Two days before the piano competition, while practicing in the piano room, I suddenly received another phone call from Fang Wei. When I heard his voice, my blood instantly froze.

Fang Wei said, "Make an appointment, do you have time tonight?"

I quickly shook my head, shook my head, and realized that he couldn't see, so I said, "No." ”

Fang Weiwei sneered: "If you don't have it tonight, then tomorrow night, come out for a trip, not far away, do you know the shopping plaza in Beiguan? Don't push me to the day after tomorrow, I know you will compete the day after tomorrow." ”

I could only force myself to say "um".

Fang Wei continued: "Someone brought you over there. Don't think about not coming or anything, Jungwoo's patience isn't as good as mine. ”

Hanging up the phone, I was stunned for a long time, and then the first action I took my phone to dial the phone number.

After I dialed the phone number, I suddenly realized that the mobile phone number I dialed was Lu Jingzhong's mobile phone number three years ago.

I've changed two phones. Many of the mobile phone numbers stored in the original mobile phone have long been lost, and the mobile phone number of Yangcheng has also been replaced, using the phone card that was assigned when the university admission notice came down.

But. Why did I dial Lu Jingzhong's original mobile phone number in this instant?

My heart was beating violently, as if I wanted to jump straight out of my chest, and I heard the unhurried sound of "Dididi" coming from the microphone, and on one side was the sound of my own heart beating like a drum. Stay in history to carry it together.

It's been three years, and I thought the number was already gone, but it was still ......

Suddenly, there was a short electric sound, and the dripping sound in the microphone disappeared, and a deep voice came: "Hey......"

My left hand, which was holding the phone, was shaky, so I held my left elbow with my right hand. Biting his lip and not speaking.

There was a chuckle on the phone, and before I could think about what it meant, the phone hung up.

I felt blood bitten out of my lip so that no one would see the inquiry, so I clenched my fingers into fists and put them between my teeth. It wasn't until the back of the hand was bitten out by the teeth that it slowly loosened its mouth.

Looking up at the ceiling of the practice room, I suddenly felt like laughing.

I don't know if the feeling I have about Lu Jingzhong now, whether it's liking, love, or hate, in short, I feel that I have become more sensible, at least I didn't bite my lips like when Lu Jingzhong left three years ago, in order to hold back my crying.

I've asked myself many times, am I willing?

There are always two forces tearing in my head, one shouting: Surrender, you and him are not in the same world. Another counterforce shouted: Unwilling, why can he become the king, and you only deserve to rot in the mud?!

There was a sound of footsteps approaching outside the door, and I hurriedly stood up, wiped my lips, the back of my hand was red, and quickly pulled out a tissue from my bag to wipe the blood on my lips.

It was Xie Zhunjia who pushed the door in, followed by the tutor.

"Thank you, teacher, my dad also said that he was worried that I would not have someone to guide me, and they all said that they would ......"

Xie Zhunjia stopped the moment he saw me, and glanced in the direction of the tutor, and the expression on the tutor's face, I don't know if it counted, was slightly embarrassed.

A few days ago, I went to the teacher because of the piano competition repertoire, because of the piano problem, I can't go to Li Zhengke's house every day to practice, it will take more than an hour on the road, not to mention, Li Zhengke's mother's attitude towards me really makes me feel disrespectful, I am a little bit of this cheap problem, people treat me well, I can't accept it, I'm afraid of owing favors, people treat me badly, I have peace of mind, I don't feel guilty.

Wen Wen once said that I was a masochistic physique, and I laughed at the time and said, "I can't enjoy happiness as a human being." ”

Then I went to the instructor, first to ask her to give me a tick, and secondly to use the only first-class performance piano in the school's advanced classroom.

But the mentor has been busy recently, and the excuse is not unconvincing, but I have experienced so many things since I was a child, and I don't know how to be sophisticated, so it's too stupid.

Now, regardless of whether the tutor is embarrassed or not, I can't have any embarrassment at all, so I let out a smile that is still acceptable and greeted: "Hello teacher." ”

The tutor nodded.

Xie Zhunjia had a subtle expression on his face, and then asked me with a smile: "Are you still practicing?" Teacher, otherwise we will ......."

I picked up my bag: "No, I've already practiced, goodbye teacher." ”

Even if Xie Zhunjia and the tutor don't show up at this time, I will leave.

It's not that I'm cowardly and don't want to fight back, it's just that I have more important things to do right now.

I'll have to find a way to get rid of tomorrow night, or find a backer in a short period of time.

The signed photo of Lu Jingzhong given to me by Sang Sauna suddenly appeared in my mind, if Lu Zhengyu is there, then there is no doubt that Lu Jingzhong is the best backer.

I went back to my dorm and pulled out a small wooden box from the innermost part of the closet.

