Chapter 84: Dreams
"You're so stupid. Let your brother go to school and you won't have to. These were the first words that Asakura heard after regaining consciousness, two children kneeling on a bed, and judging by the layout of the scene, this was a ward. And from the mouths of the two children, it was learned that the woman on the hospital bed was the mother of the two children. As for the mother's appearance, it is very vague, and next to it is a machine. Looking at everything in the room, although some places were blurry, the only clear ones were the boy and the little boy. (And it was that long ago.) If I'm not mistaken, my mother seems to have died in a car accident. After I scoffed, Asakura Ha stepped aside and watched the development in front of me.
"Why, I want to go to school too!" said the older boy, dissatisfied, when he heard his mother's words.
"Because you're so stupid. You don't learn to speak until you are four years old, unlike your brother, who can recite the ninety-nine multiplication table at the age of two. The mother ignored the boy's tears, but said the words again, "I don't care what you do, even if you die, let your brother go to college in peace." After finishing speaking, he looked at the boy with wide eyes, and the people around him were panicking and didn't know what they were doing, while the child next to the boy was leaning on the boy and falling asleep, showing a very sweet smile while falling asleep, it seemed that he had a good dream. The boy was the only one crying, crying and shouting that I want to go to school, mom and so on.
(I didn't expect to see you again.) Brother. Asakura Ye gently looked at the little boy who didn't know that his mother had died, and was smiling sweetly, and when he reached out to touch him, his hand passed through his body. (I almost forgot that this was a dream.) After seeing this, Asakura Ye thought to himself again.
Then everything around seemed to fast-forward in the film, quickly changing countless scenes, countless people and objects, and then what caught my eye was that the surrounding walls were made of red bricks, and the ground was not wooden planks or floor tiles, but dirt, soil that had not been processed at all, and even the roof was not bricks or cement or anything like that, but a few wooden planks were placed horizontally on it, and there were some water droplets on top of it that condensed and dripped on the ground, and the ground of the dirt had been dripped out of several holes.
(If memory serves, after Mom and Dad died, the so-called relatives took everything that belonged to us and finally built this so-called house for our brother in this strange place.) Looking at everything around him, Ma Cangye recalled, (Fortunately, the people here are simple, and everyone takes good care of us, otherwise, maybe our two brothers would have starved to death.) )
After looking at the surroundings, Asakura Ha's attention focused on a corner, the only place in the house where there was light, a small table, some paper, a child was trying to write words on the paper.
Asakura Ye looked at the child who was writing quietly, although he couldn't touch him, and he didn't know what he was writing, but Asakura Ye just looked at him and was fascinated. Suddenly, the child who was originally writing looked in the direction of Ma Cangye, and then said with a happy smile, "Brother." You're back. ”
"I" "I'm back. Just when Asakura Ye wanted to speak, a boy's voice came from behind him, and then the boy walked in front of the child and put a piece of chicken leg in his hand in front of him, the child first showed surprise, and then said something to the boy, and then took out the chicken leg and ate it happily, and the boy also showed a very happy smile after seeing the happy appearance of the child eating chicken legs.
(I'm so stupid!) Asakura Ye looked at the interaction between the two brothers, tears were already soaked in his face, (Knowing that this was just a dream, knowing that it was no longer in the same world, knowing that it was impossible to meet again, knowing that this was in the past.) Huge tears fell on the soil, and Asakura Ye knelt on the ground unwillingly, shouting hysterically, (I know everything, but what am I expecting!)
I don't know how long it took, but Asakura Ye paid attention to the two brothers again. "Brother. The child was back to his old style of writing, and his brother was mending some of the worn clothes with a needle and thread or sewing some of the torn places again, which seemed to be a familiar thing in his hand, "What a feeling of happiness is in your eyes." ”
(As long as you're happy, I'm happy.) )
"As long as you're happy, I'll be happy. The boy put down the needle and thread in his hand and smiled.
"That's not how happiness is. The child puffed out his cheeks, "I'm talking about brother, what kind of life do you want to live in the future to feel that you are happy." The innocent little face looked at his younger brother, "Don't say that being with me is already the happiest, or that my happiness is my brother's happiness or anything like that." What I want to hear is your own happiness, brother. ”
"Okay. The boy was going to say this, but he was the first to say, "I wish I had a car in the future." The boy was very unambitious and said what he wanted.
"Car?" the child said strangely when he heard his brother's words, and then asked puzzled. "What does this have to do with my brother's happiness?"
