Later, we often met together, sometimes playing table tennis together, sometimes dancing together. But I didn't use that note www.biquge.info and I deliberately went to ask him out, because we are a small college, and we are used to meeting a person four or five times a day. However, although the sparrow is small, it also has all kinds of facilities. He also patiently taught me some technical knowledge, so that my skills could be taken to the next level, and my dancing skills would be more unique and unique in the world.

The time with him always passed in a hurry, because it was so happy. Many times, he appeared in my dreams. Whether in a dream or in reality, he is so sunny and tender.

I really wish I could be his girlfriend, I can be with him all the time, eat together, read books together, share his happiness and share his pain anytime and anywhere. But he already had a her-the girl who held hands in public, although I secretly liked him and admired him, but I was unwilling to disturb the happiness of others, and was unwilling to take away the happiness that belonged to her.

I don't think about food all day, this thing haunts me, makes me restless, makes me lose my soul, although I still go to play as if nothing happened, I still go to the activity room without moving, and I still see him unexpectedly.

An older sister who had a good relationship with me saw that something was wrong with me and asked me bluntly. I hesitated for a while, but decided to tell her what had happened. After pondering for a moment, she told me a story of hers. And her story was even more unexpected to me. I didn't expect her to be madly obsessed with a guitarist - a senior in our neighboring school. He would play in the quiet lawn of their school every night when it was dark, and she would listen carefully every night, rain or shine. And what shocked and admired me even more was that although she knew that he had a good-looking, bird-friendly, gentle and lovely girlfriend, knowing that she had no hope, she still resolutely told herself that she liked him, knowing that she couldn't do it, the result was naturally predictable, and he rejected her with a smile and friendliness. Nevertheless, they became good friends who talked about everything, and she said that it was enough, and she was satisfied, because she thought it was also a pleasure for her to watch his happiness from afar.

She told me lightly: "Actually, liking someone is a kind of beauty and a kind of pain, but it's better to say it than to hide it in your heart." If you don't try, how do you know the result? If you don't directly say your feelings, how can you have no regrets in your heart, besides, the person you're talking about is not necessarily his girlfriend, just holding hands, I don't think you can make such a fuss.

"But what if?" I worried.

"But what if not?" she added, "it's better than being Sister Lin every day." Again, 'men chase women, across the mountain, women chase men, and the yarn is separated'. I've got your back, go ahead!"

"But what kind of crooked theory are you? Will it work?" I felt a drum beating in my heart.

"Go, go, if you don't go, you're a coward, I don't look down on you. "She deliberately provoked me.

Then as the eldest sister, she said a little bit of seductiveness: "Only by saying your life will you not regret it, if you don't say it, you will definitely regret it for a lifetime, go give it a try, at least ask if she is his girlfriend, life, at the end of the day, you will find that what you regret in the end is not what you did wrong, but why you didn't do anything at the beginning." ”

I was shocked by her shocking bold theories, but she kept stirring my heart, that day, I was distracted, that day, I was at a loss, that day I didn't think about tea and dinner, time passed quietly like water every minute and second, just in the middle of my left and right, and the night opened its mysterious big black curtain. After much thought, I finally decided to give it a go.

It was a breezy midsummer night, a night I will never forget. It was a dark and windy night, and I couldn't see my fingers, and everywhere was pitch black, dark and dreary, everything was so silent, everything seemed so far away, everything seemed so auspicious.

"Hope for the best and prepare for the worst, Ziyue, don't be afraid. You don't want to regret your life, at least ask who she is, - I cheer myself up in my heart. I waited patiently for a long time, until my roommates were busy with their own business and went out, and the dormitory was quiet, which provided a favorable place for me to prepare for the crime, that I stopped hesitating all night, plucked up courage, closed my eyes, turned my heart sideways, and finally dialed the telephone number of his dormitory with trembling hands. But after a ring, I was so frightened that I quickly put down the phone in my hand.

After repeating this many times, I was so relieved that I didn't put the phone down until I heard the continuous beep echoing in my ears. I really hope that he is not in the dormitory at this moment, never be, it is all because I am excited and forgetful, but the water is difficult to recover, I can only wait silently, silently pray.

