The dumb aunt and the others stood outside the carriage for a while, but Zhang just didn't get out of the carriage, didn't even raise his eyelids, and completely refused to communicate with the outside world.

Liu Wan quietly tugged at the placket of his dumb aunt behind him, signaling that since people were unhappy, he should not provoke him.

The dumb aunt didn't listen to Liu Wan's advice, she picked up her clothes and climbed into the carriage, and sat next to Zhang to talk to her.

"My heart is like ashes, there is no hope for me to live, and there is no point in living. Zhang didn't look at the dumb aunt, her eyes looked at the air in front of her, it seemed that she would rather communicate with the air than say more to this little woman.

The dumb aunt knew that the fourth aunt hated herself too much, and this resentment was difficult to dissolve for a while-looking up, there was a hair in front of her that suddenly turned white, and she felt unspeakable guilt in her heart, in the final analysis, she was sorry for her, sorry for her daughter-if she hadn't put forward the idea of fake death at that time, even if Liu Yanzhen married that old Hanlin, maybe she would be happy, even if she couldn't be as satisfied as an orchid, it was better than just making it come true and whimpering for a life- The current Zhang family is actually equivalent to a chicken flying egg beating, and there is nothing.

The dumb aunt sat silently for a while, and then suddenly spoke: "I've thought about becoming a nun, right? Actually, this choice is quite good—"

When these words were spoken, Zhang couldn't help but be surprised, he couldn't hold the tight shelf anymore, he couldn't help but look at it, and the little woman in front of him sat upright, not avoiding, not arrogant, not cowering, with a calm demeanor.

Zhang stared at it for a while, suddenly sighed, reached out to hold the dumb aunt's hand, and rubbed the small hand with the big hand, this little hand had done a lot of hard work when she was the daughter of a tenant, and her skin was rough, and she had almost no contact with dirty work for most of the year, but sometimes she was still slightly rough when she dispensed medicine, boiled medicine, and wrote, especially the calluses in the early years, which were prickly to the touch.

This girl is actually younger than her own daughter.

It would be nice if my daughter was alive, alas, but her life was miserable, so she left so early.

Zhang sighed, "Why aren't you surprised at all? Why do you say that such a choice is good? Who wants to become a monk if you live well, Qinglan Ancient Buddha, your whole life is over like this, where is your so-called good?"

The dumb aunt gently pulled out her hand and touched a handful of her hair, "If these three thousand troubles can't bring us happiness on the head, it's better to shave them all and be a person with a calm heart like water." To be honest, I envy you, of course, I don't envy your experience, if I envy your experience, then I will be too disobedient and too disobedient. But I envy you for seeing through and thinking about it, the people in this world, all living beings, bustling, living in the world, their hearts are full of greed and obsession, for money, for status, for fame, men for beauty, women for emotion, these nets are hanging over everyone's head, how many people can really see through, see away, let go, and give up?"

The dumb aunt is a seemingly weak woman, but her words are sonorous and powerful, and every sentence is in her ears.

Zhang was also shocked by this momentum and sincere emotion, and couldn't help but listen carefully.

"To be honest, sometimes my heart is tangled, conflicted, and painful. The dumb aunt raised her hand to cover her heart as she spoke, her soft white face, her eyebrows were twisted, and her eyes were painful, "I'll be honest with you, I'm from another world." My family, friends, work, and career were all over there, but I woke up and came here. When I opened my eyes, everything was unfamiliar, the environment, language, identity, food and clothing, and as a mute daughter of a poor tenant family, a lowly child daughter-in-law in a wealthy family, these identities severely restricted my freedom, to say something you can understand, that is, there is no freedom here at all, I live a very difficult day, and I long to leave every moment. ”

"But there's no going back. The dumb aunt sighed.

Zhang finally came to his senses: "You and her, my Yan'er, come from the same world?"

The dumb aunt nodded, "There are many coincidences in the world, and such coincidences actually happened to us. Whether she's gone, no one knows if she's really dead, or if she's back in the same world she used to be. ”

Zhang shook his head, "Dead is dead, don't comfort me anymore." Even if she doesn't die, she has nothing to do with my Yan'er. She is her, not my face. Even if I love her so hard with my heart, I haven't warmed her up in the past few months, such a person is really not my face, and I won't suffer for her death anymore. ”

"Everyone lives in the world, and everyone has a destiny. Perhaps, this is the fourth miss, you, and me, our different fate. ”

Zhang nodded: "I can figure it out, you, just a poor daughter from a poor tenant family, why did you suddenly change into a person overnight, capable, intelligent, bold, bold, and ...... It's kind of kindness. I've been wondering, why is it so powerful to be just a teenage child's daughter-in-law? Now I understand. ”

The dumb aunt nodded, "The real little dumb child daughter-in-law was actually killed by Liu Ying a long time ago, her head was knocked on the stone in the back garden, no one treated and no one cared, and the poor child left the world so silently." ”

She looked sad and sincere, and she sincerely sighed for the little girl who couldn't control her fate.

