The first snow of the new year fell silently with my tears last night, looking from the window, the whole world, as if it was plunged into a silver world of pink makeup, the sound of firecrackers and children's laughter added a lot of flavor to the New Year, looking at their innocent smiling faces, I suddenly wanted to go back to my childhood.

Lan Meiling was keenly aware of my abnormality, and immediately ordered me dumplings after hearing my wake-up sound. It's no wonder that in previous years, a family of three stayed at a table to keep the New Year, but this year, I hid in my room.

Afraid that she would think too much, I hurriedly ate a few bites of dumplings, put on a scarf, and went out.

The boots stepped on the thick snow, "creaking" and creaking, and a layer of firecracker debris fell in front of the houses of each family.

Maybe I've been in that city for so long that I've forgotten the simplicity of my hometown.

Think about it, what is a woman's greatest desire in her life? I think every woman thinks differently. Some look forward to being married and raising children at home and ordinary for a lifetime; some are looking forward to becoming a professional in the workplace, shuttling through Vanity Fair, and picking up fame and fortune; and there is a shrewd woman, like Wendi Deng, who can give up everything for the future.

But no matter what kind of woman they are, they all live their own lives.

Looking back on the past year, I've actually grown a lot. In the workplace, I can cope with it freely, and in front of celebrities, I can be neither humble nor arrogant, but emotionally, my blind avoidance psychology has made me miss a lot.

I had insomnia last night, and I accidentally saw a sentence that if you want someone to love you, you have to love yourself more.

Losing yourself and blindly accommodating will only make you more and more devalued in that man's heart.

On the road of love, in fact, every woman should be treated equally. Whether you are a famous lady or a small jasper, you have the qualifications to be loved, and this kind of love has nothing to do with status or fame.

Xiao Shaofeng has done a lot of hard work for me, and I see it all. But from the beginning to the present, in his subconscious, I, Yang Xiaofei, will be looked down upon by the Xiao family, because I have no prominent background, and I don't have the experience of studying abroad like Xue'er, I know that his starting point is good, but in essence, his thoughts are the same as those of the Xiao family.

I'm thinking, when Xiao Daxia pursued Xue'er with all her heart and dedication for two years, she didn't agree, and finally chose to go abroad, isn't it, on the other hand, to seek equality between them?

After all, I was a little stupid, thinking that if I compromise everything for love, I can exchange all my compromises for love. The last fact tells me that a woman who is incapable is destined to be looked down upon. Only by being self-reliant and arrogant can we grasp the initiative.

I still love him. But I don't want to be humble. In the new year, I want to be a new version of myself.

In the next year, I will do my best. Xiao Daxia's question has also been answered before, if I can enter the top three, I will leave without hesitation.

I will bless Xiao Daxia and Xue'er, because they are the most suitable pair.

As for me, no matter what kind of man I will meet in the future, I don't want to limit my eyes to just one person.

This kind of thing, once or twice, forget it, keep stumbling, it will only break the head and bleed, it is better to change the direction, perhaps, there will be a different harvest.

It has been said that it is more difficult to give up on a person than to identify one. At this time, I deeply realized the meaning of this sentence. When you made up your mind to protect him, you shouldn't have coveted it.

Tears stayed last year, humility stayed last year, give up what should be given up, strive for what should be fought for, in the new year, I want to live a different self!

I had already sorted myself out, and I was going to go back to talk to the second elder about life and ideals, but I heard the secret words of the two of them in the bedroom.

"I still don't complain about you, mention the matter of the old Zhang family well, aren't you clearly putting pressure on the child?" Lan Meiling turned on the reprimand mode, "The child finally came back for the New Year, it's good for you, let me tell you, if you don't make Xiaofei happy for me, sleep in the living room by yourself at night!"

"child, wronged, I just said casually, in my heart, the two best women in the world are by my side, how can I praise other people's children, don't worry, when she comes back, I'll talk to her well!"

"What about the New Year's money? This month's cigarette money has been confiscated, and all of it has been taken out!"

I knew that Lan Meiling's keen insight was a loss if she didn't enter the FBI. I coughed lightly, and when I saw the second elder looking at me vigilantly at the same time, I smiled and said, "Dad, Mom, I want to discuss something with you." ”

At the beginning of the family meeting, the three of them sat down in turn, and I was the first to speak, saying that I planned to do my job first, and I was not in a hurry in advance.

When the second elder heard me say this, he immediately showed a panicked look, and Lao Yang asked cautiously: "Did you quarrel with that kid in Mochuan?"

Lan Meiling glanced at Lao Yang, looked at me, and said, "Xiaofei, as long as you are happy, your parents will support you in anything." ”

I nodded and said, "Mom and Dad, I know your worries, but Yang Xiaofei wants to learn from female models in the new era and work hard to improve herself, when I am good enough, there will be a large group of excellent men behind me to choose from, when the time comes, who do you like, who will I consider, how about it?"