"Hello, who are you looking for?" I patted my uncertain little heart hard, plucked up my courage, and made up my mind, "I'm looking for... Look for... Jay, is he there?" I said intermittently, patting my flushed face with my hand, reminding myself to be calm, composed, and composed.

"He's here, I'll call him over to answer the phone right away, please wait a moment. "The phone is not disconnected, and the voice inside can be faintly heard. I heard the man continue to smile and say, "Jay, there's a cute-sounding little cutie calling you." There was also a echoing voice: "Haha, you kid Yanfu is not shallow, so late, there is a little girl looking for you to talk about the night rain in Bashan, it's really romantic." When I heard their roommate's jokes, I couldn't help but blush, my ears turned red, and my little heart was beating up and down.

Then I heard the familiar footsteps of Si Si Soso on the other side of the phone, and the sound was getting closer and closer. "Hey, who are you—" His voice was a little haggard, and he seemed a little sleepy. Hearing his magnetic voice on the phone made me tremble with nervousness, and I wanted to put down the damn phone right away. Oh, I'm really hanging my pocket in mid-air---- pretending to be crazy, I'm really a ghost today, why did I fight it? I regret it, am I really so much so that I confessed like this, this sentence is a curse, what is a secret love? Crush is not blatant, crush is not to see the light, if once it is made public, most of it will be dead, if I confess directly, maybe I can't even be a friend, another voice in my heart said, didn't the senior sister say, but the senior sister and that person are not familiar, naturally the ignorant are fearless, and my situation is different, my heart is seven up and down, uneasy, thousands of waves are surging, up and down. "I ...... I...... By the way, can you come out now? I have some things I want to talk to you about. We met at the big banyan tree in front of the bishop, do you say?" "What a big lie, I was so anxious that I could come up with such a brilliant idea, oh, I can admire myself in my heart, it is really a double win, even if I am really embarrassed to say it later, it is good to see him, it is really offensive and retreating, and the confession is also strategic and policy-oriented, maybe it can win by surprise."

"Okay, I'll come out later, and I'll see you there.

He still said lazily, with a lazy and hoarse tone, probably just sleeping, what a good boy who went to bed early and got up early.

I hurried down, of course, and did not forget to clean up a little, and chose the best one among the messes of clothes, dressed up, combed my hair, etc., and then went on a rampage with excitement all the way, and almost fell.

I remember that it was a dark month and the wind was high, and I couldn't see Wuzhi until night, a piece of black holes all around, the dark blue sky dome was even darker and heavier, and the dim street lights on both sides of the campus path were also extinguished at an inopportune time, and it was even more black, and it was white to dress up for half an hour, and it was also white to clean up for half an hour, and everything was vaguely unclear, and the night when I couldn't see my fingers made my heart even more uneasy, only the cool breeze of the habit, with the fresh air of grass and flowers, made me relax a little, indulge in it, and relieve the tension。

Fortunately, there was a faint singing voice, and when I listened carefully, it turned out to be a faint burst of singing from the dormitory in the distance, and it was the popular "Love Must Be Last", just like the portrayal of my state of mind - "I can't forget the first time I saw you, a pair of charming eyes, in my mind, your figure, lingering." Hold your hands and feel your tenderness, it's really a little breathless, your innocence, I want to cherish it, I will be sad to see you wronged. I'm afraid that I'll fall in love with you, I don't dare to let myself get too close, I'm afraid that I won't be able to give you, and it takes a lot of courage to love you, I'm afraid that I'll fall in love with you myself, maybe one day I can't help it. Missing only makes me miserable...... It also takes a lot of courage to love you. ”

At first, he rushed and rushed all the way, but when he reached his destination, he didn't dare to approach, and it took him a long time to come to the big banyan tree with dense branches and towering ancient trees, and it was even more silent and dark. Suddenly, I remembered an ancient poem out of time: The wild sky is low and the trees are low, and Jiang Qingyue is close to people. Heck, what are you thinking about, but this place has a bit of a poetic feeling.