"You're wrong. The boy pretended to be mysterious, "The car I want is not what you usually see." It's the kind of car with a TV in it, so you can watch whatever you want to watch and listen to music in it, so I can turn on the TV while driving you and watch it while you go to your destination. ”
"Really?" the child looked happy after hearing the boy's words, "I want to watch Ultraman and Superman" Just as the child excitedly said what TV show he wanted to watch, he suddenly remembered the question discussed before, "Brother, you are cheating." To put it mildly, dry hemp involves me again. ”
"Hahaha" The boy just laughed at the child's anger, "Because my happiness is to see that I live for you." ”
"Really. After seeing the boy's expression, the child said helplessly, "What if I leave my brother's side." ”
"How so. When he heard the child's words, the boy immediately said in a loud voice, "Me." I will never let you leave my side, brother. ”
"I'm talking about ifs, stupid brother. ”
"Then give me the car I said earlier. That way, no matter where my brother goes, I can bring you back to me. ”
"Hmm. Let's start with that. If I really leave my brother's side in the future, when I give the car to my brother, you must take it. But say yes beforehand. The first person to make my brother's car must be me. ”
"Of course, I won't let anyone else sit if they want to. The boy patted his chest when he heard the child's words.
Then the two of them pulled each other's little thumbs, "A hundred years, don't change." After saying that, the two thumbs were pressed together. And the Asakura leaf next to him looked at these things without saying a word.
After that, time seemed to speed up, and the child grew up, and the innocent child grew up to be a teenager full of literature and art, and the boy also grew up and became a mature youth. The picture is frozen in a house, compared to the previous red brick house, the current house is in a high-rise building, which is enough to prove that the two brothers live in the city now, and now the two brothers eat hot pot together.
But what is completely different from before is that neither side has opened a mouth, whether it is the elder brother or the younger brother, they are just looking at the food in the pot, and the two brothers give people the feeling that they are not enough to share a table when they eat outside, and the people who were once the most familiar have now become strangers.
(Whose fault is it that got this field?) Looking at the condition of the two brothers, Asakura knew that this was the beginning of their strangers for more than ten years.
"When you go to study in other places, you have to take care of your body, and when it's cold, you have to cover yourself with more quilts. Don't stay up all night because you are studying, after all, it will affect your strength. I don't know how long I've been silent, but my brother broke the silence first.
"Hmm. The younger brother nodded casually, "I know that." The cold tone made Asakuraha's tears fall again. (Is everything my fault?)
"When you are studying in a foreign country, you should be cautious when making friends. The elder brother seemed to be accustomed to his younger brother's attitude, and just continued to speak.
"Hmm. I know. The younger brother looked at his watch, "I'm on tonight's train, and if there's nothing important, I'll leave first." The younger brother picked up the luggage next to him and left without looking back, as if the elder brother was just a person he didn't know.
"Come back often" It was only after the sound of the door [snapping] that my brother's voice sounded again, and in the end it was like the sound of mosquitoes. The elder brother did not touch the food in the pot, but returned to his room alone, leaning on the pillow and crying without making any sound. He had a hunch that this might be the last time he would see his brother.
Sure enough, as he expected, my brother would call the school whenever he had time during this time, hoping that they would let him talk to his brother, but every time he was rejected by the other party. The last time was when my brother said loudly into the microphone, "I don't have a family, my brother is dead in my heart." So please don't call again. After that, my brother never called the school again under the warning of the school authorities.
(Sure enough.) Is it all my fault?) Seeing the past come to me again and again, Asakura Ye said in his heart, (If I hadn't been kidnapped, if I hadn't been in prison, if) Asakura Ye returned to the time when the two of them were eating hot pot before, and Asakura Ye walked in front of his younger brother. (Sure enough, if you want to stay next to me, it's only the Eye of the Moon.) Tears dripped down her face, and Asakura Ye gently put her hand on her brother's head, (As long as the Eye of the Moon plan is successful, Kakashi, Naruto, sister, and you, our family will definitely be able to live together happily.) Asakura Ha, who held his younger brother in his arms, said, (You may not know who they are, but don't worry, they are all family members that no one can replace in this world, especially Naruto, he.) But what about my brother. Although I don't know if he still recognizes me as a brother. After talking about his so-called happy life in the Infinite Moon Reading, the picture changed again.
The picture is changing, this time in a room, the elder brother, who already looks like an uncle, is now constantly changing his clothes in front of the mirror, and the original strong muscles have been replaced by some fat and fat. The clothes next to him were already piled up a meter high, and he looked at himself in the mirror again, shook his head, and then took out another set of clothes from the bag on the ground and put them on. This was bought back with the money he had left over from his usual thrift.
And Asakura Ye watched his brother change his clothes there constantly, because he knew what would happen next. And the brother next to him was very happy to choose a very handsome dress to wear.