It's something I've been stuffing into since I was in college, and I haven't touched it.

The small box is equipped with a combination lock, and there is actually no valuables in it, only a USB flash drive.

There was no one in the dormitory at this time, so I sat on the table below with my notebook, plugged the USB flash drive into the computer and opened it, and in this USB flash drive, there was a encrypted folder.

I typed in the code to see if the contents were still there, and the bedroom door rang, and I simply unplugged the USB stick and stuffed it into my pocket.

Sangsang pushed the door in, his face was full of tears, I sat silently, watched Sangsang close the door with his backhand, wiped the corners of his eyes, and walked straight forward.

I asked, "Sangsang, how are you ......?"

Sang Sang gasped in fright, I saw that she was scared and hit a spirit, obviously not noticing my existence at all, and was frightened.

"Jiayin, you're going to scare me to death. ”

I laughed: "The bedroom door is not locked outside, and you didn't expect someone to be inside when you came in." ”

Sang Sang let out an "oh", obviously absent-minded: "Forgot." ”

I closed my notebook, jumped off the table, and asked her, "Or is it because of him?"

Sang Sang nodded and said, "Yesterday I went to A University to find a senior brother, and I saw him walking on campus with another girl holding hands...... Why is Yu Zeduan so scummy, he deceived one and had to lie to the other, no, I have to find that girl tonight. Sang Sang seemed to be talking to himself, stood up as he spoke, and walked out, "Did Qianqian from the next bedroom 502 buy a bicycle a few days ago, I went to borrow it, and waited for the bicycle to pass......"

I grabbed Sangsang's arm: "You sit down first, I'll tell you Sangsang, you are just unwilling now, if you want me to say, don't worry about his business, he can do whatever he likes." ”

Sangsang turned her head to look at me, "No, I said, I want to get back the deception I have received, and I want revenge," as if to strengthen her confidence, she repeated again, "Well, I want revenge." ”

With that, she opened the door herself and went out.

I couldn't help but shake my head as I watched the door close to my dorm room.

Sangsang is the kind of girl who can see through at a glance, she never hides anything she says, and when she has something in her heart, she clearly writes it on her face, and she will tell you in one go without you guiding her to ask one by one.

I know that Sangsang's feeling now is that kind of unwillingness, in this world, there is really not a story of the prince Cinderella, and not every Cinderella's lost crystal slipper can be recovered.

But why, this Cinderella is not me.

Since it's not me, I don't want to be someone else.

Only then will my heart feel a little better.

After Sangsang left, I sat on the stool for a long time, until the sky outside the window was completely dark, the lights in the opposite bedroom building were all turned on one by one, and the voice-activated lights in the corridor outside the dormitory were on and off, I stood up, but I didn't plug the USB flash drive into the computer anymore to look at it, and directly put it away and took the key to go out.

On the way, I made a phone call to Zhou Yusen, because the last time he mentioned that he had a senior sister who was an intern reporter at the newspaper, it happened to be with the entertainment section, so I asked him to give me this person's phone number.

Zhou Yusen said: "I'll ask her to come out and have a meal together." ”

"If you're busy, I'll just contact myself. ”

Regarding the incident between me and Lu Jingzhong three years ago, Thangka saw it and guessed it at the time, presumably his sister Lin Xiaoxiao also told him some things in the bar, but I don't know if Thangka told Zhou Yusen.

Subconsciously, I still don't want people to know.

However, Zhou Yusen said: "I'm not busy, I just happened to talk to you about something." ”

Zhou Yusen's intern at the newspaper is a junior girl, named Zhang Xiaoran, who came wearing a goose-yellow hooded sweatshirt with a string of capital English letters written on the sweatshirt, a peaked cap on his head, and a camera hanging around his neck.

I saw that before she could say "senior sister", she was grabbed by Zhang Xiaoran's arm and asked me, "Where did you cut your hair?"

I was a little stunned for a moment, so I reported the address of the barbershop.

Zhang Xiaoran took several photos of me with his camera: "I've always wanted to cut a haircut like this, you can go with me, I'll invite you to dinner in the evening." ”

Me: "......"

Zhou Yusen shrugged his shoulders behind Zhang Xiaoran and gave me a lip sync: "Don't be impatient." ”

So, I took Zhang Xiaoran to the barber shop, Zhang Xiaoran is simply a living treasure, all the way the mouth chatters non-stop, to the barbershop, she asked the barber to cut my hairstyle, she cut her hair, I and Zhou Yusen came out of the hair salon, found a leaflet and sat on the ground.

I took out a cigarette case from my bag and took out one to give it to Zhou Yusen, who shook his head.

I lit it with a lighter myself and joked with Zhou Yusen: "You don't smoke or drink, are you still a man?"

