It has been more than ten years in a row, and on the two festivals of New Year's Day and August 15, I must visit Mr. Mu's house. "Certainly" is because my teachers and my wife have been very kind to me, and it was their help that made me have a happy home 12 years ago. Because of this, when I came back from Vladivostok, during the four hours of transit in Harbin, I queued up to buy my wife's hometown flavor, the most authentic red sausage. At that time, after taking a taxi from the airport, I was in a queue about a kilometer long. It was the only time I can remember standing in such a long line to buy food. The night I got home, I braved the heavy rain to send it over, and I couldn't have been happier to see my aunt's happy appearance when she saw the red sausage. It's just that when I go now, my mood is very different, and there is an extra layer of helplessness.

My aunt (mother) has been seriously ill for several years. When he learned that she was also in the hospital for New Year's Day, he decided to visit the hospital on New Year's Day. When I arrived at the hospital, I couldn't control myself when I saw my wife. Holding her hand, I cried sadly. Sad, it is to see that on this day of the holiday, only the elderly teacher and nanny are accompanied in the ward (there is a deep conflict between her two children and children, and they do not appear at the same time. ）。 Sadly, it was my wife who could no longer lie on the hospital bed with dignity and dignity. This was something I couldn't accept emotionally, so I asked the teacher to find a shirt for my wife to wear.

After talking to the teacher for a long time, I left the hospital with a heavy heart. I think this is the first time I've cried on New Year's Day, and I'm very sad because of it. In the afternoon, I asked my wife's daughter to come to my house. As a result, she cried in my home again.

It can be said that on the first day of 2016, I spent the holiday in my own tears and watching the tears of others. The only consolation was that her daughter accepted my persuasion. Using her phone, I sent her brother a text message of her apology. Because I know how much my wife wants to see her children by her side at the same time.

Because of this, I was so sad that I couldn't rest well at night. I always have in my mind the helpless image of old age and serious illness. I also have a deep respect for my sister and my father's care in his last days. My wife and my father are suffering from the same disease. My sister's meticulous care of my father allowed my father to go with relative dignity. My father was always clean and clean, and he walked through his life with his upper body on. This is the respect that should be given to the human life process.

When I woke up on the morning of the second day of January, my face was tired and bad, and my mood was not good. With this in mind, we set off to climb the mountain. The place I go to is still my favorite land beam. This is also a habit of climbing mountains for several years. Regardless of the Gregorian calendar or the lunar calendar, the first climb of the mountain at the beginning of the new year starts from the land beam on Fengyu Mountain.

The original plan was to go with a bean travel friend. Later, thanks to the addition of two other friends, I decided to go alone. The reason why I didn't agree to go with her. One is that I don't know the other two, so I find it inconvenient. For me, climbing a mountain is just about having fun, and I don't want to just climb it. The second is that I am not in a good mood today and I really want to walk by myself.

So, my family was in charge of the pick-up, and I set off alone.

After getting off the bus in front of the mountain gate of the Pure Industry Temple, I saw the clear blue sky, and my mood suddenly relaxed. I also saw the snow-white crescent moon in the blue sky against the sun, which was so spectacular!

I am happy when I see the blue sky, and I am even happier when I can see it in Fengyu. The sky in the city was already dirty. When I set out in the morning, I pulled out my sunglasses from my backpack and thought that the earth beams might also be a hazy sky. I really didn't expect that twenty kilometers away from Xi'an, the sky would be clean. So, I hurriedly sent a WeChat message, and told the good news to the people in the city who were breathing in the haze. As long as you are willing to come out, a high-quality living environment is so easy to achieve. However, it is also sad to think about it, now we enjoy the blue sky has become a luxury! Fortunately, the people of Xi'an still have Qinling. When you arrive in Qinling, there is Qinling Blue.

Walk into the mountain gate and climb the stairs. The sun is bright and transparent, shining brightly, sprinkled on the stone steps, shining brightly. Sprinkled in the mountain forest, the mountain will be intertwined with light and shadow, and there are clear shadows of trees everywhere, enriching the thin forest that has lost its leaves. At this time, the light and pure trees and the complete shadows are superimposed, becoming the common protagonist in the mountains and forests, adding a neat and hearty beauty, and my heart is also much brighter.

Walk into the pure industry temple, see the tall plum tree in front of the main hall in full bloom, very beautiful, attract visitors to take pictures. I also like the plum blossoms here, but I think it's better to go to the main hall first, and then enjoy the flowers. I had this thing yesterday.

I have always stressed that I am not religious. However, I often have the idea of 'cramming Buddha's feet'. Whenever you encounter troubles and are powerless, you will also enter the temple when you can't do anything. Today I came here for my seriously ill wife.

When I walked into the main hall, I saw a monk I knew who was busy. After he went out, I stood in the center of the main hall and looked at the Buddha statue, and tears of sadness came out. I folded my hands, looked at the idol and said please let my aunt's children appear with her, I don't want my aunt to leave with regrets. I don't want my aunt to suffer too much, let her leave with dignity.

