Chapter 57: Then don't think too much
For the Su family, a Chinese and Russian trader with a very hard background, a house is not a valuable thing.
The Su family's house in the capital is not only large, but also a variety of buildings and gardens designed by world-famous architects and garden designers.
Su Mi walked silently in the familiar garden, the new chrysanthemum that she was looking forward to a few days ago was in front of her, she was not interested in appreciating it, she walked indifferently, and felt that everything was very boring.
The driver followed her worriedly with his schoolbag, for fear that she would fall ill again.
Walking to the door, the nanny took the schoolbag from the driver, Su Mi greeted the nanny, and said goodbye politely to the driver, and then entered the house.
Now she has lost the urge to talk to her mother, she just wants to go back to her room, lie on that familiar and comfortable bed, close the bedroom door, and sleep quietly.
She didn't know what she was thinking.
There are some frustrations, and some sadness and sadness.
Making friends always seems to be difficult for her, and it is always difficult to control herself.
It's like an endless loop with no solution.
Leave her powerless.
I was so tired that it was dark in front of me, and I couldn't see a way out at all, I just wanted to hide.
Passing through the corridor at the door and entering the living room, Su Mi walked towards the staircase without hesitation.
The spiral staircase was extremely long today, and Su Mi was out of breath when he walked, holding on to the handrail and stopping halfway.
Because of the stairs, she was now facing the living room, condescending, and at a glance she could see her mother smiling softly and talking on the phone.
Su Mi couldn't help but feel sad.
It's not a day off, and Mom doesn't care if something bad happens to her.
She came home, and I'm afraid my mother didn't even notice......
Mom and Dad are always busy at work, they are either in meetings or on the phone, even when they are at home with her, there are always endless calls.
From childhood to adulthood, the people who appeared around her the most were always nannies, bodyguards, doctors, nurses, cooks, gardeners, drivers......
Even her brothers, as she grew up, they also had their own careers and families, and they no longer accompanied her often......
Mom's recent stay at home is only temporary, and she must have taken a special vacation to wait for the birth of her little brother's third child.
Su Mi didn't know why he thought of so many bitter things.
She thought, maybe it's because she's in a bad mood today!
Su Mu's words of thanks were one after another, and the Mandarin with a Russian accent was very recognizable, Su Mi stood silently on the stairs and listened, pursing her mouth without squeaking.
She wanted to make a bet with herself to see how soon her mother would find her.
If you lose the bet, it's a big deal to be a little sadder!
If she finds out soon, then forgive her reluctantly......
This lonely girl has always liked to play games with herself.
Su's mother did not disappoint her.
When he hung up the phone, he looked up and smiled at her, laughing and beckoning: "Baby, come to Mom~"
Su Mu has white blonde hair and gentle blue eyes, although she is old, she is no longer beautiful when she was young, but the charm brought by time makes her temperament more outstanding.
Su Mi felt that his legs were uncontrollable, and he went down the stairs.
The flowers of joy in my heart are blooming.
Sure enough, she deserves to be her favorite mother!
She won!
Mom had already found out about her! Just because she couldn't call her out on the phone!
How easily she is satisfied!
At this moment, her steps became brisk!
The finest calfskin boots step on the wooden staircase, and there is a burst of cheerful music!
The ordinary long skirt on the body seems to have become a dress!
And she is a little princess who is about to appear and is highly valued!
"Slow down, slow down! Look at you're hot, you're tired on the road, aren't you? The kitchen stewed pears! And the newly made osmanthus honey lotus root, do you want to try it?"
Oh~ And what she loves to eat!
Su Mi nodded obediently and said yes.
By her mother's side, she suddenly had strength, and her mood index seemed to have improved by leaps and bounds, and she also had the mood to speak:
"Whose call was it just now? Mom!"
Su's mother is over fifty years old, her grandfather's family is already rich, and after marrying her father, she started her own business, although there are occasional setbacks, generally speaking, it is also very well developed, and she has always wanted the wind to be rainy, and there are really too few people who can let her continue to thank her in Chinese!
When she was in a good mood, she couldn't help but be curious.
"It's your roommates, they're worried about you, they call and ask if you're home, if you're okay, and say don't worry about the course, they'll take good notes for you. ”
Mother Su smiled and said in her heart, these roommates really have good character, she didn't look away.
The smile on Su Mi's face immediately froze.
She didn't expect her roommate to call to care about her.
How could such an unexpected thing happen?
