Chapter 184: I owe you in this life

The night before, when Fu Cheng and Xu Tingsheng listened to the story of the female singer "Blossom", they walked out of the small bar. Because he found out that Xu Tingsheng didn't know when he shed tears, Fu Cheng said: "Now, you will go to West Lake City, right?"

Xu Tingsheng shook his head and said, "I'm not going, let's end it like this." Yes, yes, it's good for me. ”

Fu Cheng thought that Xu Tingsheng's tears reminded him of the story of the female singer in the bar, but in fact, Xu Tingsheng only heard "three years" and "I'm still waiting for him to come back".

That is a story that belongs to Xu Tingsheng and Xiang Ning.

Fu Cheng, who was helpless, no longer insisted on his opinion.

On the streets of Shenghai at one o'clock in the morning, two half-drunk people decided to walk back the rest of the way. A story that happened inadvertently, and finally turned into a dilemma between the two sides, and it seems that it can finally come to an end,......

If Xu Tingsheng hadn't received a call from Song Ni this night. Song Ni said, "Xu Tingsheng, will you come tomorrow?" I didn't say anything when I asked. I'm in Westlake City now, with my assistant, will you come tomorrow?".

Xu Tingsheng said: "I'm not going. ”

Song Ni said, "But, it's not good right now. ”

Xu Tingsheng said: "I know that if she survives this while, she will be fine." ”

Song Ni said: "No, you don't know, you don't know, it's not just those things, it's really bad." Such...... I asked my assistant to tell you. ”

's assistant took the phone. Xu Tingsheng remembered that it was a slightly chubby girl, and that time when the company sent a car to pick her up in the south of the country, Xu Tingsheng saw this girl and smiled kindly at her.

"Hello. She said.

"Hello. Xu Tingsheng said.

"I think it's depression, and it can be severe. She said directly.

On the street at midnight, Xu Tingsheng suddenly trembled slightly.

Depression may not sound as scary as those terminal illnesses, but in fact, it is the second leading cause of death after cancer, with millions of people dying from depression every year worldwide...... Some of the most stressed industries are the hardest hit.

What Xu Tingsheng heard now is that he has depression, and it may be severe.

Xu Tingsheng tried to adjust himself, and said in a voice that was still a little trembling: "Why? I mean, how do you judge? Have you been to the hospital for diagnosis?"

"No, I tried to persuade me to see a psychiatrist, but she didn't listen and lost her temper...... Actually, she was very good to me, we were like sisters and sisters, she never lost her temper with me.

But, I can really tell, it's depression. In the past two months, she has become very little talking, and she hardly sleeps, only eats a little food, and she has lost more than 20 pounds.

Once when I went into her room in the morning, I found that she had removed the sheets and quilt covers and torn them neatly one by one, and she had torn them all night, her nails were broken, her hands were bleeding, and she was still tearing them when I went in.

Also, last time the boss asked her to ask you for a song, she didn't say a word from beginning to end, she was like this at the boss's place, and after she came back, she sits, doesn't sleep, and doesn't say anything. Now when I call her, it will take a long time for her to react. ”

"I ......" Xu Tingsheng didn't know what to say, because the assistant's description was almost conclusive.

"You believe me, I'm really sure," the assistant said eagerly, "because ...... Because, her current situation is very similar to a singer I used to follow, almost exactly the same. She's just depressed and doesn't sing anymore. ”

"What's the name of that singer?" Xu Tingsheng asked.

“……”

The assistant said the name of a female singer surnamed L, which was a singer who was once very popular in the mainland. What the assistant said was that she stopped singing now, and Xu Tingsheng ...... In his previous life, he had seen the news that the female singer finally committed suicide by jumping off a building due to depression.

Since the assistant said that the situation of the two is almost identical, and she herself is the person who gets along with them the most every day, Xu Tingsheng actually already has the answer.

"I see, I'll contact you tomorrow morning. ”

Xu Tingsheng hung up the phone and sat down along the street, looking sluggish and depressed.

"What's wrong?" Fu Cheng asked cautiously.

