I didn't answer Gao Ming's words, and Gao Ming didn't ask me again, but just stepped on the accelerator. When the car drove to the door of the maternal and child health hospital, Gao Ming stopped the car and turned off the engine.

I looked out the window of the car, because it is the autumn influenza season, and many children are susceptible to cold viruses, so there are many children in the hospital now.

Looking at some of the children in swaddling clothes, and the children running back and forth on the ground, I put my hand on the doorknob of the car door, and I didn't dare to open it, I stroked my lower abdomen. Suddenly I felt reluctant, very reluctant.

Gao Ming said, "Don't you go in?"

I shook my head: "I'll be in right away, I want to ...... again Wait a minute. ”

Gao Ming sighed inaudibly, stepped on the accelerator, I didn't ask Gao Ming where to drive at this time, I always felt that as long as the car was on the road, I would rather it be on the road forever, I would not have to face this choice, but the car could not be on the road forever, when Gao Ming braked and stopped, I was in a daze at the scene flying outside the car window.

Gao Ming said, "Go down." ”

I reacted and looked out the window: "Where is this?"

Gao Ming said: "Hospital." ”

Actually, there is no need to answer me wisely. His answer didn't mean anything to me at all, on the contrary, I saw it more convincingly.

Just three meters out of the car window, I saw Lu Jingzhong's figure, standing on the side of the road, standing tall.

Right now. In my eyes, they are only divided into places with Lu Jingzhong, and places without Lu Jingzhong, and now there is a place for him at the entrance of this hospital.

I opened the door and got out of the car, standing in front of the car without moving.

Lu Jingzhong stood on the side of the road, looked at me for a while, walked directly through the zebra crossing, walked to my side, took my hand and walked forward.

I silently lowered my head and followed behind Lu Jingzhong, without saying a word. Brother Zonggang Bird.

Lu Jingzhong took me to the hospital. I took the elevator directly to the fifth floor, and when the elevator door opened, I saw Li Yu, Lu Jingzhong's gentle third brother Li Yu.

I nodded slightly and said, "Third brother is good." ”

Li Yu smiled: "Come, let's go to the office and rest for a while." ”

Lu Jingzhong didn't let go of my hand, he still pulled, turned his head to talk to Li Yu: "Have you contacted Dr. Zhang?"

Li Yu said: "Just on the road, he is a well-known doctor in AIDS. ”

Lu Jingzhong frowned: "I want a definite result, here...... No one has any contact with the Lu family, right?"

Li Yu likes to laugh very much, and he laughs very lightly, he said: "My aunt is the director of the hospital, don't worry." ”

He let us rest in an office. Took a phone call and went out.

In this way, only me and Lu Jingzhong were left in the office.

I looked up and saw that Lu Jingzhong's lips had been turned off because of the lack of moisture from water for a long time, so I ran to get a disposable paper cup, poured a glass of water for Lu Jingzhong, and held it at hand.

However, he did not answer, but looked at me quietly.

Just when I was about to withdraw my hand, Lu Jingzhong suddenly reached out and took the water cup and said, "If you dare to beat the child yourself, you won't come to me in the future." ”

I pursed my lips, no matter how strong I am in my heart and want to protect Lu Jingzhong, in fact, in front of Lu Jingzhong, I will always be a little woman, really, I always feel that in front of him, I have a sense of security, so I don't have to be afraid of anything.

Lu Jingzhong suddenly hugged me tightly in his arms and said, "Jiayin, wait for the result first, okay?

This is the first time Lu Jingzhong has spoken to me in such a soft tone, and this voice is like a feather scratching the tip of my heart, and it hurts violently.

I stretched out my arms around his waist and nodded vigorously.

Actually, Lu Jingzhong and I are the same kind of people, he won't say anything about his suffering, I won't say it, he is afraid that he will embarrass me after saying it, I also want to mix my suffering with tears and swallow it in my stomach, so as not to embarrass Lu Jingzhong.

But now, I found that at this time, I had to work with Lu Jingzhong to tell him what I wanted to say, and then hold his hand tightly and not let go again.

I attached it to Lu Jingzhong's ear, hesitated for a moment, and said, "Maomao, do you remember three years ago, after you left, I gave birth to ......"

"Knock knock" Three knocks sounded on the door, I hurriedly stopped talking, and when I looked up, I saw Li Yu standing at the door.

