Chapter 24: What is the Hidden Thing Beneath Loneliness?

Giving and handouts. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

If you take it literally, accepting someone's gift and accepting someone's charity are almost the same thing, right? Both can be understood together as "getting something urgently needed from someone or someone's hands", the only difference is the positive and negative meaning in the word. As a giveaway or a giveaway, different people will show different opinions, and they will often confuse these two different behaviors.

In the past, I experienced a period of gloomy time alone, and my thoughts slowly changed with different environments and different periods. During the period from the fourth grade of elementary school to junior high school, I felt strong and courageous, fantasizing that I could do a lot of things, and I didn't need anyone's charity or the condolences that came with pitiful eyes. Then in junior high school, I wasn't used to living alone, whenever I watched the guys around me stay together in groups, or hold some group activities, I deliberately pretended to be indifferent, but I really wanted to join them. However, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, and I began to be disappointed in these things when I was about two years in junior high school.

Once, for a short period of time, I was also actively fantasizing about high school life like in the novel, constantly reassuring myself repeatedly, new environment and new characters, maybe there will be miracles? But miracles are miracles, not just by imagining them, the car accident at the beginning of school, and then because of the eyes, I basically distanced myself from the people in the class, I don't know when I began to get used to living in a separate world, and even felt that a person is the most normal and powerful.

Until now, I have thought the same thing: the one who can really survive alone is the strongest person. Because it means that he can do what it takes many people to do. The strong don't cooperate, and they don't need friends.

However, are there really so many strong people in this world?

The answer is no, it is precisely because the overwhelming majority of people are weak that they will know how to cooperate, will need help, and will have a common group and division of labor.

So, I'm glad that in the end, I found out my cowardice and the fact that I'm not strong, and I accepted it calmly.

I now define my life as having someone to call without any worries when I need help, someone who can listen quietly to my troubles, someone who can make a little noise around me... Isn't that different?

I guess that's something like this.

I will be moved to tears for these things, whether it is giving or giving, but I must also be at least strong - I must not cry out of sorrow because of these things.

This does not mean that I am a hard-hearted person, let alone deny these touching or happy things, but so that these things will not be dissipated by simple impacts, and I can become strong in order to transform from a recipient to a giver.

Anyone needs to change roles, and maybe they will get a lot at a certain time, but they will definitely give a lot at a certain time.

It's not mandatory, but if you think it's a pleasure to give it too, it's a good thing.

If so, perhaps... In such a short and hurried life, there may be occasional dazzling stars. Even my rotten eyes will become a little more energetic.

That's right, probably, she's struggling right now.

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Chatter and arguments, or an oppressive or cold atmosphere, have always enveloped this small restaurant.

[Hawkers, Koyukino, I think...]

[Porridge.]

Immediately after Yono's voice, I raised my head and spoke slowly, interrupting their speech.

Just one word, everyone turned their eyes to me, I sighed silently in my heart, and continued

[Judging by what you are saying... Just give me porridge...]

Although it is not appropriate for me to say it myself... But if you continue to stalemate, you may lie down due to fatigue before you are sure.

[... Such.. Since I said so, then..]

[I'm here to help.]

Xue Xia said, looked at me and sighed softly, stood up, and followed by Yeyue's words. However, at this time, Liu Wei, who had been silent, also began to move

[No.. At least, let me do something..]

With a tenacious gaze, he stood up as if he was fighting for victory, but the expression on his face was not relaxed, and it seemed that he was still blaming himself and guilty for it...

[Oh, then please.] ]

I said to Liu Wei as if encouragingly, ignoring the stunned gazes of the others, and continued to speak when she was stunned, revealing a faint smile

[Think of it as a return gift]

Not a price, not a return, but a simple return gift.

You should understand what you say, right?

After that, Yono began to look at us with the same interest as before, and then Yeyue slowly sat back, and under the snow where she was standing face to face, she just stared at me for a few seconds before sitting back without saying a word.

I turned my gaze to Liu Wei again

[So, can I ask you?]

[..... Just, return the favor?]

[Hmm.]

It seemed that such an answer was a little too simplistic, or maybe what I said was too simplistic, and Liu couldn't accept it for the only time, when a voice suddenly sounded under the snow, which had been silent

[This guy is like that, although it seems unreliable, he can be trusted for what he has said.]

[Unreliable and superfluous of these things..]

However, my resistance was ignored gorgeously, and under the snow, he raised his head to look at Liu Wei and continued

[In general, just look at this guy as the character of that bad good person, and there will be no more more more excessive demands.] ]

So, the bad guy refers to me, and why do you say absolutely?

[Hawkers,It's been about the same all along.,It's very gentle.,Than Qigu-kun~]

Yang Nai interjected beside him without any sense of disobedience.

[... Nothing has changed...]

After that, Night Moon was added.

In this way, with their smiles and encouragement, Liu Wei slowly left the restaurant.

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That's what giveaways and alms are.

Optimistic people, even when they are given alms, will treat it as a gift of kindness. A pessimistic person, even if he is given with kindness, will see it as an insulting almsgiving. Maybe I don't speak for everyone, but there will be a majority of people who can be divided into both categories.

However, I think there must be other behaviors that are more pure and unpleasant than that.

Something that has been praised by countless psalms and songs, and has been recognized by history.

-- Isn't the so-called true friend just to take these ideas for granted? Gifts and charities, rewards and rewards, all these things can be replaced by the word "friendship" when they are covered by this word of great significance.

It's superficial, but it's also too correct to refute.

Therefore, I took the initiative to find a reasonable explanation for my actions and the consequences I bore.