"I have depression. Xu Tingsheng raised his head, and after saying this, he still kept opening his mouth, but he didn't say anything more.

"How is it possible, so lively, naughty, scoundrel, goblin, stinky and shameless......" Fu Cheng tried to find adjectives about the past, he wanted to find more, because these words are so positive and precious at the moment.

Indeed, she used to be such a person.

Xu Tingsheng still remembers her initial appearance of being dead and approaching herself, remembering that she is so easy to be satisfied, easy to be happy, loves to laugh, loves to mess around, and loves to "tease" herself, like a complete demon.

The happiest day in her memory was the day Xu Tingsheng University opened, she came to send him to school, and then called "husband" and "husband" all day long, messing around all day.

After getting along, even if Xu Tingsheng put on a bad face and said cruel words, she could easily take it, saying that when you fall in love with me, the old lady will abuse you to death. Even if she is sad, she will run into the heavy snow, learn the taekwondo posture of Bao Meizi, and say "ha".

"But, it seems like I haven't seen that in a long time. Fu Cheng said suddenly.

This sentence reminded Xu Tingsheng that he had indeed not seen that for a long time, and I don't know when he started to stop messing around with her Xu Tingsheng and never say naughty things again.

She began to speak and do things carefully, always ending conversations with "um" that she hadn't really figured out.

Fu Cheng sat down next to Xu Tingsheng and said, "Is it serious?"

"It's serious. Xu Tingsheng said.

Fu Cheng saw his tears and said, "Don't blame yourself too much, in fact, I can't blame you." It's mainly that circle, as well as her agency, she is a little girl, to face these alone, endless commercial performances, no prospects, and maybe some dirty things, intrigues, oppression, and ,......"

Fu Cheng's "and", originally wanted to say that Xu Tingsheng gave the song to Tianyi this time, but looking at Xu Tingsheng's state, he didn't say it.

"In fact, if you really have any responsibility, it's not the responsibility of feelings, after all, no one can force emotional matters. It's just that during this time, you didn't give her a window, and you took away the support in her heart, that's you. Fu Cheng said.

"Actually, it's all because of me, really, it's all because of me. Xu Tingsheng looked up to the sky and said.

Fu Cheng thought that Xu Tingsheng was just blindly blaming himself in a state of extreme guilt, and did not answer.

No one in this world can truly understand the true meaning of Xu Tingsheng's words. Because that's the truth, it was Xu Tingsheng who changed the originally beautiful trajectory of her life and pushed her to where she is today.

Even if it was unintentional, the truth is that he caused all this.

In the life of rebirth, Xu Ting lives very hard, for himself and for others, so everything seems to be getting better.

The fate of the Xu family has been reversed, and it is getting better and better.

The friends around her also got better results, Song Ni avoided the tragedy, Huang Yaming found the direction, even Fu Cheng and Fang Yunyao, although the sky is different now, they still avoided the tragedy like the previous life and had a good time.

Wu Yuewei and Xiang Ning, at least they seem to be better than in their previous lives.

Even Zhong Ming, his roommate in his previous life, avoided a disaster because of Xu Tingsheng.

All of them have become better, because of Xu Tingsheng, maybe it will be better in the future, because of Xu Tingsheng.

The fate of one person, the only one, has become so bad, and it is getting worse and worse...... Because of Xu Tingsheng. Xu Tingsheng single-handedly ruined her originally beautiful life, and then left her alone to face the endgame?

Xu Ting owed someone in his previous life, it was Xiang Ning. I owe someone in this life, yes

Xu Tingsheng stood up and stood on the side of the road to stop the car.

"Are you ......," Fu Cheng asked.

"Now I'm going to West Lake City, and in the future, I'll take care of her. Xu Tingsheng said.

"What about Xiang Ning?"

What about Xiang Ning? This is a question that Xu Tingsheng can't face: "...... , listen to the arrangement of fate, maybe there is me, maybe there is no me. Maybe she would be better off without me. ”

Xu Tingsheng's last sentence, Fu Cheng will never understand, such as "and me".

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Next chapter night, chapter name: What about the big Xiang Ning