I missed it in anticipation

It rained for three days in a row in Xi'an this week. I originally wanted to go to Maliang on Saturday, but I gave up after safety reasons. If I can't climb the mountain far away, then I must go to the safest place, and it is also the first choice and the only spare land beam for me to climb the mountain. There are no floodways and ravines and mountain streams on this route, and it is basically all walked on the slopes and beams, and the sandy and dirt roads on the mountains are better to walk after rain. Thinking of this, I feel again that the land beam of Fengyu is my back garden. Whenever and wherever you want, you can go.

At night, when I was ready to go to bed, it suddenly occurred to me that I should see the specific time when the yellow flowers were in full bloom. Recently, the complex of the other side of the flower has been on my mind, and I subconsciously think that the middle of October is the red side of the flower, so the yellow side flower of a month earlier may be about to bloom. So, I turned on my phone again and looked at the date of last year's shooting. Looking at this, I can't sleep for a long time. Because I misremembered the time. All of them were delayed by a month. I regret it. In regret, I also comforted myself that all the solar terms this year were later than last year, and the flowers on the other side of the bank were postponed. Alas, the more I hope like this, the more I can't sleep. This night, I tossed in sleep and wake.

Today, I went to the land beam to climb the mountain, and it was the earliest time I set off: 7:30. I'm usually 8 o'clock. It's too early to worry that no one in the mountains is unsafe. Today is a group of people, so there is no worry. To climb the mountain so early, the route is set to go up the mountain from the Pure Industry Temple, and look at the flowers on the other side when the Fengde Temple goes out of the mountain.

After entering the mountain gate of the Pure Industry Temple, we found that we were already ahead of us. The two companions were strong donkeys, and they hurried all the way to the fork of the Donggou. After the argument, it was decided to go from Donggou. The reason why we argue is that it is not safe to go from here. A few months ago, we met two wild boars here. It's not safe to walk because when I was going down from here a few weeks ago, I saw wild kiwi fruit in a ditch with a lot of fruit. We want to take a look.

Strengthened his courage and shouted all the way to walk in the ditch. When I went up to a slope, I saw an old man climbing a mountain picking fruit on a kiwi tree, and there were two more in the ditch under the tree. They had finished everything they could easily pick, and the backpack under the tree was full. I hurriedly said loudly: You have already picked so much, don't pick any more. There are so many temples in the ditch, and this tree is near the temple, and the monks must know that there is kiwi fruit here. Leave some for them.

No one of the three of them paid attention to me, so they continued to pick it up. My two companions were ready to move on. I knew they wanted to pick a few and try them too. Besides, if we don't pick it, those people won't stop. So, I called my companion. Let's pick up a few under the tree. I saw that the couple picked too much, and there were so many things in the bag and on the ground. It was decided that we would pick some too. This may be the reverse 'catfish utility'. Doing bad things is contagious. It's just that there's nothing left to reach. We took a lot of effort to shake off a few strings.

After they finally filled their bags and pockets of clothes, they carried a backpack weighing fifty or sixty pounds and went straight down the mountain. They told us that they came to see it last week, and that they got up early this morning to pick fruits. And he said that if they don't pick it, someone else will pick it. I also laughed at me and started picking it now.

I also freed myself from eating some, and it was better for us to eat some than to let them overeat. Under such a mentality, each person picked up four or five catties, and continued to go up the mountain on their backs. The companion also planned to go to the chestnut ditch of Huangyu Temple to pick up some chestnuts that did not have an owner in the true meaning. I don't want it, after these catties of kiwifruit are put in the bag, I basically can't climb the mountain.

Continuing upward, I saw that the walnut trees in the ditch looked like they had never borne fruit. sighed, the monks are so serious about their work, and there are so many trees, not a single one is left. It is speculated that they may not like to eat kiwifruit, or they let others take the lead before they are ripe. Thinking of this, my heart has lowered my anxiety when I picked the fruit just now. Especially when I think about it, the kiwi tree is inherently wild. It seems reasonable for the monks to pick the walnuts they planted and leave the kiwi to share. It's just that it must be inappropriate for that old man to pick so wildly. It should be like us, pick a little bit, and save it for more people to taste.