Zhou Yusen didn't care about this, anyway, he said a lot before, and occasionally joked like this, laughing at it, but this time, he said: "Aka doesn't let me smoke and drink, I listen to him." ”

As soon as I heard Zhou Yusen say this, I was speechless.

From the first time I saw Zhou Yusen, I knew that he was obedient to Thangka's words, and almost regarded Thangka as his own.

I took a deep breath of the cigarette, the smoke swirling between my lips and teeth, and then slowly exhaled and flicked the ash off.

Zhou Yusen picked up a sharp stone, scratched it on the ground, and said, "Last Sunday, I seemed to see Aka on TV. ”

I was taken aback: "On TV?"

Zhou Yusen nodded: "It's a piece of news reported by the reporter, in Yunnan, the anti-drug team ambushed and arrested people at the trading site at the dock, it was raining at that time, and the camera didn't shoot it too clearly, just for a moment, I recognized him." ”

If so......

I followed Zhou Yusen's thinking and thought: "That...... If it's really a thangka, could he be a passerby?"

Zhou Yusen shook his head: "That section of the road was under martial law at that time......"

"That ......"

Zhou Yusen completed the rest of the words for me: "It's either a drug dealer or a policeman." ”

Where do the police use thangka to hide, the only one is probably ......

I turned my face to look at Zhou Yusen, and in his pupils, I saw the same message.

Zhou Yusen suddenly exerted force, and the sharp stone in his hand slashed on the fingertip in turn, and blood immediately oozed, I quickly took out a piece of paper and pressed it directly on his finger.

"Why was it so careless?"

Zhou Yusen didn't care about the wound on his finger, and said: "Do you know what I'm very strange? Two days ago, I searched the Internet for the news clip of the day, and the news clip is still there, but there is no Aka in it. ”

"Did you admit that you were mistaken?"

Zhou Yusen shook his head, took out his mobile phone and flipped out a screenshot: "This is a screenshot of my search, you see, it's here, this is Aka." ”

The picture is blurry, at night, there are only dim lights on the dock, and it is still raining, if it weren't for Zhou Yusen pointing with his finger, I wouldn't be able to see it at all, there is still a person standing there, but looking at the figure, there are some likenesses, but it has been three years, who knows who has changed much.

Zhou Yusen turned out another screenshot for comparison: "This is after processing, you see, the same news, this half is edited." ”

I am not as careful as Zhou Yusen, and I think this should not be a coincidence or deliberate arrangement, and it is not a suspense movie, where can there be so many flaws and traps.

"Wait for Thangka's call," I said, "don't think about it so much yet." ”

Zhou Yusen smiled self-deprecatingly: "Do you know why I concluded that this is Aka? Because Aka broke his right leg because he helped me fight when he was a child, he was a little lame, and this person's standing posture is the same as Aka...... Do you remember the last time I recorded a phone call to you? He said that he was in a place where it was very warm now, and he must be the man, like our north is now in the cold spring, where will it be very warm. ”

In the end, Zhou Yusen's words fell on the sentence "I want to go to Yunnan." ”

I was about to ask Zhou Yusen why he suddenly came out of nowhere, but Zhang Xiaoran jumped out behind him, and I immediately shut up.

Zhang Xiaoran took the cap away, and I saw that her face was very small, and her haircut like this made her face less than the size of a palm, but she was quite satisfied: "For this beautiful hairstyle, I invite you to dinner." ”

Zhang Xiaoran chose a Japanese restaurant and bought sushi and sake, I looked at the menu and felt that it was really not cheap.

I asked Zhang Xiaoran how the entertainment reporter got the latest news every day, Zhang Xiaoran said: "Squat, there is also some information provided by someone, you know Lan Xuan, right? ”

Of course I know, it is the woman who stood beside Lu Jingzhong, holding his arm openly, and accepting the flashing spotlight, I also searched for her photos on the Internet, she looks really beautiful and has a temperament, the key is that I heard that she graduated from the world's top 30 American XX University, and she is unanimously called "the goddess of beauty and wisdom" on the Internet.

Zhang Xiaoran continued: "My boss and I braved the rain to squat outside Lan Xuan's villa halfway up the Red Mountain for a whole day, and only then did we get a photo of Lu Sir coming out of her villa late at night. ”

When I heard this, my heart was a little sour.

It's like two straight lines, after intersecting, they can only be separated by more and more distances, he is the return of the king, and I am still standing in an ordinary crowd, inconspicuous, not only after three years in between, but also a distance that I can't catch up with for half my life.

However, Zhang Xiaoran can't see the mixed tastes in my heart now, and I talked about it with relish, saying how I got the first-hand news, and said that she had an exclusive interview, as if she could talk about it alone even if there was no audience.

I came back to my senses and glanced at Zhou Yusen, who was looking at the sake in his glass, looking very seriously, as if he was just studying the color and taste of this sake.

