At this moment, I really didn't know how to deal with this, let alone explain it to her. After repeated mental struggles, I finally made the most painful choice, the long pain is better than the short pain, for the sake of the dream, I must be ruthless, and temporarily separate from her for a while. Otherwise, Yumu will definitely be detrimental to this task, and will even make a fool of himself with Director Yu.

So I said to You Meng on the phone: "That's it, You Meng, I'm at the Chuanxin Hotel on Qinghe Road now, you hurry up and drive over." ”

Yumeng asked, "What are you doing there?"

I said, "Don't ask, you come here and find out." ”

You Meng said: "Okay, I'll go over." ”

Hanging up, I let out a deep sigh.

Half an hour later, Yumeng drove to the hotel.

The moment he saw me, his brows suddenly condensed into a pimple, and his expression was a little indignant, and he asked: "Zhao Long, what kind of fame do you want to make! Why do you want to change jobs? Why don't you discuss with me when you change jobs, do you still have my presence in your eyes?"

A series of questions made Yumeng's emotions seem quite excited. It can be seen that she is very dissatisfied with my change of job, and she is even more angry at her concealment of me.

I took a cigarette in my mouth, spit out a puff of smoke vigorously, and said, "It's not up to me to decide whether to change jobs or not, this is the leader's arrangement, what can I do?"

Yumeng leaned over, snatched the lit cigarette from my mouth, and put it in her mouth, but the smoke choked her and coughed.

Yumeng threw away the cigarette and asked, "Whose meaning is this? It's the director's meaning, isn't it?"

Of course, I can't tell her the truth, and I can't tell her that it was arranged by the director. I could only hide it: "It doesn't matter whose idea it is, the important thing is that in fact, I have long been tired of this job, and I want to go out and make a world of my own!"

You Meng snorted coldly: "Even if you want to change jobs, you don't have to choose to be a security guard, right?"

I said, "What's wrong with the security guards? The security guards are also good, and the security work and the security work belong to close relatives, and they are both important parts of the public security work." I was able to play to my strengths in a security company. ”

Yumeng's anxiety became more and more obvious, she sighed deeply, and said, "Zhao Long, you went to be a security guard, did you think of my feelings?"

I didn't answer, but pulled You Meng in the seat, held her shoulder and said, "You Meng believe me, okay, you wait for me for half a year, when I have a success in the security world, I will come back and marry you!"

Yumeng's shoulders shook and shook my hand away, and he said continuously: "Cut, cut, I don't want to marry a security guard, don't ...... Zhao Long, let me tell you, if you really go to be a security guard, then we will be completely finished, and I will never know you Zhao Long again from a dream! I really doubt that you have been kicked in the brain by a donkey, and you can be regarded as a change of job, with your prestige in the Special Guard Bureau, you can't find any job, why do you want to be a security guard? Is it a pig and a tiger? Is it fun? Let me tell you Zhao Long, if you go to be a security guard, then you can't even support yourself with a little salary!"

Maybe these angry words from the dream make me feel a little relieved. From my heart, I am reluctant to part with my dreams, but the task is imminent, and I have no other choice.

So I said to Yumeng: "Since you say so, then, then I admit it." ”

You Meng was stunned and said, "What do you recognize?"

I took a cigarette in my mouth again, and it took a long time before I spoke: "You are your security staff officer, I am my security guard, we each go our own Yangguan Road, and we have nothing to do with each other." ”

When I said these words, my heart was dripping blood, how could I bear to be separated from my dear Yumeng? But at this moment, do I have any other choice? As a soldier, as the executor of this special task, I have no choice, only the right to be chosen.

Yumeng's tears squeezed out of her eyes, she didn't seem to believe what I said, she stood up in her seat tremblingly, two lines of tears slid down her cheeks, and asked sadly: "Zhao Long, what are you talking about? You want to break up with me, aren't you?"

I feigned firmness and said, "Yes." Maybe it's the best option for you and me. ”

Tears crossed the corners of her mouth, and the emotion of the dream reached the peak of sorrow, and she asked softly and unusually calmly: "You don't love me anymore, do you?

I was silent, but I was already crying.

I want to cry, but I can't, I want to laugh, but I can't.

Ask the sky, who can understand my mood at the moment?

I didn't know how to answer Yumeng, I was just silent, but in my heart I answered several times: My dear, how can I not love you anymore, how can I change my heart?

It's just that I'm about to enter a dangerous situation, and I've accepted such a mission, how can I explain it to you?

Seeing that I was silent, shaking my arm desperately, crying more and more intensely, she said aggrievedly: "Zhao Long, you speak, you speak, do you not love me anymore, have you changed your mind? I want you to tell me personally." ”

Yumeng has never been so sad, and I don't know what to do when I see her sad appearance. I really want to take her in my arms and pour out my heart to her. But I can't. The sudden task has determined that we must endure a period of parting, even pain. I can't let her join the security company as a security guard for me, right?

