has now been re-turned over the soil, and the soil is mixed with cinnabar to ward off evil spirits, and new plants are planted on it to whitewash the peace, so that it is no longer possible to see what has happened here, and even the name Xiaoliuzi has become a taboo not to mention in the house as much as possible.

"Don't you have nightmares when you sleep at night?" Li Shi, who was walking in front, suddenly stopped, suddenly turned around and said to me.

I was stunned for a moment, and then I realized what she said, glanced at the Song family who followed me, and said with a smile: "I didn't do anything wrong, I'm not afraid of ghosts calling the door, thanks to the blessing of Fujin, I really slept Ansheng, and I didn't feel that there was anything wrong." ”

Li Shi really didn't care when he saw what I said, and said coldly and disdainfully: "Even if you didn't kill people, they will definitely die because of you, how cold-blooded are you, standing here and not feeling indebted, you can still laugh." What is so good about you slut, you actually let the master put up with you and the man outside, and the means are really powerful. "Do I need to feel indebted to something? Someone who is not loyal to his duty and has to do some life-saving errands, and he is self-inflicted, so what does it have to do with me?" I raised my eyes to look at Li, and chuckled and teased in my words: "Didn't Fang Fujin raise a baby in his own yard in those days? How could anyone still tell you these bloody and taboo words? It seems that these people around you really know everything about you......

I don't know if the Li clan can hear the deep meaning of my words, originally there was no need to remind her, but I was not happy to see her being suppressed by the Ulanala clan like this. If they don't fight, I'll be a waste of chess to the Ulanala clan, and it's hard to say what will happen in the future. Only by making the Ulanala clan always feel that the Li clan is still an opponent and a threat, can she keep me to deal with the Li clan. I will be able to find a balance in this kind of gap and live a stable life for a few days.

Li Shi fell silent when he heard this, snorted coldly, and said: "Don't think that you can gain momentum by climbing the high branches, the coming day will be long, let's wait and see." ”

Li threw down this sentence and turned his head away. I didn't go all the way with Song, and I didn't want to deal with her, and I was ready to leave with Wanqing, but I didn't want to be called by Song.

"Geng Gege still resents me?" said Song standing behind me and faintly.

While I was talking to Lee, she had been standing there, as if she was deliberately waiting for me to be alone.

For the Song family, since I had torn my face, I couldn't make a fake smile, I turned to look at her, looked at each other coldly, and replied in a shallow voice: "Resentment? ”

Song's face froze, pursed his lips, and when he hesitated, he suddenly asked, "That day...... You know that, right?"

I don't know if Song is talking about her and Su Rui, or if Xiao Liuzi's death is related to her, but I think it's probably the former. Whatever it is, I don't want to explore and get involved in it anymore.

"I don't understand what Song Gege said, I don't know what day you are talking about. I denied Song's questioning, and at the same time gave her a "I don't know anything, I don't want to know anything" attitude.

"I knew you knew everything. From the moment you entered the mansion, I knew that you were a person who lived better than all of us......" Song didn't seem to care what my answer was, and said to himself with a gloomy expression.

I was planning to leave after saying that, but when she said this, I couldn't help but answer, and said, "Yes? Actually, I think I'm the least understanding of the people in this house." ”

I don't know if Song Shi understood what I meant by this, but I saw her smile sadly: "I didn't want to hurt you, I really didn't, but I'm afraid...... Do you know how difficult it has been for me over the years? In the thirty-third year of Kangxi, Fang Fujin was very favored after he entered the government. At that time, I happened to have a body, and I thought that even if I didn't invite him, I would have hope for a child in the future. But I didn't expect to give birth to a daughter, and I was ...... before the full moon After the child died, he never came to me again. For ten years, he spoiled Fang Fujin for ten years, and also snubbed me for ten years. How many women can live alone like this for ten years......"

I didn't expect Song to talk to me about this, the "he" in her words was Yinzhen. I know that this woman must be bitter in her heart, but how many women living in this era are not bitter.

A voice in my head told me that I should leave as soon as possible, and ignore her self-talk, but listening to the words full of resentment, and looking at her unpretentious sad face, I couldn't leave ruthlessly.

