"Mom, I'm going to go to the toilet!"

His eyes were sour, and his heart was very uncomfortable, Zhou An was afraid that he would not be able to control his emotions, so he hurriedly said a word to his mother, and then got up and walked quickly to the toilet behind the house.

"This kid ......"

Tian Guifang was stunned, shook her head with a smile, and continued to bow her head to choose lobsters, in her opinion, her son's suddenness on the latrine, he was still talking to her about something one moment, and the next moment he suddenly got up and said that he wanted to go to the latrine.

"It can't be a bad stomach, is it?" she muttered.

……

In the thatched toilet behind the house, Zhou An bit his lip tightly, lowered his head and took out a soft cigarette case and a lighter from his trouser pocket, and lit one in his mouth with a slight tremor in both hands.

When he raised his head, tears had already crawled all over his cheeks, his eyes were so red that even his lips trembled slightly, he hurriedly wiped the tears on his face, but it was useless, the tears kept pouring out like a river that had opened the floodgates, if he hadn't bitten his lip to death, he would definitely cry out bitterly.

It was an eternal pain in his heart!

That year, because of the sudden death of his mother, it hit him hard, and his whole heart seemed to be empty, and from then on, he didn't dare to go back to Zhoujia Village often, let alone go to his own fields easily.

Because every time he came back, he felt very sad in his heart, and he would always think of the place at the head and end of the village, where his mother had walked and who he had spoken to.

I didn't dare to go to my own field, but I was buried there after my mother died!

He didn't dare to go to his mother's grave because he couldn't stand the thought that his mother was just a jar of ashes.

In fact, his mother's cerebral hemorrhage that year was not because of any terminal illness, but high blood pressure, after his mother's death, he heard his father say that during that time, the family was busy with farming, and his mother ran out of blood pressure medicine, and she didn't have time to buy medicine for a while, she thought that she would be fine without medicine for a short time, and as a result, when the farm was almost over, she went to the field to plant rice one morning, and when she got up, she suddenly shook and fell into the paddy field.

The father hurriedly asked someone to send his mother to the county hospital, but the county hospital did not dare to accept it, and then rushed to the city hospital, but in the end he could not save it.

From the onset of illness to death, it was less than half a day.

Zhou An received the news and rushed back as quickly as possible, but he still couldn't see his mother for the last time before she died, and every time he thought about it afterwards, he regretted it.

In the past year or two of his mother, Zhou An regretted very much why he wanted to learn to cook in the first place?

Although the salary of a chef is slightly higher than that of a normal job, there are few days off in this profession, and they are busiest on weekends when others are off.

During the New Year's holidays and the reunion of thousands of families, they are in the busiest time of the year.

In the summer, when the farm is busy, it is also the time when the chef is so busy that he hits the back of the head with his heel.

If he hadn't learned to cook in the first place, he would have been able to rush back to help out that year, and in that case, his mother would probably not have died.

However, no amount of remorse at that time was useless, his mother had left him forever, and when he came back from vacation, he could no longer hear his mother's voice, and he could no longer eat the coarse tea and light rice made by his mother, and when he was tired, he could no longer see her distressed eyes.

No one will really care if he is hungry or not, and whether his clothes are warm......

After really losing his mother, Zhou An really realized that his mother was the woman who loved him the most in the world, and she would never dislike him for being handsome, nor would she dislike him for being mediocre and unable to see any hope of getting ahead.

The tears were very salty! Even if Zhou An wiped them continuously, some of them still flowed into the corners of his mouth.

In the tears on his face, there was sadness in his eyes, but the corners of his mouth rose to reveal a smile.

Two lives as a human being, he thanked God for the first time, and sincerely thanked God for giving him another chance to come back, although now the family is poor, there is no commercial house in the community, no deposits, no many things, but the parents are still there!

money, he can earn it regardless of hard work, and he is not afraid of coming and going in the wind and rain, as long as his parents are still there!

With them, no matter how hard it is, he is happy.

has lived mediocre for so many years, he has long looked down on many things, but family affection, he has never been able to look down on it, that is what he cares about the most!

As long as people are still there, everything is still possible, and once people are gone, everything will be empty.

Before he was reborn, he had nothing to love, because all the people he cared about in this world were gone.

Like a storm scattered!

At that time, he lost all his attachment to the world, and walked on the streets at will, with people coming and going, but he felt lonely from the bottom of his heart.

I feel that in that world, there is not much more of him, and no one will care about him less.

After a while, a cigarette had already been smoked, Zhou An barely calmed down the surging emotions, exhaled a depressed breath, he carefully wiped the tears on his face, raised his arm again, wiped his face with the short sleeves of the T-shirt, and finished, and tidied up the clothes on his body before turning around and preparing to walk out of the toilet.

Unexpectedly, as soon as he turned around, he saw Qin Meixing standing two or three meters outside the door of the toilet, looking at him in surprise.

"Sister, you, why are you here, when did you come?"

Zhou An was startled, he didn't hear any footsteps just now.

But then again, some women do walk lightly and silently, and Zhou An is a little nervous - when did Qin Meixing come? Did she see him crying?

As soon as the words came out, Zhou An noticed that she was holding a large bunch of purple-red grapes in her hand.

Qin Meixing handed the grapes to him, "I just accompanied Guangyao to catch a piece of knowledge under the tree over there, and he was clamoring to catch one to play, and then he saw you come out to go to the toilet, remembering that he had just picked some grapes from the grape field in the morning, so he thought about getting you a little ......."

After a pause, Qin Meixing looked at Zhou An's eyes cautiously, and asked softly: "Anzi! What happened to you just now? I saw that you seemed to be crying just now? Is something happening at home? Is your father's illness committed again? If you are short of money, you tell your sister! Sister will give it to you!"

Zhou An's thatched toilet is similar to most of the thatched toilets in the countryside in those years, without a decent door, only a small door like a half-fence nailed with a wooden board.

There are advantages and disadvantages of this type of door.

The advantage is that it is breathable! The upper half of the door frame is not covered, and the breathability is naturally not to be said.

The disadvantage is also because the upper half is not blocked, others are consciously fine, if they are unconscious, or they have the psychology of voyeurism, you can see the people who are squatting in it when you take a few steps closer.

Zhou An believed that Qin Meixing would not want to peep at him, but she stood two or three meters outside the door, and she could definitely see him who had just stood inside the toilet door wiping his tears.

The weak side of her heart was seen by her, and inexplicably, Zhou An suddenly felt that this was probably retribution!

He went to Qin Meixing to buy watermelon last night and discovered her secret, and retribution came so soon, and it also made her discover a secret for him.

"No! Sister! My dad is fine, I, I was secretly smoking just now! But, hehe, I'm not skilled, the smoke chokes my eyes, I didn't cry, really!

Zhou An defended himself deceptively, Qin Meixing probably didn't believe it, but what made Zhou An feel relaxed was that she didn't expose him.

And nodded and said, "Okay! Your dad is fine! Anyway, my sister told you, if the family is short of money, you tell your sister, don't be polite to your sister! You can eat this bunch of grapes! After eating, I'll bring it to you in a few days!"

(ps: When I wrote these two chapters, Lao Mu burst into tears, if anyone cried, I'm sorry here, I didn't mean to.) ）