There are three people sitting at a table, all in their own world.

I suddenly thought of a word - a ghost in my heart, which is really appropriate.

After eating for a while, I found a suitable time to interrupt Zhang Xiaoran's words: "Is Lu Jingzhong hot now?"

"Lu sir?" Zhang Xiaoran raised his eyebrows, "Of course, young, handsome, handsome and sunny, God, it is a male god, the United States once commented that the proportion of VI's facial features is perfect, and he is the most praised Chinese by foreign media in the past three years." ”

Speaking of this, Zhang Xiaoran suddenly paused, relying on Yu Ji's intuition, she grabbed my wrist, and her two eyes suddenly lit up amazingly.

"Do you have something to break the news?"

"I have ...... here"

At this time, Zhou Yusen also looked at me, and I couldn't say anything.

I know that once the things in my USB flash drive are released, what impact will it have on Lu Jingzhong, and the impact will not be fatal to Lu Jingzhong, who has just returned to China, but it will definitely have a big impact.

So, I hesitated.

Three years ago, I heard Weiwei talk about the song "Life and Death Contract" that Lu Jingzhong won the award for the first time, and I listened to it later, and there is a lyric in it, I still remember it-

"You said that this is a contract of life and death, a contract of life and death, just for this life, I work hard to live......"

"It's nothing," I smiled, "see if the sake is enough, and if it's not enough, I'll ask for it." ”

I don't know why I came, but I didn't hand over the USB drive.

Obviously, this is the last way out, I can't take the train back to my hometown today, I still have to go to school, and I still have to live life.

Being soft-hearted when I shouldn't be soft-hearted is my person's malaise, and every time I tell myself to be hard-hearted, but when it comes to the critical time, I can't be ruthless.

Looking at the street scene outside the window, I suddenly felt panicked in my heart, and I couldn't help but want to smoke a cigarette, but the cigarette case in the bag fell out, and there was not a single cigarette in it.

I said, "Eat first, I'll go out and buy a box of cigarettes." ”

However, as soon as I reached the door, I was completely stunned as soon as I pulled out my pocket, and a chill ran from my back to my heart, and I saw my own blood-colored face in a mirror on the wall.

I distinctly remember that before I left the dormitory, the USB stick was in my pocket.

However, now the pockets are empty.

"What's wrong?" Zhou Yusen asked me.

I turned around, picked up my bag and rummaged through it, then turned it upside down, and all the mess inside fell to the ground, and I didn't even look for the mezzanine of the bag.

I was getting more and more panicked, and my hand holding the bag was shaking a little.

Zhou Yusen squatted down: "Can't you find anything?"

"I ......"

Zhang Xiaoran helped me pack up the things on the ground: "You can't find anything, I'll help you find it...... This little mirror is so cute, I love this rabbit to death. ”

"I gave it to you. ”

How can I show cowardice at such a time, I stabilized my mind and smiled at Zhang Xiaoran.

We can't mess up now, it's all over if it's messy.

I stood up and said to Zhou Yusen: "It's nothing, I just touched the wallet in my pocket and lost it, this is not to find it, I went out to buy a box of cigarettes." ”

I went out with my bag, so I sent a text message to Zhou Yusen: "You send Zhang Xiaoran away, I don't want to go back if I have something to do." ”

I walked along the same road, walked to the barber shop, and then walked to the bus stop, but I didn't find the USB stick, so I took a taxi to the bus terminal, found the bus I just made, and got on the bus one by one to look for it.

When the driver heard that I had lost something, he asked what it was.

I compared it with my hand: "It's about this big, red, a USB flash drive." ”

The driver said, "It's so small, you can see if there is anything on the ground, and if it hasn't been picked up." ”

I searched around, but I couldn't find it, and I had no hope left in my heart.

I walked to a newsstand next to the bus terminal, bought a pack of cigarettes, took out one and lit it, leaned against a shop that had closed the roller shutter, and looked at the street scene in front of me, with pedestrians hurrying back and forth, all walking forward.

Now I feel like a cat's paw is scratching in my heart, and I feel so uncomfortable that I can't tell whether I am more worried or sad.

The photos in the USB flash drive are all photos from three years ago, when I was with Lu Jingzhong, they were originally from my mobile phone, and after the phone broke, I spent 500 yuan to restore the contents of it, and then put all those photos in the USB flash drive.

But now, the photo is gone, as if the last connection between me and Lu Jingzhong has been severed.

My mind is running like crazy, throwing away this layer of factors, that is, others pick it up, and after picking it up, the things inside will definitely be opened and seen, if you look at it, then forget it, but if you have a heart and spread it on the Internet, it's over.

I took a sharp drag on my cigarette and closed my eyes deeply.