Speaking of which, the second elder also understood what I meant, Lan Meiling took my hand distressedly and said, "Mom and Dad respect your decision." ”

How fortunate I am to have parents who understand me.

In the following days, I was basically soaked in the sea of questions, Lao Yang was responsible for serving tea, pouring water and cutting fruits, Lan Meiling devoted herself to researching the perfect tonic soup, and when I passed by the mobile company, I changed to a local phone card.

On the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, I braved the snowflakes to go to the library to look for materials, and when I arrived at the entrance of the alley, I heard the sound of the horn, and after a curious look, I was stunned.

Actually, Lu Mochuan.

It has been snowing intermittently in the past few days of the Chinese New Year, and even the weather forecast has issued an orange warning, how did he come over?

Lu Mochuan was satisfied with the surprised expression on my face, poked his head out of the car window, and said, "Yang Xiaofei, your hat is really distinctive." ”

The hat was issued by Lao Yang's factory, in a typical retro style, and a five-pointed star was embroidered on it.

I opened my mouth in embarrassment and said, "Why are you here?"

Lu Mochuan opened the car door and said with a smile: "If you want to come, you will come." ”

To be honest, I didn't expect to meet Lu Mochuan here, and I also know that the reason why he drove all the way here was because of me.

But at this moment, I was really at a loss.

Lu Mochuan saw that I didn't speak, so he let me get in the car, and the two of us went to the restaurant outside the library, he took my materials and flipped through them, and said with a smile: "Yo, it's the New Year, and I'm still angry." ”

I embarrassedly took the book, added sugar to the coffee in front of him, and said cautiously, "Why did you come here suddenly and didn't say hello to me." ”

Lu Mochuan glanced at me and said, "You are embarrassed to say that you can't get through on the phone for five consecutive days." I thought I was kidnapped on my way home. ”

Well, I changed the number.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Lu Mochuan smiled and said, "Tut-tut, I don't answer the phone and don't reply to the text message, what's the situation?"

I glared at him and said, "There's enough going on, don't mess with me." ”

Lu Mochuan took a sip of coffee, and after a long while, he spoke: "I'm relieved to hear you say this." ”

When he said this, my heart became weak, so I hurriedly changed the subject and said, "When are you going to go back?" ”

Lu Mochuan put the coffee on the table, made a crisp "ding" sound, raised his eyes to look at me, and said, "You care about me so much, do you want to take a ride?"

"Cut ......"

"But I'm going to disappoint you," Lu Mochuan waved his hand and said, "Auntie said, her perfect tonic soup has been stewed to the point of perfection, let me come and taste it." ”

As soon as these words came out, I was immediately frightened. Nervously asked, "My mother?"

Lu Mochuan nodded, and just as he was about to speak, his mobile phone rang.

"Auntie, yes, it's already here, and now I'm in the library with Xiaofei. Okay, go back right away. Lu Mochuan responded, looked at me with raised eyebrows, and said, "No, I'm not a picky eater." Okay, Auntie will see you later. ”

I looked at Lu Mochuan as an aunt, and a sense of sadness lingered in my heart, these years, my mother can't believe it.

Dinner is mutton hot pot, on the long dining table, there are all kinds of delicacies, Mr. Lu brought two bottles of Wuliangye when he came over, a table of four people, each of them a cup, eating and drinking, during the banquet, Lu Mochuan gave me vegetables, and gave me a cup, so happy that the two elders couldn't close their mouths.

In the steaming heat, I was the only one who was uneasy.

I know that even if that person is not Xiao Daxia, it will not be Lu Mochuan. Now that he's good, it only makes me feel more guilty.

I've been through so much along the way, and now, I'm completely letting go and trying to fight for my career.

These words must not be delayed. I have to make it clear to Lu Mochuan.

After the meal, Lan Meiling told me mysteriously that there was a dragon dance performance in the park, and asked me to take Lu Mochuan to see it.

I pondered that this was a good opportunity, so I pulled Lu Mochuan downstairs. He also drank a lot tonight, and when the cold wind blew, his nose was red.

The two of us walked side by side, looking behind us, there was a row of dense footprints, and after walking for a while, I saw that the time was almost up, so I pulled Lu Mochuan to stop, and said seriously: "Mr. Lu, I have something to say." ”

Lu Mochuan glanced at me and said, "I know what you're going to say......"

"You don't know ......"

"How could I not know!" Lu Mochuan raised his voice, held my face with both hands, and said, "Don't you just want to tell me that you want to fight for your career?" Okay, I promise you, I will go all out to support you. But even if you are discouraged by him, you shouldn't push me away. Right?"

"I'm not discouraged! I'm just ......"

"No need to explain...... Lu Mochuan waved his hand and said, "Explain so much, it's better to work harder, Yang Xiaofei, when you are excellent, let him lick your heels." Come on!"

ps: There is one more more.