Do as you wish, revisit the monk Tianchang

The last time I was at the Pure Industry Temple, I had an unfinished interview with Master Tianchang, and it has been four weeks. During this period www.biquge.info I went to other monasteries and visited other monks. In the end, it was decided to abandon the book "The Road to the Hermit of Qinling".

If I had a little impulse when I decided to write, I thought about giving up. I know myself very well, and I'm going to keep doing it, and I can expect it. One result is that I'm a monk, and the other is that I'm going crazy. Then both outcomes are unwanted. So, I decisively chose to give up.

To this day, I still have friends who support me to write and think that I am suitable to write. I don't think so. What I give up today, I won't do in the future. Why is this so? Because I am a person who strives for perfection, and I am also a naïve person. These two articles caused me to be too selective about people and things, and I was indignant at negative people and things, and I hurt myself in the process.

I don't write a book anymore, I should have an explanation for Master Tianchang of the Pure Industry Temple. Because I told him I was going to write a book, and I said he was the first hermit in my book, and he agreed. He's still waiting for me to talk about the topics that I didn't finish last time, and now I don't write about it, how can I tell him, it really makes me think hard.

As long as I think of his expression at that time, I don't have the courage to say it to him, but this matter can't be dragged on all the time. If you don't tell Tianchang again, it may be torture for him and me.

So, I called him last Thursday and told him, "If there is nothing else to do this Saturday, I will go to the Pure Industry Temple, and I will call you again before I go." ”

"Come on, I've got everything you need to know. He said happily.

Putting down the phone, my heart was up and down. Tianchang told me so devotedly, I just let it go so easily. I'm so sorry for him, he'll think I'm a random person.

On Friday night, I decided to go to the watershed on the impromptu basis, and at that time I also thought about the appointment of Tianchang. But I thought that I told him at the time that I would call again when I went, so I let go of it.

Yesterday, it rained a lot, and I was very tired and didn't go climbing. However, in the evening, the addiction to climbing the mountain returned, and I made an appointment with my companion to go climbing the mountain on Sunday.

When I woke up at 8 o'clock, I saw that it was still raining, so I had to go back to sleep. By ten o'clock the rain had stopped. Call immediately and tell Tianchang that I'll be there in an hour.

When I went up the stone steps of the Pure Industry Temple, I once again admired the changes I had made in the past six months. The stone steps under my feet are very easy for me, but in the past I walked for a while, stopped, and couldn't go up.

I was in the mountains many times on snowy days. It was my second time on a rainy day. At this time, the sky is drizzling, on the opposite mountain, the top of the mountain is filled with mist, caressing the verdant undulating mountains, the shrubs on the mountain are washed by the rain, the leaves emit a refreshing green, the color is delicious, and the air is moist and fresh so that I feel that my body is like bathing, and my heart and lungs are infiltrated. I couldn't help but pause from time to time, taking a deep breath greedily and reveling. At the same time, I sincerely sighed: I am really happy to be with Qinling in this life......

Because I was busy reveling, I arrived at the Pure Industry Temple fifteen minutes late.

Walking into the yard, I saw Master Tianchang looking in the direction I came from, smiled when he saw me, and then turned around to do something. Oh, he was waiting for me.

I blamed myself for not telling him on the phone when I didn't arrive at eleven o'clock?

Tianchang sat back in his daily position, hunched down on the table and kept writing, ignoring me at all. And next to him, a forty-year-old and good-looking master (as middle-aged as the sky) was talking about something.

I laughed when I heard this: "Fellow countryman, you are my fellow countryman in Nanyang." ”

"Where are you from Nanyang? I'm from Xixia. He laughed too.

"I'm from Dengzhou. It's so kind, listening to you, I feel like I'm back in my grandfather's Gaozhuang village. "Hehe, I'm embarrassed to say it's like hearing my father speak.

"Fellow, here you have to call Tianchang a master, and I am the same. Because (I don't remember what he said) ......," he said to me with a smile.

"Nope. I don't have faith, I don't treat you as a monk, Tianchang is my friend, you are my fellow countryman, so I can't call you master. If one day, I call you masters, it must be because I have defined our identities and we will not have any interaction. ”

"I see, you don't think we're monks. He smiled and nodded in agreement.

