He was just greedy enough to hope that there was no one else in her heart, but him.

It's just that Zhou Jiashu is gone, compared with a dead person, this kind of chance of winning is very small, and no one can replace him in this world. Zhou Jiashu's place in her heart.

Because it is important, Cheng Xunxun is so embarrassed, so he can't even say anything to refute. Because it is important, even if it is a lie and coaxes him to be happy, she is not willing to hurt Zhou Jiashu a little.

So which is more important, it is already clear at a glance.

She lowered her head, frowned, and said, "No, you're different. ”

When the words fell, the room suddenly fell into boundless silence, there was no sound at all, Cheng Xunxun suddenly didn't know how to explain her feelings for Zhou Jiashu, Zhou Jiashu is very good, no one can compare, including Zhou Yanqing.

Zhou Jiashu's goodness is selfless. was so selfless that she felt guilty, but when she had the ability to repay everything he gave, he was gone. Zhou Jiashu is an untouchable pain in her heart, and she is also an unshakable person.

She owes him too much, he is so good, but she uses his good to achieve her own goals, Zhou Jiashu is the first person who makes her feel sorry and betrays him. It doesn't feel good to cheat him, take advantage of him, and climb up by stepping on him.

Even for Zhou Yanqing, she doesn't have such feelings, at least between her and Zhou Yanqing, they have always been equal and mutually beneficial. She can't promise Zhou Jiashu this life, so she can only use her whole life to repay his goodness with all her own, wholeheartedly.

When Zhou Jiashu was seventeen, Cheng Xunxun once said in front of his grave that he would always be far away in her heart, only him, and when the matter was over, she would be alone and would never be with anyone, at least this could alleviate some of the guilt in her heart. At that time, she thought she could, but she still broke her promise.

"Shall we not say this?" she whispered, with a hint of pleading in her tone.

The atmosphere suddenly became a little stiff.

Zhou Yanqing looked at her, knowing that she would be embarrassed, but he was unwilling to let it go, the more she was like this, the more he wanted to make these feelings clear, but after it was really clear, what did he want, he didn't know.

He asked, "Is he more important, or am I more important?"

Cheng Xunxun frowned slightly and raised his eyes to look at him. After a moment of silence, he opened his mouth, and did not speak for a moment. took a breath, gritted his teeth, and then said: "It's just as important, in my heart you are just as important, Zhou Yanqing, this ...... There's no way to compare, can it? To me, you're different, do you have to compare like that? He's your nephew, he's gone, he's never going to come back. ”

His eyes sank, the expression on his face remained unchanged, and he didn't pay attention to the pleading in her eyes, and said lightly, "How is it different?"

Zhou Yanqing wanted to know her thoughts and her understanding too much, so even if she was embarrassed, he couldn't help but ask. Even though he knew in his heart that the outcome might embarrass him, he still wanted to ask, as if he was enchanted.

The wound on his chest began to hurt, and for a while, his face turned pale, and even his eyebrows were a little hideous, he was angry in his heart, angry that she didn't even say a lie, angry in her heart Zhou Jiashu turned out to be such a holy spirit and inviolable.

For a moment, he was so angry that he wanted to strangle her to death in his hands, but when he thought about it, she died, wouldn't it be a fulfillment for them. Everyone has a past, and it is the first time that Zhou Yanqing has been so obsessed with Cheng Xun's past, and he has always known Zhou Jiashu's status in her heart too well.

It's an untouchable position, and when he has no feelings, he doesn't care how many people there are in her heart, as long as he doesn't play tricks. But now, he is like a small-bellied and vexatious man, caring about these messy things in front of her.

No matter how she thinks about it, she almost died for her, and she couldn't even hear a lie, let alone shake Zhou Jiashu's position in her heart.

He sneered and said, "If Zhou Jiashu is still here, for him, you will also give him all your good things, right?"

Cheng Xunxun was already a little angry when he saw it, in fact, it was very simple to make him happy, just a word, not so difficult, but she didn't want to lie, so she didn't know how to answer his question, but she knew her answer very well in her heart, he was right, if Zhou Jiashu was still there, she would definitely treat him well, in order to repay him for his kindness to her.

