Chapter 232: Until I Close My Eyes
Cheng Xunxuan was still in a daze, Zhou Yanqing had already taken a change of clothes and went into the bathroom and began to take a shower.
It wasn't until she rang that she suddenly came back to her senses, raised her hand and wiped her mouth vigorously, frowned, spat out, took it out of her bag, glanced at the screen, and the call was Mi Lai. She waited downstairs, and before Cheng Xunxun came up, let her spend an hour, and if she hadn't gone down, he would call her.
It's been an hour and thirty minutes before Mi Lai hits.
"How's the talk, do you have any questions, do you need me to come up?"
Cheng Xunxun bit his lip, groaned for a moment, and said, "A little later." ”
Mi Lai stood on the side of the car, looked up, and always had a strong premonition that Cheng Xunchun would not come out tonight, and this premonition had already occurred from the moment Cheng Xunchun entered just now. People like Zhou Yanqing can let her come, and there is a way to let her stay.
She smiled slightly, turned around and opened the door and got into the car, said hello, and hung up the phone.
Zhou Yanqing was not around, Cheng Xunxuan was a little more comfortable, and he also had the heart to look around, the furnishings here were still exactly the same as in his memory, and there was no change. She could remember almost everything that had happened here, and she didn't want to remember it, but in the current environment, her mind was not controlled by her heart.
She picked up the teacup on the coffee table and took a big sip, calming her heart slightly.
Time suddenly became long, Cheng Xunshun sat on the sofa, looked up at the time from time to time, obviously felt that it had been a long time, but only ten minutes had passed. The room was quiet, and she could faintly hear the sound of water coming from the bathroom.
After another ten minutes, Cheng Xunxuan drank the last sip of water in the cup. He put the cup on the coffee table, took the bag and stood up, walked quickly to the entrance, and paused the moment he raised his hand. Zhou Yanqing's words were put there, if she left now, then if she wanted to go back to Nuonuo, she would have to tear her face off.
In this way, it is not good for the relationship between her and Nuno, there are four years between them, and she and Nuno have not even gotten along for half a year, and even in the process of getting along with them, they are not harmonious. If she forced it, even if she had the opportunity to snatch Nono back, she couldn't guarantee that Xiaonuo would be willing to accept her as a mother.
Maybe he will hate her even more, and everyone will hate the person who destroys his beautiful family. Even he would choose not to admit it, after all, in his eyes, she Cheng Xunxun was just a nanny sister, he liked it, but it was definitely not like his mother.
Cheng Xunxun exhaled, withdrew his hand, took off the shoes he had already woon, placed them neatly aside, turned around and walked back to the living room again, bent over and sat back in his original position, turned on the TV with his hand, and waited with full patience.
After about forty minutes, Zhou Yanqing came out of the bathroom, her hair was still wet, and she didn't know if it was because the water was too hot. His ears and collarbones were slightly red, and there were still a few drops of water on his neck that slipped down and sank into his clothes.
Cheng Xunxun heard the movement, glanced at him sideways, and couldn't help frowning, this person was too casual, he took so long to take a shower, and he came out without even putting on his clothes. She turned her eyes away with a straight face, and said, "I'm still patient, you go and dry your hair, get dressed, and come out." ”
"I've blown it. He walked straight to her side and sat down, saw the empty cups above the coffee table, and said with a smile: "Don't you remember everything? You don't pour water yourself? You are not a guest here, this is your home." ”
Cheng Xunxun didn't look at him, nor did he speak, but moved to the side quietly, separated from him by a certain distance.
Zhou Yanqing smiled lightly, took the cup, went to the kitchen and poured her another glass of water, this time he didn't lean over, separated from her by a person, handed the cup over, and said, "How is it?"