Later, Tianchang told me that the Nanyang fellow is called Miaojing. In Buddhism, there are two people with the highest moral character (he doesn't mean that word, it means this), and Gen Myeo Ching is one of them. He was sent to help the Sky Master with his precepts.

Oh, I see. The respect for my fellow countryman is spontaneous!

It's been half an hour here, and Tianchang hasn't meant to talk to me yet. Because of the rain, the temperature on the mountain is very low. He was wearing a cotton robe, and I was wearing only a T-shirt.

I felt a little cold: "Tianchang, you don't seem to want to talk about anything today, then I'll come back later." I'm feeling a little cold. ”

Hehe! A ridiculous scene appeared.

The fellow Miaojing said, "You are so seriously ill! We are very good at seeing doctors here, so I will ask them to show you." ”

When he said this, he was so anxious that he stammered.

"What fellow countryman? You said you, why is it bad for me to listen to it?"

The only thing that makes my fellow 'happy' is that his ears are a little back. Maybe he cares too much about me as a fellow countryman, and when I talk to Tianchang, he always interrupts.

Tianchang raised his head and said with a solemn expression, "Why didn't you come last Saturday?" His expression shocked me, the same as last time.

I was shocked and hurriedly said, "I have something to do temporarily, so I went somewhere else." ”

"I'll tell you an allusion - Chengmen mechanics," he said seriously.

I couldn't take it anymore, so I interrupted him: "I know what you mean." Have you forgotten that I will call you before I come to confirm another sentence I said to you. ”

"You have to ask for others, and you have to lose your word. He opened the drawer, took out something like an envelope, got up and walked to the altar of incense, glanced at the hall, and lit the envelope in his hand.

Returning to the table, he said, "Anything missed, it will be missed forever, and there is no repeat of chance." You didn't show up last week, so we missed it. I put everything you wanted to know on paper, but you didn't come. I just burned it. Because, the reason you just gave did not convince me. ”

Oh, how so?" I was shocked.

Soon I laughed in my heart, I didn't write anymore, and I was worried about how to tell him, but he broke it himself. Hehe, God is always with me, it's really whatever you want.

"It's really cold, I'm leaving. Your heart is too small. "I got up and got ready to go up the mountain.

"You are indeed a very good person, very kind at heart, and very upright. Many of our masters here think that you are better than us, and many of us are not as good as your kindness and sense of responsibility. He said seriously.

"You haven't answered me yet, what's the matter with that person on Guanyin Mountain?" I didn't expect him to say that, and I also replied.

He continued, "I can answer you. You must have seen that the bodies of party members are covered with party flags after they die. Were they all completely loyal to the party's cause when they were alive? Is it because of the difference in what they do, and the size of the party flag they put up? You come with me!" He got up and walked towards the main hall.

"What for?" thought of me judging me in the hall, but his parables were unexpected!

"Let you go, and you will go with him. Just go. Master Miaojing said from the side.

"Aren't you interrupted? I'm going to be bad for you today. ”

I was very reluctant (I remember a friend saying that my problem was that I wouldn't refuse) to walk into the main hall. Then he walked behind the idol.

"What are you going to do?" I was a little scared.

He opened the back door and walked out. I walked to the door and looked, "Oh, there was a row of caves outside you."

Standing in the courtyard in front of the cave, Tianchang was like a fortune teller, turning back and forth, making me dizzy.

"What are you going to say? I'm cold! The companions walked away. I crossed my arms and urged.

"Ask someone for advice, how can you hold your arms, I am a master, you are a student, you are still a child! I just want to freeze you today. What is the relationship between the earth and the sun? Protons, neutrons ......"

Here we go again!

"We're not going to talk about it today. You are wearing a cotton robe, and I am wearing a dress, and besides, this is what you think. "I'm really angry.

"Answer me. "He's spinning faster and faster!

"Tianchang, what are you cultivating here? I didn't come on time, why don't you want me to have something? Why do you always think of others as bad? Where is your tolerance? Where is your kindness? After I told you the reason, you burned what you wrote, what scriptures did you read? "I'm indignant!

"As I said earlier, there are indeed many places in your body that our monks are not as good as you. Put on my cotton robe!" He began to untie his cotton robe.