I tried to comfort her, but I didn't. I forcibly held back the love in my heart, pretended to be indifferent, and said, "If you can wait for me for a year, when I get ahead in the security industry, then we still have hope." ”

You Meng asked rhetorically: "Why, why do you have to separate, why? Zhao Long, if you have to retire, then you can work in the Ministry of Public Security, and we also have a house in Beijing, so we can still be together." I really don't understand what's wrong, why do you have to choose to change jobs, why do you have to become a security guard, if it's really because of Ita Fenli and them, then I can go to my dad to theorize, I don't believe it, because this is going to arrange for you to change jobs, it's so unfair, it's unfair!"

I've never seen Yumeng begging me so emotionally, and her face has never bloomed with such sad feelings.

But I still pretended to be strong and said, "I decided to change jobs on my own, and it has nothing to do with Director You, and it has nothing to do with Miss Ita Fenli." ”

After listening to the dream, he was silent for a long time, and he said half a word for a long time.

I took another cigarette in my mouth, and was about to light it, when You Meng suddenly grabbed my hand and said, "Zhao Long, you must have something, definitely." It's certainly not your own idea, and I don't believe you're going to get it so fast, so fast. Tell me honestly, what happened to you, what happened?"

I snapped, "It's fine. Ignoring Yume's objections, I forcibly lit a cigarette and let the nicotine go back and forth in my lungs, maybe this stimulation would calm my complicated feelings for a while.

I understand that the work I have to do now is similar to that of an undercover agent, and before that, the Central Special Guard Bureau rarely took on similar work, which was the job of the public security system, but at this time, the Special Guard Bureau sent me into the security company, and if it were not for the fact that the organization that the director said was too powerful or had a major threat to the head of the central government, this kind of thing would not have happened. I know the difficulty of this work, so I don't want to involve Yumu even more, and the more I interact with Yumu during this time, the greater the danger factor of Yumu becomes. For the sake of my dear people, I would rather choose to be separated from her for a while, even if she misunderstands me and hates me, it doesn't matter, as long as she is safe, I will admit the more pain.

Yumu looked up at me, stared into my eyes, and asked, "I want you to tell me in person, you say." ”

I asked, "Say what?"

Yumeng said: "Do you still love me?"

I forcibly kept the tears from overflowing in my eyes and said, "I want to postpone this love for you for a while, and I will love you even more after I make a difference in the security company." ”

I could only reply to her with such a vague and meaningful sentence.

Yumeng asked rhetorically, "What about you now?

I was still silent, she was still waiting for an answer, but I didn't dare to tell her the real answer.

After that, we were silent for a long time, and Yumu looked at me quietly, thinking about something.

It wasn't until ten minutes later that You Meng broke the silence again, plucked up the courage to ask, "Zhao Long, if I change jobs with you and go to the security company together, will you still abandon me...... I figured it out, it's to beg for food, I want to follow you, I can't live without you, we want to be together forever!"

Yumeng's eyes were filled with tears again.

She even took the initiative to lean over and hug me tightly.

But I pushed her away with a firm heart and said, "Don't be stupid. If you do that, we're hopeless. ”

From the dream to the sky sobbing: "What the hell is going on, what is going on? Zhao Long, what point am I sorry for you from the dream, let you abandon me like this? I can change what I usually do wrong, I know that I am very willful and I am also very stubborn, I can change it...... I just hope you don't abandon me......"

Looking at Yumeng's painful appearance, I frowned, and even had the urge to retreat. I would like to withdraw from this mission and not let my beloved suffer like this.

But do I have any other options?

It seems that national affairs and children's private affairs have never been unanimous. If you can take care of the country and the collective, it is impossible to take care of the small family and love.

I'm also a human being, just a human being. Faced with this situation, my heart is like a knife. I want to wipe away my tears for Yumu, I want to give her an affectionate hug, I want to tell her that I will love her for the rest of my life, for the rest of my life. But is it possible?

Sometimes, when you choose to break up, it's actually because you love deeply.

I said, "Okay, go back." ”

You Meng asked rhetorically: "Is this your reply? A sentence of 'go back' sent me, right?" Zhao Long, let me tell you, loving you is the biggest misunderstanding in my life, I have been thinking about our marriage these days, I thought that after getting married, I could be with my beloved forever...... But I didn't expect this to be the result that awaited me. I don't blame you for abandoning me, and I won't wag my tail and beg for mercy anymore, sometimes, I find that knowing someone is also a very painful thing, you take care. ”

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