Chapter 21: Calm, Biqigu Tells (10)

When everything was calm, as if the scene didn't exist, Sasaki squinted at me for a few seconds and left without saying anything, except to exchange glances with the snow as they passed me, a bit like exchanging opinions in a spy report, which made people feel terrified. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Then, all that was left was me, under the snow, Isshiki, and the one standing across from us... Kawabata.

It doesn't matter... This guy hadn't seen him speak since the beginning - I had come back, just exhaling and exhaling, so quiet that you couldn't feel his presence.

The first to act was under the snow, and after she glanced at me, the person was already sitting on the sofa, and she lifted the orange juice I had just placed on the table, and gently sipped it.

I think the orange juice should be Yang Nai... But people are gone, so it's free, what should I do now? Sit down and drink milk and say goodbye? Or whatever... I don't know the meaning of this party at all. And when I hesitated, Ichishi sat down with the snow, and I also took the opportunity to lift the glass of milk that belonged to me and took a few gulps, and then gently patted my chest to make a palpitating look, well... I was probably scared, but the object was that person after all. Great work....

Without saying a word, my gaze returned to Kawabata's body, and I couldn't find anything to pay attention to, so I sighed quietly, shook my head, and walked over to the side under the snow.

Kawabata and Hayama have similarities and completely different differences—but because of this fatal difference, I can't help but feel pity for Kawabata at such times, perhaps because of the sadness of such people, perhaps because of the pity, or perhaps the disappointment of seeing the loss of motivation and the escape that arises from failure. Exactly, I don't know, probably... It's just disappointment, being weak doesn't mean being vulnerable, and in the same way, being strong doesn't mean being strong.

How can a weak and strong man win against a strong and fragile enemy?

There are ways to do it, and those who look for hope of survival in a desperate situation are the ones who are truly strong, and those who are always complaining and looking for excuses will only worry about the next predicament that doesn't exist.

So, which kind of Kawabata is? I think it's pretty clear.

So, I was disappointed, and I was disappointed in a person who I hadn't met a few times and wasn't an acquaintance.

I didn't choose to sit with them under the snow, but I sat in the place where Kawabata belonged and faced them under the snow

[Yukino.]

[Hmm.]

[It's almost time...] Anything else?]

[No, oh.] ]

Under the snow, he slowly put down the wine glass in his hand and responded with a smile.

[Then...]

[Wait!]

Isshiki interrupted me in a semi-high pitch that was more than half of what he spoke, and after smashing his mouth, he pouted angrily, glared at me viciously, and clasped his hands

[What about my opinion? What about my opinion? There are three people, but only one person's opinion is asked, and the seniors are really bad. ]

It's awkward... Ha... Little one always likes to play small at this time.,It's because I'm ignored so I feel the need to increase my sense of existence... Yes, this is a great picture.

[... What else do you have to do...]

Let me ask you first, and if there is nothing serious, just ignore it, I think so.

Then, Isseki suddenly turned into a soft look, and suddenly cried again, and said with a trembling voice

[Seniors... I'm hungry... There is so much food that is wasted if you don't eat it..]

[....] [....]

That's a reason... I looked at each other silently, and I saw a faint smile on each other's faces, it was a helpless and kind smile, she nodded lightly at me, that is... Is it the same as I thought?

Leaving aside the essence of this reason, Isshiki still said the correct reason in the literal sense of the word, so... Let her be.

[That.] Go for it, right?]

[Oh, thank you, senior~ I love you.]

[Is the love for food overflowing?] It's dangerous. ]

[Whatever, let's go, let'sgo!]

While shouting, he looked at the table in the venue with bright eyes, there was probably enough delicious food to attract all the attention of Isshiki, otherwise this guy wouldn't be the kind of guy who could just deal with it... To be honest, I'm a little curious.

I didn't eat anything when I came over with Xuexia.,I was going to solve it after I went back.,But it doesn't seem like there's a need.,Let's go together.

Thinking so, Yukishita and Isshiki were already on their feet, and then I just looked up to find Kawabata standing beside me, looking at me with eyes that didn't show any vitality at all

[Than Kiya-san... I.... Wanted to talk to you.]

After saying that, he twisted his head slightly, and turned it mechanically, as if it were connected by gears, and I exchanged glances with Yukishita, and she left with Isshiki, and then Kawabata sat down on the sofa like an overworked man, burying his head and not knowing what he was thinking

After a moment of silence, he finally broke the silence that belonged to him, and said hoarsely like a thirst for water from a dry throat

[I... Like under the snow.. Schoolmate. ]

[Ah.] I know. ]

I knew it from the beginning, from the day I first entered the school... But even if you know, there will be no other emotions, just like knowing that one plus one equals two, no surprise, impatience and anything like that... It's weird.

Then, Kawabata continued in the same tone as if he were telling a story

[I've made a lot of changes and tried a lot, but she barely even looks at me except for conversations at work, like a stranger... Although it was in the same classroom, short and cold language, alone time, and then better than anyone else... I didn't know anything, and after being rejected a few times, I kept thinking "is she also waiting for someone as good as her to appear"... Perhaps, I haven't done enough to be good enough for her to look at me, so I'm working towards the goal of being better than anyone else... Until one day she can notice my presence when she looks up... Hahaha..]

At the end, Kawabata let out a self-deprecating dry laugh, burying his head and shaking his hands and shoulders with his hands on his knees.

[So, you want to say... What?]

Kawabata looked up, exhaled heavily, and lowered his gaze

[I lost... Thorough... Lost. ]

[Lost? No, no. ]

Ignoring his slightly puzzled look, I propped my chin in my hands and continued

[Only in the game can there be a win or a loss, which means that there must be a certain competitive relationship when judging the winner or loser.] Such a result... Can it really be achieved to that extent? I say, the so-called competition, a little look at the definition of the word - the psychological needs and behavioral activities of individuals or groups that strive to outpower or overwhelm each other, so that a competitive relationship is constituted. Whether it's your efforts or changes, it's all irrelevant to me, that is, it's all just your business, and you have lost the competition of your opponents... There is no such thing as a winner or a loser.]

Kawabata's eyes widened in the face of my explanation, he opened his mouth and said nothing, and then after clenching his fists with both hands, his eyes gradually became sharp, and his lips tightened, and the sound seemed to jump out of his teeth

[You mean, these... It's all my self-righteousness...]

I shook my head gently,

[Self-righteousness doesn't count.,This thing has been going in the wrong direction from the beginning, so it's completely unnecessary to judge whose fault it is now.,Maybe it's you.,Maybe it's me.,Or maybe it's under the snow...] Well, it's a messy feeling. ]

[I....]

[Do you think that if you use the wrong method to calculate an equation from the beginning, even if the result is accidentally correct, if you look back at the process, you will definitely be given zero points by the teacher who corrected the paper without hesitation.] This gala... I think if it were a "friend" I invited, you would show all the better side than me in front of them and give a certain hint, which is the method of contrast. If it's Yukino's invited "friend", then you'll probably do the same, controlling your surroundings to disintegrate from within, and then it's up to you to build it, am I wrong?]

Kawabata pursed his lips tightly, and after a moment, he finally acknowledged

[... That's right. ]

[Well, your definition of a friend is too contemptuous, right?]

Although I was certainly not qualified to say these words here in the past, but now it is different, it is not the same as before, and I smiled confidently at Kawabata's gloomy eyes

[The so-called friends are not people who will betray just by looking at the surface and just words.] Even in the face of powerful guys, people who will think about each other. ]