Li Yu smiled: "Am I not here at the right time?" Xiao Wu, Doctor Zhang has arrived. ”

"Okay, let's go. ”

Lu Jingzhong pulled me to my feet, patted the back of my hand, and walked out with Li Yu.

In fact, Dr. Zhang's words are roughly the same as what the doctors in the hospital said last night, all of which are that if the HIV virus really enters the body, it will take at least six weeks to detect it during the window period, and now it only needs to cooperate with the doctor's drug treatment to control it best.

This Dr. Zhang is a well-known doctor in this field specially invited by Li Yu, and Lu Jingzhong trusts him very much, so he took some medicine according to Dr. Zhang's instructions.

Merely......

I was the last to walk out of Dr. Zhang's office, and I turned to Dr. Zhang: "However, I found out that I am pregnant, and it has been more than a month......"

"At this time, if you have an abortion, it won't be too harmful, but if you wait until two months later to have surgery, I'm afraid it's dangerous," Dr. Zhang said. ”

I made a hypothesis: "What if I don't find out I have HIV?"

Doctor Zhang frowned: "You are now in the window period, you have to cooperate with the treatment and take medicine, these drugs have an impact on the fetus in your womb, and now, the growth of the fetus is the most important." ”

"Oh, thanks. ”

When I walked out of the office, I heard Li Yu on the phone: "I'm Li Yu, well, can you arrange an abortion operation as soon as possible, it's not long, only a little more than a month...... Well, okay, then I'll tell them to go down and find you now. ”

This is my own child, and it is also Lu Jingzhong's child, I am reluctant, I know that Lu Jingzhong is also reluctant.

Lu Jingzhong pulled me downstairs, and the elevator was directly pressed to the third floor, which was the obstetrics and gynecology department.

When the elevator door opened, I stood still, Lu Jingzhong turned his head: "Jiayin, you can't have this child now, you need to take care of yourself now, we will have a chance to ...... in the future"

Speaking of this, Lu Jingzhong suddenly paused.

What is the chance? If I do get AIDS, will I ever have a chance to have children in the future?

Lu Jingzhong took my hand and held it in the palm of his hand.

It's a movement he's been doing a lot lately, taking my hand and then using a ten-finger gesture.

I said, "Can you wait until tomorrow?"

Lu Jingzhong said: "Okay. ”

I just want this little life to stay in my womb for one more day, and give Lu Jingzhong one more day to spend time with.

On the way back, Gao Ming drove me and Lu Jingzhong, and his hand was on my lower abdomen, as if the fetus was only a little more than a month old and could feel the fetal movement.

Lu Jingzhong suddenly asked me, "What did you say half of what you said in the hospital just now?"

I blinked, "What did you say halfway?"

Lu Jingzhong obviously thought I had forgotten, so he stopped asking.

Actually, I remember.

When I was resting in Li Yu's office just now, I really wanted to tell Lu Jingzhong, in fact, three years ago, after he left, I found out that I was pregnant before the college entrance examination, because I usually have irregular menstruation, so by that time, it was too late to have an abortion again, so I took a leave of absence, and waited until I gave birth to the child, and then went to school again, I only told my mother about it, because the cousins and aunts at home always wanted to have a son, so I took them to raise them and lived in my aunt's house.

In the past few years, I have been wondering if it was the right decision to give birth to ice cream in the first place.

Now that I think about it, perhaps, ice cream is the only child in my Du Jiayin's life, and perhaps, it will also be Lu Jingzhong's only child.

I'm really glad that there is ice cream.

However, when it was time to actually speak, I stopped myself in time.

Can't tell Lu Jingzhong.

At the very least, at this critical point in time, Lu Jingzhong cannot be told.

Once there is ice cream, Lu Jingzhong has even more scruples, there was originally only one mother Lu, but now with me, there is ice cream again.

Now I finally understand why Weiwei insisted on letting Lu Jingzhong leave me three years ago.

Because, once there is love, there is a weakness, but many things in this world, as long as love is used, there are obstacles.

This night, I thought about it all night, huddled in Lu Jingzhong's arms, he held me from behind, and folded his hands on my lower abdomen.

Such a warm embrace really makes me greedy.

However, I would rather exchange the temporary cold for the warmth of me, Maomao and the ice cream family of three in this life.

The next morning, while Lu Jingzhong was washing up in the bathroom, I took my mobile phone to the balcony and made a call to Lu Zhengyu.

"What do you want me to do?"