I thought I would wait at least a year before I would write a postscript, but I didn't expect it to suddenly be so much in advance, from the time this book was blocked to today, my heart has been messed up, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, and even until now, I only let my daughter-in-law know that this book was sealed, and I didn't dare to tell my parents, for fear that they would also follow the cranky thoughts, worried about the next meal problem at home.

Yes!

The biggest problem in front of me right now is the problem of eating for the family! I have no deposit.

16 years to buy a house, decorate, 17 years of early marriage, at the end of April 18, a daughter was born......

When I got married, I ran out of money, including my parents', no way, the cost of buying a house and getting married was too great these years, and I had been on the street for many years, and I didn't have much money.

The original expected date was the daughter of July 5, 18, who was born suddenly in the middle of the night on April 29, she was born more than two months in advance, she was born in a very bad condition, weighing only two pounds and four taels, and had to stay in the ICU for a long time, at that time I thought about jumping off the building, because I was not confident that I could save her life, and I didn't have any money at hand, and she was hospitalized for the first month, and she needed to spend twenty or thirty thousand yuan a week, and the day of discharge was far away, month after month, and she lived for three and a half months, 104 days, before finally being discharged home.

When she came home, she was skinny and shiny, like a black man.

She was discharged from the hospital in August, and I opened the book in July.

At that time, to be honest, I was not in the mood to code words at all, every day was like a year, and when I opened this book, the hospital still did not give a clear discharge date, and I was very confused and desperate at that time.

I want to die, but I find that I can't die, and it's easy for me to die, but who else can save my daughter? Who will raise my elderly parents? How can my daughter-in-law, who has just been married to me for two years, be embarrassed?

Want to live...... But it's so hard......

I had to resist the pressure, give up my previous writing experience and skills, and change the way of writing, with grievances and hatred as the main line, to advance the progress of the storyline.

In fact, I knew very well at the time that in the past two years, the trend has been relaxed, but I went against the market and wrote a bitter and hateful urban essay......

Before this book, I had already pounced on three books in a row.

A copy of "Literary Thief", a copy of "Wonderful Rebirth", and a book of "My Blood Pill World" that had to be cut in advance because of her daughter's early birth at the beginning of the beginning of the tens of thousands of words.

Before "The Literary Thief", it was "Rebirth 2003", which was a work where I regained my self-confidence and earned a little bit of manuscript fees, but that book caught up with the crackdown, and I learned some lessons.

So when I wrote "The Literary Thief" and "Wonderful Rebirth", I learned a lesson, set the background of the story out of the air, and wrote a harmless Qingshui text.

It turns out that Shimizu is very safe, and those two books are still alive and well.

But the facts also proved that what I wrote out was really not good, so they all pounced.

When I wrote this book "Countercurrent 2004", I knew that I couldn't pounce anymore, and I couldn't pounce anymore, and I didn't know that the medical expenses I borrowed for my daughter would be paid off in the Year of the Monkey, and after my daughter was discharged from the hospital, she couldn't afford to drink milk powder, and her parents who were getting older couldn't provide for them.

So I said to myself, "This book is either to be born or to die."

My daughter-in-law said that I was too extreme, why should I be so extreme?

I admit that this book has an ambiguous plot, but I don't admit that it involves pornography, and I haven't written about it in that direction.

Now that the book has been sealed, I have nothing to say, although the medical expenses borrowed have not been paid off, but it is almost the same, although nearly a year of hard work, suddenly gone, the heart is very uncomfortable, but the short to admit, beaten to stand firm, such a result, I admit!

I will open a new book, if I have been on the street for so many years, I really have some understanding of writing, a little experience, I believe that my new book should not be too much, if ...... If I'm really too good to eat this line of food, then even if the new book is pounced, it is just an early death and early overbirth, and it is not a good thing to change careers as soon as possible.

Finally, thank you all for your support and encouragement for almost a year, thank you very much!

It was your support that pulled me back from the brink of despair, but I'm sorry I couldn't give you a full story.

For the sake of food for the whole family, I can't keep revising the book endlessly, waiting for the lifting of the ban that I don't know when it will come.

I'm just going to finish here and start a new book as soon as I can.

Sorry everyone!

I'm sorry!