"You have to go back!" Zhang suddenly said, "Go back and find Liu Ying to take revenge." Also, teach Liu Chen a good lesson for our mother and daughter, how much we have been bullied by her in the house over the years, we don't dare to say anything in our hearts. ”

The dumb aunt nodded, "This is natural." and Liu Wan, who also sought justice for him, at least helped him win an environment where he could live in peace in the future. ”

Zhang was surprised: "Brother Wan, what's wrong with him? I think he is in great condition - I also see from him that you are good to everyone, and our mother and daughter fall into such a fate, maybe you can't blame all of them, sometimes things of fate are difficult for manpower to control." ”

"Brother Wan is actually not sick at all. It was Chen who was drugged, put in the diet for many years, little by little, for a long time, which led to Liu Wan's madness. ”

Zhang's hands trembled violently.

Even though she had already experienced the power of the eldest wife, she didn't expect her to be able to attack a child, who had no mother, and had completely regarded the Chen family as her biological mother.

The dumb aunt frowned: "I still can't understand one thing, the pill I gave to the fourth lady at that time was carefully prepared, and there was no problem, why would it kill people?"

Zhang smiled bitterly, "This is also a problem I have been struggling with. Judging from all the signs you have against us, I can conclude that you did not intend to harm us, but why did Yan'er die after taking your medicine? What went wrong? Could it be ......?"

The dumb aunt frowned, "I have thought about this more than hundreds of times, from formulating the recipe to purchasing medicinal materials to making pills, to delivering it to you, as well as the time and precautions for taking it, I really don't dare to make a single word, where can it be wrong? Could it be that the fourth lady did not eat according to the recipe? Or ...... This is impossible, there are only your mother and daughter in your courtyard, Lan Rui is a reliable person who has been serving you for many years, could it be that someone else has done it?"

Zhang was stunned for a long time, and suddenly burst into tears, "I know what went wrong." It's her, it's her, she came before Yan'er took the medicine. also went to Yan'er's bedroom to talk to Yan'er. According to the time when the pill you gave took effect, the time she came was the time when Yan'er took the medicine. ”

The dumb aunt pinched Zhang's wrist: "Who?

Zhang wiped a handful of tears: "Liu Ying." ”

The dumb aunt let go of Zhang's hand, and she clenched her two hands tightly, and her little hands were red and purple from her own grasping. A small face changed color and gritted his teeth: "That's right." No, you can't just become a monk, follow me, go back to Liufu, I want you to see how I punish this vicious woman with my own hands!

Zhang withdrew his hand and shook his head, looking sad, but also open-minded, "I won't go." I no longer have the strength, the courage, or the mood to re-enter that home. I spent my best time there, and I also spent the happiest years with Yan'er. Now that Yan'er is no longer in the world, what mood do you want me to endure there day by day? People live in the world, the most bitter thing is to lose, the most bitter thing is to lose the only favorite flesh and blood, and now I am empty-handed, even if I go, I can't gain a foothold in those women's piles, and I don't have the courage to re-apply grease, powder, wear red and green land, and compete with them for the favor of the master? It's rare that I can still look forward to having a child and fighting for the property of the Liu family in exchange for a comfortable life for the rest of my life?"

She shook her head heavily, "I can't. My heart is dead—really dead—and sometimes I feel like I'm a decaying piece of wood, stiffening little by little, and I really don't have any nostalgia for this red earth. ”

Zhang said, took out a pair of scissors from his arms, and cut them at the full head of white hair.

With a clattering sound, white hairs like snowflakes fell one after another.

The dumb aunt didn't stop her, and watched quietly.

Women are like flowers blooming, when they are delicate and red, they only feel joy when they see them, and in the blink of an eye, the flowers fall, and when this white hair falls to the ground, it is like a flower withering.

I hope that one day, I will not be hurt like this by life and fate.

However, don't say that one day in the future, the fate that has been laid in front of you, is it kind to yourself?

She shook her head and smiled wryly.

If there is any consolation, it is Bai Ziqi, his love, his perseverance and repentance have brought some warmth to her heart.

I hope that love will not dry up prematurely, and I hope he can hold on for the rest of his life.

The dumb aunt no longer hesitated, took the scissors, and knelt up to help Zhang's haircut.

It's dark, it's really not the same thing to stay in the carriage all the time, the dumb aunt helped Zhang, "Go down and rest." Tomorrow I will ask Bai Ziqi to take you to a place. It was a very suitable place for monastic practice, and it was there that I spent the most dangerous and tangled time in my heart, and it was there that I forgave the betrayal and hurt of my former lover, and I also forgave all the hurt of others. I hope you can live a down-to-earth and pure life there, and get the peace you want in your heart. ”

"The Tower of Forgetting?" Zhang asked rhetorically.

The dumb aunt nodded: "A tower, a transcendent world." I'll help you with the food and clothing. ”

Zhang was actually worried about where to become a monk, and she couldn't imagine that the problem would be solved in this way, she couldn't help but be grateful to this little woman for her good intentions, and nodded to the dumb aunt: "When I get to the house, if the master asks, he will say that I have a bad disease, and tell him to leave me alone, and I will live and die from now on." ”

The dumb aunt nodded solemnly.