After choosing a negative role model, Xiang Fei entered the grave of the beautiful female student again.

"Hello, are you still used to living?" asked Xiang Fei.

"Not used to it, there's nothing here. The schoolgirl replied.

"Then why are you still not leaving?" Xiang Fei asked.

"Reluctantly. The schoolgirl replied.

"What's your name?" Xiang Fei asked.

"Ye Siwen. The schoolgirl replied.

"How did you die?" Xiang Fei asked.

"Jumping off a building. The schoolgirl hesitated for a moment and said.

"What is the reason?" Xiang Fei's question was quite businesslike.

"I feel lonely and not very interesting. Ye Siwen said.

Hearing this, Xiang Fei was a little angry, these young people now are too glassy.

"You think that life is boring, and you are about to commit suicide, so your parents have raised you for so many years, are you tired?" Xiang Fei did not directly reprimand, but asked.

"Tired. Ye Siwen replied without hesitation.

"Is it bitter?" Xiang Fei asked again.

"It's okay. Ye Siwen replied truthfully that his parents are both public officials, and their lives are not bad.

"Is it worth it?, did they consider the meaning of your existence when they raised you?" Xiang Fei asked again.

Ye Siwen listened, did not respond, but squatted down sadly.

After committing suicide, seeing her parents crying so sadly, for more than ten years, all kinds of hardships for her parents to take care of themselves came to her heart one by one, and she realized for the first time that living is not only a kind of happiness, but also a kind of responsibility.

"Okay, people are dead, it doesn't seem to make sense to think about that now, I want to hear about your mental journey, why you have come step by step to use suicide to escape life. Xiang Fei said. 【...# ...@最快更新】

"I'm dead and don't want to look back on it anymore. Ye Siwen refused.

"In the evening, I will give a lesson on life and death to those younger students, so I need to hear your story, don't you want to help them? Do you want to see them follow in your footsteps again?" Xiang Fei asked.

"No, I hate them. Ye Siwen listened and hurriedly said.

"Why?" Xiang Fei asked.

"They chase dramas every day, discuss the plot in the dormitory every day, call this actor's husband today, call that little fresh meat husband tomorrow, this kind of superficial person, I don't want to save it, I wish they died early. Ye Siwen said.

"The relationship between your dormitories is not harmonious?" Xiang Fei listened, his eyes lit up slightly, and he induced.

"Anyway, I don't like them, I don't study every day, and I say that I don't have a common language with them, and I'm a freak. Ye Siwen said.

"Then why don't you catch up on the drama with them?" Xiang Fei asked.

"I don't want to waste my life like them. Ye Siwen said.

"But the end result is that your life is shorter than theirs, and it's rare to be confused in life. Xiang Fei said deliberately.

"I can't do it, besides, I don't like those dramas either, it's all a routine, it's better to read more books, I like to watch romance, and I yearn for that

A kind of romantic and beautiful love. Ye Siwen said this, with a glimmer of light in his eyes.

"But, haven't you noticed that the love in those romances is almost a routine. Xiang Fei said.

"It's different, the feeling and experience of reading is different, even if you know the general routine, but every time, I enjoy it. Ye Siwen said.

Obviously, Ye Siwen is a girl who likes to fantasize and read.

"Then have you ever thought that their experience and feelings of chasing dramas may be the same as yours? Although the routines are similar and the plots are somewhat similar, the actors in them are different, they can treat different actors as their fantasy objects, and they enjoy it very much, and they don't say that it must be wrong?" Xiang Fei said.

Hearing this, Ye Siwen was silent for a long time before he said: "Maybe, you are right, I should be more tolerant when I get along with them, and I shouldn't laugh at their hobbies every time, really speaking, I don't seem to be much higher than them." ”

"So, do you feel lonely because you feel that no one understands you and you can't talk to them, so you choose to jump off the building?" asked Xiang Fei.

"It's not all like that, although they all target me everywhere and exclude me, but I'm not stupid, and I can't go to knot myself because of their annoyance. Ye Siwen said.

"What's the reason for that?" Xiang Fei asked.

He knows that when a person opens the gap in her heart, she will not stop easily, as long as she keeps talking, she will always slowly tell her true cause of death, and Xiang Fei has the patience to listen.

