Chapter 25: Perfection with Flaws Perhaps Begins His and Her Quest (12)

The exam is over.

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In terms of the scores and rankings on the test papers, no one can get a higher score and ranking than me. As he put it... This time, the ranking has changed.

However, it was only in this boring, meaningless ranking change, and that day... We haven't changed since we came out of the office. But that's not how it goes, and the everyday goes on as if nothing had happened.Occasional good morning greetings, occasional concerns, occasional inquiries... None of this has changed, then, that is, even for us who have gone too far, he still has no intention of refusing.

No, I guess the thought of rejection never arises.

After all, from the beginning, I was neither angry nor angry, but silently insisted on what I insisted on.

Tomorrow is Christmas. I chose to stay, stay here... A city with no one.

When I walked to the window, I looked up at the gloomy sky through the glass filled with moisture, and at the moment there were gifts for people from above-crystal silver and antimony snowflakes flying all over the sky, and at such a time when the weather was thick, it seemed that all I felt was cold... Is this the Christmas present that the city gave me...

What else can I expect?

At this moment when it was almost five o'clock in the afternoon, the door was slammed? Or the phone that never rang suddenly? Or was it a chance encounter after stepping out of the door?

No, that's not what I need. Or something that is exchanged for sympathy, after all, it can't compete with time.

"So... At five o'clock in the afternoon on the 24th, let's go together"

One afternoon, when I returned to the apartment to part, I was given a word.

After all, it became like this. Was it because she said it to me, or was it because my father's words made him feel unbearable guilt... Hehe, probably all of them.

So, none of these things are mine.

Even in the face of this apartment, in this room, I couldn't see anything that really belonged to me, and the gaze withdrawn from the window looked around, as if I had entered a completely unfamiliar world. It's not where I'm supposed to be.

That being the case, then.... Let's go?

Maybe there will be the answer I'm looking for out there.

However, time... It's already 4:50, and it's almost time to get to the appointed time.

Obviously, he is like this, as a bird who can't escape from the cage, he should be so honest and stay where he can.

Just let me be willful this once, okay?

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After changing into a set of clothes for going out, I unconsciously walked to the automatic door of the hall.

If you want to go back, it can only be now.... I thought so in my heart, but my footsteps didn't mean to go back.

After a pause for a few seconds, the tower finally went out and began to walk slowly down the pedestrian street.

The snow was falling heavily, and it was covered with a thick layer, and it creaked and crunched when stepped on, with some characteristic rhythms, like the prelude to a winter symphony. I spit out lightly, my eyes were surrounded by white mist, which dissipated after a few seconds, and I raised my head and looked around. There are not many people on the road, which can be regarded as a kind of luck, and this level can still bear it.

A cold wind blew, and I felt... However, it is precisely because of this that it can be regarded as normal, and I am the most abnormal person who walks slowly and aimlessly in this kind of weather.

No purpose, no direction... I just want to leave that strange place.

Where do you go after you leave?

Of course, it's not like leaving forever, just in the past two days... These days of Christmas, I thought about it and comforted myself, though it wasn't much comfort.

I looked behind me and saw nothing of note except for an even footprint, and the apartment had disappeared into the distance, covered in heavy snow.

Already.. It's been possible to go so far.... I sighed in my heart.

Further on, there is a commercial street... In the distance, there was also staccato Christmas music, full of festive festivities. Well, my direction is definitely not there, there is no connection with me... It's a strange place.

So, I chose another path, and at this three-way intersection, I walked towards the park.

As the number of pedestrians grew, I lowered my head, didn't look at or think about it, my legs were already shaking, and I couldn't concentrate on walking. But I know that we must not stop here... If you stop, you'll lose.

If, without her, I could snuggle up with him now?

If it weren't for those things that used to be, it's definitely a different picture now, right? maybe... We will walk around the festive shopping mall together and discuss what will happen next...

If... What would he do if he found out I wasn't in the house now?

Suddenly, I was amused by this abrupt thought, and shook my head and chuckled a few times.

Nothing will be done... Because he's not wrong, I just walked out without permission, maybe out of responsibility to make a phone call... Looks like the phone was lost there.

Well, here it is... I looked back at the apartment and smiled

[Merry Christmas to you all]

After that, he continued to walk forward.

In an instant, there was an illusion that the whole world had rejected it.

It is said to be an illusion because... Until now, I haven't been completely rejected, so, the opportunity is still there.

I think, if it was him... I can hand over all the things I have kept so far without reservation.

Of course, he is the only one.

[What the hell am I... What to do?]

Stopping, I looked up at the gray sky and asked to myself, snowflakes falling on my face, bringing a cold and emotionless touch, of course, not an answer.

At this time, I should be like this.

Further on.. It's supposed to be a park, so let's go in and sit... There shouldn't be many people right now.

(Because of a stomach ache a few days ago, I went to the hospital for a check-up on the National Day these days, so I stopped changing for a few days, and I will resume the update from today)