Chapter 14: Chaotic Time, Chaotic Events (5)

"I know the answer to this request?" I looked at her on this quiet street, on this peaceful morning, and couldn't help but ask myself. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

At that time, I never thought that I would let go of my hand one day earlier, nor would I think about whether I would hold hands and walk together tomorrow, because that is a daily life, a very common thing, just like our breathing, whether it is during the day or when we are asleep at night, we will not think about how to breathe, whether to breathe or not, at that time, this kind of thing is probably like this, the only difference is the morning and evening of time。

But now, so what?

I've come this way, and everything I've been doing since then has been like a movie that I haven't been able to finish -- I haven't been able to see a movie that ends at the end, and even if I can continue watching it now, it's just a deliberate replay. Can you fool everything in between?

If a lie cannot deceive others for a lifetime, then the damage caused by the lie will increase dramatically over time and eventually collapse. A lie that can deceive others for a lifetime is no longer a lie, but a fact that is forcibly given.

I can't do it. There are only two answers before me - what is remembered and what is forgotten in the past.

[I can walk on my own.]

[yes.]

Faintly replied, Yeyue slowly took her hand back, but still gently pulled my cuffs.

At that moment, her bright eyes were dim and lonely, but she seemed to be trying to restrain herself, smiled at me, lowered her head, she didn't insist on anything, she didn't give up anything, just maintained the previous direction and practice, and returned to her usual self.

After a short silence, Yeyue, who had adjusted her condition, let go of the hand that was pulling the cuff and asked softly

[That... Can you accompany me to buy something?

This one... It's another form of giving up, but I'm a little relieved by it.

[Hm... When I go back, I basically sleep. What do I need to buy?]

After getting the agreement, Yeyue raised her head slightly like a capricious weather, smiled sweetly, and said

[Buy.. Birthday present.]

[Ahh

Birthday presents.Not good at it.. Anyway, I've given birthday gifts to only three people, Komachi, Yubihama and Yukishita. Relatives?I basically didn't see that she had any friends or anything like that at school.,If you have to say it, it's probably one of Yangnai.,Sasaki counts.. Half..

More than ten seconds passed, and Yeyue was still standing in place, what's wrong with this?I frowned and asked

[Anything else?]

[Eh?no...]

She was stunned for a moment, then tilted her head slightly, a faint flush floating on her face, and said intermittently

[I.. I'm not really... Familiar.. The environment here is so...]

Huh? I'm not familiar with the environment here? Anyway, this is also a Chiba, right? Can this be understood as "I haven't been anywhere else except school"?

I looked at it helplessly, and the squirming appearance was really... Hey, forget it... Just get used to it

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Ten minutes later, Night Moon and I came to this fountain again for the first time to meet under the snow to buy gifts for Yuhihama.,Ahhh I'm back, and surprisingly for the same purpose.

The same square, the same scenery, nothing has changed at all, it has become just a person. On Sundays, there were a lot of people, at least twice as many as usual, and most of them were young people, and there were many people talking and laughing in pairs... Damn, shouldn't have come here... Even now, I'm also a person who is very afraid of being misunderstood.

I shook my head and put these distractions behind me, I really didn't want to think about these troublesome things, and I would talk about it when I was really misunderstood.

Looking back, Yeyue was standing beside the board with some restraint like a good baby, with a nervous expression. This one... It has nothing to do with me, right? Why are you nervous?

[Hey, if you buy a gift, it's probably on the second and third floors of the Central Building.]

[Ahh Hmm.]

Responding in a panic, Yeyue walked behind me in a bit of a panic, and her breathing became a little disordered.

Hey, hey, it's all too nervous, isn't it? Sick?

[Feeling unwell?]

I looked at her with some concern, last time... No way?

She shook her head slightly, holding her hand on her forehead as if she was a little hard

[No.. It's just a little uncomfortable.]

[Not adapting?]

[Hmm...]

I replied softly, but there was basically no useful information. What is not adapted to?climate?environment?or something else?

I didn't follow up, but pointed to the lounge area next to her

[So.] I'll be there waiting for you.]

If I buy a birthday present, I still don't go, and it doesn't make a difference if I go. So by the time I was done, I had already walked over there.

[No, no!]

Suddenly, there was a loud shout behind me, and the trembling sound really startled me, but before I could turn back, I felt something grab on my right arm

Yeyue grabbed my arm tightly, closed her eyes tightly, and continued in a voice that trembled with fear

[No, no... I—I'm afraid...]

A voice that speaks quickly because of nervousness, a tone that becomes fragile because of fear, and a voice that is destroyed because of fear.

For the first time, I heard this kind of voice of hers, a voice that had no beauty to speak of... Screams of fear and fear.

Although I don't know why, the only thing that is certain at the moment is that in this state, it is impossible to act alone, so I took her to a random place in the rest area to sit down.

After a few minutes, I finally calmed down a little and sat down across from me with my head down. But my side was not calm at all, and finally when I couldn't bear it anymore, I asked

[Now, can you explain?]

[....]

[If you don't want to say it, you can choose not to say it.] I'll go back after a little rest]

[NOT...]

Oh, did you react when you said you were going back? But that's not a good answer.

She buried her head in her chest, bit her lip as if she was struggling with something, and after a few seconds, finally spoke softly

[I'm just some... Not adapting, it's okay...]

[Huh?!Are you sure that situation is called okay?!??!?

Stubbornness is still not clear in this situation? Humans become self-conscious at the age of two, but now I guess she's probably the kind of newborn baby, right?

Thinking about the last time I fell ill, I couldn't help but feel angry from the bottom of my heart, and I began to vent what I wanted to say no matter what

[If you're sick, just go to the hospital, this kind of thing needs to be persevered?Is it meaningful?That's it for today, take a break, and go back... I'll send you to school without worry. ]

After a moment of silence, Yeyue finally slowly raised her head, hesitated, and spoke softly

[Crowdphobia...]

[What?]

[I... Suffering from crowdphobia. ]