To be honest, I didn't think about writing so much about this book at first, just like what I wrote in my testimonial when I first opened the book, it was just an interest I liked when I was young, in fact, I haven't read a few Korean entertainment novels, and I am even more confused about Korean entertainment, and I don't know much about it.

At the beginning of this story, when I watched the king, the king only had hundreds of thousands of words at that time, and the crucian carp was two or three more a day, which happened to be my work and I was not too busy, and I was tired of playing in my spare time.

In fact, at that time, I was ready to open a new book, and the outline was written, so I didn't think about it at all, just made an outline according to my habits, and began to write - the current outline is written after more than 100,000 words, and it began to be perfected - at first, I only thought about a week update, or a half-month update, but, my biggest shortcoming is that I am a little emotional, when I look at the collection a little bit up, when I mix tieba I saw someone recommend Hurricane, when I gradually met some book friends, the original intention changed.

Start taking it seriously, and then can't help yourself!

At the end of 2012, when it was about 500,000 words, the work was heavy and I took on a lot of private work, and the update was interrupted for a few months, because if I want to live, I have to work hard to make money, and the hurricane can't help me solve the problem. That break, I wanted to wait for May of the following year to come back - because I just talked about a girlfriend during the Chinese New Year - but once I got to the starting point after being busy, I saw the reward of "ashes" for a month, saw Hongji's message on Q, and the retention of those friends in the group, and suddenly felt very uncomfortable.

felt that he had failed something, and he didn't even dare to enter the group that day, nor did he dare to answer Hongji's words, and he didn't even dare to bubble in the book review area, and in the next few days, he hesitated many times.

Of course, in the end, I chose to come back early, after a two-month absence, and when I issued a new chapter again, I was very nervous, I don't know how many people would scold me?

But the tolerance of the book friends was beyond my expectations, no one scolded me, but a lot of rewards and support, and the group was also active again, Hongji, Jin family, ashes, rice, yellow book, slag point, Lance...... Acquaintances, new acquaintances, keep appearing around me, and everything is getting better.

It seems like I've never let them down.

However, I am not a professional writer after all, after a period of stability, with the busy work, the update began to fluctuate, some people come in, some people leave, the prosperity is gone, occasionally in the dead of night, I sit alone in front of the computer in the gap between the codewords, will suddenly think, those friends who have left, what kind of disappointment and dissatisfaction with me?

In October, because of the stiffness and pain in my neck, I went to the hospital to find out the degenerative changes in the cervical spine, I thought I would face this problem with great optimism, but more than ten days later, I still wrote a statement in frustration, this illness hit me far harder than I thought!

It's a bit ironic, I have been trying to make money, trying to reduce the burden on my family, but in the end, my body was dragged down because of making money, and the cost of treatment is a lot of money.

So since then, until the update of the New Year has been extremely bad, I'm still the emotional person, because I feel hopeless, I impulsively want TJ, because of the retention of friends in the group, especially the tears of the scum point, and impulsively delete the TJ statement, and then the state is up and down, accompanied by the understanding of my condition, frustrated, disappointed, irritable, completely unable to settle down!

Until, one day, when I learned the news of the death of a good friend, I really felt that the whole world was going to collapse - on the day the news was confirmed, a person sat in front of the computer for a long time, sorting out his words, and it seemed to see him in a strange city, desperate under the pressure of life, and none of our friends were by his side......

I sat for a long time that day, and I cried for a long time, and since I grew up, I have never cried as badly as I did that day, and I have never regretted it like that day.

When a friend is lost, it's not just that person that is lost.

For an emotional person like me, the impact is deeper than outsiders can understand, and I always wonder if he was disappointed in me when he left.

Writing here, the thinking is suddenly confused, but it is also suitable for the topic, today the friends in the group told me, about to 2 million words, after writing the second chapter, looking at the number, looking back on more than a year, looking back on these, at a loss...... (To be continued......)