"No need. "I'm thinking about what it's like to wear a monk's clothes, no matter how cold it is, I won't wear it.

He didn't answer me and began to say what he thought of the Sky Host, babbling gibberish and self-righteousness......

"Tianchang, behind you is the Bodhisattva you worship, how can you do this? Let's talk about it later, you still have to say it if I'm cold like this?"

"Look at you, let you put on my cotton robe, I don't mind, but you think too much. Today is the last time I talk to you. If you tell the sky what I told you, I would have to get out of the Pure Industry Temple! However, I will finally tell you, you should stop paying attention to the sky, everything in the sky is less than one-tenth of what the protagonist of your book, Zhou Yan! ”

Ah! Why do you say that? Why? I was stunned by his words! I looked at Tianchang's back and stayed there.

After a while, I came to my senses and sat down at Tianchang's table.

He got up and poured me a cup of hot water and said, "You have a cold, go and lie down in my bedroom!" The expression on his face was calm, but the words were outrageous.

"No, it's much better to drink hot water. Tell me, why did you say that about him?"

"No why, my observations and the conclusions he drew on those he talked to me. Don't write a book, listen to me, that's too bitter. You don't do that, your happy life is better than anything else, and that's what everyone wants. He looked at me and said nothing.

You go on. "I found out that this day is a different person.

"The purpose of your book, you never told me, but I know it. You're not here to promote the Dharma, but you're here to speak. You wrote it so that he wouldn't be a monk. ”

"Stop. "My heart throbbed and tears welled up. I lowered my hat.

I didn't expect Tianchang to say that. Because, why I wrote that book, in fact, I don't fully know it myself, Jing Tianchang said this, I found that it was really like this.

Tianchang continued: "He was very good to her, I observed. Many of our masters here have observed it. He's done a great job, but his character and dedication is not something anyone can do. Today's situation is the only option, and you made the right decision (he refers to me arranging the ending of the protagonist in the book). Stop worrying about doing the right thing. You ask me why I became a monk, and I can tell you. I was also the only way out because I met ......"

"Don't say it, I see. I interrupted him, and I couldn't bear to let him reminisce about the painful process.

"He's not happy, I think it's all my fault. Let's talk about it later!" My heart is in turmoil.

"Whether he's happy or not has little to do with you, how do you know if someone isn't happy. Gu Cheng, do you know? He has a poem that is very well written, and I will write it to you. ”

"Yes, I'm leaving. I took the letter he had folded, I didn't look at it, and put it in my bag.

"You haven't seen me a few times. Sixteen years later, I'll tell you what I burned on it today. The light in his eyes was gone.

"When you leave the temple, remember to give me a call. I said perfunctorily. Because, I don't think it's a bad thing for him to leave the Pure Industry Temple.

When I went up the mountain, I seriously reflected on what Tianchang said for the first time. I feel that he has a high IQ, understands a lot, and has a wide range of knowledge (for other reasons, I didn't write everything he said.) is a diligent thinker. It's a bit extreme, mainly in arrogance. Maybe he really has that much energy, but if he always has the mentality of 'seeing all the mountains and small things', it is absolutely wrong. In addition, he was in a monastery and had great ambitions.

And now that I think about his relationship with me for more than a year, he has actually been helping me.

From the beginning of knowing him, he always argued with me, to these two conversations. Many of his views and guidance to me are very incisive and unique. A lot of words helped me a lot and had a great impact. It's just that what he said was inadvertent, and I didn't listen to it seriously. Now that I think about it, he was a friend, and I didn't. I also understand why he always says I'm a kid, I see.

After understanding this, I felt sorry for Tianchang. I'm sorry for not taking him seriously, not listening to what he says, and not understanding him seriously.

The next day, I remembered the paper on which he wrote Gu Cheng's poem. After opening it, it confirmed my view of Tianchang, and at the same time, it also allowed me to see the other side of Tianchang. No one would guess which poem of Gu Cheng he was writing silently!

A decision arose in my mind. After thinking about it for a day, I dialed Tianchang's mobile phone, "Tianchang, you are still vulgar." I can get you a job in your major, and you're doing what you want. ”

Tianchang": ..................

2011－5－22

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