Blessings to the heavens

I didn't go hiking yesterday, and I didn't plan to go this week. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 As a result, I don't know if the climber will not adapt to the body once he does not climb the mountain. Anyway, it was less than 60 o'clock in the week, and the rhinitis that I hadn't committed for a year came back, and it was extremely uncomfortable. Thinking that it would be good to climb the mountain, I decided at noon to make up for the climb tomorrow, maybe on the mountain with clean air, it will be better to sweat.

When I went up the mountain, I met a small monk at the mountain gate in the courtyard of the Pure Industry Temple. Curious about how he got up the mountain, he replied in the end: "I sent Tianchang Master yesterday." ”

Hmm? I sighed in my heart: "What did Master Tianchang do?"

"He took the train and left......"

I didn't hear the words clearly, I just felt very uncomfortable, standing in the courtyard, feeling stunned and aggrieved for a while, and at the same time I wanted to cry but the tears couldn't come out, and my head hurt very much.

After calming down for a while, he decided to give Tianchang a call. One dial, it's through. At this moment, the little master said, "When Master Tianchang left, I paid a lot of phone bills. ”

I hung up as soon as I heard this, turned off my phone, and didn't want to talk to him anymore.

Decided to go up the mountain. The little master may look at my bad face and ask me, "Are you still going up the mountain?"

"Are you busy, if you don't have anything to do, come up the hill with me. ”

He happily carried my bag. As facts have proved, this decision was the right one.

This trip to the mountain I climbed was boring, I didn't have any energy, and I was panicked. Along the way, all I thought about was the relationship with Tianchang, I couldn't pay attention to my feet, stumbled several times, and walked to the Reclining Buddha Temple with difficulty, and I didn't want to go any further.

After eating, the worry in my heart could no longer be suppressed. sent a text message to Tianchang: "Just left?"

Tianchang: "Sooner or later, I'll leave." ”

"Why didn't you tell me when I was leaving?"

"I'm afraid you're too worried. "When I saw his text message, my tears came out at once.

"In which monastery?"

"Not sure. ”

………

Writing this, I cried again......

In October of '09, we met Tianchang. For the first year, I barely looked at him squarely. Later, for other reasons, I forced myself to talk to him. Until last Saturday, I was playing tricks on him, and he thought I was a child. Every time he teased him, he laughed happily, and then always said, "You and the sky are still children, you are too simple." ”

As for me, when I heard his words, I annoyed him even more, and I always thought that he was self-righteous.

Now that I think about it, my heart is full of emotion and all sorry. Why don't I take his words seriously? I may really be a child in his eyes and heart. He may be expressing his concern for me, and this kind of concern is only what his own relatives would do: no matter what he reciprocates, he will always stand behind you and help you.

In fact, when I went to Tibet, I found out that he really treated me like a child and gave me detailed precautions, from bathing, walking, eating to how to buy a ticket to visit the Potala Palace, and he had never been to Tibet at all. In order not to let me get close to the person I proposed to visit, I kept telling on the other end of the phone, repeatedly talking about the stakes, and finally lost my temper: "You don't want to see anyone, you are still a little girl, you are too simple, anyone will lie to you, how will you ......" The more he said, the more outrageous he became.

And I was annoyed with him because of this incident at the time, thinking that he had a problem with his mentality. Later, when I was in Tibet, I reacted too strongly, and he shouted loudly on the other end of the phone: "Book a plane ticket and return quickly." ”

Also this time, I don't strongly reject Tianchang from the heart, but I still think he is paranoid.

Now that I think about it, it is precisely such a person who cared for and protected me like a child during the most difficult period in my heart. In his untrue words, there will always be flashes of great wisdom, and these words wake me up. As for me, I don't accept him with my mouth, but I also regard him as a close friend in my heart. I often tell him something that worries me, and he will give me the most appropriate advice in a timely manner.

That is, last week, he said to me, "You asked me to tell you what happened to the magic written in the book, I never answered you in the past, and today I tell you that the magic is all artificial, and it is the result of my own hope......"

Alas, I didn't pay attention at all.

He also never cared about my attitude, and continued, "I never let you give up anything, and never think about forgetting what you have experienced, but cherish it." Kindness is your strength, but protect yourself. You are too simple, but you do not lack wisdom, you are too kind to know how to refuse. I'm not worried about you, you have to take care of each other......"

In the past three years, he has told me too much and sent me a lot of text messages. I'm also used to asking him about something, and forgetting about him when I'm done. I went too far, I never cared about him seriously, and I said it was very good, but in fact, I still didn't fully accept him in my heart.

Just three days ago, when Miki was asked to see the photos of me and Tianchang, the two of us also 'criticized' the photos of Tianchang. Because Miki doesn't know Tianchang too well, she persuaded me not to cry in front of Tianchang in the future, she didn't like this person, and I actually told her: "I don't like it either, don't worry, don't cry." ”

Yes, there will be no crying in front of him, there will be no such opportunity......

Thanksgiving, in such a big world, there are a few people who will intersect with us, a few people who will take us to heart and care for us selflessly, and a few people who can love you as a child. I was lucky enough to meet Tianchang and he did it all for me.

Thank Tianchang, I look forward to meeting again in this life, and I will definitely repay him like a 'child'."

At this moment, in this cold night, I just hope that Tianchang can have a temple to live in as soon as possible, as soon as possible, as soon as possible.

As long as I remember that he is still on the way, still searching, I will be very sad, very sad......

2011－12－25

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