Cheng Xunxun glanced at him, reached out and took the cup, took a sip, and said, "You gave me a multiple-choice question, and it is still a multiple-choice question with an answer, what is there to consider?" Arnold, I'm bound to get it back. He was born to me, and I never gave up custody of him in the first place. It was just an accident in the middle that caused me to delay for four years to get my child back. ”
"I don't care what you're hiding from me here, if you don't want to say it, I won't ask any more. I don't hate you, I don't blame you, and I can even forgive Anyu for taking my child. I only hope that you will be able to give me the child. I don't care what the relationship between you and Anyu is. You're still young, and having a baby is easy. And I only have Xiaonuo, so I beg you, can you help me and return Xiaonuo to me just this time. If Anyu really likes Xiaonuo and really treats him as her own son, I promise that I will let her come to see Xiaonuo whenever she wants. ”
Cheng Xunxun took a deep breath, turned his head to look at him, and said, "For Xiaonuo's sake, I don't want us to compete and tear our faces." That's the limit of what I can do, and I hope you can think about it. ”
Zhou Yanqing leaned on the armrest of the sofa with one hand, drank the water one by one, nodded his head, and said, "As long as you don't mind, I don't have any problems." ”
"Will you give Arnold back to me?"
He chuckled and said, "I never said I wouldn't give it back to you, you don't want it." ”
Cheng Xunxun paused, and quickly understood the meaning of his words, which was equivalent to saying that she had just said it for a long time, which was equivalent to not saying it.
When she was about to say something, Zhou Yanqing suddenly got up, put the cup on the coffee table, stepped over and sat directly next to her, Cheng Xunxuan reflexively wanted to avoid changing positions, Zhou Yanqing stretched out his hand and locked her in front of her. Cheng Xunxun could almost clearly smell the crisp breath on his body, as well as the temperature of his body.
She turned her head away, put her hands in front of him, wrinkled her brows, and said, "Can you talk well?"
"I've been talking to you well, can't you hear me?"
"You talk to others well, and that's the same?"
"Not really. ”
Cheng Xunxun pushed him hard, trying to push him away from him, his cheeks were slightly red, and he deliberately straightened his face, saying, "Then please treat others as you do to me, and treat me now." ”
"That's different, you're no one else, you're Nono's mother. As he spoke, he suddenly stretched out his hand, wrapped his arms around her waist, and pulled her in front of him with a little force, and said completely as a scoundrel, "Do you still want to be small or big?"
Cheng Xunxun stared at him for a moment, smiled lightly, turned his gaze away, and said, "I can't afford the big one, it's too expensive, it's too troublesome, I just want to live a quiet life, with Xiaonuo." I don't want to think about anything else, and I don't pursue it. ”
"Zhou Yanqing, don't forget what you did to me when I was in prison. Don't think that if I don't say it, I forgot, or that I don't blame you at all. I really don't know who to blame for today's situation, there are many people to blame, and there are many people to hate, but I don't have the strength and energy to do something again, even if I do, it won't help. Nothing can be done all over again. The shortcomings of me and Xiaonuo in the past four years will still exist, and things still can't be easily solved. ”
"It's not that I don't hate, it's that I don't want to hate, I don't want to think about more things, I won't fight you, I have self-knowledge, I can't fight you, I'm afraid of revenge in the end, and it's me who gets hurt. So, I just want to get my little promise back, and that's it, I don't want to think about anything else, and I don't want to think about it. I let you go, so I hope you will let me go too. Isn't it?" Cheng Xunxun's eyes were slightly red, the past is in the past, but the damage will always exist, it is impossible to treat it as if it does not exist because it has passed, it will always exist.
Just like the scar on Cheng Xunxun's neck, it will always remain there, reminding her all the time how painful and desperate she was in prison at the beginning.
Zhou Yanqing's eyes sank slightly, and he looked at her for a moment, he could feel her determination in this matter, as if she had made up her mind that as long as Xiaonuo, she didn't hate or make trouble, and she could even talk to him calmly like this, which made him panic more than she hated him.
