Chapter 519 Lonely, Gu Tonggu

The three of them sat in the garden downstairs and drank a few cans of Tsingtao beer that Xu Tingsheng bought on the road, although the wine table they paid for at this time was full of good wine.

"By the way, when did you figure it out?" Fu Cheng asked.

"When you all hide things from me and don't say anything", Huang Yaming said with a clucking crumble as he pinched the empty jar, "When both of you get to the point where you know but don't say anything, such as Fu Cheng, you'd rather quarrel with me than say it directly." That's when I knew I was going to never get that far. ”

My brothers tried hard to persuade you, and they felt that they could not persuade you anymore...... These are two completely different concepts.

"Why don't you ask me, when and through what things did you see through thoroughly?" Huang Yaming said again.

"Then when and what are you doing, you saw through?" Xu Tingsheng cooperated.

"When a person really doesn't love another person, no matter how hard he tries and is careful to act, he can't actually act well. Huang Yaming first sighed with emotion, and then said:

"You know, I used to get drunk and get sent home and throw up. In the past, Chen Jingqi took care of me, but later, Tan Qingling came, she left, and Tan Qingling took over to take care of me for a while......

Three days, three days after Tan Qingling took over, the difference came out.

In the past, every time I was drunk, I was sent home and helped upstairs, no matter how late it was...... I can feel that one of the people who is supporting me is a woman's hand and shoulder, which is Chen Jingqi. When I got home, no matter how late it was, whether I needed it or not, she would come downstairs to pick me up, she would help, and sometimes there were two security guards who took me home, and she would take over one of them. You say how stupid she is, how can she have the strength of a security guard?

Later, three days after Tan Qingling took over, I didn't feel a woman's hand supporting me anymore. I was very drunk, but I knew she must have stood far away because I was dirty and smelly, because there was a bar security guard who would send me up anyway.

Also, I never felt that Chen Jingqi helped me wipe my face before, until Tan Qingling did it a few times, and I still felt so painful even if I was drunk, that I knew how carefully she wiped it before, how gently and gently.

Also, I used to wake up clean the next day, and then sometimes I still had vomit stuck to my clothes, and sometimes I had ...... on my neck

Therefore, when a person really doesn't love another person, no matter how hard he tries and is careful to act, he can't actually act well. Especially when I don't seem to know anything. ”

After saying a big call, Huang Yaming's meaning, Xu Tingsheng and Fu Cheng probably understand, acting, in fact, they will never be able to play a really distressing effect, especially in those details that are not obvious and unknown.

It's just that Huang Yaming's nostalgic expression at this time, a little sour and hazy in his eyes, but he doesn't know whether it is for Tan Qingling's fake or Chen Jingqi's truth.

"That's good, you don't stay or chase, Chen Jingqi is too aggrieved. You're hurting too much. Fu Cheng said.

"It's just that I hurt her too much, and I'm afraid of more...... I didn't seem to have a choice, so I thought, it's better to let her go. Huang Yaming said.

"Then you change it. Fu Cheng said.

"Dogs can't change their. Huang Yaming said.

Fu Cheng was helpless for a while.

Then he said, "Then have you asked Chen Jingqi, what does she think, maybe she is willing?"

Huang Yaming stood up and said, "Then I'll ask." ”

…………

Maybe it was tonight's state of mind that let him know how rare and important it is to have someone who loves him so much, so Huang Yaming made the decision.

Time was tight, and the car was speeding on the highway at night.

"Drive slowly, aren't you afraid of a car accident?" Fu Cheng sat in the back seat and said a little nervously.

"I'm really not afraid of a car accident," Huang Yaming said, "I'm just afraid that no one will take care of me in a hospital bed." ”

"I'll do it, you can catch up. In a rest area, Xu Tingsheng grabbed the driver's seat.

When the car arrived at Xihu Airport, there was still more than half an hour before the plane took off, and Chen Jingqi and his party had already passed the security check. Xu Tingsheng called someone out......