She thought that after she left, they would speak ill of her behind her back, make an appointment to isolate her and exclude her in the future, but she never thought that they would care about whether she arrived home safely, whether she was unwell, and whether she missed the class......
Su Mi stiffened his face and did not respond.
She couldn't believe the news, and all kinds of conspiracy theories automatically floated through her mind.
She thought that Lin Yi must have made this call in order to use her own bad to set off her generosity, so as to achieve the purpose of excluding her and isolating her.
As for Na Risu and Bai Tang, it must be to please her!
In the past, those people, knowing that her family was rich and wanted to take advantage of her, would do the same!
I hate it to death!
It's all scheming!
There is not a single good person!
The heart that longs for friendship has been hit hard again, and Su Mi's distrust has reached its peak!
She was afraid of getting hurt, so she could only imagine everyone as bad people, and she could distance herself from them with peace of mind.
Su Mu looked at her expression and understood her thoughts, because this kind of thing has happened many times.
"You don't seem to believe their good intentions?"
Su Mi went home to talk to her mother, but when she asked, her eyes became hot again.
"The other two may be sincere, but Lin Yi is definitely not!"
"Oh, I have a good impression of her, she is well-spoken, sensible, and polite......"
Su Mi wiped her tears:
"I didn't control my emotions today, and I embarrassed her......"
Su Mu asked gently, Su Mi told today's story 1510.
"Around you, there is a person who is better than you everywhere, who is meticulous in his work, and has a noble character, and he is under a lot of pressure, isn't it?"
Su's mother did not comment on the oolong farce that her daughter suffered today, and pointed out this problem sharply.
Although her daughter has congenital heart disease, she has been strong since she was a child, and she does not relax herself in all aspects.
Because I don't want to be looked down upon, I have been working hard to live. This is what she admires most about her daughter.
But she rarely encounters setbacks, she is not strong in resistance to pressure, and she is a little glassy, which is also a fact.
Su Mi lowered his head, stiffened and didn't dare to speak, as if he would reveal his despicability if he moved a little or pronounced a syllable.
"You don't want to admit that she is a wise man with a bigger pattern and a broader mind than you. You firmly believe that she is a suspicious person, that she will not give you tolerance and understanding, that anyone who faces such insults will be angry, and will choose not to associate with you for the rest of her life, just to make yourself feel better. ”
Su's mother took a sip of tea calmly and glanced at her daughter lightly.
Su Mi blushed and lowered his head, silently counting the holes on the lotus root slices, without saying a word.
"Your physical illness has been treated by the best in the world, and now it is not much different from ordinary people, but your heart is still sick. Just like a track and field athlete who once injured his hamstring, when he competed, he still didn't dare to go all out, because it was easy to recover from physical injuries, as long as he had money and power, but the shadow in his heart was difficult to remove. ”
Su Mu spoke Russian for a long time, and the speed of her speech was fast, like a flying needle, as fine as cow hair, which made Su Mi's body incomplete, but she couldn't refute it.
Because deep down in her heart, she really thinks so.
Actually, she understands everything.
If Lin Yi really wants to exclude her, why do you need to call her?
For a delicate person like her, ignoring her directly is more useful than any strategy.
If Na Risu and Bai Tang want to please her and take advantage of her, why should they strictly follow the principle of equality on weekdays, and when they eat a mouthful of her meal, they must help her carry a bottle of water in return?
The really dark and despicable is herself from beginning to end.
Even if she spouted bad words, her roommate never replied with bad words, and when she wanted to apologize to Lin Yi, Lin Yi was in a trance, and obviously did not deliberately ignore her......
She didn't care about what happened to Lin Yi, and the first thing that came to her mind was that she didn't satisfy herself.
No one has stipulated it, she wants to apologize, Lin Yi must be in the mood to listen to her.
All this is just that she is not confident and always likes to think too much.
It was the first time that her mother taught her so harshly, as if she had forgotten that she was sick and didn't care at all whether she was stimulated or not, as if she was just a normal child who was ignorant, which made her a little at a loss.
"You always feel that the whole world should let you and follow you, and if you don't do it, someone else is at fault. Because you firmly believe that if you are sick, others should be considerate of you and should let you! Even if your physical illness is almost cured, you just feel that you are weak! You should be humbled and sympathized with by others! Because you have been sick since you were a child, this cognition is deeply rooted, and you have never thought that this can be changed! Not to change others, but to change yourself! If you go on like this forever, your illness will never get better! No matter how much money your father and I spend, no matter how good an expert we invite! I will never be able to cure you!