His smile faded, Cheng Xunxun was completely calm at this moment, pushed him again, and said, "Why don't we discuss how to make Xiaonuo accept it, or let An Yu accept it." If I really can't, then even if I hurt Xiaonuo, I can only use extreme methods. ”
His eyes dimmed, and he smiled low for a moment, saying, "I won't change my mind, you have to give Xiaonuo a complete home for the sake of his good." ”
"I know, I know. But I'm scared, you're scared me. There are so many uncertainties, so many things that I haven't figured out, with you. I'm scared. I'm afraid I don't know when the same thing will happen again, and I won't be able to withstand this blow anymore, you know?"
"I love you. ”
Cheng Xunxun was stunned, she didn't expect him to say such a thing at this moment, she was silent for a few seconds, broke free of his embrace, quickly stood up, took her bag and prepared to leave. Zhou Yanqing quickly grabbed her hand and said, "Didn't you hear clearly? How many times do you want me to say it? ”
"Cheng Xunxun, not only did you lose your memory, but it didn't just happen to you, I was the same. There are some things I don't tell you because you know these things, and they are not good for you, and I don't want you to know what I have suffered and what I have endured. You just need to know that I will protect you, and I will always protect you, and as long as I am alive, as long as I am capable, I will protect you until I close my eyes. ”
He held her hand tightly with both hands, lowered his head and put his forehead against the back of her hand, and said, "I know that it is my fault that I let you suffer and let you be wronged. You hate me and hate me, you can do anything, but you can't just be small and not big, you are a hooligan and irresponsible, you know?"
Obviously the atmosphere is very serious, he said this, Cheng Xunxun really didn't know whether he should cry or laugh, obviously these words should be said by women, and when they came out of his mouth, they seemed so unserious, but he looked serious and said seriously.
He reached out and put his arm around her waist, pulled her back, put his cheek on her stomach, and said, "Do you think about who put me to sleep while I was drugged? ”
"Zhou Yanqing, you have a face. Okay?"
"Isn't it?"
Cheng Xunxun's face was red angrily, obviously he was talking about the child, how could he turn over the old accounts.
"Then are you at a loss? Is this kind of thing a loss to you men?"
"I want to be with you and Xiaonuo, but you just want to take Xiaonuo and leave me alone. What's the matter, are you borrowing sperm to have children?" he hugged her waist tightly, and said it so justifiably.
"Zhou Yanqing, do you want to be shameless? You are so beautiful now, your status is so high, you tell me that you are at a loss? I still give you a lot? Even if I borrow your sperm, then I will spend money to buy it, and we can be regarded as two clears, right?" She clasped his hand with her backhand, trying to break his hand away.
He glanced up at her, raised his eyebrows slightly, and said, "If I give you all the possessions in my hands, we will not be clear, and we can be entangled forever, right?"
Cheng Xunxun laughed angrily and said, "Mr. Zhou, Mr. Zhou, your current behavior seems to be upside down." ”
"Yes, do you want to post it upside down?" he admitted the behavior of the upside down post with a serious face.
The two looked at each other for a moment, looking at his sincere and serious eyes, his heart softened, he opened his mouth, and when he was about to speak, Zhou Yanqing suddenly got up, hugged her and turned around and pressed her on the sofa. As she resisted, he lowered his head and kissed her on the lips.
Cheng Xunxuan resisted, but Zhou Yanqing pressed step by step, holding her hand firmly in the palm of her hand.
During the struggle, the atmosphere slowly became ambiguous, and Cheng Xunxun's resistance became a catalyst.
Mi Lai waited downstairs until eleven o'clock, then asked the driver to drive back, and did not call Cheng Xunxun when he went back, for fear of disturbing them.
Indeed, at this point in time, the two are working hard.
Sure enough, it's really not safe for a lonely man and a widow to be alone in a room!
The next morning, Cheng Xunxuan opened his eyes, and what caught his eye was Zhou Yanqing's face, looking at her with a smile on her face. Cheng Xunxi is still a little confused, last night's battle exhausted her physical strength, and she hasn't recovered yet.
She raised her hand to cover her face, and it took about ten minutes to wake up, firmly tugging on the quilt, wrapping her body, and saying, "Are you idle?"
