"I don't blame you, it's just a family, it's not good for anyone to make too much trouble, you're still young, it's okay if you don't understand, because your current age is the time to be jealous and hateful, but when you reach my age, you'll understand. ”

I shook my head and looked at my mom with disappointment and indignation in my eyes: "I don't understand, and I can't understand it now." Love is love and hate is hate, I will not wronged myself to fulfill others, and I am not willing to look at other people's eyes to live, and live in fear all day long. ”

My words seemed to remind my mother of the humiliation she had suffered in Ye Xianhe's house in the past, she closed her eyes, her expression was full of pain: "Qingqing, it is too rigid and easy to break, you read more books than your mother, don't you understand this truth?" I don't want you to be rich and rich, I just hope that you will be safe and healthy in the future, find a husband who loves you and love you, and you will have a good life in this life. ”

"Do you still believe Pan Yue's words? Do you think she is right, it will be difficult for me to marry in the future with such a temperament?" I sneered, my mother's painful expression made her feel very distressed, but she couldn't control her mouth and didn't say any more. "Then I want to ask you, do you want me to be as weak and incompetent as you, and I won't fight back even if I am beaten or scolded? I can't do it, if only this can I endure humiliation and bear the burden in exchange for family harmony, then I would rather never marry for the rest of my life!"

My mother's face turned pale, she opened her mouth for a long time, and she was speechless in surprise: "Qingqing, I don't know that you think of me like this......"

"Isn't it?" I clenched my fists, trying to hold back the tears in my eyes. "You're willing to send someone to swallow your anger, but I don't. ”

"But I'm doing this for you...... "My mother's tears welled up in her eyes, "Isn't it okay to be bullied in the village without a father?" ”

"Then you have been wronged for so long, and I have not been bullied?" I laughed angrily, "Besides, what does it have to do with me that you have your son in your belly, and you are willing to live that kind of compromised life because of your son, then you can go, don't want to pull me along! I don't want to say these things again!"

"Alas. My mother shook her head helplessly, "You are still too young, if it is really as simple as you said, how can there be so many unfortunate families in this world." ”

"It's all their own choice, and they all deserve it in the end. "I turned around and started doing my homework, intending not to look at my mom anymore.

I am now dead silent in my heart, bitter in my mouth, and just before my mother came to talk to me, I also advised myself not to be so extreme in the future, hatred will only make me more miserable.

I thought that although my mother didn't say it, she actually understood me, and in this world, I could not listen to anyone's words, and I could not care about anyone's feelings, but my mother was the only one.

Because my mother is the only blood related to her, no matter how deep and weak the gap between us is, every time I encounter something, as long as I think of my mother, I will feel a little comforted in my heart, because I know that at least I am not alone, and my mother will always stand behind me.

So I worked hard, I wanted to grow up quickly, I wanted to become stronger, only then could I protect the people I wanted to protect.

But my mother's words just now completely interrupted my last fantasy, it turned out that no matter how hard I tried, in my mother's eyes, it was just a deviance, a young age is too ignorant to negate all my efforts.

At this moment, I suddenly felt that I had never been so alone.

Seeing that I was not talking, my mother knew that I was unhappy, but if she didn't persuade me today and let me develop freely, I was afraid that it would be too late to regret it.

"Qingqing, it's okay if you don't understand my hard work. My mother lowered her posture and said softly, "But you just have to remember that there is nothing better than a family and a harmonious family." ”

It's home and everything is prosperous, and what Ye Xianhe said is exactly the same, but it was the two people who are least qualified to say this kind of thing that said it to me.

"I also know that you are fighting for me, but this is all a matter of the previous generation, and I don't want you to live in pain for this life. ”

I didn't say anything, I was downright disappointed in my mom right now.

"Qingqing, I'm sorry for you. My mom sobbed under her breath and reached out to hug me.

We don't know how long it had been since we had intimate contact, my whole back was stiff, and as soon as my mother's hand touched my body, I suddenly bounced away like a frightened deer, and my whole face turned white at once, and cold sweat was dripping on my forehead.

My mother was startled and quickly let go of me, only then did she see the looming scars on my originally white skin through my thin clothes, and covered her mouth in horror: "Oh my God, why do you have so many injuries on your body!"

"Shhhh ”

"Did they get it? Hot tears rolled in my mother's eyes, the tips of her fingers trembled, she wanted to touch but was afraid of hurting and didn't dare to move, "Does it hurt, why didn't you say it just now?"

I sneered and said: "Didn't you just educate me, family and everything is prosperous, so they are looking for someone to beat me, even if they beat me to death, I can't say anything, because what I said is to destroy family harmony, it will make rumors outside, it will make you lose face, it will make your son in your belly without a father to be laughed at, I shouldn't have any complaints, I should first reflect on what I did wrong, right?"

My mother was stunned, and tears fell silently: "Qingqing, I didn't mean that......"

"You don't have to say it. I interrupted her impatiently, "I'm tired and want to sleep, so go back when you're okay." I remembered everything you said today, and I will do it in the future. ”

"You're playing with me. My mom said, "You know I don't mean that." ”

I ignored her, lifted the quilt and took out the medicated oil, and began to apply the medicine in front of my mother.

"I'll paint it for you. My mom reached for the medicine bottle and was coldly pushed away: "No need. ”

My mother still refused to leave, I was so distraught that I threw all the medicine aside and simply didn't apply it, and pulled the quilt over my head: "I'm going to sleep, how long are you going to stay here?" ”

"Qingqing-" As soon as my mother opened her mouth, I let out a rhythmic snoring sound, and my mother had no choice but to go out.

Hearing the sound of the bedroom door closing softly, I pulled back the quilt and stared at the ceiling in a daze, a drop of warm liquid running through the corner of my eye, flowing into my thick hair, and disappearing in an instant.

Cry, Ye Qing!, but I can only cry this time!

I've lived two lifetimes, what else has I not seen! What is there to cry about?

Sleepless nights.

When it was dawn, I fell asleep in a daze, and as soon as I fell into a deep sleep, the outside began to be lively.

Today is my mother's birthday, this year is different from previous years, because the belly is pregnant with a child, and it is very likely to be a son, it is a double happiness, so it is a special grandeur, my uncle deliberately got up early in the morning to prepare things, he called a lot of relatives and friends here to come over for dinner, early in the morning there are guests one after another to visit.

I was dazed when I heard my uncle ask my mother, "Qingqing, what's the matter with this girl, she never sleeps lazy." ”

My mother said with some humility: "Maybe I did my homework late last night, leave her alone, let her sleep again." ”

I thought to myself, anyway, she didn't want to see my mother now, and she was not in the mood to celebrate her birthday, so she rolled over and continued to sleep with her head covered.

Just as I was about to fall asleep, someone knocked on the door again, and a low and magnetic male voice sounded outside the door, like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, and I was suddenly awakened!

I sat up from the bed abruptly, thinking I had misheard.

There is nothing wrong with this voice, low as water but full of energy, and the words are mixed with a sense of distance that is not easy to get close to, and a sword eyebrows and starry eyes instantly appeared in front of my eyes, and a handsome face like an ancient carved painting.

Why did Zhou Yunchen come?

Shouldn't Zhou Yunchen be in the army at this time?