So, those inescapable lies will eventually become facts (medium)
So, those inescapable lies will eventually become facts (medium)
It was as if time around me had stopped at this very moment.
The man in front of her didn't seem to mind staring at me at such a dangerous distance, and a faint fragrance gradually wafted through the air, which was the smell of perfume emanating from her, or the scent of shampoo that she had just inadvertently smelled because she was too close.
In the clear eyes, there is no trace of dirt mixed with it, which is not the same as what I saw before... It's completely different, no teasing, no coldness, no half-truths, just like a clear and transparent lake. The reflection of myself that exists in it.
I quickly leaned back and distanced myself from her, or... It's a little more appropriate to describe it as an escape, yes.. Suddenly feeling something shaken in my heart, I chose to keep my distance.
[Hmm... Should I really be crying now? in all sorts of ways... I feel like my hairs are standing on end. ]
[What??Is it a terrible thing to be confessed by me?]
I was confused with the same sloppy eyes as before, and Yono also straightened up again, and continued to look at me with his hands behind his back and a smile.
Then, she turned her back to me, and silence fell.
I couldn't calm down, so I was looking for something to distract, so I turned my eyes to the street lamp next to me, trying to borrow the stimulation of the light to make myself feel better, and at this time, Yono began to raise his head and look up at the sky where there was nothing.
A few seconds later, a whisper with a slight exclamation was heard
[Na, Biqi Tani-kun, to people like me.. Can you really have a good relationship with someone, fall in love, and get married?]
I slowly turned my head and looked at her back, hesitated for a moment, and was about to say something, but swallowed it back just as I was about to say it, opened my mouth, and repeated it several times but couldn't say anything.
- because I don't know. Therefore, I don't dare to answer, or even if I answer according to my own thoughts, I am worried that the answer I got just out of expectation will be accepted, and whether it will become a reality? Because there are many uncertainties, I don't dare to say it easily.
But when I saw the side of her face through the dim light, a wound somewhere that had been hidden suddenly ached.
Quietly staring at the night, his eyes still longing for light... Yes.
I couldn't help but take a deep breath.
[Well, that's right, right?]
[No need for comfort, there's no one else here.] ]
[.. It's not comforting, I just think... If you species.. If I can't do that, then I'm not hopeless at all? Although this is a bit self-defeating, I am inspired to rely on my own ability to eat soft rice in the future. ]
After listening to me, Yono turned his head slightly, glanced at me out of the corner of his eye, and then faced me again, with a gentle smile
[Oh, are you still thinking about such an unambitious thing at such a time?]
[Hmph.] I'm not boasting, but there are only a handful of people in Japan who can realize this kind of ideal.]
[I don't think that's where complacency should be.]
Yono deliberately stopped in the middle of speaking, took two steps forward and closed the distance between us again, looking at me with his head slightly lowered
[I like this kind of place like yours, too.] ]
[Hmm.] Well, no, I'm just telling the truth. ]
I deliberately cleared my throat and staggered my eyes from her.
Then she smiled, like a girl in pleasure, about to be greeted with something wonderful.
[So, if I say—I can achieve your ideals, can I think about it?] ]
[So, these are two different things, right?!ha...]
I couldn't help but hold my forehead and sigh
[Just liking appearances.] This kind of thing is just a superficial thing, don't you..]
[Yes, I want it too.] ]
Before I could finish speaking, Yono gave her answer first, and then quickly walked over to me and sat down, just pressing against my side as before, even... Even his hands took my arms around me before I could react, and I looked up at the sky again
[As long as you genuinely like my appearance—I think so.] Before making today's decision, I also had a good time staying alone in the corner and thinking about it seriously.In the end, liking is liking, and it doesn't matter what you like, right?]
[.... If you rely on this fragile thing to establish a false connection, it can break at any time. This kind of thing can't be called the real thing.]
[Ah、It really looks like you'd say it.] ]
Yono looked back at me with a grin
[But...] But that's what I think – it doesn't make a difference if you really like the outside, you like the inside, as long as you really like it. It's like a movie, some people like the emotional part, while others like special effects, some like fights, and even some just like a certain actor in the movie - in general, everyone has a different opinion on the same thing, and the part they like is different. However, as long as they "really like it". So, there's nothing wrong with really liking my appearance... It's not as fragile as you say. The only question is – will you put this.. As a real liking?]
[....]
I'm speechless.
I hadn't thought about it before—what is liking, and if you like a person you like all of her, it's a lie. Even the most loving couples will have their disappointments. So, it's impossible to like it completely, that is, can it be defined as "as long as you like most of them"? Of course, if you can divide a thing into several parts, then the number of likes can also be defined in this way. But this is also unrealistic ... After all, if you replace the object with a person, you can't separate it... It's always just a whole, whether you like it or not, it's all contained in it, and you can't choose or change it
- At this time, my answer -
[Ahh Appearance words: It's just the appearance.,It's really like it.。 ]
As she said, there are many forms of liking, and so are people. There are parts that I like and parts I hate, but in the end, they are all together, but they can also be treated separately.
[That now.] What about your answer?]
[.... Are you serious?]
[Of course, I've said it before—I like your part.] ]
That's the only thing I can't accept. It seems frivolous to say it, but it is impossible to distinguish the truth from the false. Obviously, I can end this by making the most direct choice, but because of the previous words, I have become a shackle that binds me, and I can't really escape.
[... Words of communication.. What happens after that?]
I looked at her with some uncertainty, eager for a clear answer. But the truth is to see her constantly shaking her head
[Well, actually, I can't tell, but I can tell you a secret]
As she spoke, she leaned her head over—
I thought I was going to tell me in a whisper, but when I looked at her with such a feeling, I was frozen in place by a sudden change.
Yang Nai's lips gently covered mine, warm, soft, like being in a fantasy but so real, and the feeling of electric shock spread throughout my body.
After parting, she brought her mouth close to my ear and whispered with a faint heat
[The one just now.] But what about my first kiss, Biqi Gu-kun. ]
... No, this is my first kiss...