He raised his hand to pill his head, blinked his eyes, smiled and said, "No, the company has a lot of things to do, but when I see you, I don't really want to go, so I took half a day off." ”
"Neuropathy. Cheng Xunxun glanced at him, and his cheeks turned red. Don't look away.
When the words fell, the room fell into silence, obviously it had been a night, and Cheng Xunxun always felt that he could vaguely smell that ambiguous atmosphere. Under the quilt, Zhou Yanqing quietly stretched out her foot, her toes touched her ankles, Cheng Xunxun quickly avoided it as if she had been electrocuted, and turned her head to stare at him.
Without saying a word, he quickly got up and swept away the quilt by the way. Zhou Yanqing was naked, so naturally he wouldn't let Cheng Xunxun roll the quilt away, and immediately grabbed the quilt, and as soon as Cheng Xunxun's feet touched the floor, he dragged him back. His head slammed into his chest.
Zhou Yanqing pressed her chest with her hand, and pressed it on her chest impartially, Cheng Xunxuan was crazy, shook his hand away, and said, "What else do you want to do!"
"I don't want to be an exhibitionist, you swept the quilt away, what should I do?
Cheng Xunxun glanced at him, sat up again, looked at the ground twice, saw a shirt, scooped it up, put it on, and picked out his clothes from the ground.
Zhou Yanqing was still smiling, lying on the bed loudly, looking at her, and said, "There are your clothes in the cloakroom." ”
Cheng Xunxun glanced at him, pursed his lips, and without saying a word, he still went to the cloakroom, took his change of clothes and entered the bathroom, and locked the door.
Zhou Yanqing was in a good mood, and only got up after lying on the bed for a while, put on a dress casually, opened the curtains, picked it up and looked at it, his clarification news was already on the headlines.
After An Yu returned to the Song Mansion, he ignored his nude photos incident, stayed in the room most of the time, and only occasionally came out to stay with Xiaonuo for a while. Seeing the scars on her face, Xiaonuo stretched out a little finger, touched it gently, and asked her, "Mom, why are you injured?"
She smiled slightly and said, "I accidentally fell." ”
"Then I'll pull you away so you don't fall. He smiled and held out his hand to her like a little gentleman.
An Yu stared at his face for a while, his eyes were slightly red, smiled, reached out to hold his small hand, and said, "Okay, then you have to keep holding your mother's hand in the future, so that your mother won't fall." ”
"That is, when I grow up, I will be able to protect you well. ”
"Hmm. ”
The moment the tears fell. She quickly turned her head sideways, not wanting him to see the tears.
Zhou Yanqing's speed is very fast, he should have made some means, whether it is a newspaper or the Internet, news headlines, almost all of them are his clarifications. He Jiali and Song Peili both saw Zhou Yanqing's way of dealing with it, and the atmosphere at home was very dull for the past two days.
Song Jing said: "What's going on with this fourth brother, have you read the newspapers of the past two days?"
He Jiali cut an orange, stuffed it into her hand, and said, "Don't worry about these things." ”
"No......"
"Well, not a single orange can stop your mouth. He Jiali frowned slightly.
Song Jing's gaze swept over the faces of the two of them, and in a moment her heart was clear, she took a bite of the orange and carefully read the clarified report.
Song Peili's face was not good-looking, he sat for a while, then stood up and went upstairs silently.
Song Jing raised her eyes and glanced at the staircase, quickly came to He Jiali's side, and whispered, "Do you remember the fourth child?"
He Jiali sighed, which can be regarded as acquiescence.
"So what is he going to do now? What is he going to do with us?"
He Jiali wrinkled her brows, glanced sideways at her, smiled helplessly, and said, "It should be." ”
"Does he want to be struck by lightning?"
"I don't want to talk about these things, you should also save some heart, don't worry about it. Not to mention the fourth, what about the flail? How is it with Rong Zheng? She is also the eldest and the youngest. ”
Speaking of this, Song Jing lost her face and said, "I don't know what this girl thinks, every time I mention it to her, she perfunctory me." One said that she was still young. And stay with me. ”
As she spoke, she suddenly seemed to think of something, "Rong Zheng is the brother of the fourth child, this ......"
