PS: I started writing the third issue of the barrage, but I guess it will be released in a few days. Because the third issue adds up to 100,000 words, I rely on ...... (∩_∩) O

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I don't know if it's good to talk to everyone. The main thing is that I don't know if everyone likes to listen to it.

I've been hesitating, thinking about it or talking about it.

After all, in reality, I don't have any relatives and friends, and I'm an otaku.

Mental state, okay? Maybe I'm used to it.

The matter at home has not been resolved, and it is over. It may take a lifetime to face it, and if I have any chance, I may solve it in advance.

Of course, I didn't have much to do, so it didn't seem like a big deal to others, but to me, the sky was falling.

Forget it, don't talk about that.

But there is an impact, and this impact is still not known to be good or bad.

I know that in addition to liking to hide my age and pretend to be tender, I never mind letting anyone know that they have never been in a relationship with an old virgin greasy uncle.

It used to be like that when I was writing a book, except that the body was in the real world. My whole spiritual soul is already embedded in the book.

Nowadays, the more the outside world is confronted with something, the more cowardly and bored people want to hide in the world I have built.

I can't wait to fully integrate the whole person into the virtual world of the book.

When it comes to one problem, I especially like to write about the plot of Han Wei and Li Ruobai recently. When I want to write, the more I write. It's all a plot where the two are "tired" and then together. (You shouldn't be able to see it in today's chapter, but you can do it tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.) ）

Maybe it's a good thing for everyone, so I'm not sure if I'm going to talk about it.

Anyway, since a single chapter has been opened, let's judge.

Unconsciously, I brought myself in again. Bring your own feelings into it.

It may also be that the book is now stable, the world is solid, and I reflect my emotions into it.

developed a strong emotion for Li Ruobai.

Maybe it's to find some comfort and support in the face of real problems.

Luckily. Fortunately, the chapter I modified earlier, the setting changed back to time-traveling.

Let Han Wei's feelings for Li Ruobai, no matter how turbulent, have a support and roots.

But my concern is that the author may write a book, I mean, probably not to go too deep into himself. This will invisibly eliminate the sense of substitution of readers who should really enjoy the book.

It's that my feelings for her are so strong at the moment that I am afraid of her. I can't count the nights, and I think about the plot with her all night.

Turn off the light as if she was lying right next to me. Sound and smile......

Isn't that a bit infiltrating?

Severe YY made me mentally insanity and hallucinated.

It's obviously an entertainment romance, but I made it to the supernatural.

Including the single chapter I wrote all night without sleep at the moment.,It's estimated that it will be updated again and timed.。

If these are just my own problems, it would not be a trivial matter that the degree of this emotional surge will affect the main plot.

Otherwise, I wouldn't have told you that.

It's just that I don't know to what extent it affects me now.

Maybe this one heroine is not necessarily a bad thing in the future? It's just that it will make book friends who like harems or multiple heroines abandon the book or unsubscribe?

Maybe maybe I'll be in a better state of mind after a while, and I'll get normal?

I'm not sure.

In reality, many book friends persuaded me to find a partner to marry, but I said that I didn't have a career and didn't have a family.

Maybe it's a pretext.

Because I know my own business, the virtual world I built in my own book sets the heroine I created to the most perfect degree, both external and internal.

And the interaction between the protagonist and the heroine, everything they experience, seems to be a reality that does not involve emotions or more.

For example, if you want a house or a car, if you cheat on another man, if you look down on you because you make less money, if your father-in-law and mother-in-law look down on you, if you can't do a little thing, you complain about you, and so on.

The more this happens, the more I feel that there is a gap between my real emotions and life in the outside world and what I imagined and hoped for. I don't know if you understand me when I say that.

The more the outside world can't find what it can't get, the more it hopes to get it in the book world. The more perfect the heroine of the world in the book, the more world-weary she is in the outside world, and the vicious circle is ......

Sadly and happily. When I realized that this seemed to be a mental problem, it was probably also a time when there was no help.

Sadly, it's a mental problem.

The good news is ...... I don't want to be saved.

So if everyone sees the plot later, Han Wei suddenly shows that she loves her to the extent that it is dark, I hope it doesn't feel abrupt or unreasonable.

That's just a reflection of my abnormal mental state......

And what I am worried about at the moment is......

Do you feel ashamed to read a book written by a mentally ill person?O(∩_∩)O