"I fell in love with a boy, he was very handsome and excellent, I really liked him, but when I plucked up the courage to confess to him, he rejected him, you know? It was the first confession in my life, but I didn't expect it to fail, I don't look bad, right?" Ye Siwen said sadly.

"Of course it's not bad, and it's beautiful, so do you know why he rejected you?" Xiang Fei asked.

"He didn't say it, he just said that we were not suitable. Ye Siwen said.

"Does he have a girlfriend?" Xiang Fei asked.

"No, I did. Ye Siwen said with certainty.

"Could it be that he doesn't like women?" Xiang Fei guessed.

"No, it should be pure masters. Ye Siwen said.

"Then why did he reject you?" Xiang Fei was puzzled.

"I don't know. Ye Siwen thought for a few seconds and shook his head.

Perhaps, because he was frightened by your enthusiasm and initiative, for some boys, girls who are too enthusiastic and active seem too casual. Xiang Fei speculated.

"Possibly, he said I was shameless at the time, and I was ridiculed by everyone at the time. Ye Siwen said.

"Girl, how did you confess, where is it? Shouldn't this kind of thing be confessed alone?" Xiang Fei frowned and asked.

"In the cafeteria, I happened to meet it while eating, I was impulsive, I didn't stop, I said I wanted to be his girlfriend, I wanted to marry him, I wanted

I have a lot of children with him, and I like children. Ye Siwen said.

"You had a loud voice at the time?" Xiang Fei's eyes darkened when he heard this, and he immediately asked.

"It's not too big, but it was noon, and the cafeteria was too noisy, so I spoke a little louder. Ye Siwen said.

"Then after you finished speaking, did the entire cafeteria become quiet all of a sudden?" Xiang Fei asked.

"Yes. Ye Siwen replied.

"Girl, do you know how straightforward your confession is? This kind of powerful information, not to mention loud or very small voices, everyone can hear it, and everyone has the heart of gossip!" Xiang Fei sighed.

"Yes, I was a little excited, and after being scolded by him, I was ridiculed by everyone on the spot, and when I returned to the dormitory, I was sneered at by the three nasty ghosts, and I couldn't think about it for a while, so I jumped directly from the balcony. Ye Siwen said.

"Girl, it's not wrong to like someone, it's not wrong to confess to someone, it's not wrong to be rejected by him in public, not cherished by him, that's not wrong, it's wrong, you're too glassy, take 10,000 steps back, you confessed, worked hard, didn't get the best result, at least you won't regret it, right?" Xiang Fei said.

"Yes, I don't regret it, I just feel that I am a little blind, and a man who can scold me for being shameless casually is not worthy of my love with my heart. Ye Siwen said.

"So, because of your bold confession, you can see his character, you can transfer your love to other people in the future, to find someone who is truly worthy of love, this is not a loss, besides, even if you are ridiculed, what can you do, will there be a piece of meat on your body?" Xiang Fei said.

"However, I can't stand everyone's strange eyes. Ye Siwen said.

"What is a strange vision, a big star is loved by fans, so is the enthusiastic and hot gaze of the fans considered abnormal? The teacher gave you a lecture, accidentally explained the knowledge points wrongly, and was laughed at by the classmates, is it considered abnormal? In this life, it is impossible for people to have smooth sailing everywhere, once they make a mistake, they choose to self-destruct, and they don't give themselves a chance to change, is it too cruel to themselves?" Xiang Fei said.

"You haven't endured that kind of look, as if I'm just a and a woman who can be a husband, people live with a face, I don't even have a face, how can I live?" Ye Siwen said.

"Then have you thought about your parents? Their daughter, because of an unsuccessful confession, committed suicide directly, will they also suffer from strange eyes, not only that, but they also have to bear the loss of hope and admit the pain of losing their daughter!"

"Because they chose you, they didn't raise other children, because of your departure, they will never have the opportunity to be grandpa and grandmother, and they can't enjoy the joy of family, they have become two lonely old people who can't see hope, they have enough reasons to choose to commit suicide, but they don't, why?" Xiang Fei asked.

"Why...... It's me who is sorry for them......" Ye Siwen was a little puzzled when he heard this, and even regretted not being at the beginning.

(End of chapter)