When I opened the crusty notebook again, I realized that this was the diary of the dream.

I didn't want to look at Yume's privacy, but I couldn't help it, so I turned the page.

The diary is also full of photos of me, as well as photos of me and Yumu. Almost every page folder, every one, is a testimony of our love.

This diary is from last year when I joined the security company and continues to this day. One article a day, never stopped. Looking at the familiar handwriting on the diary, my heart kept twitching.

This diary records the thoughts and concerns that the dream has for me, as well as the deep love.

I skimmed a few pages, the old tears were dry, the new tears were always swirling in my eyes, and I was afraid that my dirty tears would tarnish the holiness of Yumeng, and I could not bear to let the tears overflow from my eyes.

With a sinful state of mind, I stopped on a nearby page of my diary:

Hail, Saturday, 24 May 2008.

Today is the darkest day of my life, and it is a dark day for my love.

Zhao Long misunderstood me and misunderstood Manbenrui. I feel very wronged, but I don't blame Zhao Long, I don't blame him. I know that he cares about me very much, and it is precisely because he cares about me that he seems so irrational and rejects any man who comes close to me. I'm conflicted right now, I'm afraid of losing him, but I'm afraid of having him. How I wish Xinjie could come together with him, because I was destined to be just a meteor, and I could only be a flash in the pan in his life. But I am very content, and I feel that I have no regrets about having such a love in my life.

I can feel that my illness has reached the last moment, and I have been hiding it from Zhao Long and arranging for Xinjie to replace me, and I sometimes feel very sorry for him. But that's all I can do to keep him from being too upset. It's just a pity that the relationship between Zhao Long and Xinjie has not made much progress, and I'm worried...... Sometimes, I really wanted to tell Zhao Long all the truth, but I couldn't muster up the courage, I was afraid that I would hurt him and make him collapse. I thought that arranging Xinjie to accompany him would divert his attention and weaken his feelings for me, but I was wrong. He still loves me so much that he can't fit any other woman in his heart......

Today's hailstorm is particularly scary. Each one is the size of a peanut. I stood with him for a long time in the hailstorm, and I wanted to hug him and cry. He never forgave me, and I can't explain it. In the end, they only ended up with a song and everyone scattered, and they went back to their respective homes. But I never blame him, I can't blame him, I can only blame me for not being blessed in this life to entertain his love and his care.

The hail drenched my whole body, and I was cold on my body, but not cold in my heart. I can still feel that he loves me too much.

What I'm most worried about now is whether Zhao Long will be too sad when he finds out about me. I'm sure he'll pull it through, believe!

I really want to see him, but only in my dreams. I figured it out, even if I could never get his forgiveness and understanding again in this life, I accepted it. As long as he can be happy, he can be happy.

……

There was a bit of a mess in the diary, but the words touched my heart.

I reached out and stroked the tears from my face, put away the diary, and looked back at Yumu lying on the bed.

Her face looked a little haggard, and her lips were slightly closed, a little dry. A hand stretched out, a half-curled body, full of longing for life. It's like summoning life, summoning love.

Cheng Xinjie moved a stool for me, but I sat on the edge of the bed next to Youmeng, and I couldn't bear to disturb her and disturb this special quiet.

Time passed minute by minute, ten minutes, and again.

It was already about one o'clock in the middle of the night.

I waited quietly until, Yume's body squirmed, and slowly opened my eyes.

Her eyes were a little sunken, and it was clear that she had been relentlessly tormented by the disease.

Yumu, who opened her eyes, suddenly felt the abnormality of the atmosphere, and she looked left and right and found me.

She rubbed her eyes and tried to sit up, but was unsuccessful.

"Zhao Long, Zhao Long, is it you, is it you?" Yumeng was surprised.

I resisted my impulse, grabbed Yumeng's little hand, and said in a loud voice: "It's me!

You Meng was silent for a while, glanced at Cheng Xinjie, seemed to realize something, and asked me: "You, you are all clean, are you put?"

Cheng Xinjie interrupted her: "Sister, I'm sorry, I told my brother-in-law! I think it's too cruel to hide it from him." It's not fair to you. It's not fair to my brother-in-law. ”

Yumengqiao's eyebrows were furrowed, and tears poured out at once.

My heart was sour, so I sat closer, stroked Yumeng's hair, straightened it for her, and said, "Yumeng, don't cry, don't cry!

You Meng stopped her tears and forced out a smile: "It's nothing! Zhao Long, it's all my fault!

I hurriedly said, "Don't say it, don't say it!" It's all my fault, it's me who is suspicious, I don't understand you, and I blame you." Be obedient, take good care of your illness, now that science and technology are so developed, you will definitely be cured, you will definitely be able to!"

Yumeng shook his head: "No, it's impossible! But I don't think there's anything to be afraid of death!"

