Chapter 138: Why Bother
"Is that so......" Jin Hotaru never thought about it.
"A life will always have a purpose, why does it exist, and what is the purpose of existence?"
"What is the purpose?"
"You don't have to look upset all day, you don't have to rack your brains to think about these things, the time has come, one day you will suddenly be enlightened, everything is clear. ”
"Can you, then, tell me what my purpose is?"
"How can you ask someone about this kind of thing......"
"If you don't tell me, how can I know?"
"Didn't I say before that you don't have to rush it? Before that, you should learn to think with your own brain, don't always ask others how to do it, learn to express it, feel your own happiness, anger, sadness, happiness, learn what you like and what you hate, learn what is right and what is wrong. ”
"So what's right and what's wrong?"
"It doesn't matter what is right or wrong, what matters is what you think is right and what is wrong. Got it? Your own thoughts are the most important. ”
"My opinion......"
While thinking about it, Jin Hotaru unknowingly picked up the pebbles and threw them into the river. A dragonfly, frightened away by the stone he throws, flapps its wings and flies far away, but soon begins to tap on the water again.
Suddenly the shadow of a bird fell on the water, and the dragonfly hurried into the bushes, and the chickadee swooped into the air, bent itself on the water, and flew into the sky again, and before the could find its new target, an eagle swooped down, struck it with its talons, caught it under its talons, and flew towards the peaks of the mountain.
The golden firefly saw the eagle fly away, and its eyes fell on the bushes not far away, and the dragonfly that had just escaped the attack of the chickadee accidentally bumped into a spider's web, and it was struggling desperately, and a huge spider had slowly crawled out.
Golden Firefly stretched out his hand and pulled the dragonfly out of the net. After the dragonfly flew away, he was still looking at his hands. Just now, the feeling of the dragonfly struggling between its fingers is still there.
Zou Xiao was watching him from a distance and nodded slowly.
Jin Hotaru didn't understand why she wanted to save the dragonfly and let it fly away. Spiders only survive by eating insects, and don't dragonflies feed on other insects as well?
"Hey, Hotaru!"
"Come here, I think I can teach you some spells. Jin Ying turned her head and saw Zou Xiao waving to him.
In the summer, it rained heavily, and it rained for several days, and the mountain, which could not eat water, finally turned into a mudslide and rushed straight towards the foot of the mountain.
"Avoid!" Jin Hotaru shouted, using the "water rejection method" to form an invisible wall. It blocks the rolling of the mudslide and causes it to deviate slightly from its original direction. The flames flapped their wings, releasing a large amount of flames. They take turns getting dirt, water, rocks, trees, and grass in the direction they want before washing them down the hillside. Everything was washed into the swamp by irresistible forces.
"Huh...... Yan'er landed on Jin Hotaku's shoulder tiredly, and exhaled heavily, "I'm tired!"
The golden firefly watched as the menacing mudslide rolled spectacularly down the base of the mountain and into the swamp, and although she was very tired, she was still glad that she and Flame could stop it from rushing into the forest and the many plants and animals below.
Laughter and whispers could be heard faintly in the nearby bushes.
Jin Hotaru knew that it was from the youkai in the woods that were supposed to be washed away by the mudslide, and when Jin Hotaru and Yan'er started to block the mudslide, they hid there. But while watching the excitement, he was preparing to escape after Jin Hotaru failed. However, no one was willing to come out and help, which was meant to be done for them to protect their homeland. A new emotion was born in Jin Hotaul's heart, and he knew that it was called "anger".
"Damn fellow!"
"We even hid there to watch jokes, I happened to be tired and hungry, so let's catch one for dinner!" Yan'er cried angrily.
So it spread its wings and rushed towards the bushes. The monsters frightened by Yan'er scattered and fled, and Yan'er caught up with them wherever they were. Jin Hotaru didn't care who Yan'er would catch up with or who he would eat, he slowly ravaged the hillside around the mudslide, and he didn't know why, and he didn't even feel angry anymore.
"If you want to kill a youkai, is that right or wrong?"
"Why are you doing this?" Zou raised the cup to his lips. Listening to Jin Hotaru's question, he put it back again.
"There's no reason why it's not for food, it's not for self-defense, or it's for the sake of doing it overnight, and it's tempting to do it for a moment. Jin Ying sat opposite Zou Xiao in a regular manner, with her hands on her knees. Obviously he was really confused.
"Is it because he provoked you?" Zou Xiao said, Zou Xiao looked at him clearly, "Murderous intent, not necessarily to eat, to protect yourself, there may be many other reasons - he makes you angry, this is one of them." ”
"So, is that right?"
"Right or wrong is up to you, and the answer to each person, each youkai may be different. My answer may not be the same as yours, or even Yan'er's answer, do you understand?"
“…… Don't understand. Jin Ying knew that she could not get the answer to this question from Zou Xiao, so she turned and walked out of his cabin. He habitually came to the river, clasped his hands and knees, and stared at the river in a daze. Zou Xiao began teaching him spells a hundred years ago. At the same time, other "worlds" are filled with knowledge about gods, demons, fairies, delicate and humans.
From then on, he stopped telling Hotaru what to do, how to do it, right or wrong...... These commands or answers accumulate in his mind as "whys" and accumulate more and more over time.
"Hotaru!" Flame flew back slowly, so full that it couldn't even speak, "What's wrong with you?"
"I'm fine, but I haven't figured it out. Jin Hotaru held it in her arms, and this willful and domineering Suzaku would also care about others, which made Jin Hotaru a little moved.
"Mood...... Yan'er muttered to herself, curled up, folded her wings, and began to carry out her own assertions, "When you are full and you have slept enough, all your worries will be gone." ”
"If only you could be like Yan'er, you wouldn't have any troubles. Jin Hotaru straightened her legs, allowing Yan'er to sleep more comfortably.
But why do you have such troubles? Zou Xiao doesn't seem to have any worries, and Yan'er lives a carefree life The other monsters, animals, and Jin Ying didn't see that they didn't have much to figure out, because they were a golden moss, and their intelligence was lower than that of other species, so there were so many things that they couldn't figure out? Jin Ying stretched her limbs and stood up, if it was because of the kind, then she was helpless, and there was no point in worrying.
Jin Hotaru and Yan'er walked back along the path trodden by the goats. They had just sent a letter back from a distant place for Zou Zhen. Yan'er habitually complained about Zou Xiao's dispatch to her, chattering endlessly.
"Hey!"
"Hey, do you hear me!
Hotaru turned around and saw a youkai standing on a cliff beckoning to him.
"Lunch!" Flame cheered, ready to pounce on the youkai.
"Yan'er, wait a minute," Jin Hotaru hurriedly held down Yan'er to stop it from rushing over, "He's here to ask us for help." ”