Taeyeon-kee.

Forgive me for saying goodbye without saying goodbye, so much has happened in recent times. In fact, if these things happen to ordinary couples, they are not trivial things at all, but they can turn the mentality of both of us around. Originally, I was going to tell you face-to-face before I wrote the letter, but I thought it was too strange, and it was easy for people to forget it after I finished speaking.

Or maybe they didn't want us both to see each other's expressions, so I chose to write a letter.

In fact, even if you choose to write a letter, in the process of writing a letter, you have been thinking about whether to write such a letter. I wondered if this letter would be a stain on my life if one day things might turn around. However, since we have already started to write, let's have a beginning and an end.

I remember when we first met, I didn't expect to meet you in that way. Let me tell you the truth, the picture of my dream meeting you is on a slightly drunk afternoon at sunset, I am wearing a white shirt to meet the afterglow of the sunset, stepping on the node of time, and behind me is a Maybach or Ferrari that I drove, vigorously appearing in front of you.

Well, the reality is so desperate.

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On the bed, Kim Taeyeon, who was wearing only a coat, didn't care about most of his body exposed to the air. And the feeling of being a little nervous and scared when he saw a letter that he didn't see Lin Xi early in the morning, and after seeing this, his mind unconsciously recalled the grove outside the gymnasium, and the villain who eavesdropped on his own words tripped over the roots.

The corners of his mouth opened slightly, revealing a very happy smile.

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I remember every day, every moment, and every smiling face we had together. Whenever I think about these images, I feel like I'm dreaming something I've never imagined before. Real, yet psychedelic.

It's just that forgive me for being discouraged in the first place. Because the future after we are together is too dreamy, just like a dream after falling asleep, so beautiful that people are reluctant to open their eyes. Because once you open your eyes and see reality, this dream is gone.

In fact, since the beginning of this year, I have had many sudden awakenings in the middle of the night when I was alone. It's like when you wake up now, you are panicked and depressed when you find that there is no one around you, and there is still a little bit of complaining.

I used to think I was amazing and could handle all the pressure of being with you. So I have no hesitation to pursue you crazily, I want to be with you, and I want to bring you a happy future. It wasn't until later that I found out that I was wrong, it turns out that when the human brain is excited, it will secrete a mental stimulant, so that you can forget all the bad consequences that will happen later, and only see the good side.

Now, I know it's time to wake up. I didn't tell you this to your face because I didn't have the courage to look at you and say such things.

But there are some things that I still don't want to say or write. So, let's talk about dreams now.

For example, you have been on your dream journey since 2004 when you won the S&M Audition Singer Champion. After that, he practiced at the company for 3 years, and finally made his official debut as a member and captain of Girls' Generation in 2007.

I know what I should know, and you told me what I shouldn't know. Until 2017, 13 years have passed. Life is short, where did you come from for 13 years. Some of them are unlucky, or they are not in good health, and they may not even be able to survive 13 years.

And I like you, it started in 08, and then to 15 years, which is just 7 years. Even if you add the next two years together, it is not enough for 10 years.

10 years, compared to your 13 years. Even a child knows which number is bigger. What's more, during that time, I didn't do a single thing for you at all, and I just liked it among everyone, and you have been working very hard for my liking.

But I love it very selfishly that you can abandon the dream that you have worked hard for 13 years, just for such a selfish me. Now that I think about it, I'm really a scumbag.

So, in order not to hate myself even more, and so that my impression in your mind does not become worse and more ugly. After reading the letter, you just let me leave here very cool. If you were to make a phone call, I wouldn't dare not answer, let alone not answer, and then the idea that I had been thinking about for so long and this letter would be really useless.

There is a saying that goes like this, in the world of feelings. Children will be worried about why the other party ignores themselves, whether they don't like themselves anymore, and whether they love themselves or not, and adults are very tacitly estranged from each other. Actually, I think this sentence has another meaning, that is, like or like, love is still in love.

It's just that liking and love, and being together, sometimes it's really two different things.

In the Star Factory in Seoul, what kind of suffering and hard work does it take for an ordinary person to become a truly dazzling idol or singer? I believe that people who have not experienced it will never dare to believe it and will not be able to experience it.

Because some platforms, even if they have worked hard all their lives, may not be able to stand on them. Or even if you can stand there, you're covered in bruises.

And the people who can stand on it and smile at everyone are because they have accumulated too many tears, sweat and bitterness behind their backs.

I like everything about Taeyeon, and naturally I won't dislike you standing on stage. It was a warm, pure smile, and I think I had an obligation to protect it, not wear it out. So I don't want you to be carrying some unnecessary weight behind such a smile.

I really hope that you can make a choice for my sake, but I am also more afraid that you will abandon such a dream for my sake. Because it would make me look bad, worse than I am.

Actually, I didn't think about it until I heard something at lunch one day. What you need is not a shackle, but a sky where you can fly freely.

So I, who used to be very selfish, should also help you untie this shackle.

In fact, if I were to talk to you face to face about these things, maybe I would be gibberish, and I would be in a hurry to see the expression of your little face, like the time we met across the state. But I'm not with you right now, so I'm not going to be a blind baby.

I saw the letter here, and I think you also saw that I didn't write any signature on the back. The meaning is very simple, just don't make phone calls, don't reply to letters, just let me leave very cool, and let me keep the cute appearance of seeing you when you didn't wake up before leaving.