I got out of the taxi under the driver's strange eyes, walked into the luxurious villa, and went out to greet a middle-aged man in a neat suit, and next to him was a woman wearing very noble clothes. It was my brother's wife. When the two brothers met, because they hadn't seen each other for too long, the two brothers just smiled when they met, and in the end, it was the woman next to them who relieved the strangeness of this meeting.
In this way, after the two brothers finished dinner, the younger brother asked his wife to bring his children to the elder brother, and asked the elder brother to hug and watch his children. Although some happy things happened in the middle, I was still very happy.
Knowing that his brother was going to leave, the younger brother took his brother to the parking lot, and then walked up to a car, "Brother." You see. The younger brother was very happy to introduce his brother to the car next to him.
"It's a beautiful car. The elder brother looked at the car and said that he didn't know what brand the car belonged to, so he just praised it.
"It's not just pretty. The younger brother opened the car door and pointed to a small TV inside, and the stereo that could be turned on next to it, "There are still people in the car who can watch TV and listen to music." The younger brother happily introduced the contents and functions of the car, but slowly this excitement turned into a look of loss.
Asakura Ye stared at his younger brother's introduction with wide eyes, his breath became short, and the words that his younger brother said to his brother when he was a child sounded in his mind. (I see.) I don't know how many times the tears were left again, (it turned out that I betrayed you.) Looking at his younger brother who was still there excitedly introducing the car, hoping that his brother could recall the promise of the year, but with his introduction, the elder brother still didn't remember, and the original excitement was replaced by loss.
"You idiot, idiot. Asakura Ye yelled at his brother with a blank face, "Don't think about it soon." I remembered the promise of the year. "Knowing that it was all in vain, Asakura was still there roaring hysterically. But everything was in vain, the elder brother still drove away, and the younger brother watched his brother's departure with a heartbroken expression, until there was no more shadow of the car, and tears flowed from the younger brother's eyes. "Still haven't forgiven me?"
"Not really. Asakura Ye saw his brother's tears and held them in his arms, "I never blamed you, it's my fault that I forgot the agreement back then." Please. The younger brother's figure was about to disappear, and Asakura Ye hugged him, "Don't leave me." Okay?" When he tried to hug his brother hard, but he still disappeared, Asakura Ha half-knelt there and howled loudly. All of a sudden, everything around them went dark.
When the light came back on, Asakura Ye saw a huge screen in front of him, and inside it was the best memories of him and his brother playing on the screen.
"Why is the big brother crying?" I don't know when there was a small child sitting next to him, and he couldn't see him at all, but judging from his voice, it showed that he was an innocent child.
"Because the big brother forgot a very important agreement. Asakura Ye looked at the growth process of the two children on the screen and said heavily.
"Is it an agreement with someone important?"
"Hmm. Asakura nodded, "It's an important person that no one can replace." ”
"Did the big brother apologize to him?" said the innocent child, "My brother used to forgive me when I did something wrong. Every time he smiled and touched my head and said, 'I forgive you this time, so don't make such a mistake next time.'" The screen transitions to the elder brother touching his younger brother's head, smiling happily.
"But I can't apologize to him anymore. Asakura Ye continued to look at the screen and said a little suddenly.
"Why can't I apologize to him?" This time it was not the child who spoke, but a person with glasses on the other side, just like the child, who was a teenager judging by the size and voice of the other party.
"Because there's no way to see him anymore. Asakura said with some sadness. And he might not be willing to forgive me. At this point, the screen shifted to the younger brother and the older brother didn't know what they were arguing about. But in the end, when the elder brother was silent, the younger brother slammed the door angrily and left.
"How do you know if you don't try? The boy's voice rang out again.
"That's why I want to apologize to him in the eyes of the moon. ”
"Apologize to the illusory characters in the unreal world. "What about them?"
The screen changed to the image of Asakura and Naruto when they were together. Asakura Ye looked at the feeling of being taken care of for the first time when he received a gift for the first time.
"Don't kid yourself. The figure of the young man disappeared, and in his place was the younger brother who had just been hugged by Ma Cangye. "Brother. ”
"Brother. Asakura Ye looked at him in surprise.
"You know better than anyone that what they want is the real you, not the illusory brother. ”
"But there's no turning back, is there?"
"Brother. Me. I won't forgive you, brother. I won't forgive you anyway. ”
"Sure enough"
"Because I've never blamed you, Brother Guo. Three voices sounded at the same time, "So there is no such thing as unforgiveness." Then looking at the very happy smiles of the three people on the screen, "They must have the same idea as me, and they didn't blame my brother." So please forgive yourself, brother. Don't push yourself to death anymore. You stupid brother. ”
"Thank you. After listening to his brother's words, Asakura Ye smiled happily, and tears flowed again. "Thank you very much. Brother. ”