When he looked back, he saw a huge cloud of scarlet light slowly erupting, blooming like a flower!

The heat wave then became more intense, and many enemies collapsed and died simply by being affected.

Seeing this spectacular scene, Harusa knew where the giant pit came about.

He further strengthened the barrier to maintain his defenses, never looking back, and running away.

Although the desired intelligence was not obtained, critical information was obtained.

Xuyan is surprisingly a good talker, regardless of the attribute of the second middle school for the time being, his attitude can be called friendly, at least he gives Harusa a much better impression than Kamiya.

If he could, Harusa wanted to talk to him for a little longer, but unfortunately he didn't have any room to spare.

Of course, a friendly attitude does not mean that he is a good person, and with only a short meeting and conversation, his understanding is very limited, and it is impossible to trust an envoy cadre like this.

But in any case, the phone number and ciphertext obtained can be regarded as a solution.

Other than that, those words...... Harusa didn't know how much Xuyan had seen through himself, but even if the other party was just bluffing, the touch was real.

Not to protect humanity and the world, but to restrain himself for the sake of protecting himself, this is Harusa's true words.

However, such a catastrophe has already occurred, is it really necessary to maintain this restraint?

After destroying the chasing enemies and going invisible, Harusa did not immediately return to the spirit house, but stood on the roof of a certain building, facing the mist and the huge cherry blossom spirit tree, and fell into deep thought.

He's actually very strong...... To be precise, he is actually very strong with the G system.

As long as he lets go of the restraints, that is, as Xu Yan said, "liberating power", he will definitely be much stronger than his current state.

No, it should be said that if you really put aside your scruples and use the system with all your might, how far you can go, Hariji himself doesn't know!

And that's the problem.

Too powerful, the power you have is so strong that you feel terrified, and if you break the seal, you can't destroy the world...... It seems that the second line of the middle school can be applied to him.

Perhaps this is still arrogance, but superficial self-righteousness and excessive arrogance, but it is possible before it is proven.

And the one who is most afraid of this possibility is Harusa himself, because once he leaves his scruples...... It's hard for him to say if he was still not himself at that time.

But if restraint is still maintained, can such a catastrophe, with so many human lives, really be ignored?

The various scenes he saw along the way came to Haruji's mind...... Great misfortune and misery are directly presented in front of the eyes, and they cannot be taken lightly.

It's not a movie or a game, it's a real tragedy!

Even if strangers can ignore it, what about the partners?

Even if the lives of their friends are spared, their relatives and friends will be harmed.

In this case, should you protect even the people you have a relationship with, or do you simply give up?

It seems reasonable to expand the scope of protection a little, but as long as this opening is opened, and the scope is gradually expanded as the situation develops, the result will still be the so-called "salvation" road.

In that case, wouldn't it be more straightforward to let go of the constraints now and do what you can do to protect everything?

The only obstacle is my own thoughts...... Or rather, "fear".

In the end, this fear is just an illusion, just a pessimistic imagination, and maybe things will not turn out that way at all. And the victimization of the world, a large number of sacrifices of life, is already a real reality happening in front of us!

Compared with the large number of human lives, the weakness of oneself is more important, obviously.

Harusa wanted to make up his mind.

But there is still a small part of the heart that is resisting.

Unreasonable, willful, emotional, like a child with a temper, struggling to resist.

That won't do!

You're just an ordinary person with a bit of special power!

Don't be too self-righteous and don't fall into the trap of arrogance!

You can't be a hero who saves the world! No one can, no one can!!

Shut up...... Harusa wanted to shout, but remained silent.

He felt tired, and it was not good to stand like this any longer, so he opened the door of the spirit house and walked in.

Seeing Harusa come back, everyone looked at him and was relieved to see that he was fine.

After responding to the concern of Natsuya and the others, Hariji sat down at the table and took off his helmet.

"I found Xuyan and talked to him about it......"

"It's a pity that we didn't get any information, because the god of evil saw us and sent many spirits to besiege us. ”

"It took me a bit of effort to get out, and he didn't know what to do. ”

And then there's the quiet.

"Harusa...... Are you really okay?" Summer Night looked at his face and felt that he had no energy.

"It's really okay......"

"But your expression doesn't look like that. Qianqiu opened his mouth and said, "What did that Xuyan tell you?"

Harusa didn't look like he was injured, so it could only be the result of a meeting and conversation with the envoy organization cadre.

Faced with this question, Harusa was silent.

When they saw him like this, they were all worried.

"Harusa...... If you can, say it. Meijia also spoke, "Although we may not be able to help you with anything, it may be better to say it." ”

Kagura and the others didn't speak, but they all conveyed concern through their eyes.

Harusa felt this, and his eyes flickered.

He put his hands on the table, crossed them, and stood in front of his face, hiding half of his expression in this classic pose.

"Xuyan said to me, he saw through me. ”

I don't know how much he saw through it, but his words did touch me. ”

"And the root of what I touched is this disaster, and it is your ......"

As he spoke, he glanced at the crowd.

"Ladies and gentlemen...... Actually, I have hidden power. ”

"A very powerful, incredibly strong force. ”

"Because it's so strong, I don't dare to use it casually, but I just hide it cautiously as a hole card. ”

However, this approach now seems to be wrong. ”

"If I had used it more actively, if I had done something more proactively, maybe this incident wouldn't have happened. ”

"Even if it had to happen, it probably wouldn't be so bad. ”

"In short, if I had not been so concerned about this power, and had used it well, many people would have been saved, or would not have been harmed at all......"

"In the event of such a catastrophe now, even if the disaster can finally be eliminated and resolved, hundreds of thousands of people will die......! No, it's quite possible that there are people you know, or even your loved ones. ”

"And I can save it all. ”

"I could have done better. ”

"I should have done better. ”

"As long as I let go of my fears and untie my senseless bonds, I can ...... It's strong, strong enough to protect many, many people!"

Harusa clenched his hands.

"But...... Knowing this, and thinking clearly about what is right, I still ...... Feeling scared. ”

"I was scared that I was not the same person I am. ”

"Although it sounds like a bit of a secondary two, and even I don't think it makes sense, I am really afraid, afraid of my own imagination - pessimistic, negative, illusory imagination. ”

"Just because of this imagination, I hesitated to save others...... It's really useless, it's terrible. ”

Speaking of this, Harusa smiled, and he didn't know what this laugh contained.

"Tell me, everybody......"

"What should I do?"