Without waiting for her to speak, Zhou Yanqing snorted and answered for her, saying, "You will." I am the same as Zhou Jiashu in your eyes, maybe the same as Cheng Blind and your mother. As long as you are someone who is genuinely good to you, as long as they treat you well, you will give the same reward. ”

"Your feelings for us, it's the same. You stuck to me because you wanted me to help you get your identity back, and I helped you, and then you used everything you had to be nice to me in return for everything I did to you, right? That's how you feel for me, right?"

"In the middle of the day, you don't actually know how to love people at all, and you don't even know what love is. You're just giving back. He smiled a little helplessly, shook his head, as if talking to himself, and said, "It's my problem." ”

Cheng Xunxun wanted to speak, but Zhou Yanqing didn't let her say it, and directly changed the topic, saying: "I'm hungry, let's go out to eat, you must be very tired by car all the way, after eating, let your aunt prepare a room for you, take a good rest, let's talk about something tomorrow, I'm a little tired." ”

Without waiting for Zhou Yanqing to make any moves, Cheng Xunxun grabbed his hand and said, "It's different, each of you is different! Jiashu is my family, like my brother, he treats me well, I like him, I am willing to give him my best things, I can do anything for him, because this is what I owe him." His feelings for me are very clean and unmixed, but I am different, I stay by his side for a purpose, and I have never thought of being his wife from beginning to end, and I lied to him for many, many things. ”

"The reason is very simple, because he is not strong enough, he is not capable of helping me, I need stronger people, I just want to step on him to climb up, knowing that he is good to me, so I hold on to it and keep pleasing me, because I am afraid of being kicked out, so I don't even have a chance. But he was too good to me, he thought about me at any convenience, thought about me, and didn't let me suffer the slightest grievance, he gave me everything he could give me, and even arranged for me properly after his death. ”

"Perhaps, what I thought I was hiding from myself, he had already seen it clearly, he listened to my lies, looked at my hypocrisy, and still treated me well, and even he gave me a bright and happy road, if I could let go of everything, I would not live such a bleak life here now. ”

She knelt on the ground, straightened her back, looked at him with burning eyes, and said: "I can honestly tell you that no one can replace Zhou Jiashu's position in my heart, because I am sorry for him from beginning to end, and I will never be able to repay this favor in my life." In my memory, apart from my mother, the only person who was selflessly good to me was him. Whether I am good or bad, in his eyes, I am who I am, and he will always be unconditionally good to me, and will not change because of my badness. ”

She sniffed, chuckled, and muttered as if to herself, "Many times, in front of him, I don't dare to let myself become bad, vicious, and become an unscrupulous person for profit. ”

She smiled helplessly, yes, after being by Zhou Jiashu's side, she struggled and wanted to give up, and An An lived by his side for the rest of her life. But her life is too long, and Zhou Jiashu's life is too short, and her struggle is destined to be a joke in the end.

Cheng Xunxun closed her mouth, and the last smile gradually fell, she lowered her eyes, paused for a while, and then perked up again, raised her head, and continued: "Before this, I have never loved anyone, but I know what love is, although I have not been in contact, but I have also read books and seen others fall in love. I've never felt my heart racing for Kashu, and this feeling is only for you. "Soil is still carried.

"I'm not a child, I may not understand at first, but if I don't understand now, I'm mentally retarded, an idiot, and a fool!" she looked serious, and suddenly sneered for a moment, and the whole person slowly fell down, kneeling on the ground, bowing her head and laughing, laughing a little sadly, raising her hand and rubbing her nose.

"You say you're afraid, you can't afford to lose, but Zhou Yanqing, how do you know that I can afford to lose? Won't I be afraid? I pay seriously to my feelings, won't I get hurt? I'm young, is it my fault? I even gave birth to a child, what do you want?"

Cheng Xunxun was full of grievances as he spoke, but fortunately he sat on the ground, covered his cheeks with his hands, cried quietly, and whispered: "I deliberately came to see you secretly and wanted to surprise you, but you treated me like this." You liar, you don't love me at all, and you say you don't want to see me hurt, and now the person who hurts me the most is you, you not only hurt me, you also insult my intelligence. ”

As she spoke, she kicked her feet on the ground, like a child. No matter how you look at it, it looks like a crooked building, she did it on purpose, and she deliberately wanted to cover the previous topic in this way.