With tears in my eyes, I complained, "What nonsense! You have to live well, you will!"

Cheng Xinjie interrupted our pale and desolate conversation: "Oh, what are you talking about, dead and alive." Sister, what do you want to eat, let my brother-in-law buy it for you!" Cheng Xinjie cleverly opened the topic.

Of course, you Meng could understand Cheng Xinjie's intentions, thought about it for a while, and said with a smile: "I want to eat, I want to eat apples!"

Cheng Xinjie happily became a happy mediator, she picked out a large apple from the cupboard and handed it to me: "Brother-in-law, this difficult task will be handed over to you, wash it!"

I shook my head: "No." Pare. ”

Cheng Xinjie was stunned for a moment, not understanding the meaning of my words. I unfastened the fruit knife from my belt and began to peel it.

Just like when Yumeng peeled an apple for me, after a few turns of the fruit knife, the apple was peeled.

I cut it into pieces and fed it to Yumeng.

Yumu looked at me and smiled happily.

But in my heart there is a thousand pounds of weight.

Looking at Yumeng eating apples, I felt a little sad. Because her face already looked very haggard, who saw pity.

Yumeng seemed to see that the atmosphere was too solemn, so he mischievously handed me the leftover apple cores and said, "Now, I will leave the responsibility of throwing the apple cores to you!

I shook my head lightly and threw the apple core into the trash.

You Meng stretched out his hands, united, looked at me, and then looked at Cheng Xinjie, and said, "Xinjie, what are my parents doing, you go out and take a look!"

Of course, Cheng Xinjie could read the subtext of Yumeng's words, nodded, walked out, and closed the door tightly.

Yumu stretched out a hand to hold my hand and said, "Help me sit up." ”

I nodded and gently helped her to sit up. I put a pillow behind her, and she sat up straight with some difficulty, holding my hand all the time.

I tried to keep my emotions in check and not let the tears welling up.

You Meng said: "I didn't expect it, I didn't expect Xinjie to tell you!"

I said, "You shouldn't hide it from me." ”

You Meng said: "Confused, I'm confused! I didn't want to hurt you, but in the end, it hurt you even more." ”

I put my hand around Yumeng's back and comforted her, "I'm not hurt. It's all my fault, it's me who hurt you. I'm too small-hearted to misunderstand you. ”

Yumeng shook his head: "I don't blame you." ”

Now, listen to me, what you need most now is to have a firm faith, and miracles happen all the time in this world. You'll get better, I'm sure, you'll be healed!"

Yumeng smiled indifferently: "It's difficult." What I want most now is to live forever in your heart. Then I'll be content!"

I pinched her nose and complained, "What nonsense. I want you to live by my side forever. Be my wife. ”

A happy smile rippled on Yumeng's face: "Yes, but God won't give me a chance." In the next life, I will definitely be your bride in the next life. Certain. ”

I said, "I'm going to have this life!"

You Meng shook his head lightly and said, "Zhao Long, be realistic! I think you should be able to know my thoughts, Xinjie, this girl, grew up with me." She is a good girl and admires you very much, she can continue my life and continue our love. I've been trying to figure out how to bring you together, but nothing has progressed. I'm going to have to talk to you about this opportunity. This is my greatest concern and greatest concern before I die. You must promise me to take care of your heart. You can rest assured, Xinjie will not let you down! She is a sensible child. ”

I frowned and said, "Look what you're talking nonsense! Xinjie is our sister, our sister!"

Yumeng gritted his teeth and emphasized: "You must promise me, you must!"

I shook my head: "No, no, no, I can't say yes." Because you're going to be fine, you're going to be fine!"

Yumeng looked at me with some disappointment, and repeatedly emphasized, "Can you be realistic?"

I said, "I'm very realistic, the reality is that good people have good rewards, and you will be fine!"

You Meng said anxiously: "Do you think that your heart is not worthy of you?"

I said shamefully: "In this world, the only one who can be worthy of me is you by dreams! Only you are from dreams!" I repeatedly affirmed, clenching Yumeng's hand.

At this moment, how afraid I am that this hand will be released.

Two lines of moisture oozed from Yumeng's eyes, and she sighed softly: "You still don't understand my good intentions!"

I said, "I understand, I understand everything!" but I can't accept it. I only recognize you as a wife! In order to prevent me from being a single, you must also live a good life, no matter what you think, I will cure your illness!"

You Meng was even more anxious: "Don't you still understand? Experts, medical experts all over the world, have almost diagnosed my condition, and the answer is very uniform. Who doesn't want to live, I haven't lived long enough to be your bride. But, but we have to accept the reality. When the reality is in front of us, what we have to do is not to fantasize about miracles happening, but to find a way to face it and try to take the road ahead. ”

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