Chen Jingqi saw Huang Yaming, the two were separated by the security check area, more than ten meters, and she no longer walked out.

"I'm not engaged. Huang Yaming looked at her and said.

Chen Jingqi smiled and nodded, not knowing what to say, but it didn't seem to be surprised.

"I've always known who's really good for me. Huang Yaming continued.

Chen Jingqi nodded and began to shed tears, silently, tears rolling down one by one.

"Why don't you stay and we'll try again?" Huang Yaming finally asked.

Chen Jingqi was stunned.

At this moment, as if the plot of a TV movie was staged on the spot, the passengers at the airport were interested, and they got up to watch, whistled and coaxed, "Stay, stay......"

Chen Jingqi shook her head: "No." ”

Like a child's stubbornness, a simple and resolute word.

Huang Yaming was entangled for a moment and said, "I'll try to change it?"

Chen Jingqi shook her head: "You won't." Huang Yaming. Why didn't you look for me before?...... It was to get revenge on her?...... In fact, you are so smart, I know that you must know everything and can see through it, so I will wait for you to choose.

It's not waiting for you to choose her or me, it's waiting for you to choose, to care or not, my pain.

But you still haven't looked for me. Even if it's just to demolish her and take revenge on her, you must know that you still made a choice in the process, no matter what it is, you chose to hurt me after all. ”

"I ......"

"I'd rather you give up revenge if you really care about my pain. But you didn't...... Among the people you would rather sacrifice in order to accomplish something, including me. On the premise that you didn't ask me, you helped me choose, and I was sacrificed. Even if it's just temporary, it's enough to say a lot. ”

Chen Jingqi was right, Huang Yaming, who was in the wrong, no longer spoke.

Now he is no longer the original Huang Yaming who cares and cares casually to make her happy.

She was no longer at his mercy.

Once, this woman really loved him very much, and she was obedient and tried her best. He had an escape, she didn't pursue it, he hurt her, she still felt sorry for him, he made a mistake, she chose to believe it again,......

Unfortunately, the result is still the same.

There is a type of girl who willingly endures grievances and hurts because she loves someone, and tries her best to please her, and is unwilling to let go no matter what. Often such a girl, once she completely dies, she will never look back...... Because she didn't dare anymore.

Huang Yaming opened his mouth.

"You know what? I was happiest when I was in the hospital, and then when I recovered. At that time, you couldn't move, you couldn't hurt people, you became very cute, very obedient, you wanted to smoke, you wanted to do something, you always looked at me pitifully...... A pleading face. ”

Chen Jingqi said this with a smile on her face, but soon the smile disappeared, she said:

"Unfortunately, you're harmless only when that's the case. The rest of the time, as long as you move, no matter what you say or do, the end result is always hurting, not just me.

Maybe you are destined to be very accomplished, but I am just a very ordinary girl, there is someone who loves me and loves me, and if he doesn't hurt me, I am enough, so you are really not suitable for me. ”

"Please, stop hurting me. ”

Chen Jingqi turned to leave without pausing or looking back.

If someone doesn't understand what it means to be dead-hearted. A person clearly loves, reads, and reminishes...... But there is no longer any expectation and longing for the future, and no longer the courage to try...... Thinking, but not dare, is the real and most complete death.

Huang Yaming walked out of the airport, smiled, and said, "Yes, she was right." ”

Lonely, ancient and innocent.

The original meaning of Gu is "punishment according to ancient customs", and it is translated into "crime, criminal".

Gu, so Lonely.

I'll write a little bit today, but it shouldn't be updated, and this volume will end tomorrow, this volume is called "Falling in Love with You Again", some people are separated from each other, fall in love again, some people have always loved, and finally reunite, someone's love, but after all, they lose their ...... Maybe not all of them fit the topic so well, but, that's the feeling. The word love, I don't know when it started, it's embarrassing to even say, the world is actually quite desolate.