Thinking about it carefully, I didn't muster up the courage to come here, and I was thinking about it when suddenly a familiar voice came to my ear, "You're coming so fast, Mr. Li." "Ah, I shuddered, and at some point he came to me singing. This guy is really good, elusive, in and out of silence, fortunately I exercise regularly, and my physical fitness is good enough, otherwise, I guess I will be sent straight to the school infirmary. And luckily I don't have a habit of talking to myself, otherwise it would be bad for him to hear something. I quickly collected my mood and said hello to him absentmindedly. Although I tried my best to calm the waves in my heart, the waves were turbulent, pretending to be nothing, but the little heart still did not obey the call to beat around, I seemed to be able to hear the sound of my own heartbeat, and I have deeply felt that my cheeks are hot, it is estimated that the face is flushed, as if I have a high fever, fortunately, the moon is dark and the wind is high, and the faint light in the distance is misty, and I can't see it really, otherwise I would have been exposed to my true form, God help me, at this moment, I regret my impulse, the only thing I want to do is to run away。 Fortunately, I had an idea and made up some things about the Table Tennis Association. Thanks to my ability to imagine, it sounds reasonable!" he babbled and gave me some advice. But my ears didn't hear anything, and I wanted to run away, but another voice in my heart was repeatedly reminding me that I was a coward if I left. I was in a state of great contradiction and panic, thinking about things all the time. "To say or not to say, forget it, it's better not to say it, it's better to leave quickly. "Say, you have to say, you can't be a coward." The two voices repeatedly contended in my heart, and it was difficult to distinguish between victory and defeat.

"Is there anything else you can do?" he said nonchalantly. "No... No more". I panicked, and said casually, hoping that he didn't see that I was preoccupied and uncertain.

"Then there's nothing to do, I'll go first, I'll see you at the stadium tomorrow." He said lightly, looking slightly tired.

"Okay, I'll see you tomorrow then. There were thousands of horses running in my mind, but I said absent-mindedly casually, and I saw that he was about to turn away, "No, wait a minute, I haven't finished speaking," I subconsciously said in a casual voice.

"Is there anything else. "He was a little tired, and he probably wanted to go back early to rest, which also means that I covered it up well, and he didn't see my abnormality at all, the most important thing is that I chose a good night.

However, I came up with such a sentence out of thin air, and even I did not expect it. What the hell are you talking about? I searched my stomach and finally had an idea. "By the way, your girlfriend is so pretty. I'm so glad you have such a beautiful girlfriend. "I said it inadvertently and intentionally, in fact, I regret very much that I didn't know him earlier, and I don't think how beautiful his girlfriend is, and I am very distressed by the existence of this girl, my face is flushed again, I don't like to lie, I actually say it so naturally and naturally, in one go, it really makes me admire my own improvisation, but in this way, I don't have to ask him directly, so that each other is embarrassed, embarrassed, and will not let my ill-intentioned, ill-intentioned, and other schemes are exposed.

"Girlfriend? is beautiful, where did you see me? I-" Under the misty, dim streetlights, I saw him smiling innocently and brightly.

Before he could finish speaking, I quickly talked about it and told me what I had seen and heard when I was learning Tai Chi in the playground.

"Haha, I haven't finished speaking, I don't know how I don't know, it turns out that you are talking about the beginning of school, no wonder you are impressed with me, you don't forget, and deliberately stepped on me to take revenge, I finally understand the reason, but boss, you can really think, that's my own sister, you really dare to think! At that time, she was also a freshman, a little pampered since childhood, little girl, that's it, that day she was homesick, crying to go home, I always have to comfort and comfort her as a brother. He said with a grin.

"Really?!" I grinned, and my heart suddenly felt so happy, "It's not your girlfriend, but what about your girlfriend?

"But I used to have such a girlfriend, but it was too early, a long time ago" There was a little sadness in his eyes.