Seeing me standing there and silent, Song walked a few steps in front of me, looked sideways in the direction where Xiaoliuzi buried her body, and continued: "Only Su Rui has been by my side all these years, and she is the only one who is sincerely facing me and protecting me. Over the years, what a man can't do, she has done, and what a man can do...... She did too. Because of her, I can want nothing and care nothing. So whoever wants to ruin my life and her life now, damn it......" "I'm not interested in these things about you, you don't have to talk to me about this. The fierceness and coldness of Song's last sentence made my heart tremble, I felt a chill down my back, and the hairs on my body stood up, and I suddenly blurted out her words, not wanting to listen any further. "Listen to me......" Even if I refused, Song still had no intention of ending the conversation. She continued: "After you left that day, I was afraid of ...... It's really scary. I know you must have found something, otherwise you wouldn't have hinted to me that there was something wrong with Yanagiko. I have been living in fear for the past few days, and I don't know if you will tell him about it, and I don't know what Fu Jin plans to do when he finds out about it. In the end, after thinking about it, I could only bow my head to Fu Jin, beg her to let us go, and beg her to help me think of a way to shut you up. But I really didn't want you to die......" "You mean--the blame for Xiao Yanagiko's death, and the fact that you poured dirty water on me, is just because you are suspicious and secretly ghosted, just to make you ask for peace of mind?Heh, it's really funny...... So what is the purpose of telling me this today? "Song has always been a little incomprehensible to me, what she does is almost always subverting my common sense and cognition, although I can understand her pity and pathetic, but I can't understand what she does.

I'm not a virgin, and I can't stick out my right cheek after someone hits me on the left cheek and wait for a second beating, so I will compromise with the Ulanala clan in order to protect myself, and I will also play tricks to make the Li clan fall out of favor, just to seek a peace and ease. However, these are all based on the premise that the other party is hostile to me and has already posed a threat.

But the Song family is different, in order to seek peace of mind, she doesn't think about whether the other party will really pose a threat to her, but blindly protects herself, which makes me feel that this woman is both pitiful and pathetic, and at the same time, there is also a more hateful. "It's Fujin who said that only if there is a dislike between the master and you, he won't listen to or believe what you say, so ......" Song lowered his eyes and whispered: "Although Xiao Shunzi was not killed by her, she proposed to bury the body here." Just to make people feel that you are the only one to be doubted...... "Okay, let the past pass, no more need to say anything." Listening to Song say this, I finally understood her purpose in stopping me to say this.

To put it bluntly, the Song clan felt uncomfortable when he saw that I and the Ulanala clan seemed to have restored a harmonious relationship and were still trusted, and planned to deliberately instigate me to resent the Ulanala clan and sell me a favor by the way. It's a pity that I have already guessed that the Ulanala clan is the driving force behind the whole thing, and now the grievances are also to break the alliance between her and the Song clan, in case they join forces against me again. But now the Song clan is coming to provoke my relationship with the Ulanala clan, not only will it not sell well, but it will only make me hate her even more. "Don't you believe it?" Song Shi asked hurriedly when he saw that I was unmoved. "Believe it or not. I didn't understand what you meant by what you told me today, and I didn't plan to figure it out. In short, we don't interfere with the river water, we live our own lives, just don't toss anymore. "I always felt that something was wrong with this woman's spirit, and I didn't want to talk nonsense with her anymore, so I walked past her and prepared to leave. "Aren't you afraid......" Song's ghostly cold voice came from behind him, asking in a threatening tone.

I paused, stood still and didn't look back, was silent for a moment, and replied: "I'm not a little willow, if you are smart, you should be more afraid than me." Killing people and dismembering corpses is not something that anyone can think of and do. I don't think Xiaoliuzi died unjustly, but the method is too cruel. I'm afraid that people who can do this can do even more ruthless things in the future, so you should ask yourself if you are afraid, instead of taking this leisure for me......"

Song is just an ordinary woman in the mansion, and she became Yinzhen's first woman when she was still young. Even if she is forced to go insane because of her deep loneliness and distorted emotions, she will only think of killing people at most, and she will never think of dismembering her body after murder.

Xiao Shunzi found someone to check Su Rui beside the Song family. This woman who looks big and has a bold temperament is actually not as simple as it seems on the surface. When she was thirteen years old, she was fostered in the name of a relative after a family accident, but she didn't want to be forcibly taken away by the male owner of the relative's house, but the mistress of the relative's family didn't ask the innocent accusation that she was the first to seduce the male master, so she found someone to send her to the capital Baylor Mansion to be a slave to the Song family, and her biological parents were butchers......

When I left, Song was still standing in distraction. I don't know what she thinks of me, but that's none of my business.

In fact, as a woman, I understand the bitterness in her heart, and I don't think that there is anything worth minding and despising about her things. How much loneliness is hidden in the deep boudoir compound, how much youth is buried, and how can you simply use ethics and morality to blame a poor woman's normal needs and comfort. Even if that little willow was killed, I really didn't feel pity, after all, he was to blame. But the Song clan shouldn't be aggressive with me because of his suspicions, and even come up with such a shady trick to frame me. Looking at the Song family with a twisted soul, I secretly sighed - the saddest thing about being born as a human being is not being abandoned, but losing myself. (To be continued.) )