Su's mother had communicated with the psychiatrist a long time ago, and her daughter's problem had existed for a long time, and the reason why she waited until now was just to find an opportunity.
Her physical condition is already suitable, and it coincides with the new living environment for further study.
She deliberately took a vacation at home, and specially communicated with the relevant departments of Peking University, and arranged Lin Yi, who grew up in different environments and had different personalities, and her daughter together, just to wait for this day.
"Mi Mi, no one is born to let you. You should be grateful if others let you let you, others are not happy to let you, and you have no reason to blame others for labeling them badly. You should learn to have a strong heart and not continue to be cowardly. We can fill your heart, but you can only rely on yourself for the gap in your heart. ”
"If you don't understand, I hope you can go back to your grandfather's estate and see the one-eyed Paley. Paley is old, but he's still as brave as he was back then. How hard and brave he lived!"
Paley is a one-eyed timberwolves who were born missing an eye, and when she saw him as a child, she was very impressed by him for the first time.
She felt that he was just as pitiful as herself.
At that time, she didn't speak Chinese well, and when she saw the soft and cute little wolf, she originally said "accompany you", but her family heard it as Paley, and since then, he has become the only timber wolf with a name in her grandfather's manor.
Later, the family felt that he was too fierce, too cruel when hunting and eating, and cold-blooded and ruthless, even biting her own kind, which was likely to have a bad impact on her, so they did not allow her to approach.
What does mom mean when she says this?
Su Mi felt that her brain was very messy, as if she had been hit hard, she didn't want to delve into her mother's deep meaning, and instinctively didn't want to think about it.
Su Mu waited for a long time before waiting for this opportunity.
The daughter is still on the way, and the psychologist and heart specialist are already in place, and the psychological treatment that has been designed for a long time must be carried out.
The cultivation of the children of wealthy families is not a simple matter.
She can be mediocre, but she can't be extreme, and she can't rely on her power to hurt others unscrupulously.
The more historic the family, the more emphasis is placed on the character of future generations.
"Pelly never felt that he was inferior to other wolves because of his physical defects, on the contrary, he forced himself to become more fierce because of his own shortcomings, and the reason why he became a wolf is because he has a strong heart!"
"Paley lives in the mountains and forests of the fittest, and the cruelty of nature has long made him understand the meaning of the strong. ”
"And you will only be jealous, and you will only use your own imagination to condemn those who are unwilling to accommodate you! You are just a poor worm who lives in a castle, holds a heart that belongs to the weak, and weeps for himself!"
"Mi Mi, you disappointed my mother. Do you know that you are now like one of those nouveau riche who once gained power and had no connotation, who couldn't see that others were better than you, and couldn't tolerate the will to disobey!"
"Do you know? This kind of person will only become a stepping stone for others, and become inconspicuous cannon fodder. ”
"People who really have connotation and pattern, and have a long-term vision, when you are your age, or younger than you, will understand what it means to 'see the virtuous and think together, and see the unvirtuous and introspect!'"
The daughter wept helplessly, but she just sat still, and she obviously listened to what she said just now.
It's not like usual, once she says something exciting, she covers her heart and runs away.
Su Mu gritted her teeth and burst into a hurry:
"Only by being friends with excellent people can you become a better person. All those who are ignorant, brainless, and fearless in their self-righteousness are stupid! All those who do not see others as superior to themselves are fools!"
Hearing the heart-piercing words of stupidity and stupidity, Su Mi looked up in disbelief, but saw that her mother glanced at her in disappointment, and said in a low voice:
"You may not know that Lin Yi's father is a martyr, and your unintentional speculation is such a deep insult to her! As for the harm to me and your father, we will not mention it for the time being. In this case, she can give you a tolerance and understanding, and my mother feels that she is really a person worthy of admiration and noble character! This kind of person can only be friends, and this is the really wise choice. ”
Su Mi sat blankly.
He bowed his head in shame.
She didn't know Lin Yi's family background, and what her mother said made her even more embarrassed.
She didn't know when her mother left, the osmanthus lotus root in front of her gradually lost its heat, a trace of sweet fragrance lingered on the tip of her nose, and Su Mi's tears fell on her legs.
She felt a basin of ice water pouring down her head, freezing her dizzy.
But in her heart, there seemed to be a door, and after her mother's violent impact, a crack gradually opened......