After praying, I left the main hall, and as soon as I stepped out of the threshold, I thought about it and decided to go in again. This time I put down my backpack and knelt in the main hall, repeating the previous words, still sad and tearful in the process. The reason why I didn't kneel in front of me was because I barely knelt in all the temples. It is always customary to stand with his hands folded and look at the statue with a smile. For this reason, the master here has criticized me for being unreligious. However, now I just think of my aunt on the hospital bed. I am willing to be very religious, and I will not be afraid of acquaintances seeing it.

When I came out of the main hall again, I may have left the difficult things in my heart to God to deal with, and my mood calmed down. When I came to the tall plum tree in the courtyard, there was a pleasant faint fragrance under the tree. The plum is in full bloom, and the yellow and translucent flowers are blooming elegantly and beautifully. At this time, the plum tree, which had no leaves, became a flowering tree in the true sense of the word, and it bloomed happily.

In the harsh winter, a yellow flower, full of branches, revealing the beauty of arrogance. Looking at the independent and cold plum blossoms, the fragrance of yellow flowers makes me appreciate the beauty of the flowers at the same time, and at the same time, I am even more in awe of the plum blossoms! The plum blossoms are not in danger of the severe cold, they are calm and calm, they are extraordinary, and they are in full bloom in an elegant and dignified manner! Shouldn't we be even more so?

When I looked up, I saw the blue sky through the flowers. At this time, the delicate and transparent yellow plum blossoms in the sky. Against the backdrop of the blue sky, the plum blossoms are so beautiful, just like the ice heart and jade! I immediately took a picture to make this beautiful picture eternal.

I left the Pure Industry Temple and began to climb the mountain in earnest. This is when the sky blue is exciting. The climbers I met on the way greeted each other and said that the weather was so good today, and the sky was so blue!

Yes, the sky is so powerful! The new year and the new beginning are so satisfying!

Walking in the sun-drenched mountains and forests, I was very happy in my heart, so I walked very fast. It was not yet eleven o'clock when I arrived at Wat Pho. The owner of the agriturismo beckoned me to take a break and I didn't stop. I'm going to get to the land beam as soon as possible, thinking that there is no forest there, the sun is more abundant, and the sky will be bluer. I want to bask in the sun on the beam and enjoy it beautifully.

As soon as I went up to the temple of the Reclining Buddha, I saw a sea of clouds on the opposite mountain, which was even more unexpected! In the past, it rained the day before, and it was possible to encounter a sea of clouds on the mountain the next day. I can't remember the last time it rained in Xi'an. It's just that the forest here is blocked, and the view is not wide. I walked more anxiously towards the land beam. Pass below the temple building at the top of the hill and look up to see the temple on the cliff, towering in the blue sky like a sapphire, spectacular and majestic. I was really applauded for the ancestors to choose a site to build a temple here! Looking at the blue sky on the top of the mountain, I was even more eager to move forward.

The meteor strode out of the forest and came to the beam. Ouch, so lucky!

Sure enough, the sky on the beam is as blue as a wash! The sun is shining, the air is fresh, and the whole land is filled with the smell of the sun's fragrance, and the atmosphere is warm and peaceful. As far as the eye can see, I am alone on the entire three-kilometer-long beam. Haha, that's great! I can walk on the beam on my own again.

The mood came to the highest point on the beam excitedly. I am the peak at the top of the mountain, and when I sit on the top of the hill, I will have an unobstructed view. At this moment, I am on the beam of the earth, under the blue sky, bathed in the warm sun, breathing the fresh air with the fragrance of the sun, I echo with the mountains in the sea of clouds, admiring each other. It's just that today's sea of clouds is different from what I saw in the past, the fog humidity is very large, very white and deep, so the sun is not transparent, there is no wind and no wilt, so that the sea of clouds has really become a milky white ocean, and the mountains are all immersed in it, only revealing the shadow-like mountain tip, looming, ethereal and illusory, converging into a magnificent sea of clouds and mountains, very good-looking, let me feel that the white clouds in the blue sky have fallen in the mountains, making the sky a pure blue!

Looking at it, my heart was filled with a tide of warmth and happiness, and I laughed with joy. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for the gift of God for making me have such a happy and wonderful moment. Under the blue sky, in the warm sun, on the land beams held up by the mountains, I kept my original intention, listened to the sound of my heartbeat, and embraced the beauty of my life!

When I saw the climbers walking on the beam from a distance and took pictures of me again, this time I happily stood up and let them take pictures. It would be my honor to be on the land beams if I also became the scenery in the eyes of others.

At this moment, I put my hands on my chest and said happily to God: Thank you for making me your darling!

I will cherish it and live a beautiful life that belongs to me, and live up to God's gift!

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