He Jiali also frowned, "Not really." ”
The two glanced at each other, and their faces were not very good-looking.
Song Peili knocked on An Yu's door, she had already gotten up, her face was not very good, the whole person looked depressed, lowered her eyes, and said, "Dad." ”
He entered the room and waited for her to close the door before saying, "Tell me, you should know who did this whole thing." I'll call the shots for you. ”
Anyu only took a breath. Didn't speak.
"Zhou Yanzhen, Chen Yujian, or the fourth. His voice was extremely cold, and there was a hint of anger in his tone.
An Yu still didn't speak.
Song Peili glanced back at her and said, "Anyu, do you remember when you told me what you wanted in life? We are ashamed of you, you are kind to us, so I said that I can help you as long as you want." ”
An Yu's hand hanging by his side tightened, smiled lowly, and said, "Is it still useful? The life I want was ruined by my own hands a long time ago." I still remember that back then, it was you who told me in person that Zhou Yanqing was my brother, and we were ** together, and we must not be together. ”
She looked up and looked at him deeply. took a step forward, the corners of his lips twitched slightly, and said, "Why didn't you tell me at that time that you really wanted, why did you lie to me? You said you can help me, I want to go back to the past, I want to choose again, can you help me?"
Song Peili pursed his lips, his expression dark.
An Yu smiled, sat on the bed, covered her cheeks with her hands, and said, "I just think of myself too much as the Song family, I should think that if I am really your daughter, how can you be willing to let me do that kind of thing." Now that I have been rectified by Zhou Yanzhen, I also deserve it. But if I had told the truth earlier, sooner, maybe I wouldn't have been so miserable. ”
"Why, why do you lie to me! I am also a human being, you raised me since I was a child, and I have been very obedient since I was a child. Even if a dog has feelings, you will feel distressed, I am a human being, will you not feel distressed?"
Song Peili put his hands behind his back, looked at her condescendingly, and said, "Your mother and I have always treated you as our own daughter, even if it is our biological daughter, we will let her do this." For the fourth child, it was my negligence and my fault. ”
An Yu covered his cheek firmly, and the sound sounded like he was crying. It's like laughing, or crying and laughing.
Song Peili took a step forward, raised his hand and patted her head, and said, "You don't have to go back to the past, it's not too late now." Everybody will go back to where he should be, you are, and so is the fourth. With a person like Zhou Yanzhen, I won't let him stay in the world. We can't stay here, we can go back to the old house, where we are roots. ”
An Yu shook his head and said, "That's your root, and it has nothing to do with me. Zhou Yanqing will no longer be at the mercy of others, no one can manipulate him, no one can. ”
"Rest assured. I will make him understand that in this world, only blood relatives are the most important. ”
An Yu didn't have the heart to listen to him at all, so he just lowered his head, calmed down in his own world, and muttered, "I...... I'm just reluctant to take Nuo. ”
……
Cheng Xunchun was left in Ruijing by Zhou Yanqing, and the two had a deep conversation almost every day, but each time it ended in Zhou Yanqing's scoundrel.
Cheng Xunxun naturally didn't want to go on like this, she stayed in Ruijing for about three days, and there was no news from Xiaonuo, so she was ready to leave Ruijing when Zhou Yanqing went to work. She is here to return to Xiaonuo, not to talk to him.
However, she walked out of the community on the phone, and a car passed by her, and suddenly stopped, Cheng Xunxun was startled, and couldn't help but stop, and the window was lowered. Song Peili's face met her eyes.
Cheng Xunxun didn't know him, but she had seen this person at the kindergarten party before, and she also knew that he was with Zhou Yanqing and them.
He said, "Miss Cheng, is it inconvenient for us to talk?"
"I don't know you. Cheng Xunxun with a hint of vigilance.
"I know you, and I know your grandfather. When we're done, you'll know who I am. ”