Chapter 90: The Greed of His and Her Past
Dr. Zijian has Manna to talk to alone, he admires her talent in pharmacy, and he has high hopes for her. www.biquge.info He wanted her to keep going, to go on a medical tour, to become a real doctor.
There are very few female doctors in the city of Grad, because each doctor has to go through a year of medical travel, go to many places independently, use his medical skills to help some people, some villages, and constantly accumulate and improve his medical skills, which is an independent life experience. Only by completing the journey of traveling doctors can you obtain the final recognition of Fu Chai Tong and finally become a doctor.
Many women, after leaving Fu Chai Tong, have returned home, either married, or helped their husbands to start other businesses. It is indeed a lot of difficulties for women, a weak woman walks alone in a strange village, bears the wind and rain alone, and the hardships and dangers on the way are not something that ordinary people can bear.
But Manna has had a medical ambition since she was a child, as if she came here for this from the time she landed. Now, it is natural for her to go on a medical tour, which is the direction she has been working tirelessly into.
However, what about Changyu? He is the son of the king, and it should be undoubted that he will return to Grad City to become a marquis. So, just after we got together, are we going to part again? She didn't want to leave him. But she willingly gave up her wish for many years, if she didn't do it now, maybe in the future, she wouldn't do it again.
Just as he was thinking, someone knocked on the door: "Manna, are you there? It's me, Yu Yin." ”
Manna hid in the doorway, afraid to open it. She was very entangled in her heart, since Gele Changyu came back, she avoided him, afraid to see him, she didn't know how to face You Yin.
"I know you're in there. Daylight casts Manna's figure onto the door paper. You Yin continued, "I know he's back. ”
I'm sorry, You Yin. She thought to herself, but she didn't know how to say it.
"Actually, I'm here to say goodbye to you, I'm leaving, leaving the hospital to go on a medical tour. After that, you have to take care of yourself. You Yin paused and said, "I'm leaving, will you come to see me off?"
Soon, there was no sound outside the door.
Manna went to open the door, but found that it was Gele Changyu, and she was stunned.
"What's wrong? Are you scared? I haven't knocked on the door yet, how do you know I'm coming?"
"Changyu, you are waiting for me here, just now You Yin came to say goodbye to me, he is going to the doctor, I will send him. She didn't dare to look at Changyu's eyes, so she took off his hand and walked away.
Manna always cares so much about Youyin, which makes Grad Changyu very jealous. He thought that in the year he was away, maybe a lot of things had happened that he didn't know. But he is willing to believe that Manna, no matter what the past, her future belongs to him.
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"You Yin. Manna caught up with You Yin in the bamboo garden: "I'll send you." ”
When You Yin saw Manna, there was a hint of a smile in his melancholy: "Finally willing to see me." ”
Manna was embarrassed and said, "Why did you leave in such a hurry?"
"Well, actually, I made a decision a long time ago, and I wanted to tell you a long time ago, but you have been deliberately avoiding me. ”
"I haven't, I've been a little busy lately....." is a reason that even she can't convince herself.
"Changyu...... Is it okay for you?"
"Well, that's good. This is something she is unwilling to do in front of him: "Is the matter of the traveling doctor so resolute?"
"As you said, this is something that gives you peace of mind, something you have to do in this life no matter what, and for me, too. What about you? are you going to go back and be your marquise, or are you .....?"
"I ...... Actually, I haven't thought about it yet, and I don't know what to do now. ”
"It's not like you. ”
You Yin may not understand, in addition to ideals, she has more worries in her heart.
"Can we see each other again?"
Only God knows. ”
"He's so busy, he must not have time to take care of us. ”
You Yin was silent, he couldn't give an answer.
Manna felt that she was greedy. She longs for Changyu's love, but she is used to You Yin's company. They study together, eat together, play together, and grow together. Her frustration, her sadness, all her sorrow could be revealed to him nakedly, she could cry without image, without fear, and then wipe all her tears on his shoulders.
When You Yin told her that she was leaving, she suddenly felt that companionship was such a beautiful thing. With him, she is at ease, authentic and does not need to be disguised. Instead of being with Gele Changyu like this, their identities are very different, she can't stand beside him at any time like Miss Tang to help him sort out his wrinkled clothes, she can only stand in the crowd and watch him from a distance. She always felt humbled and begged him to love her.
If, she thought that there really was an if, if she met You Yin first, not Gele Changyu, she would definitely love him. She hadn't figured out what to do when she was sad and turned around and couldn't see him.
Manna said, "You Yin, you wait. She took his hand, knelt on the ground, and said, "You Yin, let's let the heavens testify, how about I, Manna and you, You Yin, become brothers and sisters from today?"
She is afraid that she will lose contact with him from now on, maybe so, as a brother and sister, the relationship between brother and sister is a relationship that cannot be discarded or forgotten in a lifetime. Maybe that's the only way to do it, even if he has his own life in the future, there is still such a connection between them. Manna comforted herself like this, in fact, she just hoped that his love would not decrease or disappear.
"Manna, you get up......" Yu Yin pulled her up.
"Why, don't you want to?"
You Yin didn't feel good in his heart, what was this woman thinking? He loved her, how could he be a brother and sister. He desperately grabbed her, kissed her hard, let her struggle, let her fist hammer into his chest. He grabbed her resisting hand. Her lips were sweet, the tip of his tongue swam between her lips and teeth, and he felt like a bull who had been going crazy.
Salty, he kissed salty tears from her eyes. She cried, like the injured bird that fell from the sky a year ago.
He stopped and helped her get her clothes in order.
She was stunned. Crying and saying, "It's too late, it's too late." ”
You Yin said: "What I want you to love me is not a brother and sister relationship." If you can't love me, then we'd better not have any contact. Because I'm afraid I won't be able to contact you as someone I don't love. I can't help but want to involve you in my life. ”
You Yin left one last kiss on Manna's forehead and said, "Since you have chosen to leave my life, then, in the future, I will not be by your side, and I will not come to comfort you again, you have to be strong yourself, protect yourself, don't fall, don't get hurt, so that I can walk with peace of mind." ”
After saying that, he didn't help Manna who was crying, he carried the burden and walked away without looking back.
Perhaps, in a woman's life, she will always meet two people, one is amazing and the other is gentle. No matter who you choose, the other person will leave you and become a stranger.
Who would you choose?