384 Night Companions
The stars are dense and the night sky is vast.
Bai Ziqi wrapped her body in a quilt and sat against the wall, three steps away, the dumb aunt also wrapped her body in a quilt and sat against the wall, and the posture of the two people was exactly the same.
The dumb aunt looked up at the night sky, looking intently at the stars.
The two of them exchanged a few words briefly, she was silent, Bai Ziqi was a little confused about her thoughts, even if this little woman was once very familiar with her, but time has passed, and now there is a sense of strangeness, sometimes he obviously feels that he has touched her mind, but when the words came out of her mouth, he realized that he still hadn't figured out her person.
The hardest thing in the world to figure out is the human heart.
Even former lovers can still change over time.
Especially the change between them is enough to lead to a complete subversion of a person's mentality, and he is sorry for her.
Now we can only make up for it, and we will do everything we can to make up for it.
Originally, she has always had a cold face that rejects people thousands of miles away, even if he lives outside the wall and faces each other, she doesn't seem to be soft-hearted, he thinks there is no room to save that heart, the strange thing is that this trip to Liangzhou, all the way in the same car, her attitude has obviously improved again, and she can talk and communicate with him pleasantly, and tonight, he lives alone outside is indeed a little cold, I didn't expect her to come out with the bed, which is surprising, she came to sit next to him without saying a word, and it seems that it is not a whim, but to accompany him all night until dawn, what does this mean, is to watch him alone outside the avatar called Hanako to spend the night and feel unbearableIs this to accompany you in person?
No matter what she thinks, his heart is warm, touched by a kind of warmth, she is still the same she, she is indifferent on the surface, but in fact, her heart is still so soft, a typical knife mouth tofu heart.
As long as he is accompanied by her, he doesn't feel aggrieved even if he sleeps on the street outside the door.
What does it mean that she can come and spend the night with him in person, that she has finally relented and wants to forgive herself, accept her apology and reconcile with him?
He felt indescribably excited, as long as she was willing to forgive and give him a chance to start again, he must cherish the opportunity, cherish the person he got again, what he didn't have time to do in his previous life, he must do it for her in this life, give all the good that a man can give to this woman, and make her happy for the rest of her life.
The more Bai Ziqi thought about it, the more excited he became, his mind was soft, agitated, full of manly pride, he wanted to take care of this little woman, take her small body in his arms, be good to her, and give her all the good.
He quietly shifted and slowly approached.
The dumb aunt kept looking at the heights, motionless, like a cold stone.
Bai Ziqi approached, feeling her coldness, he suddenly felt a little timid, so he rashly reached out to hug her, what if she was unhappy? She can accompany herself tonight, but the progress she has made after a period of unremitting efforts, in case she is unhappy and starts to hate herself again, wouldn't it be that everything has returned to its original shape, and all the previous efforts have been wasted.
He raised his arm and lay it in the air, but he didn't have the courage to fall down and wrap his arms around her petite shoulders.
She sat quietly, he could feel her breathing, a gentle breath exhaled, mixed with the air of the night, gently fell on his face, he held his breath to feel the breath, once so familiar lovers, because they did not cherish and lost forever, originally he thought that he would never see her again in this life, but he didn't expect to be able to meet again, at this moment, in this life, what more requirements does he have for the world and fate?
He sat upright, folded his hands, looked at the stars high up, and prayed silently.
Suddenly, there was a "poof" smile in his ears.
She was laughing.
He pretended not to hear, and his aunt muttered thickly.
"I don't think you believe in ghosts and gods?" she asked with a smile.
At the end of his prayer, he respectfully bowed to the night sky in the high place, and said: "All the stars, all the clouds, and all the passing fairies and elves in the night sky tonight, please testify, I, Bai Ziqi, spend tonight with my beloved, this is the happiest night I have in this world, after tonight, no matter what the ending, I am grateful to this world and all those who are good to me." ”
The dumb aunt smiled, "I feel good, people just want to see the stars, where is the special to accompany you?"
Her tone was as soft as water, full of hatred.
Bai Ziqi's heart was crossed, and she no longer hesitated, and stretched out her hand to stop her tightly.
Her body shuddered. It seems to break free.
He hugged her tightly and didn't give her a chance to dump herself.
She only struggled a few times, then she didn't move, and her body squeezed deep into his arms, like a child attached to her mother, deep into her mother's arms.
Bai Ziqi hugged this small body with both arms, hugged it tightly, lowered his head, buried his face in her hair, the soft hair was filled with a light fragrance, he greedily inhaled the fragrance, rubbed his face on the hair, tears were falling, he endured it for so long, he couldn't bear it anymore, this moment was completely relaxed, rushed, and vented...... Tears flowed quietly, what kind of man doesn't flick if he has tears, the crooked reasoning of bullshit, that's not to the sad place!
The dumb aunt was still quiet, her small body was motionless, there was no resistance, and there was no further response, it seemed that she was very tired and tired, and just wanted to lean a little on his shoulder and take a breath. It's just so close that I don't want to go any further.
The night sky was silent, and in the second half of the night, the autumn was deep, and the night dew began to fall from the heights, drop by drop, on her hair, on his face. He reached out and gently touched the dew in her hair. The dew was cold, he suddenly stiffened, he found that she was really cold, like a real stone, he hugged her for a long time, and she did not show the slightest sign of warming.
She is like an inanimate object, although her body is in his arms, she refuses to communicate with him, she only lives in her own closed heart.
"Still resenting me?" he asked softly.
She shook her head, "No, it's not worth it. ”
Is it not worth it? Do you think this resentment is not worth it? Or is it not worth it for him as a person?
He didn't dare to ask further, he felt that he was losing her. Even if it's close, you can't hold your heart. He felt sad. Raise your hand to wipe a handful of tears. Even the tears are cold.
"What do I do? can you let go completely?" he asked, unwillingly.
She was stunned, looking at the stars, and there were tears on her face, and the stars were shining, and the tears were shining brightly, slowly sliding down on her little face.
He didn't raise his hand to wipe her tears, nor did he kiss her, he slowly let go of her, put her into his own quilt, wrapped the quilt on his body, and watched her being wrapped like a big dumpling, he got up, didn't say anything, opened the firewood door of Aunt Yang's house, and went out.
At this time, Dongfang had just turned over a large piece of fish belly white.
"Let's go—" The dumb girl watched as his figure disappeared outside the gate.
She gritted her teeth fiercely, not letting herself cry, a voice in her heart was shouting, get up, chase it, keep it, even if it was just a shout, he would definitely turn back, and pounce back to hug her in surprise, between resentment and letting go, in fact, there is only a word of distance, but he still can't let go.
The sea of bitterness is boundless, and turning back is the shore, but she just can't turn back.
She didn't shout, she suddenly made up her mind, knowing what her next path should be.
"I forgive you, and I forgive her, but I don't forgive that world, and those shameless people, I must go back and see—see the world without us—"