Goodbye, my little soft. In a sense, you've never been my own, but even so, I'm satisfied.

When your future popularity is in full swing and dazzling.

I'll remember you.

PS: I hesitated for a long time to write the last sentence, and I didn't know whether to write it. It wasn't until the middle of the night that it was really added. That is:

'If one day, when you're gone, if you remember me and you're single, maybe we can start another story.' ’

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After reading the letter, Kim Taeyeon, who had always felt that she was strong, finally covered her eyes with her hands that had been trembling. After a long time, I slowly moved away. In this short period of time, she felt that every second was like spending the whole spring, summer, autumn and winter.

I looked down at the letter that fell on the sheet again, and my confused eyes only saw the word 'smile', so I subconsciously grinned and raised a very bright smile. At the same time, the tears that had been suppressed for a long time also flowed from her smile, without the slightest crying and sobbing, just letting the tears keep flowing down.

With that smile, it shines like the sun and rain.

After a long time, Kim Taeyeon, who was still crying, accepted the letter very carefully. Then he pulled out a very beautiful little box from the bedside table, threw the valuable hairpin in it casually, and finally put the letter inside.

Then he said the first thing he said when he got up in the morning.

"Wait for me. ”

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On the other side, in the hotel where Qiqi and Situ and the others lived.

When the few of them had just finished breakfast and were about to go back to the room to pack their luggage, they happened to meet Lin Xi in the elevator, who also came up from the parking lot. Then looking at the backpack on his back, the expressions of several people also changed several times.

In the end, it was Qiqi who spoke, "Are you playing really?"

"You're crazy. Situ also frowned, obviously worried about Lin Xi.

"Why don't you go back and apologize?" Saolong, who is already married, his first reaction is to apologize.

"What nonsense, pack up. You can also take a stroll in a while, and the time of the plane is in the afternoon, so I am not in a hurry to pass. Lin Xi, who had just come out of the apartment, was also in a very heavy mood. But after seeing the concern of my friends, I laughed a little bit.

Seeing that Lin Xidu had answered, the seven or seven people could only sigh secretly in their hearts, and then put the topic aside, not planning to continue to touch this wound.

It is true that the time after that is that several people scurrying around the streets of Seoul are recalling their fantasies when they were chasing stars. also according to the scenes that appeared in each of them, and looked for them one by one. But here, there are those scenes of Lin Xi missing.

Because they all know roughly that their own ones are virtual, but the guy's next to them is 8 real.

Han River Bridge, Seoul Tower, parks, coffee shops, barbecue restaurants, and more. After visiting the real places that these people often wrote, the time also came to more than 2 o'clock in the afternoon. A few people who were already preparing to go to the airport had made a call to the old site of S&M.

10 A few minutes later, Lin Xi's four people, who were not far from there, also stood near the company. Looking at the building in front of him, Situ said with emotion, "It's a dream, it's really a dream." ”

Next to him, Xiaolong also responded in disbelief, "Yes, I knew that the chances were very slim before I got married, and I was even more thoughtless after I got married, but I didn't expect that I could realize my dream in such a situation." ”

Lin Xi and Qiqi next to them have seen this company building for more than the first time, so they don't make any statement.

After a few people stood like this for a while, Lin Xi glanced at the time of his watch and said, "Let's go, the time is a little rushed." ”

Situ and the others nodded, and then the group also turned around and left. It's just that at the moment when a few people left, Lin Xi's back happened to be seen by some fans waiting here, but he said to his friend next to him with some curiosity, "Ina, look at the person over there, the one in the middle doesn't look like Taeyeon's boyfriend." ”

"Which one?" The girl beside her, who didn't know the situation, immediately turned to look at Lin Xi's side and asked.

However, the girl who spoke before also glanced at Lin Xi and the others who had already turned, and shook her head, "Forget it, it's gone." ”

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On the other side, Kim Taeyeon, who had rested for most of the day, finally got into Kim Jong's car and continued his trip today.

It's just that Kim Jong, who was sitting in the driver's seat, looked at Kim Taeyeon behind him very carefully from the rearview mirror today, as if there was something on her face that he cared about very much.

It was a little funny to see Kim Taeyeon all the time, so she asked, "Ah, oppa, what are you looking at, is there anything dirty on my face?" After speaking, he also opened his bag and took out the mirror he carried with him to look at himself.

"No, it's fine. Faced with Kim Taeyeon's words, Kim Jong also shook his head. But after hesitating for a while, he asked, "Taeyeon, are you really okay?"

"Oppa, you're weird today. What can I do? What the hell are you thinking?" frowned, Kim Jong's appearance made Kim Taeyeon a little strange.

"But what you said to me as soon as you got in the car really made me very uneasy. At this time, Jin Zheng was also a little depressed and told his thoughts, "You said that it's okay if you don't tell me, you told me like this, didn't you want me to be depressed too, and I also have to worry about you." ”

After hearing this, Kim Tae-yeon's expression was slightly stunned, and then he smiled, "It's good, oppa, aren't we all going through hardships together." This is the common suffering, it's okay, it'll be fine in a while. ”

After speaking, Kim Taeyeon's little face also turned to the other side, looked out the window and said secretly in his heart:

'Yes, it'll be fine. ’