Zhou Yanqing looked at her quietly, he could already see her current thoughts without thinking about it, crying, making trouble, and hanging herself, turning passivity into initiative, after all, vexatious trouble is what women are good at, starting with him, and ending with her.

However, although Zhou Yanqing still had a diaphragm in her heart, after her words, she eased up a little, and she didn't have the heart to ask any more, so she was suitable. It's really troublesome, this kind of thing hurts his body and heart, and it's himself who suffers.

Cheng Xunxun cried for a while, secretly opened his fingers, and glanced at him secretly, but just met his gaze, and she stopped crying at just one glance. His gaze was flat, as if he had seen through her a long time ago, and he watched her make a fuss without paying attention.

She paused, changed her position, and no longer lowered her head, but raised her head, but still covered her cheeks with her hands, not letting him see her face, but not crying.

"Enough trouble?" Zhou Yanqing said.

She covered her cheeks, tilted her head slightly, and whispered, "I didn't make trouble, obviously you made trouble first." ”

"Really, what are you doing with your face covered?

"Makeup. She thought for a moment and added, "I don't want to see you." ”

Zhou Yanqing couldn't help laughing, "Cover your face, you won't be able to see me?"

"I can't see it anyway. ”

"Childish. ”

Cheng Xunxun shook his head a little unconsciously, and said, "You say that I am young, is there anything wrong with me being naïve? Anyway, in your eyes, I am no different from a mentally retarded." ”

"Get up, it's cold on the ground. ”

"I'm sorry. ”

"Let's go eat first, and then we'll move on after eating. ”

Cheng Xunxun still did not move, and said, "Don't eat." ”

"Cheng Xunxun. ”

"Leave me alone, I'm not happy. ”

Zhou Yanqing said: "Then I'll go." ”

"Hmm. She covered her face firmly with her hands.

When the words fell, Zhou Yanqing didn't say anything more, and the room fell silent again. After a while, Cheng Xunxun carefully opened his fingers, and naturally he could still see Zhou Yanqing's face, one hand against the armrest of the wheelchair, supporting his chin, and looking at her intently.

"Don't cover it, I see you. He raised his chin and said.

Cheng Xunxun pursed his mouth, slowly put his hand down, the makeup on his face was indeed a little flowery, especially the eyes, the flowers were more serious, the nose was red, and there were tears on the eyelashes.

She unconsciously lowered her head, played with her fingers, and didn't speak, occasionally raising her hand to touch her eyes, maybe something fell in, and after getting it once, the number of times later was a little frequent.

Zhou Yanqing looked at her, sighed secretly, and whispered, "Ten years." ”

"Ahh She looked up, and her left eye was already red from her rubbing.

"I was wrong. He said, opening his hand.

Cheng Xunxuan was stunned, and the tears fell angrily again, and in the next second, she pounced, this time she didn't control her strength well, and she pounced a little violently, Zhou Yanqing couldn't help but snort.

Cheng Xunxun heard the voice and was about to retreat, but Zhou Yanqing tightened his arms, locked her firmly in his arms, and whispered in her ear: "Actually, if you lie to me and say that you only do this for me alone, I will believe you." ”

She was stunned when she heard the sound, and finally lowered her head, buried her cheek in his neck, and said sullenly: "I will only do this to you alone in the future, and I will not lie to you." ”

Immediately afterwards, Zhou Yanqing's low laughter came from his ears.

After a while, Zhou Yanqing patted her head and said, "Okay, I'm really hungry." Let's eat. ”

"Good. ”

Cheng Xunxun wiped away her tears, and pushed Zhou Yanqing to the restaurant, when she passed, she happened to meet Shang Yun coming out of the kitchen, she wiped her mouth, and saw that the expressions on the faces of the two of them stiffened slightly, she had been in the kitchen for a long time, and she felt that the time was ripe to come out, and she planned to go back to the room.

"I just finished eating. What kind of meal should Mr. Zhou eat, Auntie knows best, the meal just now is cold, and I have asked her to make another one. It is not allowed to change the recipe indiscriminately. As she spoke, she glared at Zhou Yanqing, her eyes full of warnings.

