"Do you know how envious I am of other people's children? They have their own mother and father, and they have you, a kind and selfless doctor, what do I have?"

"In fact, I'm afraid of pain, I want to cry, I want you to be by my bedside, but you want me to be brave, I hope I don't cry, I don't cry or make trouble, and then you are more and more at ease with me, more and more ignoring me, I feel that I am very relieved to be self-reliant and self-reliant, so many years, you are still like this. ”

"In other people's homes, mothers will cook for their children, okay, you are busy, you don't have time to cook, but other mothers who are also busy with work can have at least five or six meals a week to eat with their families, what about me, my father is gone, I can almost only eat takeout at first, and then I learned to cook, junior high school began to deliver meals to you on weekends, and college will send you meals as soon as I meet you on night shift, I care about you, I want to see you more, I want to cherish every opportunity to meet and chat with you, I want you to love me a little more. ”

Speaking of this, Tong Xinlan was already in tears.

In fact, Tong Xinlan used to spurn the kind of children who complained that their parents were busy with work and didn't care about them, if it weren't for his parents working hard to make money to support him, where would he have such a good life, where would he have time to complain, complaining that his parents don't have time to accompany him is simply hypocritical.

However, Wen Xinlan's situation is different, anyone who has been paying unilaterally will feel the psychological gap.

Li Guifen originally wanted to enlighten Wen Xinlan well, and communicated more with the children and the parents of the patients, she felt that she was still a good communicator, but when she heard the grievances of her daughter, she was also stunned, she never knew that her seemingly strong daughter was so fragile in her heart.

Her lips trembled, and she couldn't speak, because she didn't know what she could say to comfort Wen Xinlan, did she really pay too little to the family? She always felt that her daughter was so sensible, which made her very relieved, so she put all her energy into work.

She seems to be really bad like this.

Tong Xinlan saw that Li Guifen's expression was a little loose, but in order to force Li Guifen to resign, she continued to talk about the grievances in Wen Xinlan's heart.

"Do you know why when I got divorced, my father didn't fight with you for my custody? Because he wants me to be able to accompany you, he said that you are a shrewd doctor in the hospital, a doctor who saves lives, Dad likes such a mother, and also feels sorry for such a mother, he said that now you don't know loneliness, so I hope I can accompany you. Dad loves you, but when you're busy, you don't have him or me in your eyes, maybe you think what he told me is a lie, do you think he was just satisfying machismo when he told you not to be a doctor and quit at home just to satisfy machismo, but Dad just wanted to see if you didn't care about him, what you said when you quarreled, how many words could pass through the brain?"

"And you take it seriously, without hesitation, you proposed to divorce your father for the profession you love, and your father who was snubbed by you is really dead, he is a man, they all say that men have to be strong, but he is also a man who needs to be cared for, a man who needs to be loved, when he leaves, he asks me to take good care of you, he says he is selfish, if I am very him, hate it. ”

"Yes, I hate him, I hate you too, you don't love me, you can't take care of me, you love others and love yourself more, so why did you give birth to me?

"Without my father, I became a child in the class who did not have parents to attend the parent-teacher conference, and you also thoughtfully asked the interns you brought to attend the parent-teacher conference several times, do I need someone to attend the parent-teacher conference? What is the meaning of the parent-teacher conference? Do you know how my classmates laugh at me?"

"They laughed at me for being a kid that no one wanted, you know that?"

Yes, I thank you for giving me money to eat and buy clothes, but do you think you have done what a mother should do? Are you worthy to be a mother? Do you think you are like my mother or my daughter?"

"I see hospitals being attacked, doctors making trouble, doctors hacked to death, cutting off arms and never being able to pick up my beloved scalpel, do you know how worried I am? Can't I worry about my mother? You don't care about me so much, I'm still so worried about you, am I cheap?"

"But I just can't help but worry about your safety, no matter how incompetent you are, you are also my mother. ”

"Mom, for me, for your safety, can you stop being a doctor?" Tong Xinlan said at the end, and finally said Wen Xinlan's wish.

Li Guifen was very embarrassed, she really wanted to agree to her daughter's request, but after being a doctor for more than 20 years, she suddenly stopped doing it, she really couldn't let go, she was not a doctor, why did she study so hard in medical university back then? She chose to become a doctor not because this job was stable, nor because this job was respected at the beginning, but just because she liked it.

Tong Xinlan knew Li Guifen's entanglement, and put forward a better suggestion, "Mom, you also know Lu Xun who gave up medicine and followed literature, right? Don't you think that you can do something more meaningful? Have you ever thought that if you are not a doctor, you can help doctors speak? Seeing the dignity of your peers being trampled on, don't you want to do something for them?" Don't you think that those patients who are troubled by doctors, whether they are really victims of medical malpractice, or who are just made a fortune by professional doctors with the help of dead people, don't you think that you can do more after abandoning your identity as a doctor?"

Hearing Tong Xinlan's suggestion, Li Guifen's eyes lit up, but she felt that Xinlan's words were contradictory, maybe just to lure her to resign, "This is also a very dangerous job, you have blocked the financial path of those crazy professional doctors, aren't you afraid that they will retaliate against you and me? Didn't you say that you were worried about my safety?"

Tong Xinlan wiped her tears and said in a choked voice, "Do you think I'm safe when those doctors can slash at the innocent children of the attending doctor? Moreover, who said that if I do this, I will be easily retaliated against by those bastards? Since I said to do this business, I am sure to protect your and my safety, mother don't worry, or mother is worried that doing this line of work will die faster?"

"No, what you said to do is indeed a good thing for the doctor. Li Guifen is also powerless for the current environment of the medical industry, usually people in the office say that the slogan of their work has to be replaced by "go to work happily and go home safely" on the construction site. (To be continued.) )