Continuing to move forward, I saw that there were many persimmon trees behind the front floor of the temple, and the trees were full of fruits, and they were golden. The vegetable garden in front of the courtyard is also full of melons, fruits and beans, and I suddenly feel that this Donggou autumn is really a good place. However, the persimmon is too big and is not the fire crystal persimmon that I like. Therefore, whether these persimmon trees are wanted by the masters or not, I will not pick any of them.

After a difficult walk to Wat Pho, we left the bag of kiwi at the farmhouse. When the fellow asked us what we picked, I was really embarrassed to say that it was kiwi fruit. The answer was that it was an oak tree. The fellow was puzzled when he heard this, and suggested that we go to Huangyu Temple to pick up some chestnuts.

Xing Chong rushed to the chestnut ditch, and there were people walking under the trees, but they didn't pick up much. It's early.

The chestnuts were not picked up, and we had time to play on the land beams. His companion Shaw is a master photographer. Today's weather is blue sky with white clouds. Plus three people have the same hobbies. These conditions decided that we once again made the commanding height of the land beam a catwalk and began to show off. When I came, I did a kung fu demonstration at another high point, and now I start doing static performances. It was another yoga zazen mobilization, and the heart of the show was happy, and the laughter went around the beam. Happy, really happy.

At this time, I thought of the wonderful summary of the bean traveler after doing the kung fu performance in front of me in the morning: all the efforts to climb the mountain in front of me are all for playing on the land beam!

yes, she was so accurate. I climbed the mountain for six years, and the second year came to the land beam. I've loved it ever since. Look at the four seasons on the beam, the scenery is picturesque and beautiful. Walking in the four seasons, with the land beam left the most beautiful combination of the four seasons and the greatest enjoyment of the soul!

After Liang Shang had fun, there was one more happy thing to do today, which was to go to Fengde Temple to see the flowers on the other side of the year.

There is something in the heart, and there is wind under the feet. We marched again to the Fengde Temple. When I went down to the big slope, my heart was eager to rise, and I didn't care about the mud slippery, so I came to Fengde Temple as fast as possible. After entering the door, I first saw the red flowers on the other side, and I didn't care about joy and walked forward quickly. Seeing that the yellow flowers have borne fruit on each other's flowers, self-blame, self-blame, self-blame! unforgivable self-blame. I thought that the yellow prince was blooming and waiting for me to come, but I didn't come. Moreover, during the weeks when the yellow flowers were in full bloom, I climbed here every week, and every time I came down from Fengde Temple, I didn't even think of the yellow flowers.

I think I met the red flower in Fengde Temple three years ago, and I started to look forward to it when the season came in the past two years. Especially last year, because my heart was too eager, I went a month early, and I came across a yellow flower that was about to wither. The moment I saw the flowers, I was so excited that I was at a loss, and I couldn't stop shooting at the flowers. At that time, I asked about the flowering period of the yellow flowers, and I agreed to see it this year. I held the yellow one and said, "Prince, wait for me next year."

I'm a broken promise now! I feel ashamed in my self-blame! But there is also a thought: Could it be that the yellow flower doesn't want to see me? Otherwise, why would he remember his flowering date incorrectly? And it's so thorough! Leaving the red flower waiting for me? This thought is also instantaneous. It's more about self-blame, unforgivable self-blame.

Missed another year. Looking at the prince's flower, which had no leaves and was full of fruit, I didn't have the courage to make another appointment with the prince. I can no longer break my trust with the prince, and I can no longer break my trust.

When I watched the red flowers come out of the backyard and pass by the yellow flowers again, it suddenly occurred to me that I wanted to take some of the fruits back and plant them downstairs in my new campus. This thought still lingers. When I went next week, I made my request to the master at the temple. Whether it will be fulfilled or not, everything is unknown. If it happens, I'll bring back the red flowers at the same time. Then plant them together, right downstairs from me. In this way, you will no longer miss every flower blooming, but the tweed on the other side of the Fengde Temple.......

2015－9－12