Then, she stretched and said, "I slept a little late last night, and now I'm very sleepy, so I won't accompany you, I'll go back to my room to sleep first, if there is any emergency, you can come to the first room upstairs and call me, as for the rest, I believe you won't want me to appear, go." She smiled, and walked past the two of them, and halfway there, as if she had thought of something, she stopped, and walked backwards back to their sides, her eyes sweeping over their faces.

smiled and said: "I know you haven't seen each other for a while, you must miss each other very much, but Mr. Zhou's current body, it's best, or don't do some more strenuous exercises, you should understand?"

In the end, she fell on Cheng Xunxun's face, Cheng Xunxun was naturally a little shy, lowered his eyes, looked at Fang Yun with a smile, nodded, and said, "Understand, I will let him restrain him." ”

Fang Yun glanced at her, tapped his finger at his lips, and said, "Okay, then it's up to you, good night." ”

"Good night. ”

Waiting for Fang Yun to walk away, Cheng Xunxuan glanced back at her back, then pushed Zhou Yanqing to the dining table, pulled out the chair and sat down, his fingers tapped lightly on the table, silent, with a hint of inquiry in his eyes, looking at Zhou Yanqing quietly.

Soon Auntie's nutritious meal came up, Zhou Yanqing is now eating this thing every day, and she has long been tired of it, so she sent her aunt away and began to discuss with Cheng Xunxun.

"Have you been cooking your own lately?"

Cheng Xunxun nodded and said, "Yes." Oh, don't you say I forgot, you sent my aunt away, who will get me my dinner?"

"I came all the way, I didn't eat much, I was hungry for a long time. She touched her stomach, she had forgotten about being hungry just now, and now that she was fine, her senses naturally returned to normal and she began to be hungry.

This happened to fall into Zhou Yanqing's arms, and said: "Do it yourself, there should be no shortage of ingredients in the refrigerator." ”

"Really, I'll take a look, you'll eat it yourself, right?"

"Go ahead. Zhou Yanqing glanced at her.

"Call me if there's a problem. After Cheng Xunxun finished speaking, he got up and went into the kitchen.

Do-it-yourself, relatively speaking, she will not choose too complicated dishes, she picks and chooses, and finally got herself a bowl of shredded meat noodles, put a poached egg, and a green vegetable, which can be regarded as a combination of meat and vegetables, and a nutritional match.

Cheng Xunxi's voice of eating noodles was loud, and the appearance of eating was like eating the best noodles in the world, which attracted Zhou Yanqing to the side, and frequently looked sideways.

When Cheng Xunxi was about to eat poached eggs, Zhou Yanqing finally couldn't hold back the careful thoughts in her heart, reached out and grabbed her wrist, and looked at her with burning eyes.

Cheng Xunxun's mouth was already open, and Zhou Yanqing suddenly made a move, and the poached egg fell back into the bowl. She turned her head, looked at him for some reason, licked her lips, and said, "What are you doing?"

Zhou Yanqing didn't speak, just looked at her quietly.

She waited for a while, then shook the hand he was holding, and said, "Speak, why are you looking at me so pitifully?"

"Haven't you eaten so much and still not satisfied?"

She blinked twice, glanced down at the small amount of food in his hand, and immediately understood his thoughts, squinted and smiled, raised her eyebrows, and asked in a low voice, "Do you want to eat me?"

Zhou Yanqing coughed, "Yes, I want to eat you." ”

"But didn't the doctor just say that you should strictly follow the meal she formulated, you should eat your nutritious meal honestly, I look at it and it is delicious." ”

"It tastes good, but if you eat it every day, every day, every meal, no matter how delicious it is, it won't taste good. ”

"No, no, no. Cheng Xunxun shook his head, pulled his hand away, and said, "This is for your good, I came here to see you, not to harm you." ”

As soon as she finished speaking, she held the bowl and quickly picked up the poached egg, and stuffed it into her mouth, because she was in too much of a hurry, and her mouth was full of soup, but she laughed very happily, laughing and eating at the same time, almost choking.

After eating what was in her mouth, she drank another mouthful of soup, then put down the dishes and chopsticks, wiped her mouth with a tissue, and turned her head to watch Zhou Yanqing eating.

