Chapter 8 Backwardness of Thinking
Seeing that Gu Yanzhou hadn't spoken yet, Fang Xueling knew that this was making people angry, "Hey, you talk about it, what's wrong?"
"I didn't say anything wrong, she treated me like that before, and I was stupid to be friends with her. When Fang Xueling said this, her face became a little serious, "Seriously, don't expect me to live in peace with her, I hold a grudge against her, and I will remember every penny I owe." ”
Gu Yanzhou was stunned, but still remained silent. Fang Xueling sighed and stopped talking.
When he got to the car, Gu Yanzhou opened the door, pushed Fang Xueling in, and went around to the driver's seat and sat down.
"What are you doing?" Fang Xueling still didn't hold back, and opened her mouth first.
Gu Yanzhou glanced at Fang Xueling, and said in a difficult tone, "You said you hold a grudge?"
"yes, I'm vindictive. Fang Xueling nodded, "So, don't think that I can get along with her, I am destined to not be able to stay with her." ”
Gu Yanzhou didn't respond, he took a cigarette and wanted to light it, and then realized Fang Xueling's existence, and silently put the cigarette back.
"So, Fang Xueling, you hate me too, is that so?" Gu Yanzhou said bitterly, he had done too many things to be sorry for Fang Xueling before, and if it was him, he would not let go. However, he tried to make amends, and he knew that he was wrong.
Fang Xueling was silent, this, she didn't know how to say it. Do you complain about Gu Yanzhou? She is resentful, but in addition to resenting him, she loves him even more, seeing him clumsily flattering her, her depression in those years slowly dissipated, whether she is spineless, or that she is not angry, she has recognized Gu Yanzhou in this life, and no one can do it except him.
Gu Yanzhou closed his eyes painfully, feeling that his eyes were so sour, "So, you can easily say the word divorce, is that so? You are ready to part with me at any time?"
Fang Xueling looked out the window and thought to herself, no, she really forgave him, but the words she said were, "What if I say yes?"
Gu Yanzhou's heart ached, and he was speechless for a while.
"Do you want to part with me now?" Gu Yanzhou, let's go get a divorce. Fang Xueling said softly, there might really be no going back between her and Gu Yanzhou.
Even if she really forgave Gu Yanzhou and wanted to live a good life with him, but Gu Yanzhou didn't believe her, what could she do? Instead of the two of them looking together, and the two of them sleeping in the same bed and dreaming differently, it was better to separate early, why torture each other.
"We may not really be suitable for being together, and after trying hard, we can't hug each other, so it's better to let each other go. Fang Xueling smiled lightly, her eyes slightly moistened, "This maybe, it will be better." ”
"I don't allow it!" Gu Yanzhou shouted, stepped forward to imprison Fang Xueling, pinched Fang Xueling's chin with one hand, and kissed her hard.
"Hmm......" Fang Xueling frowned, but she didn't struggle much, she just felt a little uncomfortable, she had never seen Gu Yanzhou like this.
Like a wounded lion, proud and humble, Fang Xueling's heart softened.
In the middle of the ring, Gu Yanzhou buried his head in Fang Xueling's neck and hugged her tightly, "I don't want to be separated, Xueling, I want to be with you." ”
Fang Xueling didn't speak, not because she didn't agree, but because she felt that she and Gu Yanzhou were not suitable to be together. In the past, it was Fang Xueling who suffered from gains and losses, but now it has become Gu Yanzhou, how can the two of them go together like this.
"Well, let's take a break and think about what we're going to do with each other. After deciding and talking about other things, it is easy for us to be rash and do things wrong. Fang Xueling hugged Gu Yanzhou lightly, "If in the future, we still decide to be together, then we will live a good life in the future, don't think about what we don't have, but what if we don't have it, but if we ...... If one party feels that it is not suitable, then separate. ”
"I don't want to. Gu Yanzhou tightened Fang Xueling in his arms again, "I'm pretty sure I want you." ”
"Gu Yanzhou, you may be guilty or embarrassed by loss, but these are not the reasons why we can live a lifetime, we should still think clearly. Back then, I was too young to do something wrong, and now we should think about it. ”
"I've thought it through, Xueling, and you trust me. Gu Yanzhou choked up, he was afraid, the calmer Fang Xueling was, the more panicked he became.
Fang Xueling felt a burst of wetness coming from her neck, and her heart couldn't help but tremble, Gu Yanzhou, who had been standing tall, the person she had been looking up at cried.
"You talk about our various considerations, but do you think in your heart, and after thinking about it, you will dump me? and then throw yourself into Xue Huansheng's arms, did he tell you something?" Gu Yanzhou felt more and more reasonable, and the more he thought about it, the more frightened he felt, "It must be so." ”
"Gu Yanzhou, calm down, things are not what you think, Xue Huansheng didn't say anything to me, the person he likes is not me. Fang Xueling sighed, "You are not rational at all, let's talk about it later." ”
"Xueling, why can't you believe me?" Gu Yanzhou said with some grief, could it be that if you miss it once, there will be no chance of recovery?
How could Fang Xueling be so ruthless, when he married her, he was only young, no matter how mature he was, he was young and vigorous, so he insisted on going his own way and made mistakes, but he really knew that he was wrong.
"I believe you, but you better go back and think about it, and give each other a chance to think. Fang Xueling nudged Gu Yanzhou away, turned around and prepared to get out of the car.
"Xueling. Gu Yanzhou grabbed Fang Xueling, with a pleading in his eyes, "Don't go." ”
"I don't want to leave, I just feel that we are not suitable to be together now, we all have pimples in our hearts, if we don't expel all the discomfort in our hearts, how can we be together?" Fang Xueling pushed Gu Yanzhou away again, "We don't want us to live in suspicion for the rest of our lives, in that case, you are too tired to live, and I am not happy." ”
"Xueling......" Gu Yanzhou looked at Fang Xueling's back as she left, and called softly, there was too much helplessness and discomfort in her tone.
This time, I have to face the back of you leaving all the time? Gu Yanzhou's hand hanging down his side clenched into a fist vigorously, his face was full of gloom, why did Meng Qinglan appear, why did Xue Huansheng always appear beside Fang Xueling.
......
Fang Xueling didn't walk as chic as she had on her face, she was reluctant in her heart, especially when Gu Yanzhou begged her with red eyes, she couldn't bear to push him away.
But her thinking is not unreasonable, if she and Gu Yanzhou get back together, it will be together for a lifetime, a long life, if this life, Gu Yanzhou is worried about whether she will leave, how tired Gu Yanzhou is.
While I want to be with her, I keep worrying. She didn't want to see Gu Yanzhou because she was like this, Gu Yanzhou should be proud and wanton, not like this. In this case, neither of them will be happy.
When she got home, it was almost time to eat, and Fang Xueling stayed at the door of the house for a while before entering. She knows that her current situation is not right, but she doesn't want her parents to worry about her anymore, three years ago, her insistence has made her parents sad, this will, she really doesn't want to let any little thing bother her parents.