He looked at me coldly, "This is your new life?"

I said, "Yes." ”

He continued: "Just go to drink and laugh and sleep with people?"

I don't know why, Lu Jingzhong's tone of speech made me feel uncomfortable, but I didn't know how to refute it.

Lu Jingzhong continued: "Du Jiayin, you really not only changed your name and surname, but also changed your face, and this meeting really surprised me." ”

This time, I directly retorted: "Yes, I have changed my face, do you know? I am just like this, I am willing to do this, I didn't get into college, what's wrong with me coming out to work to support myself?"

"Is this work?"

"Why isn't this a job? Not a job, you give me money?"

"You still don't admit your mistake?"

"Why should I admit my mistake?" Speaking of now, even if I am at fault, I don't want to admit it, and I said in a dumb voice, "I don't have money to eat, I don't have money to rent a house, I come out to make money, where is like your eldest young master, you can call the wind and rain without worrying about food and clothing, I can't, I'm just a small person in the market, and I need to support my family......"

Before I finished speaking, Lu Jingzhong was just one word: "Get out." ”

Suddenly, this word seemed to stab my heart, making me confused and numb for half a year, and finally had a trace of pain, and I actually felt that this pain made me a little excited, I had just talked a lot with Lu Jingzhong, and now my throat hurt astringently.

I just got out of the car and slammed it shut.

Lu Jingzhong rolled down the window and called me, "Why are you going?"

I turned my head and smiled, "Didn't you tell me to go?"

Lu Jingzhong "......"

I turned around and walked on, and I couldn't help but steady my pace when I saw a black figure walking in the dark alley in front of me.

When this person appeared in the light of the street lamp and saw that it was Weiwei, I was immediately relieved.

Lu Jingzhong had already gotten out of the driver's seat, opened the rear door, and gently rested one arm on the door, the messy hair on his forehead cast a shadow on his face, as if he was looking at me, and as if he was looking at the open space in front of me.

Wei Wei's eyes first glanced at Lu Jing, then at me again, and said, "Where is the house you rented?" ”

It's really cold outside, and it's not easy to take a taxi at this point in time.

I'm not the kind of person who has a lot of backbone, so I just got in the car.

As soon as he got in the car, Lu Jingzhong said: "If you want to get out, you will get out, you are really obedient." ”

I didn't hear whether this sentence was sarcastic or serious, because he turned his face sideways, and I didn't see the look on his face clearly, but I felt wronged inexplicably, a little itchy teeth, I had to say two words, I gritted my teeth, endured the discomfort in my throat, and said: "I used the two hundred yuan on my body alone, lived for three months, and I had no money to rent, no money to eat, no money to live, have you ever experienced this feeling?" When you are forced to ask for money, the people next to you are all looking at you and laughing, and you can drown you just by spitting on the stars, have you ever felt this way?"

I started crying as I spoke, I haven't cried since the end of the college entrance examination, but now there is a great pain, which is almost out of breath, if I don't vent it, this pain and pressure will crush me to death.

Lu Jingzhong never spoke, Weiwei didn't turn on the radio, and there was only me sobbing softly in the carriage.

Tired of crying, I leaned back in my chair and rested.

I seemed to hear Lu Jingzhong say-"Jiayin, I have had." ”

However, when I turned my head to look at him, he had his eyes closed, as if he was asleep.

The car is a good car, Vivi's driving skills are also very good, I didn't feel motion sickness.

As the car turned a corner, I looked at the dim lights outside the window and said to myself, "I'm only nineteen years old, oh no, I'm nineteen years old, I'll be twenty next year, and if I live to die at the age of fifty, then I still have thirty years to survive, and I have to think about how to live...... Think about it this way, sometimes it's better to be alive than dead......"

Lu Jingzhong suddenly opened his eyes, and his eyes were clear.

I suddenly remembered that when I was in the hospital half a year ago, I wanted to open the door and run out late at night, and Lu Jingzhong was the same, and suddenly opened his eyes, obviously asleep, but always alert.

Lu Jingzhong asked me, "You want to commit suicide again?"

I still had tears on my face, but I couldn't help but laugh: "What do you think?"

Lu Jingzhong turned his head, his eyes no longer had the kind of red light that appeared in the bar box, black and white, but there were more cross-bloodshot bloodshots on the white eyeballs, he pursed his lips and said, "I saved your life, I let you die before you can die." ”

"Are you always so good at being a savior? The new name you gave me, the shitty place where you threw me into a place where birds don't lay eggs, and gave me a good gambler," I said, and couldn't help but laugh: "Lu Jingzhong, you are such a bastard. ”

I want to scold something, but I don't scold, sometimes I listen to others scold me a lot, and I will remember a few words in my heart, but when it comes to arguing with others, I can't scold.

When I arrived downstairs in the house I rented, I had just opened the car door and said "thank you", when Lu Jingzhong suddenly grabbed my wrist.

His hands were cold, even colder than mine.

My gaze shifted from his slender ten fingers to his eyes, and he looked into my eyes: "Do you still want to go to school?"

I looked at him quietly and shook my head: "I don't want to, I think it's useless." ”

I gently shook Lu Jingzhong's hand, but he didn't let go, just when I was about to break it, he suddenly let go of his hand and said to Weiwei, who was driving in front, "Drive." ”

I stood in front of a light bulb hung by a wire at the entrance of the yard, watched the car slowly drive out of the alley, leaving only a little light, and stood unconsciously for a while, when the mobile phone in my bag suddenly rang.

I rubbed my hands that were completely frozen, pulled them out and glanced at the phone screen, it was a text message.

"Tomorrow at five o'clock in the afternoon, the plane will go to D City, X University has a national art examination point, you can come if you want. ”

With such a tone, I knew at a glance that it was a text message resent by Lu Jing just now, hooked the corner of my lips and stuffed the phone into my bag, turned around and walked into the courtyard of the dark shadow.

Go?