Zhou Yanqing didn't have any expression on his face, he didn't seem to be angry at all, he ate his rice slowly and methodically, and only occasionally ate a bite of food. After a while, he suddenly turned his head, hooked his finger at her, and said, "Come here." ”

Cheng Xunxun had just teased him, so naturally he wouldn't be bored, and if he was unhappy again, he obediently leaned over and said, "What are you doing?"

Zhou Yanqing looked sideways, the corners of her lips were slightly raised, she slowly turned sideways, holding chopsticks in her hand, her eyes swept over her face, Cheng Xunxuan was sideways, supporting her head with her hands, leaning on the table. Zhou Yanqing would sit on the chair and look down at her face, at this time, seeing her mouth slightly open, she suddenly lowered her head and kissed her lips impartially.

Before Cheng Xunxun could react, his tongue deftly poked into her mouth, gently stirring her lips and tongue, Cheng Xunxun unconsciously raised his hand on his shoulder, and before he could use force, the words of warning sounded in his ears, "I am injured, don't move." ”

Cheng Xunxun opened his eyes, glanced at him, pursed his lips, and was about to speak, when he pressed down again, and his other hand was on her waist.

When the aunt came back, she happened to see this scene, and she quickly turned around in fright, but because she was too surprised, the footsteps were a little loud, which still alarmed the two, Cheng Xunxun lowered her head suddenly, and the two entangled lips separated.

Zhou Yanqing was obviously still a little unsatisfied, Cheng Xunxun lowered his head, his cheeks were slightly red, he pursed his lips unconsciously, and looked up Auntie had already walked away.

"You don't eat well, what are you doing. Cheng Xunxun frowned and glanced at him.

Zhou Yanqing touched his chin and said with a smile: "I, I was eating vegetables just now." What's wrong?

"Eating vegetables?" Cheng Xunxun was stunned for a moment, asked rhetorically, and reacted violently after a while, "You!"

Before he finished speaking, Zhou Yanqing suddenly reached out and touched her lips, raised her lips and showed a bright smile, and said, "It's quite delicious, it's easy to eat." ”

"You're going to eat. Cheng Xunxun pouted, gently slapped his shoulder, his cheeks flushed slightly, his face smiled like a flower, turned his head away, and said, "Eat your meal." ”

Zhou Yanqing smiled lightly, not to mention, with Cheng Xun's dish, Zhou Yanqing rarely finished the meal.

In the evening, Cheng Xunchun returned to the room to take a shower and change clothes before going to see Zhou Yanqing, the TV in the room was on, and Zhou Yanqing was talking on the phone with his mobile phone, as if he was telling something.

Cheng Xunxun passed silently, and saw that the water cup on the bedside table was empty, so he consciously went to add warm water to him.

By the time she came back from pouring water, he had already hung up the phone.

"Busy?" she asked, smiling, as she handed the cup over.

"I'm not busy. ”

"Rest early, aren't there still Rong Zheng and Chen Yujian around? and Lu Jingbei. Even if you don't have the three of them, you still have those capable subordinates, isn't the most important thing you should do now to take good care of your body?" Cheng Xunxun frowned slightly.

Zhou Yanqing smiled faintly, took a sip of water, moistened his throat, and said, "I'm waiting for you." ”

"What are you waiting for me?" she sat down in her chair and brushed her half-wet hair. She came down in a hurry, and her hair was not dry.

"If you can sleep, what else can you do. He glanced at her hair, reached out and touched it, raised his chin, and said, "Dry your hair and go to bed." ”

"Go to bed, what kind of bed are you going to, Zhou Yanqing, you ......"

Before she finished speaking, Zhou Yanqing interrupted her and said, "What do you think, just let you lie in bed and sleep, what do you think, so excited, your face is still so red, where do you think?"

Cheng Xunxun had just come out of the shower, his complexion was red, and he was so tender and tender, he teased him like this, his two ears also turned red, raised his hand and pushed his hand away, and said: "Sleep a ghost, I have my own room, don't squeeze with you, you can rest alone." ”

"You won't sleep with me?"

"Nope. She shook her head, pinned her hair behind her ears, looked at him with a smile, and said, "It's not early, you can sleep." I'll go back to sleep when you're asleep. ”

"Haven't washed up yet. He spread his hands.