I once heard an incident from my roommate. There is a "school grass" in our school, which is particularly unlucky. His ex-girlfriend is beautiful and versatile, but unfortunately she met a rich man and kicked him with one kick. "School grass" was heartbroken, and he didn't fall in love for many years. It can't be him, right?" I thought silently. He looks good, especially those big eyes, full of charm, but it's not the so-called "school grass" in our school. It shouldn't be him. But what is the same is that they are still single.

"By the way, isn't that tall, skinny guy you played with that day your boyfriend, I see you're very close, and the bespectacled boy that day—" He teased me with a big laugh. However, I feel that there is a sour taste when he speaks, but maybe it is my own sentimental delusion.

"Of course not, they're members of our Table Tennis Association, and I've never been in a relationship yet, haha-" Oh, he nodded thoughtfully, and stayed there stunned.

My heart was surging, I saw hope waving at me, and the goddess of victory showed me the charming smile of Mona Lisa, great, it turned out that the girl was her sister, no wonder how cute she looked, there is a brother and a sister, not to mention that it is really a little similar if you recall it carefully. That means that he doesn't have a girlfriend now, he is single, that means I can take advantage of the void, preconceived, haha opportunity must not be lost, time will not come, they don't tell me every day that men chase women, do mountains, women chase men, and kill them, although I am more introverted and shy on weekdays, but for my lifelong happiness, Ziyue, don't procrastinate, hesitate, let's say it quickly - plus the night is foggy, drunk, and there is no one on the road, it is really a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. However, after thinking about it, I was really embarrassed to say Chinese, so I blurted out the Japanese of our major - ぁぃしている (Jie, I like you).

The reason why I chose the Japanese Department was not because I admired foreign countries and forgot the history of the past, but because I was enlightened by a sentence from our high school teacher -- forgetting history is tantamount to betrayal, and we must treat others the way they want to be treated, and the more we have to fight our opponents, the more we have to understand them before learning Japanese. Even expected to become an excellent agent like Yu Zecheng in the lurking one day earlier, and after learning their native Chinese, they were naturally more comfortable. But these are the official reasons for my own whimsical, high-sounding external propaganda of masturbation. In fact, the main reason why I chose this major is that I didn't play well in college entrance examination English, and I was kicked from the popular English department to this somewhat unpopular major, which was chosen, and I didn't have the right to choose. However, I will not easily tell others this reason.

As soon as the conversation turned, after I said this ambiguous foreign sentence, I suddenly remembered that he was from the French department, and nine times out of ten he couldn't understand it, so I really blamed me for preparing too hastily and suddenly, and I should learn a few words of French. What to do, I was also stunned, nervous attack, grabbed his hand, and gently nodded on his face. But this can't help but move completely out of my sense, really by the big eyes of this first-class handsome guy to hook the soul, the soul can't give up, this handsome guy is a dose of poison for me, just look at it, the central system is poisoned, and the trunk movement will not obey the call. When I came to my senses and realized what I had done, I was so frightened that I couldn't say anything, so I quickly ran away in embarrassment.

As a result, he easily caught up with me like a gust of wind, he smiled slightly, held my little hand tightly with his strong big hand, and asked tenderly and gently: "Since you dare to say it, why do you want to slip away?"

I looked at his big sparkling eyes, and my heart was pounding as if it was about to jump out, and I said urgently, "Because I'm afraid, I'm afraid that you will say no." You know, I've never been in a relationship, I don't know if it's like this, if it's okay to do it like this, I'm really embarrassed that I didn't control myself, I really can't help myself....I really ..... my ......" I became more and more incoherent.

He smiled slightly and said lightly, "What would happen if I said no?"

I looked down seriously and thought about it, and blurted out, "Then I will beg you to be my boyfriend, even if it's only for a month, a week, even a day, I really care about you! I said very excitedly, tears rolled around my eyes, unfortunately, in the end, I still didn't control it, the tears that were not angry, or like beads like broken threads, flowed down continuously.

"Can you say it again in Chinese?" he said softly, still with a mysterious smile on his face.

"I... I... I really like you!" I finally mustered up all my courage, broke through the dark and dreary world, and said it out loud, of course, it was the first and only time in so many years to confess to a boy, looking back, until now I admire the courage at that time.

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