Cheng Xunxun glanced at him, then got up and went to the bathroom, took toiletries, rinsed his mouth, wiped his face, and watched him lie down, cover the quilt, and dim the lights in the room.

Cheng Xunxun still has a hand in taking care of people, and she also took care of Zhou Jiashu a few times at the beginning, and she is relatively quite handy.

She sat next to her, Zhou Yanqing was lying on the bed, and she refused to close her eyes, the two just looked at each other like this, and they didn't speak, and there was only the sound of the TV in the room.

"Close your eyes. She said.

"Wait, I'm not sleepy. ”

Cheng Xunxun glanced at him, then turned his head to look at the TV screen.

After a while, Cheng Xunxun only felt a warmth on the back of his hand, and turned his head sideways, and saw Zhou Yanqing looking at her with bright eyes, and said, "You really don't come up?"

She tilted her head, and Zhou Yanqing continued: "Do you know who this villa belongs to? Who has lived there before? You dare to sleep alone?"

"This is Qin Long's place, he has been doing organ trafficking for several years, and this may also be his 'studio', don't you feel that this house has always been gloomy?"

"What do you mean?"

"Remember, don't go to the toilet alone in the middle of the night. ”

"What are you doing? You want to say that there are ghosts here?" Cheng Xunxun sneered, glanced at him with disdain, and said, "Zhou Yanqing, you really think I am a three-year-old child, and I still believe your nonsense." ”

Zhou Yanqing smiled, tilted his head, hid half of his face in the pillow, closed his eyes, and said, "When the time comes, you will know by trying it yourself." ”

Cheng Xunxun glanced at him, stretched out his hand and poked his eyes lightly, and said, "Okay, you go to sleep and have a good rest." ”

Her fingers kept against his eyes, so that Zhou Yanqing could only close his eyes, he smiled lightly, raised his hand to hold her hand, pressed her hand on the bed, and said, "Okay, I'll sleep, take my hand away and I'll be able to sleep." ”

This time he obediently closed his eyes, but he had no intention of letting go, but held her hand firmly in his palm.

Cheng Xunxun opened his mouth, but finally didn't say anything, just looked at him quietly.

After a while, Cheng Xunxun took the remote control and turned off the TV, and soon the room fell into silence. She pushed the chair behind her a little, bent over and sat directly on the ground, lying on the bed and watching his sleeping face.

The light is dim, and there is a trace of warmth between the two, Cheng Xunxun is sometimes red-eyed, sometimes smiling, and his mood is changeable.

Seeing him in front of him, Cheng Xunxun was happy and wanted to cry happily. And she really shed tears, and gradually she couldn't stop it.

She wiped it over and over again, but she couldn't finish wiping it, crying and crying and couldn't help laughing, like a madman, and Zhou Yanqing fell asleep so quietly, it seemed that she really fell asleep like this.

Cheng Xunxun sniffed, wiped his face with his sleeve, and slowly leaned over, lowered his head and looked at his face silently, the corners of his lips were slightly raised, and his fingers caressed his eyebrows.

After a while, she suddenly lowered her head, kissed him lightly on the bridge of his handsome nose, and then her eyes stayed on his lips. After a few seconds, he bowed his head again, but instead of falling on his lips, he kissed his chin.

When she raised her eyes, she saw Zhou Yanqing's eyes that seemed to be smiling, she was startled, and when she was about to get up, the back of her neck was pressed.

"I ......"

"What are you? what else do you have to say?" he laughed, his body moving, the tips of their noses touching, and she avoided it.

"Why haven't you slept yet?"

"You look at me straight like this, how can I sleep, it's good if I don't laugh. He said.

"Well, I'll go back first. ”

She propped up the bed with both hands and wanted to get up, but Zhou Yanqing stopped her waist, locked her firmly in front of her, and said, "Are you willing to leave?"

"I ......"

"I promise to do nothing but sleep, stay with me. ”

Zhou Yanqing's gaze was very gentle, and he was simply seducing her.

The two looked at each other for a while, Cheng Xunxun raised his lips and smiled, lowered his eyes, and said, "Okay, I'll stay with you." ”

As soon as the words fell, Zhou Yanqing raised his head and bit her mouth, and whispered, "Why don't you kiss your mouth?"